Natasha Tori Maru

@Ramasta9 Cheers! Incidentally I have experienced Hypo/hyperthyroid issues. Neither are very pleasant. It is genetic, and runs down the family side of my family.

There are many functions at play contributing to this dysfunction. Illustrating them has always been a huge portion of your work. Not to say sadness is an incorrect emotion in this instance. There's a possibility more subtle emotions hide underneath the label of sadness, that would reveal where the judgement portion would stem from. Stopping and observing in the next instance of the despairing might reveal more subtly in the feeling. Not sure. Feelings are a strange one, as they are a powerful and intelligent system evolved as a protection mechanism for survival. But they do all sorts of juju when the intellect is involved. Anyway, thanks for the dyadic

Do you feel disgust behind the judgement? It is a common one for me. And often I find the feeling of disgust arises prior to the thought judgement appearing - or me being aware of it. An extreme turn off is felt. On the flipside of the above - my feelings of disgust are simultaneous with deep compassion. I have a contradictory set of emotions/feelings that arise together; I understand what drives people to extremes of degeneracy. I also project my own capabilities heavily onto others; when they fall short I can be harsh. I remind myself often there are others out there who are simple. Double digit IQs. Developmentally behind. Brain damaged. I am in a position of privilege. It is very easy for me to project my aptitude onto others and judge when they fall short. There is a limit to responsibility in the absence of rational intellect, education and competency.

However - people do not have a biological driving force to 'fire'. We aren't just talking about the 'thing' here, which would be porn, but also the factors within human biology and dopamine systems that also come into play. Last I checked people have a need to fuck. There's not the same driver for 'fire'. You cannot lacerate off the most important part of the discussion to force this analogy fit. Essentially porn is a supernormal stimulus - something that engages with an existing drive directly and amplifies it beyond what it evolved for.

It's in the tone of your replies & repetitive fixated nature of the subject. Your framing of conservatives is bordering on comical - which detracts from your points. Was that your intention? These are just my observations, to be clear. Do what you will. I do hope you are okay, though 🙏

What sort of discussion did you want to have about conservatives? It doesn't feel like an open, good faith one.

Ruminating and re-playing out the interaction over and over after the fact, and re-igniting and perpetuating all the negativity surrounding it? I still get into loops like this. Maybe it doesn't describe you, though. It is my mind attempting to reconcile responsibility. It rarely happens to me now, but it was one of my biggest things to let go of.

I think as well as the above, showing people that they are the ones who do not want to let go, is the hardest part of the teaching ...

The question at the heart of it - the most confronting question of all. In my experience most do not want to let go.

I have Hashimoto's. May I ask what you have been formally diagnosed with by external medical professionals?

This feels like it could be getting to the heart of it. You might know the topics in and out but something else is interfering? Imposter syndrome? Unworthiness? Some ideas. I suffered from the above for years.

@Carl-Richard nah, I a fan of all that 👌

You see, that shit is like my nightmare. Although, my mum has had full conversations with me on MDMA. And she won't let me forget the stuff I spewed. Something something Tash rapping about all gold everything. Gold all in my watch, don't believe me? Just watch. Basically I played a mix of this song rapping to it until mum closed the door and told me to chill the fuck out 💀combined with grabbing the zipper on her jacket, repeatedly unzipping and zipping it up, claiming it was gold and we needed to beat the checkers game to get out. It was an extremely pure dose of MDMA, so high I was semi-hallucinating. Do not recommend. https://youtu.be/o6akgttG2sU?si=xKNlfvZCHf7YZ9_b

He's just not good enough at frame controlling male athletes

Some more lovin' Desi the poodle... SNIFFING

I have a few different things I like to do while listening. Particularly if I am trying to enhance my visual or tactile experience of something. But a lot of my music, especially recommendations, is consumed eyes closed at rest, reclined on my chaise. But I am a bit more old-school in that I listen to entire albums rather than songs. Unless it is just one track I was recommended. I tend to listen to most of an artist's catalogue of music prior to drawing a conclusion. I find there are some songs and albums that really grab me from the outset. And others that take two/three spins before I begin to love it. It is strange how that happens. I often observe the music I love instantly does not stand the time, as much as the music that grows into a love affair 🙂

@integration journey I'm lucky I have only said garbage while high, in person - to be forgotten by the high individual that received my deranged & obsurd words !!! Ha ha ha

You cannot accurately count calories unless you weight and log all food. I do not consider anything with a label as being accurate. I would be skeptical of all food labels +-25% I eat the same foods on rotation and know macros ballpark, but I do not really know the calorie count. I simply do not have the capacity or desire to take up the brainpower needed to log/weight each meal. It isn't important in my life - probably because I am in relative homeostasis with body comp. I would be very wary of recommending counting calories to anyone who has a history of eating disorders, or disordered eating patterns. The type of obsessive, black and white, perfectionist thinking comorbid to pathologies with eating do not translate well to counting calories. I simply observe my energy / emotional patterns + state after a meal. After a day, or after a week.

You're the one arguing the case - it's on you.

@Elliott That is simply your perception, then.

You would consider me to appear as masculine then. HA! Do you not see the breasts, hips and stacked thighs on Serena as feminine? Or does she confuse your brain and because you can see deltoids and biceps? Broad shoulders and muscles seem so arbitrary. But it is your perception. Not a universal.

@Elliott Do you perceive any sort of muscularity on a woman as making her appear as a man?

I think similarly of male lycra-clad cyclists. They have a shriveled, dehydrated & windburnt appearance to me Distance runners too. Bodies are a product of the activities we participate in, and the energy we consume.

ROFL inserted my projection / experience of the matter. Forward motion enhances cognition for me. I find it suppresses negativity. You might have a similar experience when driving. I note it when walking, running, bicycling, public transport like trains, and driving. The best contemplations and insights happen for me with relaxing music and forward motion. I save the brain mincing tunes for housework

LOL Serena Williams has a masculine body? Are we blind?