Striving for more

@Fran11 LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE. I was at a crucial threshold one point where I was finally taking a successful break from drugs despite being heavily addicted to pot and other stuff, and I had a plan to move country and change my environment, my intuition new this was best. BUT ... I GOT SUCKED BACK INTO IT ... then I devolved again deeper and deeper. LEAVE. Just be alone until you meet better friends trust me. every time I agree to meet up with old friends, the same shit happens, I get left with an empty, depressed psyche, a hangover, worse bank account. It happened to me this week lool Fuck. I have decided I will NEVER meet an old friend again. As they're not gonna help me grow.

@Michael569 What's good website / resource to become an online tutor without qualifications

Psychological Health Practice more self - love Recover from my traumas Cure my paranoia Cure / Improve my OCD Meditate more often Physical Health Enhance mood & energy levels Improve cognition, memory Detoxify body of heavy metals / Toxins Sought out my Gastro-Intestinal problems Optimize sleep Build a profile off supplements tailored to my body & brain - (through testing & experimentation) Self help Pay off all credit card debt / Save up $100K by December 2021 Become fluent in Spanish - move abroad & Create an online income Improve my social and dating skills, become more charismatic, less neurotic & better at pick up Find high quality fun, genuine friendships Travel more on cool holidays Career / Skills Create content / videography > or Hire film crew & Create aesthetic, naturistic travel videos Save $100K thru stage orange business in order to bootstrap a business of passion Discover / decide on business of passion/ Take Leo's life purpose course Spiritual Climb up a mountain Go Skiing again > ideally go skiing 2-4 times a year after 2021 Try organic marijuana again in Barcelona / Amsterdam in social settings Try mushrooms again (once I'm ready) - in a beautiful setting with friends Try pure MDMA again in a great set & setting, perhaps New years 2021 Take a psychedelic in a ski resort

@mmKay Choosing to learn an extra language (Spanish) is one of the best personal development decisions I have made recently. I am far from fluent, but I plan to keep studying. It's amazing how enriching life becomes when you learn a new language, especially a global one like Spanish

My whole life I have received a ton of discouragement, ridicule, rejection, isolation, dismissal, always the stupid one, the useless one. And this shadow still echoes within me every day. I became completely mute to hearing any form of encouragement, it was like I became deaf to it, because I was so used to being discouraged, when someone actually complimented me, saw potential, I wasn't able to listen. I need to meet people who genuinely believe they can achieve the good life, and see this potential in me. Some people believe they can have money, but at the expense of everything else. Few people believe they can have it all. I want to find people who believe they can have everything, health wealth happiness , creativity, joy love, sex ect.. . And people who believe this stuff in me to, who encourage it in me I am weary of socializing because everyone is so fucking infected with disbelief, everyone is so judgemental, realistic. Telling me I'm too dumb and deluded. People laugh at me when they say I want to be an entrepreneur. My wage slave dad even finds it cringe. But I want these encouraging kind of people. WHERE ARE YOU WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU PEOPLE

@Danioover9000 I already practice no fap and it hasn't done anything for me other than increase energy, but not self - esteem. Is NLP not psuedo science then ? Interesting I will research it. Does Visualization and hypnosis actually work too ??

Perhaps Leave them and disregard them if they are very far apart on consciousness. If the gap isn't too much, maybe it can work. P.S, I almost ended up dead or in Jail due to low consciousness friendships, it's a slippery slope.

I am 23 soon 24 . Is it ok for me to sleep with / date girls as young as 18 ? I personally can find any girl attractive from 18 - 50, if they are attractive I wouldn't personally aim for 18, 19-22 would be ideal but I wouldn't refuse an 18 year old if i liked her.

