Striving for more

My phone screen has a deep crack You can see part of the chip or battery sticking out at the bottom I have used this phone like this for weeks In andy cutlers mercury detox guide he mentions broken phones Is this dangerous? I will post a photo of the phone on here when I get home Please don't comment if you don't know or you're guessing.

Cringe is this common emotion I feel. I feel it when I talk to others, approach girls, when I speak, when I think, when I post on here. I'd like to say I don't care what others think but it's probably not true yet because I always cringe at myself. I feel like I was born a cringe lord Maybe I should order some psilocybin lool

@AnnaWhite37 No, actually many "afraid" men settle for the first woman they meet because they are unconfident and have low standards. Then 5 10 years later comes the divorce and the mid life crisis. Polygamy is NOT the default for men. Perhaps it is for some / a lot of women, but most men chose polygamy due to a lack of options, status & confidence. I will not be one of those. Also it is affected by your personality type & other factors, so some people are more suited to polygamy, some aren't. Perhaps men are afraid of polygamy because, it's fucking obvious - divorce, regret, less freedom, lack of variety, boredom, choosing the wrong woman. Polygamy is too black and white concept also and is very stage blue. There are open relationships, ect.. many things in the middle.

@Tim R Loool imagine J.P comes back on Joe Rogan with a Jesus haircut, jewellery, robe trousers & smokes a fat J. That would suit him.

A yellow world would acknowledge that different people have different chronotypes (Night owls & Early birds), & society is way too biased towards early birds and should be more accommodating for both camps and should structure society and work to suit both. Matthew Walker stresses this point in depth in his book "why we sleep".

@ertopolice Would be interesting to hear from a girls POV 1. What subtle signals do you send guys when u want them to cold approach - please list concrete examples 2. In what situations/contexts you mean - street, train, bar ect... ?

@Michael569 Thank you Michael, the need to let go is invaluable skill for each living day Right now (Late evening) I need to let go off : 1. The money I lost to a risky investment 2. The fact that I just ate too much sugar & now I'm anxious about having mediocre sleep quality & how that will affect me tomorrow 3. Let go off the physical tension in my body 4. Shame caused by social errors/spreading negativity Easier said than done, but I will look into these resources and hopefully that will help Example 2 > How my college needs to let go 1. New colleague today expressed a sense of regret and anxious urgency about being nearly 30 and not having a mortgage, kids, husband 2. (Whilst we were in car) > colleague Repetitively kept stressing these points again and again, sometimes as if literally just repeating her thoughts out loud in the car, "If I can just get a big house and stability", "If I can have kids by 30, I only have so much time" "just need to enhance my just job to be eligible for mortgage" 3. She kept basically saying these things or coming back to these topics, all with a very anxious tone, I sensed a strong lack of ease within her. **Nothing wrong with her desires, but feeling anxious about it, her tense face, the reverberating thought loops, was clearly causing her pain, & would need to be dropped for her to be in peace, It's hard though, being a woman & having all that pressure which is largely socially constructed/societal, but is somewhat biological, as she "really wants kids young", god daym I never have to deal with that source of pain haha 4. Man does she need actualized.org loool I didn't mention it though 5. P.s > It's a lot easier to notice within someone else, or within yourself, but only AFTER THE DAMAGE IS DONE (Hours, days later..) - This is a good first step, but I need to strive towards being able to CATCH IT IN THE MOMENT - This is the golden key

