Striving for more

What I expected before Microdose : Neurogenesis, good mood, mental stimulation, creativity, insights, work ethic. I had all of this for about 30 minutes, But once it properly kicked in, I just couldn't stop sweating. I'm still sweating now. So much face sweating. Must be toxin related.

It's fucking brutal to realize how much you have been constantly bombarded with all this crap, and still probably are. I have lived on main roads before too and everything I eat still is packaged & not organic because organic vegatbles dont even exist in nearby supermarkets. Everything is fucked, I'm not even gonna test myself because it's so fucking obvious I'm toxic. I've got these annoying ass dark rings under my eyes too that have got substantially worse even this year, and I chose to ignore my health for like 4 months & I seriously paid the price, I think all the pollution & the garbage food & plastics fucked up my face lol. my face looks like it aged 10 years in those couple months & it's not getting any better. I've also noticed some sudden hair loss & receding too. Didn't expect hair loss given my ancestry.

Micro dose Report initial reaction - Exceptional. Increased focus mood enthusiasm 2. After Reaction - (after 1-2HR of taking pill) Sweaty not great for concentration, too sweaty decent mood but just reaction feels a bit too physical, just too sweaty Possible Complications : Imperfect diet (dairy ect..) ** Listened to a blackpill video > Dumb idea, probably dampened mood a bit, I normally lay off that shit Sweating might be due to allergic reaction to shaving cream > used a lot today & it's defo got tons of chemicals Possible chemical sensitivity to any additives or stablaising agents. Claims to be vegan & oragnic ect.., but theres some chemicals I dont know on the ingredients (reputable company tho) Going to do some squats in the rain, play some music, then have a shower Will see If i'm able to focus after that Perhaps microdosing is good social lubricant but not for productivity Or perhaps I should try halving my dose, because the initial reaction was perfect, when it had "sort of" kicked in. Edit : It's absolutely pouring in rain outside & I ran outside, took my shirt off & did like 100 squats. That felt so good. Just added a cup of rishi mushrooms to the mix. Evening & I'm super stimulated, gonna get straight back to work. Not sure if I'll sleep tonight (Yes it's christmas eve, yes I am all alone & sure i'd rather be getting my dick sucked & chilling out a little, but I don't have any social options right now so I might as well get to work).

Edit : Took my 1st ever microdose. Edit : delete my thoughts. "A wise man once never said nothing at all".

Been spending too much time on forum recently. My Initial intention is pure I come to pose a specific question, or look for certain answers But then ... I get lost. I get lost in mental masturbation, I get triggered by weird stupid snobby enlightenment people I get triggered I also get lost >> Novelty Bias & Dopamine NONONO I will directly pm anyone who is necessary for me. But I am taking some time away from this forum, from leo & all the people again. I must remind myself that joy & sucess is relative to me, my own intution & personality. I can't be triggered by people with different brains personalith values I cant become a sheep constantly just learning from others. And there's very few people I envy on here. Even if you're successful, like some guys here just talk like they're fucking boring ass old man professor, or some boring self help robot. Like bro get a hot gf and go to a fucking mountain, smoke some weed & be silly, just for a change, be fucking human. See what I mean, trigggered, annoyed at peoples differences FOCUS ON MYSLEF, I LOVE ME & I LOVE MY GOALS. LETS PERSUE THAT. Time for visualizations, deep music & CONSTANT Action, 90% I have been working hard this week, but theres a solid 30% of my time being lost to overusing forum & other distractions, & especially when that 30% is interuptting flow states, that's fucking deadly. Time to keep it simple & focus on my life : What do I want, what makes me happy & at peace? I already know More free time No more leos vids or forum - I've learnt enough myself & Direct exprience is king, anyway who cares about self help so much its gd but my goal is to fucking LIVE LIFE, not to watch videos So focus on embodyment & living life, socialziing social spirituality, money. Keep it simple now. Lots of juicy money & success relationships travel, quickly fucking move country, do it fast get away from this country I hate it So much FUCKKKK FUCK FUCK change envrionment Better health > murcury detox & refine my diet more Positive atmosphere > Get away from toxic family Aliveness > risks, meet lots of different people Tons more socializing & pick up Been so alone & introverted recently, not by choice but because I am sorting my digital & fincancial stuff. But hurry up will you! fuck I take so long to do sutff Need to cut down the cottage cheese, eating it for cheap protien but probs giving me brain fog

Anyone got any tips, it's pretty important for all the research I do & work

just stop being a pussy and go approach women in real life. Are you a super hot male model guy? If you are then go on tinder & get 20 matches for your face & perfect body dimensions. * Edit : tbh though even if you're super attractive, it's probably better to focus on real life, the lowest quality of women use tinder, and they will mess you about too. So uninspiring seeing this shit. Pick up to me is a process of getting the shit beaten out of me psychologically until I finally breakthrough, and eventually after all the failures, I become fucking casonova Edit @ValiantSalvatore I didn't even read ur post properly excuse my comment was stupid yeh There's no point even posting about this subject if your chad tho, just approach no girl will reject you.

