Natasha Tori Maru

@Hojo you just described building context! Hahaha That's a lot of mental gymnastics to get out of fucking up your statements. I understand what you mean, but this is ALSO ego from you!

Your claim was you do not build context - you contradicted yourself. 'Listening to the whole' is building context around a user.

@Carl-Richard Starseed films - sides are in orbit. He looks like a foot speaking to me...

@CARDOZZO My GOD I have this movie playing right now. The fuck! It is a rewatch. 100% on different kinds of love - and this is sort of what I am pointing to. There is a lot to 'love' or 'Love' if you will

Desk + ergonomic chair that suits me well. Dual screen 27 inch + 32 inch curved. Mouse, keyboard and the 8bit controller. If that's what you refer to as 'setup'. Battlestation etc I still go ham at the PC games, it's just my preference it to plant my skinny arse on the chaise lounge (which isn't near the PC side of the apartment).

It is just what I see.

What IS talked about. Not what is left out. By paying attention, what exactly do you mean? Where am I coming from? From experience?

As an example, I don't think Ralston has grasped Love.

I actually agree with this. Through my own experience. @UnbornTao I think you often put to much stock in Ralston. I might say this because I rarely see you deviating into any critical analysis of his work, just mutual agreement or pointing. Which is all well and good. But sometimes it looks like proselytizing.

He does mention states a lot. What is he referencing states in relation to?

Oh yes indeed, definitely did the research and have an excellent desk chair 😃 I think it could be an psychological issue; I work at a desk most days. Could be something about my associations with that body position and needing to 'work', detracting from my ability to relax. Only I can answer this, I shall think on it. I will stand and game over sit at the desk. Not for want of comfort either. Humans make no sense. Stupid conditioning.

It is my understanding he is on board with 'states', states of being, but will not apply that to consciousness or awareness. I recall him elucidating 'states of consciousness' implies levels. Implying some progress to an end, or goal. Or aim. And that that is NOT IT. It gets in the way. I think he steers students away from this as it detracts from engagement with what just is, plainly, absent of all concept, overlay or idea. I am not directly quoting here but paraphrasing what I have heard Ralston reiterate multiple times, threaded through many YouTube sessions. At the very heart of the issue could simply be a language nuance.

The Vow - excellent. That cult is fucken OFF THE CHAIN level of brainwashing. LOZ: Tears of the Kingdom: I am almost done with it, been slowly enjoying it. No rush. I do actually agree with you regarding bloom. Excellent game. Do you use a mouse and keyboard or controller? I have to admit, I love nothing more than a controller + sink into couch, dim lights gaming session. Sitting at a PC can kill it for me a bit. This could be purely because I did it for years abusing WoW. I have an 8bitdo ultimate. It was gifted to me, but I haven't tried any other controllers with PC. Goes.

@Leo Gura like two bulls locking horns. Unstoppable force meets an immovable object 🤜🤛

Ah! The YouTube released snippets of the book, narratived by Ralston, made me think he could be going this way. Pending mortality can really change us.

Don't you fucking 'Isness' me! 😃 But I do actually agree - he is what, 76 now? Very vital character. It can be quite deceiving.

Quite the morbid turn. Real. But morbid

🤢🤮 Laughed though 😃

I am glad I could put it to words to be understood. Feelings and emotions can be nebulous in nature. I find in general people are much more willing to contemplate the existential nature of a cup; the ontology of a table. Looking into feelings / emotions causes one to balk and withdraw. Feeling & emotions are such an important part of being human, yet most just gloss it all over - totally assuming they know what a feeling is. 'Oh I am just angry' and that's that. I don't think many people even know what their emotions are to even accuracy label them. I ask others questions about nuances + describe anxiety/stress/worry and the differences? You will find many people just lump all the nuance of feeling under something like 'worry', 'angry' and be done with it. No further investigation needed. This sort of investigation works at our core conditioning and can lead to great progress. Walking emotion/feeling constipated people everywhere hehe 🙃

Nice isn't relevant at all. It just is the case. What I posted is the very core issue underneath all the behaviour. It might sound naive if you aren't seeing the problem properly.

