Striving for more

THIS IS MY SECOND LAST POST. I am taking a break from this forum, I will be back when I have something to show for it. I have learned a lot. Thank you so much. I HAD TO MAKE THIS POST AGAIN BECAUSE I MY GUT TOLD ME TO. THIS IS MY CLOSING POST. I JUST WENT OUTSIDE I STARED AT THE STARS. HOW INSPIRING, I THEN SAW A BEAUTIFUL FLOCK OF BIRDS DEEP IN THE SKY, FLOWING IN THE DISTANCE, FORMING A KITE PATTERN IN BEAUTIFUL SYMMETRY. I DECIDED TO GUY FULL DEEP IN TO MY EMOTIONS. I STARRED AT THE STARS & THE BEAUTIFUL NAVY BLUE SKY & LISTENED TO SOME ARNOLD SCHARWNIGGER & BEAUTFIFUL SOULFUL MUSIC. & I WENT DEEP IN TO THE BREADTH, I WENT DEEP. I BREATHED HARD & STARRED AT THE STARS, I LET THE ANGER COME OUT OF ME, THE FRUSTRATION. TOO MUCH FRUSTRATION. I "DIGGED DEEP DOWN, DEEP DEEP DOWN & ASKED MYSELF, WHO DO I WANT TO BE? WHAT DO I TRULY DESIRE?" I STARRED AT THE SKY & STARTED CRYING, CRYING IN ANGER. NO MORE REPRESSING MY EMOTIONS. I AM ANGRY NOW. I WILL CRY, NOT TO QUIT, I WILL CRY TO WIN. CRY TO WIN. CRY TO WIN. SHOUT TO WIN. GO CRAZY TO WIN. FEEL THE PAIN. STOP DENYING SHIT. YOU ARE MEDIOCRE, I AM. BUT I CAN & I WILL CHANGE THAT. I WILL STOP HAVING A WEAK MIND. I WILL BE STRONG, I WILL BE WISE. I WILL BE CLEVER. I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL. I WILL BE CREATIVE. I WILL BE VALUABLE. I WILL LIVE IN AN AMAZING CITY, WITH AMAZING CONNECTIONS, MEET AMAZING GIRLS, SEE AMAZING SIGHTS, MOUNTAINS & SWEET PUSSY & WATERFALLS & EVERYTHING FUCKING ELSE. YES U NEED PRODUCTIVITY, STRATEGY ECT.. BLAH BLAH. BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST NEED YOUR FUCKING SOUL. YOU DON'T WANT IT ENOUGH, ALL THE FUCKING INTELLECTUALITY IN THE WORD WON'T GET ME WHERE I WANT UNLESS I GET FIRED UP & STAY FIRED UP. USE YOUR PAIN. DIVE DEEP INTO YOUR PAIN. SWIM IN IT, TO THE POINT YOU ALMOST DROWN, THEN PADDLE UP LIKE A NEWBORN LION. NO NOT BABY. A LION. I WAS ONCE A GAZELLE, NOW A LION. I WILL STAY HUNGRY UNTIL I GET WHAT I WANT. I DIGGED DEEP INTO MY CURRENT PAIN, & MY EVEN FAR WORSE PAIN OF NOT TOO LONG AGO, WHERE I ALMOST DIED, ALMOST TOPPED MYSELF & SORTA TRIED TOO. I DUG DEEP INTO THAT PAIN, & I WANT TO FEEL MORE PAIN. PAIN = CHANGE. I AM LIMITLESS. I WILL LIVE A LIMITLESS LIFE. I WILL BE COURAGOUS. I'M NOT AFRAID TO SHOW MY FEELINGS. I'M NOT AFRAID TO BE DIFFERENT. SHOWING & FEELING IN TO YOUR FEELINGS MAKES YOU MORE OF A MAN. IT'S COURAGOUS, NO MORE DENIAL. NO MORE BULLSHIT. THIS IS THE LAST DAY I POST. BUT I HAVE TO POST BECAUSE THE ONLY GOAL IS TO TRANSFER MY ENERGY ON TO THOSE WHO ARE DOWN & TO CEMENT THIS ENERGY DEEPLY IN TO MY PSYCHEE & TO NOT LET GO OF IT, UNTIL I ACHIEVE MY GOAL. I WILL NOT FOLLOW MY FAMILY, WILL NOT FOLLOW MAINSTREAM CULTURE. I WILL LIVE LIFE EXACTLY HOW I WANT TO. NO GURU WILL TELL ME WHAT'S RIGHT, I WILL LEARN FROM OTHERS. BUT ULTIMATELY WE ARE ALL UNIQUE. YOU MUST DECIDE FOR YOUSELF & ONLY LISTEN TO YOURSELF ON WHAT TO DO & FUCKING DO IT. SUCCESS IS NOT "BECOMING THIS OR THAT" > IT'S ACHIEVING WHAT YOU WANT, WHATEVER THAT IS, DON'T LET ANYONE ELSE DEFINE YOUR GOALS, CUSTOMS, VALUES. MY WHOLE LIFE I LIVED ON TH.E SIDELINES, AN NPC. I INTERNALIZED THE ROLE I WAS GIVEN, JUST A USELESS LOSER. PEOPLE LAUGHED AT ME. BUT I WILL BE THE ONE LAUGHING NOW I GO BACK TO THE SKY. & I STARE AT THE STARS THAT REPRESENT MY DREAMS. I WILL CHANNEL THIS ENERGY INTO MY SUBCONCIOUS. I WILL SLEEP. I WILL LEAVE THIS JOUNRAL, I WILL CONQUER, I WILL DEFEAT THE ENEMY.