Is it really a solid rule like gravity or Force = Mass X Acceleration? Why couldn't you master something in 5000 hours, or 7000 hours ?

@Username Being high energy has it's downsides. If you're too high energy & talkative, it's easier to say the wrong thing & give your power away. I guess if you're high energy you'd need to learn to tame it & use it in the right context (and switch it off appropriately)

I'm still confused about what my intution is with Owen. On 1 hand he's charismatic & I've rarely see someone like owen. But he says a lot & 90% of the time I'm like ehh? wtf did he just say? Tooo many words, like just fucking tell me what to do man. I have found more concise teachers so who instantly teach me stuff. Either I don't understand Owen or he just likes to talk nonsense, but I'm sure he has some gold, I'll check in on him now & then.

I agree but I still think 10,000 is a rediculous arbitrary number. 5000 (Intense & deep) hours is still hard gruelling work I want to master things in 5000 hours & say fuck you Malcom Gladwell, Look Bitch! Then I can continue enjoying my deepening of mastery until 10,000 hours & beyond

Very nice please share any results.

Same issue. Why does it take "at least 10 years", couldn't someone master in 6 years? Where's your proof? Also if you are quantify mastery as >10 years, you're claiming that Mastery takes specifically 10X365X24=87,600 Hours Or do we only count waking hours? >>> 10X365X16= 58,400 Hours "10 years" depends on how many hours are spent of each day of those 10 years unless you are being exact about 87,600 Hours. I read some reditt posts & all agrees just a catchy rule to sell his book, and fair enough. It's obviously bullshit.

@flowboy Excellent video. This could've saved me years of personal development traps. @higherself418 Great list thanks! I really like that list.

Anyone Initially negative people who did the 7 Day Positive Thought Challenge (Tony Robbins, Actualized.org) .. Did it work? did you thoughts become positive, did you faith & confidence increase & your hesitation + procrastination decrease? Did it lead to more action, results or money ect.. ? Will it unwire decades of negativity? Also does the optimism list work? Do Affirmation work too ? I must admit that I am more open minded ever since I realized that NLP Most likely works.

65 core principles of the good life What it means to go Meta The Counter-Intuitive Nature Of Life The Power Of Letting Go Power of asking questions

Restructuring my one note is the most important thing I can do for my entire life. No amount of content (tabs book notes tricks to do lists articles art ect...) being placed on there will change my life. Because without a deeply intuitive, navigable & seamless structure, every bit of content will become losed in a cloud of mess, & I will lose interest & hope (again). I am creating a deeply powerful intuitive navigable 1 note system. Highly effective, the engine that drives every possible domain of my life. 4 hours every evening devoted to creating this structure, I will not stop until I create one that works & sticks. If it takes me 1 whole month, fuck it.

It disgusts me everyday looking back at my journals. So many fucking excuses, attitude still sucks kinda I can still achieve no matter what state I'm in. There's a lot to unwire, I just want it to HURRRY UPPP MAN FUCK! I did a lot of focus this evening but couldn't carry on at 9PM. 1 big limiting issue I have is : No matter what mood I'm in, say after 9PM, My brain automatically goes into stupid utube video mode. Solutions?? >> Perhaps more Anchoring Practice > can't wait to see if I can create an anchor that guarantees deep focus And at this stage of my life, I want to devote almost every second of my free time to Mastery. If i'm not mastering money skills business then I am mastering pickup or relationships. Watching dumb utube videos with other people is alright, that's part of the mastery of rest & relationships. But when I'm alone & have no on to meet? I want every waking second alone to be devoted to mastery. Around others I can watch soccer & stupid films & talk stupid, but that's cool, but again EVERY SECOND SPENT ALONE DEVOTED TO MASTERY. I've secretly wanted this shit since I was 14, but my mindset self esteem & encouragement was so bad that there was just no way it could happen. But there would be glimpses of me sitting at the piano in music class, feeling inspired & interested in mastering it, or language class, I was even aware of pickup intuitively from 14 & I liked the idea of futuristic technology, but I never curated anything because I was discouraged form doing so my point is that I believe I have a genetic passion for life that many lack, it's just obviously any hints of passion I had naturally were quickly dampened to extinction very quickly & I was just so foolish & clueless, funny how it was a fish in water problem, the biggest personal development step is to realize personal development exists, and that it's worth it, that mastery is possible, that results are possible and dont have to take 10 years but can come pretty quick if you do it properly. I'm exited for the mastery of life. I'm becoming a master chess player & I'm thinking 9 moves ahead now, a storm is coming Mr wane. This evening I focused solely on structure, learning structure, books about structure, journal structure, going meta, learning how to learn how to do stuff faster what I should stop doing what isn't worth it, meta productivity, how to communicate easier how to automate delegate how to save more time here & there & here. Structure, meta thinking, leveraging time,

