Striving for more

POWER. Nononononoo. POWERRR. I kept fucking doubting myself, hesitating, indecisive, "can I do it?" "Is this really realistic?" "Maybe the normies are just smart? Maybe "realism" = anti-delusion?" Noonononono. Fuck listening to everyone else... and I mean ANYONE. I KNOW WHAT I DESIRE & I'M NOT ASKING FOR IT, I'M TAKING IT. BECAUSE I'M POWERFUL. I HAVE INNER POWER. EVERYTHING I DESIRE IS COMING TO ME. COMING "FAST", BECAUSE I'M NOT WAITING LIFE IS SHORT. I'M NOT GETTING RICH IN 10 YEARS OR 5 YEARS, I'LL BE "" RICH "" IN 1 YEAR MAX. Of course I won't be a millionaire by then. But I don't even need to be, especially that I'm moving to 3rd world countries, paying fucking 3-4 Less than I'll put in the work, of fucking course, what I need is power. "Need to move country, lets move wait ah which country which city, how do I go which place is best?" JUST PICK ONE & GO WITH IT. TAKE THE LOSS & DEAL WITH IT. ONLY WRONG DECISION = NO DECISION. POWER. https://www.tonyrobbins.com/stories/unleash-the-power/be-decisive/ POWER. FIGHT. MONEY, SEX, CHARISMA, SUPREME CONFIDENCE, SWAGGER, TAILORED LINEN SUIT & QUALITY HAWAIIAN SHIRTS, COMFIEST FUCKING NIKE AIR VAPORMAX PLUS AND $400 RUNNING SHOES, $1000 WOOL BED SHEETS & SUN SET BOULEVARD ON PARADISE FUCKING LANE. STAGE ORANGE, STAGE GREEN & STAGE FUCKING POWER. LEVEL UP MARTIAL ARTS TILL I'M A BLACK BELT. NO ONE WILL CONSIDER FUCKING WITH ME EVER. POWER THIS IS THE YEAR OF POWER. I AM TRULY BEING AUTHENTICALLY MYSELF. SPARTAN BILLIONAIRE. WHO THE FUCKS GONNA MESS WITH ME THEN HUH? NAH SCREW YOUR LAW SUITS. "It is better to live life being delusionally positive than to be realistic ... so long as your delusion is grounded to reality, but only to the extent necessary". https://www.tonyrobbins.com/stories/unleash-the-power/be-decisive/ https://www.tonyrobbins.com/stories/unleash-the-power/be-decisive/ https://www.tonyrobbins.com/stories/unleash-the-power/be-decisive/ https://www.tonyrobbins.com/stories/unleash-the-power/be-decisive/ https://www.tonyrobbins.com/stories/unleash-the-power/be-decisive/ https://www.tonyrobbins.com/stories/unleash-the-power/be-decisive/

Oscillation of power occurring. Pendulum keeps swinging. Environmental & logistical issues pulled me back down, disturbed sleep and got some brain fog, strugllingt o use my mind and right now I need to make quick decisions to save me money & act fast and arrange my journey. I'm going to paradise city. Focus on soultion, not problem. Be willing to use brute force. May have to stay up all night, may even take a Mod if I need. Gotta move quick this week. Quick decisions. Gotta start acting like a man again, not giving in to weakness 20% - 40% of the time, I NEED 100% COMMITMENT TO DISCIPLINE. Emotional Masculinity. Cinematic Music. The movie starts now. The fight continues. Focus, one thing at a time, burn myself out & use brute force until I have changed the no.1 strucutral problem of my life, very simple I just have to be decisive "when do I do it but I could save money here & there blah blah ".. Look. I'm gonna be millionaire soon anyway, so who the fuck cares about wasting $100, i need to do this. Time is the most crucial. Fuck it, I'm gonna be a billionaire. "Ah but why would you want that Neo, why man that's not spiritual?" hahahah. You'r hot yoga wife's gonna me mine anyway bitch fuck off with your spirituality, I'm getting my billions, whether I have to leach it or earn it, or do both, I'll find the fucking way. This music is fucking perfect. Perfect like the perfect girl I visualised meeting today. I'm never stop listening to this music. I'll never stop with my affirmations until I genuinely believe in myself. Uttter belief to the point of delusion. Too many people on this forum are so realistic "just work a 9/5 for 5 more years", lol look if your from china or india I get it you got no choice, but from america with no kids or obligations? are you crazy 5 more years? So much gold everywhere. So much fucking gold. GOlden pussy, gold bars, golden fountains, golden air. Ima breathe golden air, paradise of the kings lair.

