Blackhawk

I'm having a bad day and a bad life. No I don't find it helpful. I only like talking/writing to girls (about anything). It's boring to talk/write to guys. I know it's weird but it is what it is, I can't control it.

I've taken all the pills, but thanks.

Yeah you can't be sure, so maybe take a chill pill and stop performing mental gymnastics. Yawn.

The police are patient bastards. They are just doing their job and they are working under strict laws, so just give them a call every time when he takes the car. Just say "I suspect he might be driving drunk" and you are safe. Just a idea. PS. Life sucks, so whatever, who cares. It's just more shit, no big deal.

@Rilles "Don't let your beliefs limit you". Including your belief that beliefs limit you.

Cool story bro. Please tell me how you can know that shit for sure. I'm all ears.

Fact is, that everyone sucks ass. So my question to you is: how does it feel to suck ass?

Good description. It also makes you feel worthless/inadequate.

I hate the Social democrats party and all other left parties in Sweden. I will vote for the Moderate party in the swedish election.

Yes it was ok with my dad too. Yes my childhood was in general happy. I guess I started feeling so unhappy and lonely shortly after I moved out from my parents when I was 25. Okay, thanks.

No. I'm not interested in doing that.

I guess what you say about thoughts is true to some extent. Hi. No my mom hasn't always been depressed. I had a normal relationship with my mom during childhood. I'm missing feminine input big time since I don't have a partner or anything like that. No I don't really like going to the countryside. Yes we have proper wilderness like bears, wolves, and gooses, but you of course rarely or never see them.

And I have to go to work and suffer so that I can continue to suffer haha.

Almost no one wants to live in this fucking existence. My mom is suicidal, my dad is alcoholic and probably don't want to live, I don't want to live either, most people I talk to online are unhappy or suicidal. Maybe consciousness is a very unfortunate side effect of unintelligent reality. Something that we all would be better off without.

Sure.

No.

I don't know. I don't remember.

@Raptorsin7 Yes I did. I'm born as a quiet person. And then people come and say "you can talk more if you just try" or "just stop with your victim mindset" or "if you work on yourself". When I was a kid I was happily unaware of that I'm broken since birth and will therefore always be alone. So no I didn't think these things as a kid.

It has nothing to do with "nice guy". I'm not assuming. The facts speak for themselves. Supplements and medications doesn't do anything. But alcohol works ok.

@DecemberFlower No I wasn't.

I load trucks with food+drive truck a bit.

Okay.. I know that my personality sucks because girls never want me, not even sex. Females despise me, they reject me, they ignore me, they ditch me, they hurt me, they yell at me. All that while they absolutely love other guys. To say that it hurts is a understatement. It makes me suicidal. I'm such a failed loser mistake, completely unloveable and unlikeable. The biggest reason why my personality sucks is that I don't talk or write much. Everyone thinks that I can change that, that I can start talking more, but I can't. People are so stupid when they think like this: "I can talk a lot, so that means you can too, if you just try." Btw that thing applies to everything else too. For example: "I could get a gf despite my shyness, that means you can too". Etc. It's a brain dead way of thinking. They assume that everyone are identical and have the same potential.

I'm trying to, but since my personality sucks big time I doubt that will happen. And even if it would, it wouldn't help me with getting a gf irl.

The world is full of rotten people who don't give a shit about your feelings (This isn't related to catcats reply.)

Okay. I might try psychedelics again some day. I'm glad that you haven't experienced horrific inescapable hell-holes, but try to not downplay my experience of horrific inescapable hell-holes.