Striving for more

@Lyubov Bro the girls in the UK are UGLY AS FUCK LMAAAAAAAOOOOO ROFLLL Move to Spain, south america, Bellaruse or most places Tropical Some parts of Spain like Marbella or Andalucía are literally filled with hot girls everywhere Apparently in Brazil > The bar becomes way higher because even an "average looking" brazillian would be considered an 8/9 in the US an 8/9 US becomes a 6/7 in brazil an 8 in the UK probably becomes a 5 in brazil jajaja

I litterally read like 2 sentences. That was enough to intuit : LEAVE Just don't get in relationships Get hot girls on rotations & you get variety without the stupid stuff. The movie style romance is a MYTH. Ultimately you date girls for the sex. Just be friends with different girls & fuck them. Nothing else.

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If you're woman & you're 6 + > You have it pretty easy. If you're a 7+ > you have it EXTREMELY EASY. Don't even worry about this, guys are easy as fuck. You have a ton of options. If you're a western woman you just got life given to you on a plate. Enjoy it. If you joined tinder - you would instantly have thousands of potential instant mates or dates at your finger tips. But you might feel a bit hollow. I personally think tinders bad for society though but I wouldn't blame you.

This doesn't make sense. Flow states are just flow states. What about being flow state when you're picking up girls, socializing, having a discussion? That's all language related flow (verbal & non verbal) Why is a flow state only limited to stuff like chess? When learning languages I always noticed strong flow state when doing exchanges & talking to foreigners once I'd gotten to a certain level. If you don't like lanuages i'd say just don't comment on this because you're spreading nonsense & discouraging people when it it's like the most beneficial thing. I am not a player by a long stretch yet I haven't built my game but whenever I have spoken french or spanish with a foreign girl abroad they absolutely loved it, If I had just tiny bit more game I'd have easily pulled, it just shows you're a more rounded, open minded & interesting person. In life u gotta go against the herd, everyone is only speaking english so I will speak 2/3/4. & This won't "take time or resources away from me", this process will be seamlessly integrated within my travel journey & lead to higher abundance of higher quality women, friendships & experiences.

No !!! That's just the school system! That's such a false reductive & limiting view of learning languages. You have not thought about nor experienced the process of learning a language deeply enough, or with the right mindset. It is a beautiful thing & one of the best things I would encourage anyone to do, 100X better than learning chess. You are sounding way too left brain autistic I must say. Love though.

@integral No it's not. It's called travelling, socializing & talking to people, immersing yourself in a new culture whilst picking up a language memorizing words comes naturally through discussion & immersion, not rhote memorization. Lool niether chess nor music is more valuable than learning languages by a long stretch. Especially chess haha wtf. & By the way I love all three, but I can listen to music without learning it, I can not listen to that cute latino if I don't understand spanish.

I'm too weak mentally to fix my health issues. I spent months exercising, eating a "perfect" diet, optimizing sleep & there's soooo much more to do. It's soo mysterious & it could be 1 of 100 things, know I could try everything & maybe nothing works, it's hard to maintain morale. When family just laugh at you & think you're lazy, & those fat fucks can eat whatever drink tap water & they still able to focus on their work, no brain fog, I have to detox heavy metals, do tons of other stuff, get a better water filter, move out to a place where healthy living is more encouraged & accessible, Improve my income so I can keep buying organic food & tons more check if I have viruses, allergies .... blah blah blah & I have to do all this whilst I feel tired & have brain fog, low morale, no friends or encouragement. How do I motivate myself when I just feel shit & tired all the time, Right now I go to get an ice cream because I feel shit & diet doesn't make no difference. I know I have to keep trying, but I'm not strong like some people, I need the easy path, I can't keep going TLDR ; I feel very tired & groggy all the time & there's apprarently all these mysterious things to try that might solve my problem, but my fatigue & brain fog makes me too lazy & angry to do anything Maybe I just need to move out right away because I need shit ton of psychological spritiual energy to get me going, otherwise I'd need modafinil but the side effects can make it backfire.

This makes me so sad. I want a world where we invest technology into de polluting the world & making healthy living seamless & effortless. it probably won't happen in the near future, if anything TV will keep promoting KFC, Mac Donalds, people will throw away more plastic So many grotty greazy kebab & chicken shops & no health stores near me, I wish grotty chicken shops were banned cos they are actually so gross. I don't mind cheat meals like pizza or ice cream on a sunday, but grotttty chicken shops kids teenagers actually eat here regularly & it's fucking filthy. Apologies for the tangent.

@integral How is learning multiple languages not skill ? How is it redundant ? Not everything comes down to making money. There's other forms of value. I could list about 100 reasons why it's great to learn a language. I honestly can't think of many things that offer more return. Learning Spanish is almost as important as learning English if you're an adventurous, social type as well, a lot countries speak Spanish. I personally love travelling & socializing though so maybe It's less valuable for introverts. But even for introverts, when you learn a new language it opens you up to whole new world. Learning a language is actually a META skill - you end up learning how to learn generally, + you should improve social ability + maybe ten other skills.

Does anyone have a link for a high quality RO Filter ? I've been drinking this £20 ($30 ish) water filter thinking I was winning. Fatigue, brain fog only gets worse.

Great perspective, I love this attitude. Fed up of hearing people spread negativity, fed up of hearing it within myself. Not reading the comments because your post was enough to rejuvenate me into action.