I am desperate and lonely to meet people and girls and do pick up and also just to get out of my laptop dungeon room in this horrible city. I have a lot of courage and so approaching and rejection isn't the issue. the issue is currently I live with my parents, in an area that is terrible for meeting women. I need my own place I also have no friends. I have more than enough money saved up to move out, but I don't know where I should go, what city or country to meet women. How do I figure this out / research this effectively ? because there's multiple factors, I need to live in a place that isn't expensive rent, and also provides me opportunities to meet people but also has a good vibe

Fair enough but when someone on this forum just says "use google and click on the first fact checking website you see (Which could easily be a biased site funded by certain people/groups) and use that 1 source as instant hard evidence of whether something is a fact or not is completely different to applying "multiple relatively neutral fact checking sources"

My intuition tells me to just quit my job and move to Spain and cleanse my soul, even though it's risky perhpaps I just fucking hate London. My boss is soo stage orange his personality disgusts me. And tbh I am stage orange, I want to achieve wealth too. But at least I have a fair amount of green in me. He just exudes Pure orange, no soul, no heart, not even a sense of humour. Boring fucking guy

@ConsciousOwl10 @Leo Gura @Space I have a question about approach strategy ... Do you think VERY DIRECT GAME is the best > " hey I THINK YOU'RE CUTE ..." Because it cuts to the point, saves time ?? Or is it too cringy and needy ? I've heard differing opinions > Todd V loves to talk about indirect. But Indirect does sound like a real chore, especially as a newbie

@ConsciousOwl10 Ah how cringe so if I do it in central London am I likely to get called out as "1 of those pickup artists" ? Well I hope it's free of that cliché in Barcelona Is it easy to find part time work in barca if you only speak intermediate Spanish / Have an accent ? (I plan to make money online anyway, but this might not manifest enough straight away being realistic) Also how are they acting with Covid at the moment And do they not have really tyrannical stage blue Police ?

Summary : I wrote this diary paragraph as promise to myself to improve my life as I have been slacking off recently and been feeling despair. (I might delete this because It's kinda personal and too honest) I, anonymous person, swear a solemn oath, a pact to myself. I swear to myself to chase bigger things in life, but starting small and staying humble. I swear to myself to live up to my expectations, to take more risks, to raise the standard, to go way deeper out of my comfort zone. I swear to myself to strive for growth over comfort, to cut out the bullshit excuses. I swear to myself to stop caring what others think, to stop living in shame and feeling embarrassed, to stop being so disgusted with myself, to stop telling myself I'm too stupid, too incompetent to succeed, that I'm not worthy of friendship. I swear to myself to be more authentic, to stop putting off the things I love, the hobbies I love, the things I always wanted to do and learn and experience. I swear to myself to stop holding back from my true desires. I swear to myself to develop the ability to listen to my gut, to harness my intuition and stop living a hollow, empty life. I swear to myself to fix the tedious little problems in my life, impeding me from chasing the bigger things. I swear to myself to escape wage slavery, but being realistic and humble, to work multiple jobs and side hustles whilst designing a business in my limited spare time. I swear to approach every single hot girl I notice, & I hope to get rejected, ridiculed as this will grow me stronger ... I will push on until I become an alpha player. I swear to work my ass off to achieve and transcend my egoic desires, and have such an abundance of money, status and women in my life, that I no longer need to think about it ... That I am forced to develop a higher purpose. I swear never again to develop soft & hard addictions and to let go of any that still hold me back. I swear to tap into the pain of bad choices and wasting my youth thus far, & to use that pain only to drive me forward, no longer be in DESPAIR. FAITH is the emotion I will cling to with my life. I swear to use my god given charisma & tap into my infinite creativity, inspiring & lifting up & entertaining others, producing art, art as defined subjectively as anything that captures & plays with the beauty of life and nature, capable of moving people in ways that wouldn't normally seem possible. My life thus far has felt horrific, I met all the wrong people, became almost schizophrenic. I've been put down and ridiculed and alone and I've witnessed Suicides & self - destruction. I've squandered all my dreams, missed opportunities, self-sabotaged. I was a toxic mess, a dark void sucking the life out of anything & everyone in my proximity. I sucked so hard and hated myself so bad I became nihilistic, I use to look at happy people passing the street & glare with envy and hatred, so full of self hate and nihilism that I wanted others to suffer with me. I went to bed every night with a sickening ache in my gut, forced back to drinking and pills to numb the pain. Sometimes unable to leave the house for weeks , going crazy, so alone, stuck in an endless loop. Now I choose to flip this life experience full circle ... To become a beast... To live an extraordinary and rich life, with no limits. I am still lost deluded and I accept this, but I make a pact to grow day by day, relentlessly and exponentially until I live up to my standards.