Loooooool... Never ever take dating advice from girls. Not this chick especially. Ask the guys who are actually getting results themselves. It's way better to sexualize. I'd rather sexualize & make intentions clear, rather than fucking wasting loads of time talking about "ooh I'm just a normaly guy who accidentally is speaking to you, oh you have a sister ok". That's so boring and I don't have time for that. Yes a bit of normal chit chat is fine and expected, but fuck this hiding intentions nice guy nonsense.

These girls need to read Seneca. Avoid people who don't respect time.

Then maybe change city?

I have same issue but it's more general "FOMO" towards missing experiencing life in it's entirety, any time I see someone else being alive, it reminds me that I'm living quiet desparation, and unpleasant bodily sensation swiftly appear ... signalling urgency It's simply the fear of death? I think it's healthy, the question is can you harness that fear, or just keep running away from it? Seems you should experience some of that stuff yourself, I sense unmet needs. Obviously "FOMO is an unconscious reaction ect.. perhaps not healthy", but only useful comment is fulfill your needs and drop the FOMO, just scratch the itch. Isn't this whole post just an avoidance of your probelm? That unmet needs exist, maybe you should feel into it and notice the emotions, but also act and drop the forum for a while. Requisite Variety. Solve this problem for good, then you never have to be on here feeling sad about it. I'm trying same thing been antisocial for years so I can relate to you. Maybe me commenting right now is also just avoidance, Action José.

I created this post mostly as an antitode to the depressive energy that has plagued me this week. I can only think & act in extremes opposites.

I'M GAINING MY POWER BACK. I WON'T SLACK OFF. SMARTER, RICHER, BETTER EVERY FUCKING DAY. REP PILL MOTHERFUCKER. RED WINE. RED & BLACK TRAINERS. SWORD OF BLOOD. THE WARRIORS PATH. I AM A WARRIOR. I HERE TO WIN. I WILL HAVE POWER. I WILL GRADUALLY GAIN MORE POWER EVERY FUCKING DAY. FROM THAT BROKE FUCKING NO BODY LAST YEAR ... TO BILLIONAIRE CASANOVA WARRIOR. ALL THESE FUCKING RETARDS! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? YOU'RE WASTING YOUR LIFE ... AND THIS INCLUDES "ME" THE "LOWER SELF" ME BUT THE "POWER SELF" ME. HE KNOWS WHAT TO DO. & HE STARTS RIGHT NOW. I'M TAKING OVER. WORLD DOMINATION. No more holding back. NO more focusing on anyone else. and no more forum time right now. I can't exhaust myself. THIS IS IT. THIS IS MY LIFE, ALL OR NOTHING, BURN THE BOATS. IF I DON'T DO IT THIS WEEK, I GIVE UP, ALCOHOLIC. I PLACE ALL MY CARDS ON THE TABLE, THE COURAGEOUS MOVE. THIS IS THE HAND I PLAY. ALL IN! NO HOLDING BACK. NO FEAR. NONE. DO THIS FOR ALL THE NATURAL WARRIORS OUT THERE. SPARK THE REVOLUTION. NO TO APATHY. NO TO FEIMINITIY. NO TIME FOR THAT RIGHT NOW. MASCULINE ENERGY. POWER. I WILLLLLLLL WIN. I COMMAND SUBSCONSCIOUS MIND. I HYPNOTISE MYSELF INTO EXACTLY HOW I DECIDE TO BE. NOTHING ELSE, NADA MENOS, NINGUN INFLUENCES ME. NO TO MAINSTREAM CULTURE, NO TO BEING NORMAL BORING FUCK, EVEN ON THIS FUCKING FORUM, JUST BEING ANOTHER FUKCING ENLIGHTENMENT PUSSY, FUCK OFF WITH THAT NONSENSE, I WAS BORN ENLIGHTENED BITCH.

