Natasha Tori Maru

Fuck, really kicking me in the hard nuts with this one. I will admit, I have a terrible ball-less non-answer; its both. It's a pendulum swing for me that is constantly in need of balance. Living truthfully for me is about integrity of action. Ruthless, honest action where I am congruent. My words align with execution. Follow-through. Ruthless follow-through. This was a hard earned lesson for me that did not come naturally. But it is necessary for my survival and basic wellbeing needs. To reduce mind chatter and anxiety. To bring abundance. Grounded. Human Living for truth; a devotion to a cause, ideal, what-have-you. God, Love, unity, infinity, reality, awakening, enlightenment. Surrender. The way things really are. Living for Truth always pulls me upward and beyond. Deep inquiry and ungroundedness. Understanding illusion. I delight in it, but the swing to the absolute can lacerate life from me if I am not careful. This was my more natural way. So, it's both. And none. At the same time. Empty & full. The pendulum swings back and forth - and when I was younger, the swing radius was huge. Life goes. As I have aged the swings are smaller, quicker, less dramatic - but balance is emerging for me as the pendulum begins to still. I feel alignment and integration in this space. Almost as if the Absolute (living for Truth) and the relative (living truthfully) are unifying. I do not know if this is a good answer. But it just came out like no one wrote it. As if channelled.

This is hearsay - but someone briefly mentioned to me he wrote about this on his website. Blog perhaps. I did not look into it myself. You could search there if directly asking him isn't your style.

It's a good message for you, isn't it? It made the desired impact. Good day 😏

Jubilantly received To be sure, you do not even know what I claim. Your inferences and assumptions are as vague as fumes dissolving in a mirage. Which is why the fool thing sorta fell flat 🙃

I read my own signature again and again through this thread, I am glad it got through you.

Why not inquire further?

I prefer this eating timing also I do not like to cut out or restrict anything. I am firm in that I believe the best diet is the one that you can maintain, within certain principles. If you cannot sustain something, it simply isn't going to get you the results you want (ie bodyfat gain/loss, muscle gain/loss, health/homeostatic balance. Having said that, me personally? I do have some digestion issues that mean some things I must be conscious of dose. Simply put I mainly eat plants, eggs, fish, small amounts of cheese and once a week some red meat in the form of kangaroo (not farmed, in Australia these animals are culled due to overpopulation, so I prefer to eat this type of red meat for sustainability reasons). Fruit, vegetables 70% - the rest fish/eggs/cheese/meat. Spices, herbs and no sauce. I eat a lot of EVOO - by the spoonful in my food. I don't have a problem adhering to this. I do not even consider other food varieties as options. I prefer to think of food as little as possible and stick to similar meals in rotation so I can get on with all the other stuff I am not a food oriented person. I do enjoy food for sure. But I feel like thinking about food, preparing, shopping, organising, recipes, takes up a lot of 'mind space' and I like to free my mind from all overthinking and anxieties. Having said that, I will break my own rules for customary occasions. I am not rigid. Balance and homeostasis are what I consider healthy!

Needs inquiry.

To be clear - I was not accusing you of subscribing to this ideology. Merely expounding on how it can perpetuate and be amplified due to other sources, and act as a confirmation bias when we have experiences with bad people. Didn't mean to imply it was an idea you picked up, as it seemed clear you were speaking from experience 🙏 The converse is also true - women can pick up hypergamy from these online apps and social media echo chambers. It can make them feel justified and feed ego in negative, narcissistic ways. This does not mean it is their natural state/behaviour. Group think.

What is love? It is interesting how you reject compassion.

Nice try.

That you are emotionally disturbed and need to cool it.

This is bricking users brains if you ask me. There has been no enquiry into what is. The isness of love. At the heart of the confusion. huehuehue a pun, the self disgust is great

This is my lived experience also. Based off 25 years of my own relationships, and seeing the relationships of my friends, family and associates. In concrete reality, not any artificial online sphere. Society. The 'hypergamy' of women being peddled is all from social media statistics and dating apps where there is a 75/25% split of men/women, respectively. Social media and red pill proponents take this statistic, that is created from the inequal split of users sex, and extrapolate the data onto reality. Behaviour under artificial scarcity is simply not real-world mating behaviour. It subtly disempowers men with disillusionment/resentment. It is just classic category error dressed up as data being sold as 'female hypergamy' as a result of this platform-distorted behaviour. Obviously there are going to be some turd women in the bucket who WILL do this. But they are the minority.

