Natasha Tori Maru

Vegetables, fruits, eggs, fish and small amounts of red meat on occassion. Cottage cheese. Tea, coffee, water. Some nuts added in. I am very lactose intolerant and have fructose malabsorption 🥹 so I have to avoid foods containing those in large amounts. I don't eat bread, pasta, rice, processed sugar. I basically avoid anything processed / artificial. Most people cannot eat this way. But it is easy for me, because if I eat badly my spiritual practice is shit, my work is poo, sleep is not good and energy / happiness is reduced. I just happen to be very sensitive to the effects of foods, so it makes avoiding very easy ☺️ Wheat gives me joint pain as well. Some sort of generic thing I got from my Dad. @Sugarcoat

I eat clean so rarely pass gas. And when I do - zero smell. I tend to go to the bathroom if it does happen. I can make them soundless no worries. Good control But if one slips out accidently it doesn't bother me - no shame Burping I am okay with - no smell, less chance of offence. Some of my tradie mates can make that shit resonate As with anything... balance. The middle way !

I always tell myself; it's reality showing me what I still haven't accepted and integrated in myself. I usually only feel okay judging others for things I haven't claimed I do myself. Otherwise I wouldn't be comfortable hating it. If I did, I would have to hate myself.... Some more ego to see through 🙃

In some way or another, since I can remember being aware of things outside of me. 'Natasha! Stop asking why!!' 'That is just how it is, stop asking' It helped I was a talented artist, and the compulsion to create satisfied a lot of the persistent existential crisis of my questioning 😊 It always seemed just - wrong - that everyone around me took reality, and their understanding of it, for granted.

@VioleGrace he was totally uncompromising in making what he envisioned. He had an idea and wouldn't let it go. And it was an overarching concept that he applied to all apple products, not just anything in isolation. He wanted a totally integrated ecosystem that emphasised beauty & pleasure to use. He was pretty combative in persuing this vision. And the detail that went into his vision was impressive: it went so far as to focus on font, typeface, balance... He wanted technology to be beautiful as well as functional. That sort of top-down wholistic view meant that the products he created were always cohesive and high standard. The drive and lack of compromise are worth witnessing in his interviews for inspiritation 😊 He TOLD people what they wanted that they didn't even know they wanted.

Haha our advice sounds insane put like that! I wasn't comfortable quoting that high with no support but it taught me a lot 😊 @Ramasta9 I just keep going with the work while allowing the emotion/feeling. It probably looks bonkers from the outside! But it lets me move through it, and walk away reasonably chill 🙃

I am in the same boat. I just finished a brutal Christmas crunch in construction. Anyone who has worked in the field knows it is stupid at the end of the year. There is a mandatory 4 week shutdown in Australia, everyone is trying to get everything done for handovers and tenders. I love the time off, but the month preceding it is awful. I was in charge of all estimating and handover for a breast screening facility. I know my limits now, I'll say that. I just sat in my office the last 2 days crying in frustration quoting up $3mill of work to keep the company going next year. Just calling for quotes, doing takeoffs. Full no shame crying at the same time. I lost all fucks regarding professionalism Strangely enough, the crying felt really good! Even while also being humiliating. So I would say any emotional release will help. I also: swam at dawn for 30 minutes before work + 30 minutes meditation. Went for a hike midday at a local river sacred to aboriginals. 30 minutes meditation prior to dinner. Movement, 'do nothing' meditation and breathing mediation really helped. I really think movement in general is amazing just to move & clear the lymphatic system of the body. I also often like to lie on the ground with my legs elevated above my heart - this is so calming. Good food and sleep are staples. Probably the best part of my days was pissing around on this forum for laughs, and.... playing with my dog. Animals man. It is like full witnessing no-self in action Poodle cuddling the feet while at work, chasing the ball. Doing tricks. Stealing food. Giving sideye.

Yeah man respect - it takes tactile skill to do it well and not slash the fuck out of yourself 🦈

My ex had me shave his head every 3 days - I think he moisturized after which may have helped? It takes some skill to do it on yourself, unless your head is like, super smooth. Which is rare... You got ridges and mental as fuck hair patterns and crowns that mean you have to change razor direction a lot to get it even. I think I noticed how killer Leo gets it because I shaved dudes heads a lot... And all the ridges and hair directions make it a challenge. Shit sounds like a euphemism Man this conversation is too weird for me 🤣

It's always so clean. Nice ritual. This description is sending me 💀 Fucken deceased lol

Not really blog related but I am curious: @Leo Gura do you shave your head with a razor and foam? Cos man, it's clean. My ex used to get me to shave his head, and the feeling of Velcro as it grew back was like, the best tactile sensation for the palms of my hands. Can't describe it. Sounds feral but it was like warm, soft Velcro. What the fuck lol Don't shame me 🫣

https://youtu.be/9R1die4Hsw0?si=Yufgipcva1JwWcxB

@tuku747 Oh shit, it is too real >.< I am absolutely ATTACKED.

Steve Jobs is a good example.

Ha ha ha - a bunch of vision sensations, smell sensations, touch sensations, possibly taste sensations. Maybe some sounds in there. Just a bunch of is. Happenings. Ams. That constitute some experience arising... 🍌🍌🍌

@Carl-Richard But boss! What can I do but commit to the baseline condition of being a finite knower inside an infinite, shifting reality? I am aware of one banana. Another appears. I see two vaguely half moon shaped, yellow, hand-sized cylinders before me. My new lense adds some pluses and equals in there to remove my being from the codependent nature of subject/object arising.... And begin my journey into the distortion of the true self 🫣

It's so innacurate for anything construction, compliance or methodology related I don't touch it. It's answers sound like they come from a 45 year old dude in midlife crisis who decided to remodel his house. Probably because it is LOL. It's the sum of the collective sperg dregs of trolling on the internet. I never use it for information. Just compiling and formatting. Huge asset there. It's great for meeting minutes.

Should have majored in fine arts. Should have spent more time single.

I'm convinced most of the ignorant dialogue here is purely from inexperience. What you think you want is never what you need. What you think you are attracted to is typically not what you find is best for you. Get off the internet, forums and social media.

Replace 'no seperate self' with vague putdowns around other users ability to comprehend, or 'you haven't experienced that truth yet'. Or implications some users are above others. I see it as the mind applying states and rank that have nothing to do with the codependent arising of subject/object experience. Which remains the guts of infinity/unity/love/emptiness/fullness/awareness becoming aware of self. Perhaps it is more a comment on where others are at in process. But this discussion of infinity is a language and definition issue. Some users are using 'infinity' and 'absolute infinity' to point to something different and they haven't defined how they are using the terms. Just my perception regarding this conversation.

@KoryKat stop spamming your AI slop. You have to disclose AI use in all posts containing AI.

I understand what he is trying to say. I get what a paradox is - I was pointing toward the feeling the spiel came across like Curt would like to disregard paradox to make everything nice and neat 💀

Oh, so they did go into the paradox of it... But it has to be that way. I think this is why I immediately went to thinking it a paradox just pondering your question. Curt thinks a paradox is a cop out? 🥴 And yeah Curt has been rebranding and altering all his previous thumbnails. Not a fan...

Neither 💀 Not knowing it is 🥹