Natasha Tori Maru

Ruminating and re-playing out the interaction over and over after the fact, and re-igniting and perpetuating all the negativity surrounding it? I still get into loops like this. Maybe it doesn't describe you, though. It is my mind attempting to reconcile responsibility. It rarely happens to me now, but it was one of my biggest things to let go of.

I think as well as the above, showing people that they are the ones who do not want to let go, is the hardest part of the teaching ...

The question at the heart of it - the most confronting question of all. In my experience most do not want to let go.

I have Hashimoto's. May I ask what you have been formally diagnosed with by external medical professionals?

This feels like it could be getting to the heart of it. You might know the topics in and out but something else is interfering? Imposter syndrome? Unworthiness? Some ideas. I suffered from the above for years.

@Carl-Richard nah, I a fan of all that 👌

You see, that shit is like my nightmare. Although, my mum has had full conversations with me on MDMA. And she won't let me forget the stuff I spewed. Something something Tash rapping about all gold everything. Gold all in my watch, don't believe me? Just watch. Basically I played a mix of this song rapping to it until mum closed the door and told me to chill the fuck out 💀combined with grabbing the zipper on her jacket, repeatedly unzipping and zipping it up, claiming it was gold and we needed to beat the checkers game to get out. It was an extremely pure dose of MDMA, so high I was semi-hallucinating. Do not recommend. https://youtu.be/o6akgttG2sU?si=xKNlfvZCHf7YZ9_b

He's just not good enough at frame controlling male athletes

Some more lovin' Desi the poodle... SNIFFING

I have a few different things I like to do while listening. Particularly if I am trying to enhance my visual or tactile experience of something. But a lot of my music, especially recommendations, is consumed eyes closed at rest, reclined on my chaise. But I am a bit more old-school in that I listen to entire albums rather than songs. Unless it is just one track I was recommended. I tend to listen to most of an artist's catalogue of music prior to drawing a conclusion. I find there are some songs and albums that really grab me from the outset. And others that take two/three spins before I begin to love it. It is strange how that happens. I often observe the music I love instantly does not stand the time, as much as the music that grows into a love affair 🙂

@integration journey I'm lucky I have only said garbage while high, in person - to be forgotten by the high individual that received my deranged & obsurd words !!! Ha ha ha

You cannot accurately count calories unless you weight and log all food. I do not consider anything with a label as being accurate. I would be skeptical of all food labels +-25% I eat the same foods on rotation and know macros ballpark, but I do not really know the calorie count. I simply do not have the capacity or desire to take up the brainpower needed to log/weight each meal. It isn't important in my life - probably because I am in relative homeostasis with body comp. I would be very wary of recommending counting calories to anyone who has a history of eating disorders, or disordered eating patterns. The type of obsessive, black and white, perfectionist thinking comorbid to pathologies with eating do not translate well to counting calories. I simply observe my energy / emotional patterns + state after a meal. After a day, or after a week.

You're the one arguing the case - it's on you.

@Elliott That is simply your perception, then.

You would consider me to appear as masculine then. HA! Do you not see the breasts, hips and stacked thighs on Serena as feminine? Or does she confuse your brain and because you can see deltoids and biceps? Broad shoulders and muscles seem so arbitrary. But it is your perception. Not a universal.

@Elliott Do you perceive any sort of muscularity on a woman as making her appear as a man?

I think similarly of male lycra-clad cyclists. They have a shriveled, dehydrated & windburnt appearance to me Distance runners too. Bodies are a product of the activities we participate in, and the energy we consume.

ROFL inserted my projection / experience of the matter. Forward motion enhances cognition for me. I find it suppresses negativity. You might have a similar experience when driving. I note it when walking, running, bicycling, public transport like trains, and driving. The best contemplations and insights happen for me with relaxing music and forward motion. I save the brain mincing tunes for housework

LOL Serena Williams has a masculine body? Are we blind?

@Leo Gura You know - cheers for taking the time to listen - I appreciate it! I've listened to most of your playlists - for me your music taste is 'driving down the open road, windows down. Long, warm & balmy night, wind in my hair, thinking as the lights and roads weave by' vibes. Chill, linear, calm mellow thoughts that stretch the depths. Dunno how else to describe the vibe but this is closest for me. I really enjoy your music. My overall taste just has a huge span. Can't really shit on anyone's taste. I think our preferences for sensory experiences are a really nice way to see into the other person.

I think my version or hard might be a bit off. I view those 3 tracks as having drops that hit like a wet noodle 🙃 I like a drop to hit me like a freight train with a cement mixer containing 20 fubars 😂😂😂

Wow you guys really think you know Leo, like at all? Everything Leo presents online is exactly what he intends to project. Everything you see online from another person is a finely crafted, curated avatar of what they are. This can be said about people in real life too, but nowhere do we have more power to do this than in online spaces. Beware of the false intimacy created via online interactions. I've followed Leo for years, and in my estimation? I have no idea who he is. I know what he does. Not who he is.

Thing is no one is raging, or angry. Just presenting points for discussion. Painting it as ragebait is just some low tactic to try to discredit the topic.

You big old stuffed shirt! 😄 I have a girlfriend who is similar, although with a different genre. My taste has a huge span, and I gave up a LONG time ago recommending her new stuff. No judgement from me. I eat and enjoy brain, offal, liver, eyeballs and tongue in my meals. And I think pizza and lasagne are disgusting! Although I think you might be open to more new music within your taste. She is stuck in a loop of the same songs from her younger days. She won't even try new music. She's been banned from being DJ in the car 💀

Rofl this gonna turn into a 'Do you like this Leo?' thread. My suggestions were ballpark for Leo but I tried to push the limits of what he might like. But I gonna admit, you aren't really trying with music if all you do is skip through on first listen. You have to listen to the full thing prior to dismal. Otherwise you castrate your own ability to experience novelty and broaden horizons.