My last post in this journal. I'm leaving this forum for a while. I'm considering even deleting my account. I am only studying stuff relevant to my pertinent goal : to move country, to a cool city, with a great lifestyle, cost of living, attractive women & social opportunities. THAT IS IT. Of course I will be improving health/energy & my income, ECT.. But even if I did all that, if I didn't achieve this main goal, I'd be so miserable, I'd kill myself. I wanted this goal for years, before covid but I took my freedom for granted. FUCK EVERYTHING ELSE. I DON'T CARE. I DONT CARE ABOUT SPIRITUALITY, POLITICS, I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. I JUST WANT TO ENJOY LIFE & LIFE HOW I WANT, WITH COOL PEOPLE AROUND. FUCK MY LIFE IS SO SOULLESS. BUT IT COULD BE WORSE, COULD BE WW2, IT'S JUST SO HARD TO BE GRATEFUL, WHEN YOU FEEL SO FRUSTRATED, I JUST NEED CHANGE. No more wasting time. Time to get the money, opportunities, women, friends, connections. I know it will be hard, I've wanted this goal for so long, I hate my area so much. I feel so bored & alone. But I decide for once that I love myself! I love myself & so I will do what it takes, whether I have to make lawyer friends abroad to move, or illegally jump on a boat, or just bear the pain & make as much money as I can for whatever months & strategize, I will do it. I love myself too much to self sabotage again, so I will save all my pennies, I will invest, I will strategize, I will plan, I will keep focused, I will achieve this goal & everything else will come. Strategically moving country, is the only real thing that matters for me. I need to stop ignoring this. No time to post on forum, do small talk with people, no more bullshit. That's all I fucking need to do. Money & Location > Then everything else becomes so much easier. So much easier to do "Pick up" if you live in the right place, to make friends. My location is squashing me, I feel so squashed, I hate this place. I have been here too long. If it goes on too long & I don't strategize my way out, I will commit suicide. I say that because sometimes you gotta put it all on the line. I will write my goal down on my wall, my door, I will type it & print tons of copies, I will put inspiring quotes up. But I will not be a self help junkie. Every quote, bit of information, will move me closer to my goal, even if it just gives me the energic push I need to act. I can't even be bothered to journal right now because I just want this goal, I need to go get the money & move to a cheap beautiful place.

This is currently unavialble on amazon. Is american too Any other links.

@Michael569 Does microplastics affect the brain like metals? Can tap water instantly make you sick? I ran out of filters & I have been feeling so sick & tired, although this does happen to me anyway fairly often Will the Brita water filter keep out mercury, arsenic ect.. ? Could you please link me to the "next step" better filter on amazon ect.. please, I'm tired of this over complications I just want a clear guarantee of the best option to avoid metals & toxins Oh yeah, what about the shower, can the shower release toxins to a significant degree. & Are old houses & flats more likely to havecontaminated piipes than modern ones, or is it just random

Taylor Swift? Ewwwwwwww She's so masculine looking So broad & square jaw, harsh eyes. Looks are subjective but If a girl doesn't look & act feminine , has a deep voice & acts dominant, she's not even a possibility. Even if a girl is somewhat cute I just not interested if she isn't feminine or has any masculine features at all. I reckon the overwhelming majority of guys want a feminine woman. It doesn't matter if she has big or small tits, she just needs to be feminine.

