Natasha Tori Maru

I am in the same boat. I just finished a brutal Christmas crunch in construction. Anyone who has worked in the field knows it is stupid at the end of the year. There is a mandatory 4 week shutdown in Australia, everyone is trying to get everything done for handovers and tenders. I love the time off, but the month preceding it is awful. I was in charge of all estimating and handover for a breast screening facility. I know my limits now, I'll say that. I just sat in my office the last 2 days crying in frustration quoting up $3mill of work to keep the company going next year. Just calling for quotes, doing takeoffs. Full no shame crying at the same time. I lost all fucks regarding professionalism Strangely enough, the crying felt really good! Even while also being humiliating. So I would say any emotional release will help. I also: swam at dawn for 30 minutes before work + 30 minutes meditation. Went for a hike midday at a local river sacred to aboriginals. 30 minutes meditation prior to dinner. Movement, 'do nothing' meditation and breathing mediation really helped. I really think movement in general is amazing just to move & clear the lymphatic system of the body. I also often like to lie on the ground with my legs elevated above my heart - this is so calming. Good food and sleep are staples. Probably the best part of my days was pissing around on this forum for laughs, and.... playing with my dog. Animals man. It is like full witnessing no-self in action Poodle cuddling the feet while at work, chasing the ball. Doing tricks. Stealing food. Giving sideye.

Yeah man respect - it takes tactile skill to do it well and not slash the fuck out of yourself 🦈

My ex had me shave his head every 3 days - I think he moisturized after which may have helped? It takes some skill to do it on yourself, unless your head is like, super smooth. Which is rare... You got ridges and mental as fuck hair patterns and crowns that mean you have to change razor direction a lot to get it even. I think I noticed how killer Leo gets it because I shaved dudes heads a lot... And all the ridges and hair directions make it a challenge. Shit sounds like a euphemism Man this conversation is too weird for me 🤣

It's always so clean. Nice ritual. This description is sending me 💀 Fucken deceased lol

Not really blog related but I am curious: @Leo Gura do you shave your head with a razor and foam? Cos man, it's clean. My ex used to get me to shave his head, and the feeling of Velcro as it grew back was like, the best tactile sensation for the palms of my hands. Can't describe it. Sounds feral but it was like warm, soft Velcro. What the fuck lol Don't shame me 🫣

https://youtu.be/9R1die4Hsw0?si=Yufgipcva1JwWcxB

@tuku747 Oh shit, it is too real >.< I am absolutely ATTACKED.

Steve Jobs is a good example.

Ha ha ha - a bunch of vision sensations, smell sensations, touch sensations, possibly taste sensations. Maybe some sounds in there. Just a bunch of is. Happenings. Ams. That constitute some experience arising... 🍌🍌🍌

@Carl-Richard But boss! What can I do but commit to the baseline condition of being a finite knower inside an infinite, shifting reality? I am aware of one banana. Another appears. I see two vaguely half moon shaped, yellow, hand-sized cylinders before me. My new lense adds some pluses and equals in there to remove my being from the codependent nature of subject/object arising.... And begin my journey into the distortion of the true self 🫣

It's so innacurate for anything construction, compliance or methodology related I don't touch it. It's answers sound like they come from a 45 year old dude in midlife crisis who decided to remodel his house. Probably because it is LOL. It's the sum of the collective sperg dregs of trolling on the internet. I never use it for information. Just compiling and formatting. Huge asset there. It's great for meeting minutes.

Should have majored in fine arts. Should have spent more time single.

I'm convinced most of the ignorant dialogue here is purely from inexperience. What you think you want is never what you need. What you think you are attracted to is typically not what you find is best for you. Get off the internet, forums and social media.

Replace 'no seperate self' with vague putdowns around other users ability to comprehend, or 'you haven't experienced that truth yet'. Or implications some users are above others. I see it as the mind applying states and rank that have nothing to do with the codependent arising of subject/object experience. Which remains the guts of infinity/unity/love/emptiness/fullness/awareness becoming aware of self. Perhaps it is more a comment on where others are at in process. But this discussion of infinity is a language and definition issue. Some users are using 'infinity' and 'absolute infinity' to point to something different and they haven't defined how they are using the terms. Just my perception regarding this conversation.

@KoryKat stop spamming your AI slop. You have to disclose AI use in all posts containing AI.

I understand what he is trying to say. I get what a paradox is - I was pointing toward the feeling the spiel came across like Curt would like to disregard paradox to make everything nice and neat 💀

Oh, so they did go into the paradox of it... But it has to be that way. I think this is why I immediately went to thinking it a paradox just pondering your question. Curt thinks a paradox is a cop out? 🥴 And yeah Curt has been rebranding and altering all his previous thumbnails. Not a fan...

Neither 💀 Not knowing it is 🥹

Oh my gosh. What am I watching ...

Sounds like existence being nothing and all things as a paradox. Doesn't sound very surprising either... Empty and full

I don't know about those other discoveries - my observation was just from that context that Curt was asking from. I only speak on absolute infinity not infinity. Which is probably the issue in translation. I have the flaw in my own thinking of coming at things from a mathematical perspective because of University training. I think Curt was definitely rationalising and attempting to apply mathematical proofs frequently in that interview - which lead to the framing of some questions standing on a bunch of presuppositions. He was well meaning - attempting to look at crossovers between science/maths in Leo's worldview. I think it just lead to some questions that weren't offering clarity. I'd have to rewatch it to go further 🙃

If you are talking about a set (the mathematical term I take it, as a bounded conceptual container, as this was the context of Curt's question I recall) of absolute infinities by definition none of those elements within the set can be an absolute infinity. Rendering the question null and void.

I do not see why Leo wouldn't? The reason it might seem like some form of hell to endure is simply because we have a stupid view of time

I am glad, as I did not think I had anything revelatory to add - more I questioning prompt I hoped might steer? I wish I had someone to speak to on these things a long time ago when I was turned a bit inside out during process. AI would have helped too