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? So, how does that work?

It does sound weird and rude. I have no such experiences from my childhood. I'm from Sweden.

@flowboy People have always told me that I need therapy.. I have tried that, it didn't help. I don't have any childhood trauma.

No, the purpose of the telescope isn't to take cool pictures for the public. The purpose is to do scientific work with it, stuff which the public wouldn't understand and would think is boring.

I think this one is nice: You can also download a 136.99 MB version of it here: https://webbtelescope.org/contents/media/images/2022/031/01G77PKB8NKR7S8Z6HBXMYATGJ?news=true

In my opinion psychedelics are just poison. Direct path to delusion and insanity, imo. This opinion comes from my own experience. The trip with 2cb was very bad too. It's because of you people that all this happened, and now you are trying to convince me to take more psychedelics.. No more. Things are more clear to me now. I now know better which side I'm on.

You can create any theories you want about what happened and why it happened, but I'm done with this stuff. Btw I think I also got completely unconscious sometimes because I woke up when the cops were trying to wake me up, by rubbing hard on the chest. It's a method they use to create pain so someone maybe wakes up. Yes but they don't care about that, I guess because it was classified as a medical emergency. So that's a good law. Yes I feel normal again. I took 2C-B-FLY once before I think.

I can't believe how incredibly stupid the trip made me. It's unbelievable. I insisted on getting out of the hospital bed even when the police tried to keep me there. I could have done any kind of crazy stuff. And now I will pay the price for it. Gonna lose my job, because I will lose my driver's license and I'm a truckdriver. Damn stupid laws, I will lose it even though there is no risk at all that the trip made me a worse driver. So unnecessary. And a new door costs at least 1900 USD. Never again psychedelics, never never never never.

I think it's because Consciousness sees everything. Consciousness is like the sun which illuminates both horse shit and roses. And supposedly you are that Consciousness.

How would you know whether the experience was delusion or not? I can't see how you could know. And my trip had other stuff which clearly were delusional. So I'm pretty sure that my trip didn't show the truth.

I'm for antinatalism.

I think it was just delusion.

I thought I was dying, or was already dead, and was kinda "stuck" in floating between different universes in the multiverse. My sense of reality and time was gone. I just wanted some help. In any way, to get back to reality or something. I'm glad that I'm back in this solid predictable reality again.

Well, thanks all.

Thanks, yea I will try to love myself, and others.

I'm pretty sure that not even a trip sitter would have helped. I talked on phone with my online girlfriend, thinking that she could maybe calm me down, but it had zero effect. I just hope that I wont get a mental illness from this. I want to recover fully from this.

Unfortunately it didn't go well. Not well at all. I was in hell. Not even Hitler would deserve what I experienced. But I guess I'm glad that I finally came back to reality. I called 911 because I desperately wanted help. The cops and ambulance came, the cops damaged my door when they tried to get in, so I have to buy a new door. And most likely my neighbours saw and heard the drama. And then I got locked in a "jail" where they keep too intoxicated people. I will probably lose my driver's license and my job because of this. Even when I didn't drive. Because such is the law in Sweden. They count you as "unreliable driver". Hopefully I don't get charged for sexual assault too. Since it "was all my dream"/"they were me" I figured why not try something with the nurses. Of course that's not something which I would ever do as sober. I completely lost sense of reality. I don't remember much of it at all. So yeah.. I will never in my life take psychedelics again. They just aren't for me. And I think that I will completely give up seeking for truth. It's a mystery. Maybe normal science is the best method. Solid, "physical" and real reality is so much more attractive now. My set and setting was good, and I respected the drug, yet it went so wrong. And I'm not gonna try any lower doses. I don't even want to risk any of this happening again. It's over. I'm sorry. I'm glad if psychedelics works better for you people.

I see. Thanks. Yea, I'm starting to feel pleasant effects now.

Hm okay. 33. You?

I see, hehe. Okay. So I put a sugar cube on my tongue 1 hour and 20 minutes ago. And it was completely melted 30 minutes ago. And nothing is happening. At what point should I take more? Since nothing is happening. I can't sit forever and wait for some effects to come.

Thanks. Okay. I know. But I think tripping makes me crazy, so I can do any kind of stupid stuff.

There's a high risk that I will write stupid crazy delusional stuff here during the trip. Sorry in advance about that. It's not really something which I can control when my mind is fucked up.

Okay. About 5 hours left until I trip. I'm nervous.

But.. I want to know the Truth. I'm willing to suffer for Truth. I can't let anything come before Truth. But if this trip will be bad, then maybe I can trip again, but then with the intention that I just want to be more happy.

Okay thanks. I don't know. But I might never be more stable than this. I have naturally bad nerves and are afraid+nervous about everything. Maybe scented candle also helps with improving the mood? But of course it will be on a safe place and not right next to me.