Natasha Tori Maru

Maybe the want the LLM sycophantic Leo 🤢🤮 Instant gratification on demand is what kids want these days. Can't wait 30 minutes for Leo, need NOW

Oh shit man, really heavy. My heart goes out to you (⁠o⁠´⁠･⁠_⁠･⁠)⁠っ Tbh when you are a bit more volatile on the forums I just assume you are in a pit of hell & suffering ❤️

Very tired and overworked 🥹 But only for a moment will I feel like this. So no big deal! You? Are you able to repost your original topic? Many good forum posts disappeared in the migration.

I haven't followed a lot of this topic so far. But all I can say is half the science on lifting is... I dunno. Some seems legit. Some just seems like it is steering people into focusing on the wrong thing. Just progressively overload and up intensity each workout. Always make sure you bring intensity. Increase in whatever domain you are aiming for. Done

What do you consider the qualities of a woman?

So far so good. Hopefully it wasn't a massive pita. A noticeable improvement! I'll post here if I notice any juju on my end. Blog is full cooked. RIP Thank you very much

Also on preliminary scan, looks like posts made within the last ~4 hours have been lost.

@Leo Gura if this was just completed in the last 2 hours, I noticed a change. Snappy loading now, rather than the long pause > load.

Maybe? https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/113206-new-server-migration/

I find a discernment is an observation free of judging the experience as good/bad. There is a difference, probably why there are different words so we have clear distinction. I spent a bit of time on contemplating discernment / judgement. @Razard86 is very good with this part of our experience. And yep I agree regarding survival - it is why survival and spirituality run into incompatibility. Perhaps as we work on our conditioning more, judgement isn't as needed, because wisdom takes over. We can discern, but we do not need to ascribe good/bad as a judgement because wisdom will take over to guide survival (while remaining more spiritually aligned) after we learn the lessons in life. IE fire is danger, instead of 'I hate fire or heat'. I suppose then responsive wisdom will guide survival, rather than reactive judgement. I think this dovetails with dissolving conditioning - leading to wisdom guiding us. This is all not to say we do not have preferences to experience. Just not a good/bad or moral judgement. More 'this is not for me' over 'i hate this'

Yeah I do not think they cause each other - for me it is the external reality (co-arising subject/object experience) that triggers a different sort of state (so to speak). For me it does. As an example, when I simply observe something in my experience - like a small piece of skin on my cuticle loose - it causes a sensation. A mild niggling / tingling feeling. But when I start to view it as an irritation or I actively start pulling at the loose cuticle I begin to judge the experience as something I dislike. I want it to go away. This can sort of give it more volume in my mind. I think discernment leads to 'there is pain, sensation' whereas judgement leads to 'I do not want this, it is annoying, negative, I dislike it' etc. Overall the difference between judgement / discernment is subtle - but one really prolongs the negative state. I just experience judgement in this way as a bad feeling state. Discernment doesn't have that negativity associated. Might not be like this for you, just some subtleties in my experience and observation when body/sensation scanning, and tracing back to thoughts.

This - it engages you more yeah? Same for me. I also like hilly, punchy mountain bike rides of about 40k. They engage you in a similar way to smaller sprint / interval runs. @Judy2 Long distance running for me has always been easier because I can focus in a single minded manner easily. I suppose this is a 'zen' thing? But I do find the mind has less inherent external force contributing to the focusing when distance running. It is a discipline thing. It has a high barrier to entry - the 'mind' training part. Usually a lot of will and force is involved prior to it becoming a reflexive habit to engage in focus. My biggest, most profound and best insights happen when distance running. When sprinting or punchy-hill mountain biking, insights and clarity happen AFTER the exercise.

Do you think this could be a movement between active dissolution of conditionings, which, in my experience, can be very uncomfortable (and easily judged as being 'negative' or disconnected) and small breakthroughs following the conditioning being worked through? What follows after the removal or 'working on' of life's accumulated conditionings, feels like a peace. Mindfulness. Oneness. Unity. I soon swing back to being triggered by an event, experience, that reveals some other conditioning. This has been my path of 'integration' for a long while. The moments of peace, being and love are deeper and more extended with each oscillation. Not sure if that speaks to your experience. Lots of cleaning up.

