Natasha Tori Maru

I do not stop because I cannot be perfect. I limber around, happily imperfect and never knowing ⟵⁠(⁠๑⁠¯⁠◡⁠¯⁠๑⁠)

This is just so open a question, I could answer it in ten pages or none. Like asking the meaning of life 🤪 Why not? Just because the tool isn't perfect ... We can point together

@Breakingthewall gotcha, I think the way it was written reversed the meaning. @theleelajoker not sure regarding your rant, I think you pulled a comment out of context. Maybe some assumptions there about what you perceive I may be aware of, or not. Or what I am really pointing to. Words don't have any inherent meaning without context. You can be more or less accurate/defined. I think you assume a lot about my context. No where did I say words are reality or can describe truth in totality.

I wish! Transhumanism is garbage

Never expected to see this, but here we are. Not a fan of Andrew Huberman. But Dorian is great. For anyone that doesn't know Dorian Yates is a legendary English bodybuilder, six-time Mr. Olympia winner (1992-1997) nicknamed 'The Shadow'. No bullshit, straight to basics. Takes a dump on 'exercise science' while he is at it. Fuck 'Dr' Mike Israetel tbh. I'd listen to Dorian over him any day. He knows his shit. He has taken a health-centric approach in his later years. Stimulate, don't annihilate. He is also pretty big on psychedelics. @Jannes

I was never told this. And I do not think this. These are your assumptions. You are speaking of yourself here too, you realise? You do not escape this. This is human nature. You do not have to. But the question remains - you keep posting. Keep professing. Keep claiming sovereignty. There is something you are seeking, nebulous as it may be. So the question remains - what can we assist you with? Those who are confident and self assured, rarely need to repeatedly profess things in an unprompted and emphasised way. You do not strike me as confident in your conclusions. There is something you are wanting with posting, no? Are you numb, and seeking a battle in an attempt to feel something? I am not sure. You tell me

Genetics is always the limiting factor. I wasn't sure if you were really into the BB scene or just fan of some of the characters. I am sure you recall the grapefruit fiasco, no? Huehuehue

Is spirituality about emotions? Is it true only if it feels safe? Not wrong, but tautological.

I am not trying to minimise any experience you have had. Red markup by me. I just see this statement/description, and it leads me to believe you experienced something direct or unnammable. Perhaps not awakening. Or no self. I will never know for sure - it is your experience. There could be more to be realised in that space, it was not reductive for me. There was paradox. In addition - trying to 'see the point' might be limiting in these arenas. Maybe, anyway.

For me, in my experience. Yes.

Creatine has been a huge benefit to me. As a reference, I begun using it without adjusting anything else diet/lifestyle wise. I started on 5g for weight training/hill sprints/mountain biking. Benefit 100% power wise. No water retention, but muscles were fuller. Gradually went up to 20g a day. Past 10g I found incredible nootropic benefits: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/110771-creatine/ Still going strong. Still find great benefit. Gastrointestinal issues subsided as I slowly increased dose. 10g 5:30am in morning coffee pre-exercise, 10g midday coffee to work through until 7pm. I cannot take it later than 12 or I am up all night. Require on average 1hr less sleep.

Sort of, yes. I am a moderator after all. I am an arbiter of the forum guidelines. This is a silly question - yes? He he he Only insofar as my role allows. Subjectively I am free, within guidelines, to give you unsolicited views and opinions as I so wish. Tell me what? I do not understand what you are referring to.

Do you prefer practical in-camera effects during filming (SFX) or digital effects post-production (VFX)? I understand many like both - but this is about what you prefer Might be interesting to add your age too! For demographics. VFX examples: CGI creatures CGI/Digital environments Green/Blue screen compositing De-aging actors/adding makeup Blending Motion Capture SFX examples: Explosions (controlled pyrotechnics on location Weather effects on-set Animatronics/puppets Stunts Stop Motion animation There is a bit of overlap with stop motion/motion capture as both effects require SFX & VFX to pull off. I consider stop motion animation to be more SFX though.

I think that is SO open to preferences and interpretation ! Totally subjective. I have 2 sealed subs, a centre, left/right and rear left/right connected to an amp/receiver. I purchased each speaker separately through a process of listening and sampling each at a high end audio shop. They set up a range of different amps/speaker combos to listen until you find the sound you prefer. It just so happened the sound I preferred cost that much. I did add speakers over time from a simple amp/stereo set. Some people do not need as much equipment to get to something special. I have always been obsessed with sound and soundstages. I love tweaking my setup to get to that precise sound I love!

@theleelajoker Gotcha. As I read through, it seemed to me you were organically putting to text these concepts you were seeing played out as repeated patterns, in your own unique way. You gave me the ammo - I just simplified so I could better understand your perspective I find summarising back helps a lot to avoid misunderstanding. Muchas gracias!

You have the best reference pool in that brain of yours. A catalogue of delicious delights. Always a treat

@Joshe Clean & balanced. I would possibly increase the font boldness or contrast for the vision impaired (appears just below normal contrast levels on my monitor). You ableist piece of shit You can come at me for unsolicited advice, COME AT ME

Absolutely - and I love the clip (I think it is directed by David Fincher!) with Paz on the bass joining in the singing at the point you describe. Baller when she ties her hair up in rapid time between bars Music is huge for me. Always has been. I have always said a new album, or live music to sit and listen to, is better than a meal! I still frequent Jazz clubs, live venues etc. I go alone or with others. I spent $10k on a sound system with my first tax refund and I have hauled it around with me to many homes as I have moved. Music big for you?

@theleelajoker Thank you! Concept vs direct experience is how I loosely understand this - if I am correct? I do notice your definition for 'Description Oriented' includes: Which would be additional context I was missing. Egoic interference. Cheers

You're*

Can you define what you mean by 'action oriented' and 'description oriented'?

@Twentyfirst What are you even talking about. I'm not talking about mens vs women's loneliness. I even raised it was from a female perspective. Stop making it men vs women. I don't run around attempting to invalidate mens issues and suffering. So neither should you regarding anything women experience. Thanks.

It might be an attempt to bridge the gap, rather than further seperate. If real understanding is the aim. Depends on if the enquiry is genuinely open, and no one attempts to deny anyone elses view. You could look at it in a similar way as the solipsism threads everywhere 🤪 I suppose I do not feel so identified with masculine or feminine in a strong way. I just am. So I do not take offence. If I see someone genuinely trying to elevate one polarity over another I normally call it out. Do you see that happening here? I haven't seen a lot of the no-self, I am more awakened blah blah as much around here so much. Still sometimes happens.

@TruthFreedom I am not sure I can do it....I already know Judith by APC so well, and the story behind it. Loaded 🥹 It's still a regular on my playlists. I'll give the other one a listen anyway

It's a good point. I thought of this also. I think most assume we mean God consciousness.