I have been suffering with many physical (but mostly) mental health issues including Brain fog, insomnia, Add, OCD, restlessness, declining memory. I have just called my dentistry and they said > I had a mercury amalgam filling in March 2016. 1. Could this likely be contributing to my health issues ? > If so is it too late? is the damage irreversible because i've had it for years. 2. I have arranged for an appointment next week to remove the filling. They said they can remove the amalgam fillilng with a "white filling". Is this safe ? Any specific or general advice welcomed, thank you.

@The0Self Sorry my bad I haven't finished the book yet, but what do you mean by a "long round" ? I thought you just take it every couple hours, the length of the round doesn't change? Do you mean the less brakes you have the faster the recovery. I'd personally rather bear as much intense pain as possible so long as that means it goes away the fastest. So If I can fix it in 6 months I'll do that even if that means complete torture.

@BlackMaze Think for yourself, you don't need 1 person to tell you what's right for you.

@Marini93 Smart Contracts is the game changer.

Yes DO IT This NFT trend may not last long so do it. There's nothing to lose from posting some art work. Also research hot NFT tokens that haven't pumped yet, TVK is a good example. You're a passionate creative like me, If valuable & ambitious people that are going to make some quick money & put it to their creative endeavours like you don't do it, we're gonna be left with a bunch of greedy pig soulless value leeching idle twats who spend their money on Bentleys. Go take the oppurtunity.

Yeah OF COURSE the popcorn in stores contain all the garbage oils. Probably ok If I make my own, tbh there's bigger priorities.

Can I eat salted popcorn every day? Is it that bad ? Or healthy?

@Leo Gura Even with 1 small filling? I have 1 mercury amalgam filling to be removed but it's small at the back. Maybe if I did it hardcore I could get significant results in a year? A couple of years at least sounds daunting, I don't want to live my peak years in despair. But it's all gods plan I guess.

@Opo You linking to his Martial arts competitions ? Never thought he had brain damage, he quit martial arts early on but have no clue

Who are the best / most engaging authors on these topics besides Andy Cutler?

I eat 2/3 tinned sardines every day ... is that ok? I reasoned to myself that "if google says this list of fish are low mercury than I can eat them" So I eat "the low mercury fish" almost every day because tinned fish is cheap & "contains choline & EPA/DHA thing Where can I get those brain boosting nutrients without fish?

I want to make a private journal & I like the idiosyncratic structure of your self actualization journals due to the visible dated updates.

@aurum What would be a nuanced critical view ? My take is that IT WORKS > But only if I plan + take action after the visualizations. It works as in " it primes my subconscious mind to constantly think about + focus on what I desire > leading to the right actions > results. What else is there to say isn't that it ^

I watched this video & gained nothing felt pissed that I spent 40 minutes listening to obvious common sense. Whole point of the video : There are some scammers & MLM schemes out there, don't be a fool. Don't bother.

Also great way to start off is to not do boring stuff like gramma but use movies or series. You should pick a critically acclaimed film or Netflix series that you'll love & add subtitles. You may gain nothing but it will give you an emotional boost to start because you see how they talk differently & different culture, I found this is what motivated me to learn a new lingo, because I felt excited by watching their accent, customs, different city & wanting to talk like that Another tip is to study "forgetting curve" graph > Set a schedule in google calendar to return to your key vocabulary according to the curve, (you shouldn't try to study for hours at once or anything, what's more effective is to just read the list for 10 minutes but do it regularly & at least aligned with the curve) https://www.mosalingua.com/en/memory-the-forgetting-curve/

@Karmadhi Check this thread

@integral wydm accurately calculate? I'm not sure what my rating is.

@Average Investor Can you elaborate on that point? Something tells me I really resonate with that, but my slow brain can't quite grasp what you're saying.

At least find some medical grade weed & smoke a fat joint. Whilst you smoke this massive joint watch the funniest silliest shit, Search Frankie Boyle or Russel Brand stand up. Americans won't cut it, fuck american comedy. You need a THICK SCOTTISH ACCENT & WEEED

@hyruga What ? But maybe I didn't know it, or it wasn't at the front of my mind & I needed reminder. I found this video useful so not sure what you mean there. Are you trying to say that there's no point me posting this & I should just get to applying it, overthinking it. Well no one really responded so I might as well just do it & trust the process. No time to wait.