It is definitely not about pretending to be anything other than what is felt. It is more how it comes out - instead of neutral, directionless expression, sarcasm and derision, even sometimes vitriol, is being directed at users. The above, in conjunction with the hubris of thinking you can know anyone's experience, very much appears as an individual in egoic grip. You have to admit - there is nothing direct/tangible/quantifiable about this claim. It is based on inference and assumption. I do see these points. My assessment? There is some cognitive dissonance present causing the emotional disturbance. You claim no one else is listening, or hearing, and you walk away in good faith, not judging other users intelligence/delusion 'They just misunderstood/misheard/didn't listen. If only they listened, they would understand'. OR - you are forced to come to the realization others are listening - but they do not agree with you. In which case, you may be inclined to think they are beneath you. Less intelligent. Thus - the emotion comes out directed at a user in an unconscious way, rather than just felt. If the emotion was just felt consciously and was based on discernment and not judgement, the gap between feeling and action would be larger. Giving you breathing room to express in your typical, neutral, deep inquiry based way. The above might not be true at all - it is simply my inference based on what little information has been presented in conversation within this thread. I do not labour under any delusion - this can and has been said and is/has been true of Leo. Do you think I would shy away from calling Leo out if I felt he was emotional, condescending and out of line? I have. Numerous times. And I will continue to do it. I like a gentle way as I do not like to provoke others into more distress (although, sometimes I can be quite mean and trolly. I am a piece of shit sometimes). To be frank, I would not have remained as moderator giving my time to the community and running this place if Leo did not take on board criticism and adjust. I have witnessed this subtle change in his conduct. Contrast how he is now to some of his previous vile expletives directed wantonly at members in the past. I cannot see him doing that now. A function of integrity and how we all naturally raise consciousness. It becomes anathema to the soul to operate on levels where our own conduct does not align with our level of awareness. This is where you can see Leo progressing in grounding and embodiment. The difference - and why I called you out and not Leo - is because it is you @UnbornTao who is out of character at the moment. Leo has been very neutral and true to himself with phrasing, intonation, pace and tone in this thread. I see no deviation. But I do see that change in tone/expression in you. Which is what disturbs me, gives cause to worry for you. Even when I clashed with you earlier - you apologised for being blunt. But bluntness does not cause me offence. Not many people here either (its Leo lol, par the course). It seemed to me you weren't even sure what you were apologising for. Because it wasn't bluntness that was offensive. I do not mean to attack you, I hope this was not felt as that. I come from a place of care. As much as I love the topics discussed here, I care more about ones wellbeing than anything else

It might do to investigate why you are so offended/appalled/disturbed/emotional regarding this topic. I think there is a good inquiry opportunity. And growth opportunity. Maybe issues with control. Or inner ideals not matching to reality. I am not remarking on this comment in particular - but the pattern of responses in this thread.

The roasting is real. I call the tradies 'bunch of cu***' all the time. Very loose with swearing, C-bomb. General ribbing. I don't know where it came from - maybe because we are a bunch of colonizing ex-crims from England If you call someone something benign, like donkey, peckerhead, clown - you'll cop a punch. Call someone 'Oy, cu**' and it will be received... a lot better !

You want to know something about me that makes me very un-worldy? I have never been outside of Australia. I have a serious lack of experience in this arena. I don't even have a fucking passport! WHAT! I was never in a stable enough place to be able to travel. If I had reason to travel, an aim or task - you better bet suddenly I would be getting a passport Life was sorta bad for me until 30. I was very insular from this. I want to see Italy for the art - the Sistene chapel. Germany's architecture. Japan for my family. USA for the turbo-extreme EVERYTHING. Crete for the other side of my family. I also want to travel around Australia. It just so happens my career exploded in the last 6 years, and it is only now I have enough to purchase an apartment and travel with the rest. I say Australia is good for balance, chill. Retirement. Pros. But it is NOT like the USA. You can make it big in the US. The opportunity there is huge. Obviously, the difficulty is massive also, many people in the US struggle. But you can't be so entrepreneurial and fucken make BANK in Australia like there. I don't know what sort of blender that animal went through in its creation. I sort of dislike it, what the fuck kind of leftovers were used for it?! It's like the reheated leftover scrap pizza of animals.

I really appreciate that I had a hard start to life. Not everyone makes it. I am still trying to figure out how/why I did. I can tell you one thing though, I am more resilient than most. I bounce back from failure and wipe past thoughts about it clean. I just take what I need to learn from how I failed, and try again. And I never stop. I don't let things deter me. This one was element about myself that grew in strength through the years, as I begun to apply it to more and more domains of life. I take ruthless action. Mind rewiring followed dramatic action. Not the other way around.

I like it here. Melbourne has wild weather. Amazing architecture & culture. Hodge podge of all different kinds. The sun is not to be fucked with. It will fuck you. It is cloudy out - you will be mercilessly incinerated. Regardless. The bush is not to be fucked with. It will fuck you. I came across a woman on the weekend who had been bitten by a tiger snake, not 3 minutes from my apartment (inner city, 6km from CBD). She got help. Is ok There are some shit aspects. But overall I think Australia is balanced, which is what it has going for it.

@UnbornTao It is hard to tell between the frenzied replies and sarcasm.

@UnbornTao I recommend the book.

https://www.amazon.com.au/Book-Not-Knowing-Peter-Ralston/dp/1556438575

I read it when I was 14. I LOVED it. The chapter where they were slowly suffocating put the fear in me. I recall that fear when I read Red Dragon by Thomas Harris / Bram Stoker's Dracula (not on par as literary classics, like Moby Dick, mind you). Red Dragon in particular messed me up. I do alright with really dense material ie Bronte Sisters, Tolkien etc. This is a big claim - you must have taken some big meanings/lessons/truth from the book.

Disappointed. You can never know someone else's experience.