THE THEME OF THINGS GOING FULL CIRCLE TIMNE TO GET SEIOUR S SUICIDE OR EXTREME SUCCESS. EXTREME BANGING 10'S ALL DAY ON ROTATION, 200K IN THE BANK AT A YOUNG AGE, EXTREME SHIT MAYBE SOME COCAINE TO CELEBRATE TOO NO MORE IN THE MIDDLE, EXTREME BITCH TAKE MUSHROOMS & BECOME KING

Here I am again .. Back again. No more crazy rants. Just the Truth now. I hate myself once again, I feel stuck. Can't get out my head, so emotionally reactive, I can't mediate & it doesn't help, I have constant brain fog, my sleep is not great. Lighting in my room doesn't work, always dark & I live in a shitty place. I need inspiration, I need a spark, because I want to just kill myself. I won't do it. But I really want to. I feel like I will die alone, always be bored & stuck never fulfill my basic needs, always at the bottom of the pyramid. Was I just dealt bad cards? Did I do too many drugs before? Will my mind ever be healthy? Will I ever find real friendship, Will I ever escape this country, will this covid ever end, am I in an ever ending bad acid trip? Or is the real bad trip when I get old & realize I wasted my life, Just want to shut myself out from the world because I will envy people. N0OOOOOOO GET OUT MY FUCKING HEAD GET OUT MY FUCKING HEAD BITCH OCD FUCK U FUCKING BITCH GET OUT MY FUCKING HEAD OIHASDGOPHISDA0U F0[A SD FUCK THIS JOURNAL THIS DON'T WORK Time to get serious. I make serious money this month or sucidie. The stakes are high enough. If I don't make 10K this month, I die.

Ohh shit I lost years off my life for this ^ If only I had this forum back then. I used to frown back at a girl if she smiled, used to assume everyone was dangerous. Used to be so defensive. Locked myself in my bedroom for 8 months at a time, drinking & getting high on my own. Used to be soo bitter I would send people hateful messages on Christmas, angry on Christmas, drinking myself to sleep because I felt so alone Have notice a backlash of this recently too. It's like a that wasp on a summers day that keeps coming back to sting you. You can't fight the wasp, love the wasp & let go. Don't fight the bees, make some honey. This lingering emotion of self hatred / bitterness & I can sort of feel it in my chest even after the negative thoughts have gone. When you feel self hate it genuinely hurts, It's like your chest is contracted & you feel all tight. Add OCD to that & then the thought loops don't stop either. Self love is the highest teaching.

Online dating apps are the worst thing that has happened to society this decade lool.

@integral Orange women are UGLY I worked with an orange woman once & all she ever talked about was her fucking mortgage. EWW Soo boring man. I'm pretty materialistic but at least I'm partly green / yellow. This ugly bitch was like pure orange. I litterally wanted to snore every time words left her mouth All she ever talked about : Mortgage, trying to find a family (Stage blue), trying to get free food from some stupid Instagram scheme (ROFL)

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1. Well done for making a futile thread about a stereotype with no evidence, based on your biased worldview, probably driven by a sense of bitterness 2. Why the fuck do you care? ... Let me elaborate. You care because you feel hopeless like you believe pretty girls only go with shallow dumb guys. Do you realise how many women exist bro ? ... There's Hundreds of millions of hot women or whatever a lot .. so there's a wide variance of personality types & standards across these women. So chill out & stop making foolish generalizations & enjoy your life. Go fuck some hot women that value intelligence. Remember > there's hundreds of millions of hot women. You''ll find all types.

OK FUCK THIS JOURNAL TIME TO GO GET RICH REAL QUICK TIME

FUCK EVERYTHING I SAID THIS WEEK. I TAKE IT ALL BACK. It always takes a loco loco outburst to realize you're just being crazy & stupid & there is hope. Hope & OPTIMISM is key, I have so much possiblities ahead! I am still young & have a vision. I can still manifest these dreams. Not everyone is toxic, there are amazing people out there. I don't have to die alone, I can find friendship, & The fucking internet, I'm a creative fucking genuis. I am the shit. Don't mean I'm better than anyone, only compare myself to myself, no more envy or insecurity, but I am the shit ! I am a creative genuis, & charasmitic too, I don't need be like Bill Gates, nerd with a ugly fucking wife. Fuck that guy. He's not that creative anyway, but elon I respect, I will be the elon of creativity, not science or physics thats really not my thing, not the mathematical type But I am creative, as vague as it is, I am a creative genuis, creative penius

This journal is going no where for me. Unsure if honest self expression is even that helpful (maybe it is with a therapist/life coach) but perhaps journals should just be to track & Measure results This kind of anger release journal hasn't gotten me further, maybe justed wasted more time. I don't even need this anymore I can't be bothered. GOODBYE. Going to just go after everything I want instead of fucking writing about it now, time to conquer this planet, time to fuck 10,,00000 hot bitches, time to build that bank account Time to get trippy & become a god, time to fulfill my ego, give juice to the ego, suck my ego's dick

By house arrest I mean covid hahah, the pigs aren't after me don't worry. I get it's how it is, not saying we should let people die, just saying it's house arrest that god imposed on us due to global human foolishness.

No I don't love narcotics, I don't hate them. What I really want is to be alive. Isn't that what everyone wants ultimatel I'm so used to being alone it hurts, but it took a house arrest to realize I was loner & it aint gonna change unless I work my ass off for it. Fuck sake, always the unlucky one, always had to work to my ass off for eveyrthing, often to no avail. I want that to change, I'm an entitled fuck now, I want infinite power I want to fuck married women knowing they'll come back cos their huzza can't do the job. I want to be the man. & No don't put me in a box like "I'm just stage orange" you dumb black & white boxed up moron, I am every stage at once, I'm am more than human

Ahh alcohol again refreshing so fed up of this constant persoanl development shit give me a break just dont get hungover that aint worth it sunshine But fuck I love narcotics if only they didn't have side effects hahahaha imagine a paraell universe or we had an instant brain regeneration/hangover substance + another means to re generate all the blackout of memories lost from ther drugs or alcogol.