Striving for more

NOTHING CAN BE DONE TO INCREASE THE LENGTH OF YOUR BONES NOTHING. NOTHING !!!! You can have good posture & stretch, that might make you appear slightly taller, but good posture is important regardless. Again, just focus on less shallow things, women do not care about height that much, even if you a met a girl who did, you would literally be the perfect height ... god I need to leave this dumb post alone & focus haha.

NOOO BECAUSE SHE IS SHORTER THAN YOU HAHA. There's like billions of girls that are 5 foot - 5'5, 5'7, 5'9 ect... so you are completely fine. Do you live in OGER LAND ?? YOU ARE FUCKING FINE LOOl

@ds300 Bro you're like the perfect height wtf is this nonsense. You're unemployed and 6 foot but you're focusing on increasing you're height. WOW... JUST WOW HAHA. This post genuinely makes me angry haha. This is so dumb. YOU'RE THE PERFECT FUCKING HIEGHT ANYWAY LOL !!!!!! IF U WERE LIKE 5 FOOT 2 I WOULD UNDERSTAND, BUT WOW Man up & stop being so vain by the way.

For the past 3-4 days I've had a really sore kneck. It's become particularly bad today. It's hard for me to turn my head left or right & I feel this click movement. I'm worried about my arteries. I was working out often until 4-5 days ago & I would normally go hard using weights & cardio together in a bag & probably damaging myself, overdoing it & maybe using bad form. My mother told me about an athlete who died from lifting weights because of her arteries & she over trained. I don't like moving my head (kneck) I just want to lie down because it clicks & it hurts. In fact right now I can barely turn my kneck left or right.

@EnlightenmentBlog That's not true at all. Bad advice. You can't 100% guarantee protection in every situation but you can severely enhance your survival chances through training. Most people aren't too good at running either. It's different when we're talking about guns but besides guns if you're a trained martial artist you can handle most situations. Even with guns you have better ods if you're trained, especially if they're close up a Jiu jitsu /krav maga guy will spin that gun out your hand before u even notice. However, having sprinting ability & high intensity endurance never hurts. Learning free running is pretty good too. If you combine all that with martial arts abilities you'd be a solid ninja.

I'm only 15 minutes in & this is insanely deep & practical. Thank you.

I'm writing this message as a potential goodbye to everyone. If I live, I intend to stay on this forum. My kneck feels really bad, kneck problems are bad. I remain stearn & won't fear death or die in vain, but I could have something bad here. I can barely move my kneck. In case my kneck kills me, if you suddenly never here me again on this forum, then wish me well in Peace RIP me. Lets pray to the lord that I survive this.

@mmKay Hire a self defence martial artist to do one on one / and or group sessions with you. Just sign up to self - defence specific classes. Krav Maga is probably decent (never done it), Jiu - Jitsu can teach you how to disarm knives & guns at close range Jiu - Jitsu is also good for self defence & also Mai tai boxing or MMA , although ofc they're not great against a gun. But for fist fight defence these will work. Loool, being pepper sprayed fucking hurts ! My god

Why would you argue about this lol ?? Just don't take the risk. Only drink filtered water & then there's no loss. Even though I am scientifically ignorant, there's more than enough research to suggest that tap water probably isn't safe, therefore I drink filtered water. Couple years back the water in my flat (and in most of the city) was awful. This is UK i'm talking. I could barely drink it it tasted so bad. I also had a ton of mental issues & got sick a lot. Unfortunately I didn't know of any of this stuff back then. Just don't take the risk. I could go electrocute my testicles right now & I haven't actually tested whether that's risky, but I'm not taking the risk so I can't lose. ( I know that's silly analogy, I just wanted to say that)

@mmKay How did you meet a wing & obtain that relationship? I could never imagine finding someone willing to do that unless I was paying a PUA

@Vrubel You've already won half the battle, by living in a city like Amsterdam! I'd kill to live in green city full of hot girls like that. Where I live 1. there's no hot girls 2. People aren't friendly 3. It's cold, everything is closed down, & again there's like no hot girls ever, Just loads of old fat ladies everywhere : ( Maybe I'll move to Amsterdam some day.

@intotheblack It's a mix of both. On the one hand we don't want to fight but in a way it's a primal urge. Kids don't just play fight for no reason. Of course this aggression can easily be channelled in healthier ways, through sports, martial arts practice. Also, culture can negatively influence us to think men should fight & act tough. Which leads to a desensitisation to the consequences of fighting when it becomes culturally preferable. But we must never forget that it's also a primal urge & this is why adrenaline release through exercise, sports, competition (or whatever music ect..) is so important. When primal energy like repressed aggression gets squeezed too much the valve is waiting to break, fights can happen. Sometimes a lack of love makes men aggressive. The guy who gets in a fight at a party or bar has all this self hatred & thus hatred for others, so that he's more than happy to fight because his whole psyche is hypnotized by expressing hatred on to the other, any excuse to express this via violent means is just too tempting, so when a guy spills his drink, his agressive psyche knows what it's goal is & so now here comes escalation. The feminine female equivalent might be through more covert means, aka passive aggression.