@Javfly33 I have actually been in love with the idea of Spain since I was a child. How do you compare Barcelona to the south and also canary islands for doing pick up and general living. (By south I mean Andalusia, Malaga, Alicante ect... and lets say Fuerteventura for canary islands) Isn't Barcelona quite cold and expensive ? (I have never been)

This is spot on too. I think my heart is in Spain I am mixed about London though. It's a double edged sword. It can either have the most droopy, depressing vibe (when it's raining or rush hour) or it can feel super exiting and enriching and energetic.

That's a really interesting paradox about london you just pointed out which I never considered before. I will definitely try some approaches and see if this is the case

Really ?? I never developed this perspective. Maybe I am looking at my city through a distorted lens. To be honest I just never went to the bars / clubs much either, so I never really tried enough. I felt too insecure to go out on my own my whole life, but maybe I have just been a pussy ? Also, I have a certain type, which is mostly foreign, tanned, dark haired girls. Hence I'm not really in to blondes, brunettes or pale girls which is common in the UK.

@Blackhawk The problem with you is that you think every single person on the planet who believes in any conspiracy at all is "stupid" because "people are so stupid". I can see through your arrogance. Just be open minded. I don't believe in most conspiracies, I don't follow alex jones ect.. but when the evidence for something is overwhelming, what do you expect. I'm going to have to find you the sources of all the victim reports and share them and you can watch them then tell me that try tell me that i'm full of shit.

@Blackhawk Have you even watched the podcasts ? Clearly you can't convince anyone they're wrong because all you did was instantly dismiss without any substance. Why don't you actually look at the exact same sources I did, then come back to me and tell me why I am wrong (what is not credible about the source) and I will genuinely consider what you have to say. Jesus like why can't people just actually look at the evidence and then decide. How deeply have you researched satanism? Not at all have you you're just being closed minded. But you clearly don't want to do that... you just want to gaslight people.

@iceprincess How about actually listen to his point of view thoroughly and then if you have a differencing opinion give it without condescension. Try to come to a mutual understanding and perhaps he will change his mind naturally through discourse, or perhaps even he will change your mind. Many conspiracies are true or have at least some validity to them. Many conspiracies are totally horseshit, some are even toxic and dangerous. I think questioning a conspiracy is equally as important as being open to them. I just think it's bad to go too far either way : not acknowledging it's potential validity vs instantly believing everything is conspiracy.

@Opo But who is fact checking the fact checkers ? Who decides to do the fact checking ? Unless you check the whole thing through, then you are again trusting the fact check on blind faith (given this person may have had an agenda do fact check)

But it was only because "I am a conspiracy theorist type" that I became woke to the systemic global issue of satanic cults and there practices. Had I been closed off to conspiracies, I would never know of it's existence, and wouldn't be able to spread awareness

I don't like the phrasing of this question. Being a conspiracy theorist has it's good sides and down sides. There's a lot of crazy stuff people believe, Some are just lunacy. Some conspiracies are actually drowning in hardcore evidence, or are just very very probable. 9/11 was definitely an inside job for example. Satanism is a real religion/cult that has infiltrated the highest positions of authority such as law, Police, politics and is a big big threat to society and has been for a long time, If u will call me nuts and stupid for saying this statement, then you need to be open minded. Don't believe me blindly - go watch the long podcasts and victim reports that I have seen explaining the issue, and you will 100% know what I am talking about. ^^ Notice how this is different to another conspiracy theorist might use the term satanism to fit their agenda. I accidentally found out about satanism by watching very very unbiased, long form podcasts and victim reports, whereas a trump supporter could say "Democrats worship the devil", so then the boy who cried wolf thing happens & people think Satanism doesn't exist, because the term is thrown around to loosely without evidence. Also, Why would you trust everything about the mainstream media?