@BlackMaze Don't say sorry, Respect fellow warrior. I will read it. You are right, angry fuel isn't sustainable, just frustrated as fuck. Scared of time. Need to use it better. Need to be quicker.

Why Mathematics? I Recently realised "Holy shit, Mathematics is important" ... "Just use a calculator bro" ... Most unavoidable Math can't do with calculator and my incompetence Holds me back Journal Layout This journal will include basic, applicable mathematical and scientific concepts and modes of thinking I journal practical everyday examples of applied math, backed up by "direct experience" Short journal Deep, Intuitive Understanding > so Scientific life tasks become more effortless Everyday examples & pictures to cement deep intuitive understanding ... I will also try to leverage scientific thinking more with every day activities Topics journal may interconnect with (to lifestyle Mathematics context) 0. (Math) > Probabilities, ratios, Time theory (Very Practical), Dimensions, Estimating, timing, making distinctions, context - specific Converting & calculating, conceptually weighing importance of things (influencing decisions involving trade - offs) Science (Chemistry, Physics, Biology, neurofeedback, biohacking, Productivity (Planning, scheduling, goal oriented action > (based off awareness & action towards obvious yet overlooked fact that we have X Years, months, weeks, days, hours and minutes in life, & Y amount of time is spent sleep, Z amount with rest, Alpha amount of energy, Beta time spent shitting ect...) "Digital Mathematics" > Using computer tools for certain tasks (calculations, flow charts, graphs ect..) Pickup, dating economics, sexual experimentation & Social science Geography, geo maxing & lifestyle optimization Cognitive efficiency, General efficiency & optimization, neural efficiency, cognitive science, Minimalism, "less is more", "saying more with less", List of most useful scientific qoutes & concepts (Hose pipe example based off Newtons law : "Less inputs into system = More Power per volume" or something, "General Interest Post" I have become quite interested in Applied Mathematics - Anything general that just interests me I will batch all in to 1 post.

Since when was it about sexual exploitation. That concept is way over blown. Me going to Brazil because I have better chances of being attractive where there is less competition (E.g going to events where there's litterally a 70:30 women to man ratio), way more attractive girls who value health and are actually my type too is not exploitation. Also, being fun, confident, humorous charming adventurous + learning good game is nothing to do with exploitation. They have to be attracted for it to work, I don't want to trick anyone in to sleeping with me, or dating me. It's not like me or most people just care about sex either. I want to find friendships, and I'd rather become friends with girls I sleep with, I would move to Brazil or Mexico because I see a lot of beauty in these countries, in the nature, the culture is fascinating and I am an adventurous type. If you do have to become "highly manipulative" though oh well that's life, "manipulation" is everywhere anyway, it's not inherently evil. You do what you gotta do.

@Lucas-fgm I'm from Uranus, west side. We got a civil war with East, these alien battles are brutal.

having 3 2-3 hour naps per day would really suit my personality & desired lifestyle. I don't want to sleep 8 hours - wake up, have my day then go to bed. That is boring & inconvenient for me. I need structured chaos. RIght now I am drained, but I dont want to be. I want a quick nap & then I want to wake up & start using my brain, ideas, producitivty, creativity. I don't want to chill for 3 hours & then hope to fall asleep for 8 hours then wake up, then do my 2 hour routine ect... That sucks. I want to have a quick nap right now & then continue with my flow & train of thought. It gets lossed in 8 hour sleeps + morning routines. Is this lifestyle possible to implement without any detriment to health? I want to sleep 6-8 hours per day, but only in 2-3 hour intervals max. Say 3-4 naps per day. I like the feeling of being constantly on the go. This would enable a heavy work life // Night life lifestyle. Night life is kind of incompatible with 1 block of 8 hours sleep too.

I have really thick skin. I would rather people voice away authentically, dw about it bro Btw I have zero desire to pro create. That's such a low IQ move. Even an idiot like me realized this very early on. ITS ABORTION TIME YEAHHH ABORTION TIME MMM BABY

Move to Brazil + psychedelics + become divine god by regularly expressing innate creativity + make ridiculous $ + learn pickup = Abundance of beautiful women , become King of the Incels. Lord Chadacel the 1st of Sau Paulo

I am not lame. Maybe I was being lame, but I am not lame. Don't categorize me into that group of people please. This is a temporary perspective I have been considering this week, this isn't normally me. Time to take some pride back here. I am awesome, but so are you. It's cool bruh.