fuck this, not planning this one. Writing in flow with my thoughts, too much energy must be expressed through this vessel of such an idiosyncratic bizarre creature of a forum. SO MUCH RAGE. SO MUCH FUCKING ENERGY. How can I have fatigue issues but then I got too much energy, it's like I'm BI-Enerpolar SO MUCH IMPATINCE, I WANT IT NOW I FUCKING WANT IT NOW. GIVE ME THE MONEY, THE CLOTHES, THE DRUGS, THE GIRLS, THE LIFESTYLE, SET ME FREE. SHOW THOSE HATERS, LAUGH IN THEIR FACE. Ahh fuck man I need to meditate, but IT DOESN;T FUCKING WORK HUH. I GIVE TO CHARITY BUT IT MUST COME BACK TO ME, IT FUCKING MUST. INVESTMENTS MUST PAY OFF, FUCK THESE JOBS, FUCK THESE DIRTY STREETS & BORING L;IFE I DO GIVE TO HOMELESS - I PRAY UNIVERSE GIVES TO ME TOO AHH MY SUFFERING IS FUCKING HYPERBOLIC, I WANT GRATITUDE BUT I'M JUST AN ANGRY MOTHERFUCKER, MAYBE I AM GREEDY AHHH I NEED PATIENCE. AH wait ahh like half the world earns $2 an hour. But I CAN'T FUCKING CHANGE THAT I STILL NEED RICHES, I AM NOT ENTITLED TO IT, BUT I JUST WANT IT. IM NOT LREADY FOR STAGE GREEN ALTHOUGH I DO GIVE I GAVE AWAY A LOT TODAY IN FACT, BUT I MUST GET RICH BEFORE I THINK ABOUT THIS STAGE GREEN NOO WAIT I CAN HAVE BOTH. GREEN/ORANGE THAT'S NICE, COS MY LIFE FEELS FUCKING BLUE WITH ALL THESE FUCKING NORMAL SHEEPISH FUCKS AROUND ME. GIVE ME PURE MDMA, PURE HERBAL WEED, GIVE ME A SKYLINE, FUCK THIS HOLLOW LIFE. NEED TO ESCAPE. I'M NOT ENTITLED I DON'T MEAN THIS, I AM SOO LUCKY TO HAVE THE OPPURTUNITIES, BUT EVEN THEN ONLY 2 FUCKING % OF PEOPLE MAKE USE OF THE OPPPURTUNITY, EVERYONE ELSE IS STUCK DRIVING A FUCKING TRUCK, NO JUDGMENET BUT THEY DON'T WANT THAT THEY STUCK FUCK THAT. FUCK THAT! I MUST NOT BE LIKE THEM FUCK THAT FUCK THAT FUCK THAT FUCK FUCKKKKKKKKKKK GIVE ME MONEY UNIVERSE I SUMMON MONEY I WILL WORK FOR IT BUT I'M NOT WAITILNG LONG

@Michael569 Thank you Michael, the need to let go is invaluable skill essential everyday. Right now (Late evening) I need to let go off : 1. The money I lost to a risky investment 2. The fact that I just ate too much sugar & now I'm anxious about having mediocre sleep quality & how that will affect me tomorrow 3. Let go off the physical tension in my body 4. Shame caused by social errors/spreading negativity Easier said than done, but I will look into these resources and hopefully that will help Example 2 > How my college needs to let go 1. New college today expressed a sense of regret and anxious urgency about being nearly 30 and not having a mortgage, kids, husband 2. (Whilst we were in car) > College repetively

Now I look back on my semi - psychotic episode in a calmer state. I do not feel good right now, my forehead is tight, I feel shame, anxiety & this came out of nowhere? It's confusing. I did a very generous deed today, but I also spread negative energy, this affected me badly & I really regret the spread of negative energy, I hate that stuff. I feel the urge to be in a peaceful Island away from my neurotic thoughts, away from the world, but I leave that quest to the future, & will ground myself to present reality, as bad as it feels, my mind is just trying to self sabotage again. I pray for better state of mind, as no amount of money, no drug (*shrooms perhaps lol) will replace that, I have to be at peace internally, & keep dreaming but not to dream in pain, as that sends a signal to my subconscious that I won't actually have my desires, I must act like everything I truly want is possible & inevitable, in spite of my deeply low self esteem, which I hide in a cloud of alpha hyper masculine nonsense.

Ah Red wine, sweet red wine. Sweet hot mulled wine, if only this sensation could persist, eased the tension from the chest to my wrist. Ah sweet guitar, sweet music, u calm me down, u keep me sane, right brain juice. WHO AM I AM I A 2 FACED FUCK AM I JUST A FUCKING LIE. No, focus on the money & shut the fuck up mind. No forget the money, enjoy the music, the wine, namaste

I KEPT FEELING CRINGE ALL WEEK, COULDN'T BE AT PEACE, TOO MUCH CRINGE. I HAD A MOMENT OF REALIZATION IN THE MIRROR - I'M GOING TO FUCKING DIE, STOP GIVING A FUCK HOW U LOOK, NOT ONLY DO I WANT RICHES, I WANT INFINTE "FREENESS" > I MUST NOT GIVVE 1 FUCK HOW I LOOK TO OTHERS - THIS IS THE TRUE REASON TO LEARN PICK UP, PEOPLE JUDGE IT, BUT IT'S SPIRITUAL PROCESS, IT'S LEARNING NOT TO CARE, SAME WITH SELF EXPRESSION NO HOLDING BACK FUCK CRINGE SELF LOVE GIVE ME MORE SELF LOVE

@mmKay To be honest i'm not really a judgemental guy but I was sharing what I had heard. Live & let live

Think & grow rich by Napoleon Hill Has a great section on sexual transmutation, is more than just a book about wealth Also really interesting section on the power of love, faith & sex as 3 potent emotions to harness.