Hell yeah!

infinite flowers within a flower @Ramasta9

@AION What do you consider to be 'feminine'? What that IS for you, not what it ISN'T?

Do we need to chase mystical experiences to develop spiritually? There is more truth to a petal on a flower, than a mystical experience. To me, anyway I suppose we can perform certain actions to make us more 'accident prone'. And maybe genetics mean we might 'trip' more easily into an 'accident'. Psychedelics can certainly rip the ground from under us into 'accident' territory! Could be just me that dislikes chasing 'mystical' elevated spiritual experience. At the end of the day, I find it to be just an experience. Divorced from what is.

@BlessedLion Obviously, there will need to be a flow to the structure of your conversation - so naturally not all questions will be attended to. Organically it might not even cover all questions and could reveal something totally different. What a great opportunity !

@LoneWonderer Cheers I appreciate that! Not everyone sees it like you do. Something something 'don't shoot the messenger' Kudos to yourself for speaking out also - I admire a steel pair Social approval is a big deal for survival.

@LoneWonderer Lots of verbal hazing goes on - and TONS of 'I had it hard, so now you get your trial by fire also' without circumstances being the arbiter - the site crew being the ones to put a newbie through the trial by fire. Totally wrong. Lots of repeated harassment / humiliation attempts that aren't simply pranks; shit like sending apprentices off to find 'left handed hammers', 'sky hooks' or asking them to request non-existent tools from other site crews / trades. Really playing on new guys ignorance and making them look stupid. Some of these guys really aren't the sharpest tools in the shed themselves. So to be cruelly hazed when they aren't confident is evil. Giving newbies pointless grinds with excessive harder jobs when there are easier ways. I saw one guy make an apprentice re-dig a trench that was fine and within spec for no reason. In the heat of summer. The poor guy had to go home feeling unwell, and being so new he had no idea his work was fine. The most insidious part about this is that it makes the hazee feel like this is all part of it. That it is acceptable to do this to the next lot of new crew. So the behaviour perpetuates as a form of hierarchy. Many of these guys do not know how to assert boundaries or stand up for themselves. I think this breeds a lot of that 'cup of cement' ' harden the fuck up' culture on construction sites that leads to really caustic and abrasive conduct. Moralizing toughness - but it is a destabilizing pressure. Not pressure that sharpens someone. I do not work as OH&S but I engage in in-depth social dynamics (I am logistics and coordination primarily) so I work to dissolve a lot of this stuff without having to call in force. Sometimes it is a simple matter of gently, but repeatedly and incessantly, calling out these tactics. Essentially, I nag these guys into submission. But this only works in my case because I pay their bills directly, so there is the potential for force to be used if they do not comply. I am comfortable calling people out without asserting my own power over them. I give them honest and candid feedback. I never explain myself. And I always focus on behavioural feedback and never character feedback. Emotionless delivery.

@Basman Yes hazing is really terrible. Nurses do it to each other - and it is RIFE on construction sites.

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Yeah I think low T could be an issue. I think there are a lot of new studies coming out about this being caused by microplastics in male gonads (if I am not mistaken). Really scary stuff. Apparently it effects men more than women. Man we are fucked as a race lol

Men have always been hardcore rejected by women. I do not think this is new. I do think many men these days are more hopeless and less 'what is the point'. Women too. Social media, nihilism, black pill. I don't think we can cleanly blame either sex for the issue. It is societal. People are the issue and not sex 🤣 Theres a privileged sort of expectation present formed though comparison, social media & lack of understanding of true intimacy. It might be important to realise many users are applying their own language and meaning to others here. More open enquiry is needed to understand all of our perspectives, instead of a cheap, easy label.

Disappointment is on the same axis as expectation. It is a projection and fantasy of a future outcome - which isn't inherently bad. We need to expect so we can plan. For survival. To learn and avoid danger. The sting is probably coming from some form of entitlement to the future projection. This might come down to conditioning. What are we consuming to form the future expectations?