Got nuked by brain fog this afternoon. Must remind myself that Mercury chelation & the removal of brain fog is the highest priority. Need to get serious about devising a plan for Mercury Detox. Gathering Intel/Knowledge (Get leos vid notes + organize andy cutlers notes + FB Group notes) Gathering of Resources Structure & planning (Includes both structure/planning of chelation rounds with milestones & timeframes but also strcuturing all notes facts & tips about this topic using bookmarks folders & 1 Note) I slept 6 hours last night. (I noticed Leo mention this in his mercury symptoms list) > Sleeping 6 hours makes me feel like I have lost 50 IQ points, my brain loses nearly all it's energy after about 2 hours of use. "Just sleep 8 hours bro" > Is not realistic everyday. There will always be times where u need less sleep or no sleep, or u have no control over your sleep. This sensitivity is a weakness I refuse to accept is genetic and another reason to chelate. ** Edit : Need to consider if I have bad dust allergy too - could this casue me brain fog/fatigue? Dusty room today, consider this (allergies are mercury symptoms anyway so another reason to chelate)

@mmKay I'm joining you on this challenge, thanks for reminder.

I'm hurting inside with the alter ego like back & forth swing between mediocrity & productivity. I will do visualizations this evening. I have set my alarm for 6AM. I Will wake up whether I'm tired or not, and I'm willing to burn myself the fuck out this week until I have moved, to new lands. No visa, no right to work, no plan, no where to live. About 5K left in my bank account, 70% of it in fluctuating investments that could either fall to zero or go much higher. But what can I have? Faith & Courage & lots of bools. Fed up i've been in my mums basement for 2 months straight now. Arguments, bad energy & feeling guilty. I'm fed up but I feel that emotionality won't help me. Stern stoic seriousness, I won't repress my desire but I won't let exitement get in the way. I'll hold that extreme desire in & it will still be there but it will be kept in check like a nucleur atomic bomb waitin to explode in catharsis, like Bruced willis in the hostage. where he doesn't finally reveal a hint of emotion until his family are safe & mission's accomplished because he was dead eyed laser focused, I have to see myself as bruce willis right now, & avoid all the deulsion & over excitement, but also escape lethargy & comfort. Whilst also keeping everything dead simple & step by step. I won't disrespect the enemy, who is my own mind, my own weakness, fears, comfort mechanisms. Give me that posh exotic girl. Or give me that raw jungle Girl. Give me that dirty girl. Give me that classy girl. Give me that elegant french girl. Give me that wild Rock n roll girl. Give me motos, give me night light, give me morning life, give me snow & give me sunshine, give me money & give me fulfillment. GIve me life. No more fucking around, This life is so special. I can't just do this for myself now, I have to pay respects to all those guys who didn't make it, who didn't make it out the sperm bank or didn't make it out depression, didn't make it out the system (& now old) or couldn't escape the madness of their own mind. I have to pay respect. I have to be dead serious about my life, but dead serious is not a fixed stoic state, it is an attitude, dead serious includes fun & pleasure, but it must be High quality. Because I can gain pleasure watching youtube & eating food on my own in my mums basement, but that's a sad low quality form of pleasure. Real pleasure takes work & real fun & joy & letting go in my situation takes dead serious work & planning. And that's why I fucked up my entired winter this year, a lack of planning & getting lost in my own mind. I can't allow this again, I have to fight against my own mediorcity, but I keep getting cocky & underestimating the force of limiting beliefs & distraction & all this shit. 10 year goals in 6 months. Give me everything, become god.

Many examples suggest this isn't true though? Leonardo DiCaprio started dating his hot GF & she was 22 years old. He's fat & also looks his age. I will mostly approach young woman but tbh if a hot woman is 60 years old, I would still sleep with her, yes I will repeat that no fucks given, I like them MILFS. So why couldn't a young girl be into a 40 year old guy? doesn't make sense to me. Men lose their virlity slower & value can increase with age too. There's many high value guys with girlfriends much younger than them. This has happened for Millenia. I'm saying this prospectively because when I am 40, I still will want access to women of all ages.

@ValiantSalvatore Yes accountability thing is super useful. I wish I found this a long time ago. It's easier to recognize your own bullshit when someone else points it out, it's also good to feel like others are watching you & knowing you can either be a source of inspiration or look pathetic.

I always valued anecdotal evidence the most. Even if studies did provide more validity, study results would have no persuasive impact on me. I couldn't care less about ever reading a study, I need to hear a person's experience 1st hand.

Yep, I might try a bit of affirmations. But my main thing will be visualization & NLP/Anchoring > Minimum 10 minutes every evening.