Looool you already won. You're eating less sugar now than 99.9999% of people. Well done for getting to that level, the sugar you have is soo occasional I don't even know you should focus on that. Probs better off focus on another aspect of health Advise cutting out the gum though isn't it bad for teeth

I am moving to Spain ASAP & I quit my job with no regrets & I plan to make money online. Not necessarily a "Logical" or "safe" choice. I don't give a fuck. This is the first time I'll ever have acted on gut, & I'm willing to just try. I have about $5-7K saved up Before you say "wait till covid is over" please go away, covid is in every country anyway. Spanish people or avid travellers please give suggestions on how to get killer rent, best regions to go to, best places to be regarding covid restrictions. I am thinking Barcelona as it looks super cool but I also like nature so I am open to the south, I am young and extroverted but I also like my chill time and nature, I want to meet girls as well but if covid stays then just 1 hot girlfriend will keep me sane. tldr : tips, tricks, advice, killer rent secrets, locations, open gyms / outdoor gyms best regions for covid/Least tyrannical restrictions, best atmosphere. *** If anyone has any better suggestions of a better country they think I should move to, feel free to suggest. I have my heart on Spain but if you explain why Sweden or whatever is better ect.. that will be interesting

Deep & precise AF BRO ! & YEAH even the people we desire & glorify must have there cringe moments - My mind always tricks me that this isn't the case - that I will never have that girl because I lowered my value through my display of cringe, something she would never do. Or like that celebrities aren't capable of cringe, does Brad Pitt fart ? lol @xxxx

These are all great tips and thank you guys. It will take me a while to embody this advice & overcome cringe - it's actually really hard in practice & overlooked in the PD community. E.G > I messed up a good interaction with a really cringe text. & Even day later there's this residue of cringe still affecting me, I'd just be trying to cook then I would flinch at the thought of the text I sent. Blah blah maybe no more thinking or focusing on the problem will solve, I just need to practice the tips until it's second nature. Too much overconceputalizing ok I will stop

Is this pointless or like cheating ? ** Also, is 1 glass of red wine per day in the evening healthy and good for sleep?

Will meditation help me escape wage slavery, earn money, succeed ? Or would meditation just take time away from perusing business? I can't motivate myself to meditate, because I mostly care about money at this stage of my life ... could meditation help me earn money?

@Ry4n I already consume L - theanine ever day in powder. It's cheap & lasts ages. Great supplement.

@Recursoinominado Have you ever tried listening to intelligent, serious journalists coming from that side? Not trying to push a POV on you, but I listen to James Corbert from the corbett report I listen to him because I am concerned about just going along with the mass & not hearing it from both sides (p.s I would never listen to someone like Alex Jones, he is very biased & crazy) He points out everything concerning with vaccines, not in a karren way, he just does solid research & puts it into vids. I honestly haven't made my mind up yet, my mum is taking a pzifer vaccine soon and I am very worried for her. I would love to hear someone else opinion on James Corbett, as unlike alex jones, he is highly educated & does thorough research, yet is against vaccines, if any nerds on here can watch his stuff & give their opinion, point out any flaws in his reasoning ect.. then please do. Because there are people like him who are against vaccines & covid measures, it makes me wonder if I am in the wrong camp, if I should change my mind again, because he is no fool like Alex Jones, he is not making millions saying this stuff, & he has been a very credible journalist for decades. Ah sigh, I don't know what to think any more

Maybe if meditation = less procrastination better focus >> that would translate into being rich The issue is working or doing business leads to direct financial rewards, meditation it's hard to pinpoint how long it will take to reap the benefits, so it's very hard to see if it's worth it. I need short term benefits that translate into more money (better focus ect..) too otherwise I won't be motivated to meditate

Yes, humans have been polygamous for throughout evolution, traditional monogamy and relationships, marriage, are just social constructs. People cheat, because monogamy is boring. You only live once. Why does the future being polygamous mean you're fucked ? It's a great thing, finally breaking free from the chains of societal expectations, arranged marriage & all this religious, conservative dogshit. It's especially good thing for women, sexual liberation.