I definitely do not shy away from eye contact. I am comfortable with this. I don't know if I am natural leader, but through my life, a repeated pattern shows up. People around me aren't as decisive, and shy away from responsibility. They haven't mastered projecting future outcomes, or extrapolate possibilities. They do tasks how they always do them; they don't assess them for review; make them more efficient, increase output by changing SOP. I am the sort of person to naturally take responsibility. I am decisive and don't doubt myself. Natural tendancies to check in, change how we do things in discussion, optimise. Explain clearly why we do the small steps, and how fudging them destroys and outcome. I don't ever try to lead; but doing the above I end up in positions of influence and power. Soon enough, despite me never out ranking anyone (work wise, family order etc) I end up being the person making decisions and directing. Colleagues end up coming to you with any queries or decisions. I much prefer to work under a director as 2ic, optimising process. If you mean well, speak wisdom from experience, and are ruthless with action, my experience is people will want you to lead them. There is also an added element; I am very un self-conscious. I don't really think about myself. I am too focussed on the person in front of me and the content of experience. If you are able to make a hard choice for a good outcome, show transparency in decisions, people will endure bad shit for/with you. Back you. Pattern of my life. I never want power positions or director type roles. Last year I spent some time looking at this pattern in my life, and the above is what I think gets me into a pickle 🤪 Maybe you have these qualities, and they come out naturally? Figuring out people's core needs lets you tailor your leadership style, dovetailing to my personality profiling post above. I've lead/managed teams of 42 people down to 5. My issue is, responsibility is heaped on me. So I end up /quit, rather than remain and make a career. But construction suits me well so I have moved to this as career, 2IC working as a GC.

This isn't that great to hear - I do not personally use these sorts of products (aside from creatine). Not surprising though: https://www.consumerreports.org/lead/protein-powders-and-shakes-contain-high-levels-of-lead-a4206364640/

@Ramasta9 we vibin' door decorations - or maybe a suction cap to hang on my floor/ceiling windows on the north/east side of the apartment. So the sun can shine through the quartz 😃

Easy there tiger, with the hate and all 🤪

Fucken LOL. Jesus Lord, the sides are in ORBIT Academic conditioning might be a more neutral term - as I would consider myself conditioned by construction. Everything to me is a negotiation where I have to break bad news, argue a clean, unbiased case, and then work out a new plan. It feels like a form of argument with time and money behind it - which I suppose can be even more charged; an evil soup of ego, time & money investments. Both parties have to walk away happy - as any one stakeholder has the ability to halt everything; client refuses to pay, builder refuses to build, architect won't issue change orders, engineers won't troubleshoot. Everyone has equal power. Responsibility is the cincher. At least in my feild we are all working toward the same goal; build the fucken thing and pass go, collect $200. And that really makes the difference doesn't it? We argue, discuss and negotiate in construction because there is a unified goal. On these forums - the goal is totally unknown. Each party brings in their loaded terms. Someone might want to understand another - or help. Someone else might want to win at all costs. Someone else might want to just point out what is wrong with no overall goal. Totally aimless, monkey mind shit-flinging. In general, I agree. Feminine energy wants harmony, high agreeableness. I deviate from that as a woman. Usually results in the 'cold' label. Or combative. Mostly because I do not fit the above stereotype. It also harkens back to women craving and prioritizing safety - and argument or disagreement compromises that. Women are about safety as top priority. Regardless of if the threat is REAL - it can be perceived in a disagreement. I do not generally feel unsafe; probably a function of experience and high innate resilience. I will say though - I do not argue and really PUSH a point unless I am aiming for a good outcome. Sometimes I push too much before I realize its a hopeless game - pick your battles.