Natasha Tori Maru

Furious Rich Piana energy. The mental is most of it, I do agree. 'Oh my God, I am just WRECKED from sleeping. I need then thousand bananas to recoup' LOL

I find there are 3 different things I am attempting to do when I listen to music - all are to enhance, alter, or have an experience just for itself. Listen for pure auditory sensation, analysis, pleasure, discernment to induce whatever state may come. Here I am seeking JUST the auditory experience and remove all other senses. Close my eyes. Still. Listen and select in an attempt to amplify/mirror or somehow assist me in expressing a mood, or emptying a mood/feeling/emotion by using music to dive deeper into it. Music to help articulate what state I am already in. I do not want to change my mood/state/emotion/feeling. I want to deepen it. Supplement another sense experience. Listen & select in an attempt to induce an altered state/mood/feeling/emotion based on what the music itself can induce in me. I am seeking to be influenced to change my mood/state/feeling/emotion. Supplement another sense experience. This then touches on each person receptivity to novel auditory experience. Depending on my own receptivity, music will play a different role.

Jesus this is terrifying. I had a really bad time on psychedelics for a bit and I was questioning all my beliefs - what was my subconscious trying to tell me when I continually saw these little egg bodied gremlins sucking my tits for milk and trying to hook me up to a machine that milked me? And were plotting to turn me into a breeding machine / milk feeder. This happened for a good year. These same egg things wanting my tits for milk. Horrible. I haven't had an experience where they showed up since - I figured it was some conditioning I was working through regarding not wanting kids.

Haha, imagine making plaster casts of your spigot and handing it out as a way to always remember you. What a nice gesture for the ex, very thoughtful LOL

Slang - admiring. Perhaps more Aussie trash verbiage lol - it is so rampant on jobsites, I pick it up and sometimes the lingo sneaks into when I am attempting to be more formal. I routinely also have to HARD sensor cu** from my vocab, it is that common in Australia to use this colloquially. Very quotidian here. The weirdest possible momento of the past!

WOAH, what! The man is mirin on another level with that. That's a hard no boundary from me. Out of curiosity did he cast it in plaster or... some sort of latex/rubber material? That would be one textured wall... Yeah this was always a worry for me, but the bulk of my modelling was prior to OF. Heaps of negative reels and darkroom prints. Sadly, the artist I worked with the most passed away. I have a lot of my old works. He committed suicide by drinking a bottle of wine and throwing himself off a cruise liner. Left a note, all his works he had done with dancers and models were distributed back to them in his will. So I received all my negatives in the post after his 'funeral'.

Oh yeah, totally - I noted the systematic nature of the post and point you raised. Was definitely only speaking from my own experience with more arty type stuff and photographers specifically. I thought your post was adding another layer of nuanced exploitation over and above my own experience - the sex funnelling.

What sorta fats? It could be a female thing - but I gained the best cognitive boost with additional fats + creatine. Egg yolks, raw fish oil (YUK, but the only way to get non-rancid shit), non-farmed fatty fish, sardines, kipper + avocados.

I've done a lot of modelling - mainly for photographers in art and avant garde dance / movement circles. I have always been very good at reading people, vetting photographers and selectively working only with those I trust. I've done topless modelling only with the photographers I had a good, professional working relationship with. But at the end of the day, it is a man and a woman in an incredibly vulnerable and intimate setting. There is always a somewhat convoluted muse type relationship present - and these can and are often laced with sexual energy. The best working relationships are those that are laced with this sexual friction - but no one ever acts on it. They are the most explosive creatively. Typically, they generate the best work - output is greater and to a higher standard. I have always been confident and clear with boundaries. I was never exploited. I always approached modelling and photography as a co-created process. A woman not as confident as me. A woman who is more agreeable. More capitulating - she is at great risk of being exploited. I have had girlfriends fall into bad situations where they were groped, exploited and assaulted. Photographers. You have to be supremely confident in your ability to select - and usually younger women do not have the wisdom and knowledge of men to be able to do so. And even instincts can be wrong. People can surprise you. It is a very sad state of affairs. And most of the time it is 'art' masquerading as a desire to lower the barrier of entry for sex with young, beautiful woman. This usually happens with youth and beauty are the currency and power is informal rather than explicit. Boundaries get blurry. A woman has to select for artists with a genuine artistic drive. But is is hard to vet this - and it gets murky fast.

@CARDOZZO it fucks those chicks up man... I've met the top Olympia female athletes. MY. GOD.

His basic shit is fine. His pillars. But all the stuff on top of eating / sleep well is where it gets murky. And the ideology of wanting to be Joseph smith and create a religion is troubling. How will you know what works and what doesn't? How will he discern that with his protocol changing constantly? How does he know how anything is working? There isn't enough control or rigor in his experiment. He's also a grifter. A slow grift. His products have been terrible in quality, cheapening everything across the board. To be honest, you haven't asked me what it is I don't like him for. So your judgement about discernment is more about your problems with me not liking Bryan and agreeing with you, than any discernment I have.

I think you guys might have some misconceptions about women in bodybuilding. As a chick who used to bodybuild, you don't just go near a weight and BOOM. Suddenly 10lbs of muscle on you. It is fucked how hard it is to put on muscle as a chick. Muscle on a chick is actually what keeps and gives her shape. It's only pics of flexing - or complete genetic freaks like Serena - who genuinely look jacked at rest. The aim isn't to maximise test - it's to put on muscle. There are other pathways of action to grow IE HGH. If you are natural hormones have to be in balance. You gotta be pinning to turn into a beast in general. And eating. And going hard. Chicks have so little test pinning is the only way to get massive. This is seperate to sexual / attraction preference of course. To each their own 😁

@Optimized Life she's a specimen no doubt 💪🏾ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

Boomer unc does DMT, ascends Takes all his delusion up with him into the hot air ballon Dem saucer eyes

We got some Bryan fans here ay? Lol

Locking this. Any other Mod or Leo feel free to open it if you please. It has devolved into a shit-fight and isn't going anywhere constructive.

NGL though it looks like he's busting the hardest nut

Heh heh Carl! Is this your spirit animal? I hope this is what it's like into enlightenment 🥹🥹🥹

You cannot really use high school divisions as a case. Pre-puberty.

I may be misunderstanding - isn't this a fear of suffering? And the fearing of the suffering is causing further suffering?

@Eskilon Hahaha all that spiritual work to have it come around to blended meat kangaroos with rocket fuel smoothies

I think it was mushrooms? But he has done 5-MEO in the past, he has a tattoo on his arm of the molecule. I have no idea why this makes me feel so viscerally sick - I think its the idea of blended meat. Blended meat. Those two words should never be used in a sentence together!!!! LEO! Also, it better be a fucking eco-environmentally friendly paper straw so it can get soggy and disintegrate with the weight of blended animal. Bro doesn't even need to mention who he is referencing for everyone to mutually understand hahahaha

Oh yeah, for sure. But the thing about Bryan Johnson is people are fucken FOOLED by that happy unc social media game he plays. It is funny watching people fall for charisma. But also... frightening! But he is a bit more benign. The grift is now in full force. If anyone knows anything about the mindset of mormon's and their culture, it is 100% obvious he has supplanted mornomism with techno-transhumanism and worshiping the AGI god for immortality

It was MEEEEE! That BITCH @Sandroew @No1Here2c @Leo Gura You GUYYYYS - You just want to come visit me with my troop of turbo-booster clad space kangaroos

I see what you see. It is clear where integrious behaviour is displayed 🤍