Natasha Tori Maru

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  1. What is love? It is interesting how you reject compassion.
  2. That you are emotionally disturbed and need to cool it.
  3. This is bricking users brains if you ask me. There has been no enquiry into what is. The isness of love. At the heart of the confusion. huehuehue a pun, the self disgust is great
  4. This is my lived experience also. Based off 25 years of my own relationships, and seeing the relationships of my friends, family and associates. In concrete reality, not any artificial online sphere. Society. The 'hypergamy' of women being peddled is all from social media statistics and dating apps where there is a 75/25% split of men/women, respectively. Social media and red pill proponents take this statistic, that is created from the inequal split of users sex, and extrapolate the data onto reality. Behaviour under artificial scarcity is simply not real-world mating behaviour. It subtly disempowers men with disillusionment/resentment. It is just classic category error dressed up as data being sold as 'female hypergamy' as a result of this platform-distorted behaviour. Obviously there are going to be some turd women in the bucket who WILL do this. But they are the minority.
  5. It is definitely not about pretending to be anything other than what is felt. It is more how it comes out - instead of neutral, directionless expression, sarcasm and derision, even sometimes vitriol, is being directed at users. The above, in conjunction with the hubris of thinking you can know anyone's experience, very much appears as an individual in egoic grip. You have to admit - there is nothing direct/tangible/quantifiable about this claim. It is based on inference and assumption. I do see these points. My assessment? There is some cognitive dissonance present causing the emotional disturbance. You claim no one else is listening, or hearing, and you walk away in good faith, not judging other users intelligence/delusion 'They just misunderstood/misheard/didn't listen. If only they listened, they would understand'. OR - you are forced to come to the realization others are listening - but they do not agree with you. In which case, you may be inclined to think they are beneath you. Less intelligent. Thus - the emotion comes out directed at a user in an unconscious way, rather than just felt. If the emotion was just felt consciously and was based on discernment and not judgement, the gap between feeling and action would be larger. Giving you breathing room to express in your typical, neutral, deep inquiry based way. The above might not be true at all - it is simply my inference based on what little information has been presented in conversation within this thread. I do not labour under any delusion - this can and has been said and is/has been true of Leo. Do you think I would shy away from calling Leo out if I felt he was emotional, condescending and out of line? I have. Numerous times. And I will continue to do it. I like a gentle way as I do not like to provoke others into more distress (although, sometimes I can be quite mean and trolly. I am a piece of shit sometimes). To be frank, I would not have remained as moderator giving my time to the community and running this place if Leo did not take on board criticism and adjust. I have witnessed this subtle change in his conduct. Contrast how he is now to some of his previous vile expletives directed wantonly at members in the past. I cannot see him doing that now. A function of integrity and how we all naturally raise consciousness. It becomes anathema to the soul to operate on levels where our own conduct does not align with our level of awareness. This is where you can see Leo progressing in grounding and embodiment. The difference - and why I called you out and not Leo - is because it is you @UnbornTao who is out of character at the moment. Leo has been very neutral and true to himself with phrasing, intonation, pace and tone in this thread. I see no deviation. But I do see that change in tone/expression in you. Which is what disturbs me, gives cause to worry for you. Even when I clashed with you earlier - you apologised for being blunt. But bluntness does not cause me offence. Not many people here either (its Leo lol, par the course). It seemed to me you weren't even sure what you were apologising for. Because it wasn't bluntness that was offensive. I do not mean to attack you, I hope this was not felt as that. I come from a place of care. As much as I love the topics discussed here, I care more about ones wellbeing than anything else
  6. It might do to investigate why you are so offended/appalled/disturbed/emotional regarding this topic. I think there is a good inquiry opportunity. And growth opportunity. Maybe issues with control. Or inner ideals not matching to reality. I am not remarking on this comment in particular - but the pattern of responses in this thread.
  7. The roasting is real. I call the tradies 'bunch of cu***' all the time. Very loose with swearing, C-bomb. General ribbing. I don't know where it came from - maybe because we are a bunch of colonizing ex-crims from England If you call someone something benign, like donkey, peckerhead, clown - you'll cop a punch. Call someone 'Oy, cu**' and it will be received... a lot better !
  8. You want to know something about me that makes me very un-worldy? I have never been outside of Australia. I have a serious lack of experience in this arena. I don't even have a fucking passport! WHAT! I was never in a stable enough place to be able to travel. If I had reason to travel, an aim or task - you better bet suddenly I would be getting a passport Life was sorta bad for me until 30. I was very insular from this. I want to see Italy for the art - the Sistene chapel. Germany's architecture. Japan for my family. USA for the turbo-extreme EVERYTHING. Crete for the other side of my family. I also want to travel around Australia. It just so happens my career exploded in the last 6 years, and it is only now I have enough to purchase an apartment and travel with the rest. I say Australia is good for balance, chill. Retirement. Pros. But it is NOT like the USA. You can make it big in the US. The opportunity there is huge. Obviously, the difficulty is massive also, many people in the US struggle. But you can't be so entrepreneurial and fucken make BANK in Australia like there. I don't know what sort of blender that animal went through in its creation. I sort of dislike it, what the fuck kind of leftovers were used for it?! It's like the reheated leftover scrap pizza of animals.