I'm not judging anyone especially women This isn't about whining or women hating. Just a blackpill realisation that I don't quite measure up for the overwhelming majority of attractive women and cant compete. Even for 7's. Although this is not actually my primary worldview usually, I have been working on myself this year and doing approaches when I had time, but to no avail, It seemed maybe blackpill was saving me from wasted effort ... not that I'm afraid of trying properly, I can be a warrior if I want to be, I've faced hardships before ... & of course I can be weak sometimes too, but this is a problem of intellectuality, not laziness, I'm willing to the put in the work, it's just I'm struggling to believe it's possible for me, because of "the science". I don't even care about models lol. I'm not looking for some perfect supermodel girl, as long as I'm attracted it doesn't matter. In fact, I HAVE TO move to a 3rd world country. I actually despise western countries and have a strong prefernce for latinas anyway. Not just because they are my type physically, but they take pride in being feminine, sexy and spontaneous

@Tangerinedream sometimes it is enjoyable to be an asshole, sometimes the shadow side is tasty.

@Tangerinedream Go eat shit

@Tangerinedream Don't ever tell me what to. How about you just .... F*** Off Go on ban me from this forum I don't care anymore, it's not helpful anyway.

Fair enough ... although I do actually have some experience ... but probably not enough, the sample size isn't large enough. You may be right. Anyway, I am leaving this forum, Probably going to meditate and try fix my sleep because I am not in a good place, I don't want peoples opinions and this forum just makes me more miserable, my fault for playing into this. This forum is like a force multiplier, when you're content, you look for good stuff to improve your life, when you're feeling shit & weak, you find stuff to reinforce it. In fact the mind itself is a force multiplier, thinking is the accelerator of your internal state, thus the solutions is always to feel into your state, get out of your head (and if you're lucky enough to have friends or family) to perhaps distract yourself with them for a while and get away from thinking or distract yourself with hard work, exercize ect.. I am leaving the nasty world of intellectual, and doing some marshal arts, meditation. Good bye world, fuck you mind.

@something_else This is a fair comment, and has been my position for the last year, I am not a " bitter incel" but I am a fluid minded person, I have recently internalised black pill iedology (not as rigid dogma) and it just makes sense with my experiences and statistics But I can't deny with your comment, this is a discussion, as I say, prove me wrong, debunk me if I am wrong, agree with me where I may be right ... this is all for the greater good to challenge assumptions.

This is true but I'm not talking about creepy men. I'm talking about bad looking or low value men, who get treaded with disrespect and contempt, rather than just a polite no thanks but I am flattered ect... Since when do I not have empaty for the "struglles women might face". This is purely a dating discussion, within the context of wealthy & 1st world countries. You don't know me nor do you know what my overall world view is, so please do not generalise 1 comment into "I have no empathy towards women" because that is not true. This is purely talking about dating here. You have proved my point excactly. Calling incels "legit dangerous" is extreme and unhelpful. The type of person who shoots up a school is dangerous, he is a vary rare edge case, generalizing men who are just too short or ugly into "dangerous" is pretty statistaclly innacurate. By the way, the word "incel" itself is dangeours, and needs to be seen as like using the N**** word, it's a stupid word and you're derogatory if you use and abuse it.

@Lucas-fgm Fair play, I Hope that is true and possible but It is just reality is so harsh and shallow, I don't know anymore, perhaps I am wrong, but the black pill guys provided such compelling arguments, far more cogently with more evidence than Leo would argue otherwise.

Again, I feel that I have mis represented myself here in this post. My main dilemna is : Be red pill > do pick up & improve myself & constantly get rejected due to women's impossible standards Have some pride > completely cut myself out the dating game and focus on building good deep friendsships with guys, because this is gauranteed to bring happiness and will not be dependent on my looks or status but is very realistic, ignore attractive women, act like I don't care, completely filter them out, focus on purpose and becoming rich and then hire high quality hookers if I need those needs sorted Right now I need to clear my head from this and forget that women and dating exist ... I think I need to travel and find some friends, because yes reality making me miserable and it's getting boring. Maybe take some psychedelics to escape reality to, because reality overall just sucks.