Headache is now even worse & gut problems continue. Probably should seek medical care tomorrow if it persists, but I really don't want this shit going on I want to focus on making money. My stomach keeps sorta vibrating & it feels like I always need to take a dump even when I don't Feel very tired but trying to push myself to be energetic, I will die for energy, give me energy god, god grace I need energy in this time I don't feel young anymore feel like a dying old guy.

@Ananta Yes symptoms are worse headache is worse. I also have really bad gut & digestive issues but that is not caused to the collision. Cognition & short term memory is bad, it was bad anyway but probably even worse, always forgetting why I walked in to a room. I am not used to seeking medical help & have a terrible track record of proactively seeking doctors, mainly because I feel like they're all fucking useless shites. Anyway, maybe I should call for assistance tomorrow. I'll see if it improves.

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As much as I hate having mental problems/sleep disorders ect... it does ground me back to reality in a way. As much as I fucking hate that stuff, it does take me out of my narcissism. Dreams of hot women & lux lifestyle, drinking fine wine in tailored linen suits feeling all validated, all this disperses into thin air when you have health issues & suddenly you develop a deep sense of compassion for others who suffer, & consider how much worse your conditions could be, reminding oneself of all the others out there with sever symptoms like PTSD from being raped & abused by their own father, or those with dwarfism or gigantism, or just any extreme unfortunate outlier within this infinitely diverse spinning ball called planet fucking earth. Writing is feeling good right now, helping me forget my tension, some what oh no there goes the tension, well at least I'm occupied, maybe I'll listen to something funny, can't always take life seriously I guess, time to surrender tonight.

I've always been particuarly terrified of "head problems" & so hitting my head even lightly on an object leaves me with an unnerving feeling for days. I just hope it didn't make my mental problems 10,5 or even 1% worse, because OCD & Anxiety went through the roof tonight & I don't want to go back to severe mental problems. It's going to just set me back another year or 2 & I will have no chance of self actualizing, maybe I'll even get Alzheimer's disease from hitting my head so many dam times. Such a clumsy fucker.

I hit my head (the top part) on a hard object earlier about 4PM EST Have had a light headed feeling & headache since. & Disrupted sleep with extreme paranoia upon awakening : Went to bed & prematurely woke up hour later, stuck in repetitive incoherent thought loops, then my mum went to the bathroom & I thought there was a kidnapper & grabbed my scissors & waited there for 10 minutes, even after I said who's there & she replied, I thought that maybe a kidnapper/burgular had forced her to say that so I waited then calmed down then when I saw no one else was there. Still feel weird hopefully this is nothing serious. I am clumsy so I hit my head fairly often unfortunately. I am sure there's a chance it will pass & I'll be fine tomorrow. But the night time paranoia has always came & go without hitting my head but it was particularly worse today. I do not expect to sleep tonight. Will try my best. The headache is particuarly noticeable in the right side of my head & is unpleasant, I feel pretty tense physically & its not in my control I'm hoping this reaction is common & not indicative of something serious. I have to add that I do have a long history of "midnight psychosis" before, & the exact scenarios described used to happen regularly when I lived on my own & do always happen now & then although. it hadn't happened in recent weeks & I still have a headache so I drew the connection that the head collision cause it or brought it back I don't know life complex

@How to be wise Covid being completely obliterated will of course take longer. However easing of restrictions & reopening of venues will happen much sooner than 2 years. Easily 3 - 6 months

Ok I got it i just figured it out its so simple : SMALL STEPS BIG DREAMS. JUST DO 1 LITTLE TINY THING THATS EASY, JUST MOVE THE DESK THEN JUST LOAD UP THE TABS FOR STUDY, THEN Learn then apply then whalah bank account can increase, but be patient young wizzard .

After binging on ice cream. I just worked out like crazy. I have no problem working out, but I really couldn't care less, it does nothing for me, besides a big chest. I need discipline, meditation, focus. Working out is easy because it it not discipline, it's an obsessive animalistic act, I became an animal. It;s easy to be an animal, but I need to be a post human 2021 focus freak

I need 2 things : 1 EXTREME (EMOTIONAL) DRIVE 2 REQUISITE VARIETY 1. I want it bad but I do not want it badly enough. I still use too many excuses (ill health & bad cognition) to not be creative & productive. - I need to keep going even when I'm tired, which is often - I need to be emotionally charged to see the change I want in my life. 2. I need to start CREATIVELY JOURNALLING - This form of creative journaling involves asking questions as to how I could solve my problem, what are the blind spots I'm missing? - Maybe there's another route? Maybe I'm thinking too narrow? - Cut out the limiting beliefs & self defeating mindsets. Too long has this gone on & costed me so much of my life. No more.

That comment was intended for my main jounral : delelted oops.