  9. I really appreciate that I had a hard start to life. Not everyone makes it. I am still trying to figure out how/why I did. I can tell you one thing though, I am more resilient than most. I bounce back from failure and wipe past thoughts about it clean. I just take what I need to learn from how I failed, and try again. And I never stop. I don't let things deter me. This one was element about myself that grew in strength through the years, as I begun to apply it to more and more domains of life. I take ruthless action. Mind rewiring followed dramatic action. Not the other way around.
  10. I like it here. Melbourne has wild weather. Amazing architecture & culture. Hodge podge of all different kinds. The sun is not to be fucked with. It will fuck you. It is cloudy out - you will be mercilessly incinerated. Regardless. The bush is not to be fucked with. It will fuck you. I came across a woman on the weekend who had been bitten by a tiger snake, not 3 minutes from my apartment (inner city, 6km from CBD). She got help. Is ok There are some shit aspects. But overall I think Australia is balanced, which is what it has going for it.
  11. @UnbornTao It is hard to tell between the frenzied replies and sarcasm.
  12. @UnbornTao I recommend the book.
  13. https://www.amazon.com.au/Book-Not-Knowing-Peter-Ralston/dp/1556438575
  14. I read it when I was 14. I LOVED it. The chapter where they were slowly suffocating put the fear in me. I recall that fear when I read Red Dragon by Thomas Harris / Bram Stoker's Dracula (not on par as literary classics, like Moby Dick, mind you). Red Dragon in particular messed me up. I do alright with really dense material ie Bronte Sisters, Tolkien etc. This is a big claim - you must have taken some big meanings/lessons/truth from the book.
  15. Disappointed. You can never know someone else's experience.
  16. Oh to be clear - I do not eat late at night I stop all food 3/4 hours prior to sleep. I just have my largest, most dense and training fuelled meal in the evening.
  17. Not to mention - society operates on a give/take principal. You cannot expect to benefit from from all of the support of society and not provide any value back. If you take and avoid contributing, your not opting out of society, or 'NT world'. You're being somewhat carried by it. You necessarily need to be carried by it in times of hardship (illness, injury, childhood, crisis), that is what compassion is for. But I am against it as a STANCE. Power, medical, water, gas, buildings, infrastructure. Support workers, teaching, skilled labour, care. So much work people put in to keep these networks & systems running for all of our mutual benefit. This is no moralising either - it is just reality. I do not wish to appear to be judging someone's worth only by what they can bring/be useful as. But if we benefit from the collective, I might consider I owe something back.
  18. @Terell Kirby Yeah, it is really, really shocking. The branding man, FUCK
  19. I have adhered to a similar method years, it hasn't failed me yet. Sometimes, prior to a 20k + run, or 50/60km ride, I will eat a huge pile of potatoes the evening before, with my meal. If I eat that same volume of carbohydrates the morning of, I am sluggish and there is much less power available to me. I experience this as the oft spoken of 'bonk', where you just run out of steam. The overnight digestion saturates my muscle glycogen stores (my theory) better than morning fuelling. I used to take meticulous notes on a little pad regarding meal times, types, feeling during training, times etc and work out from scratch best practice. Now its all stored on the Garmin and phone. Technology is great, when used properly
  20. Just talking about the human condition in circles now.
  21. @yetineti Honestly life prior to 30 can be a bit of a struggle. In between working out who you are, you are also figuring out what you want & how the fuck to navigate the insanity of society. And enduring whatever woe you may have - we all have them. It is a lot of learning - it was for me. You reach a break point where you understand enough about yourself the incessant questioning begins to quiet. I am speaking more about that hard time in adolescence and 20s where you go through A LOT identity wise. Space is left to pay attention to survival & mastering executive decision making. Attend to what is highest priority. Gradually, slowly, I found my life becoming somewhat easier. I engaged a bit more with the flow, less force. Less resistance. I reached a breakpoint where shit just started to feel okay. It was like everything pivoted. Now I just enjoy the ride, I want to be no where else. Even when turds come my way! The brilliant part about God's plan is that nothing remains the same. It always changes. Which is melancholic, but also quite freeing. It can also be a source of resilience to remind ourselves of this
  22. Fucking love lathered >.< I need to stop with the euphemisms.
  23. I think this is my only issue with him. I cannot listen to someone who I think is not original and earnest in delivery. That's not to say I might not listen to someone who was full of shit. I can be fooled that way like a twit, and I have been. Caught by vibes. But he appears like he has the opposite of sovereignty of mind. I like a maverick. Why would I listen to Brendan when the juice can come from Peter himself
  24. I get the ick from Brendan Lea. I have listened to a lot of his stuff on Youtube. He sounds a lot like a brainwashed crony trying to replicate Peter. Mannerisms, intonation. Speaking pace. Phrasing. He legit sounds like a mini-Ralston with no original mind. And he may not, since I do not think Ralston would tolerate someone so close to him that was pushing back or challenging him. I do not know why I cannot tolerate Brendan. He has some good stuff to say. It is an issue with me that I cannot receive it from him. But I am 100% okay with being yelled at through the internet by Peter