Natasha Tori Maru

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Do you consider a mothers love for her children to be conditional?

Nah I'm a chick - profile pick is me I wouldn't troll that hard

Mod forum is where I swing my troll dick

@Magnanimous I work in construction - I am a project manager and estimator for a specialised commercial builder. We only work with state and federal governments for work - science, medical & education construction. I've done some crazy work on experimental facilities (ANSTO Synchrotron) and some medical fitouts that require all sorts of work there is no training for - just problem solving and a good head. I have no qualifications in the field, I just have a knack for picking things up quickly, creative problem solving and fast thinking. I never knew I was good at planning and working with tough constraints until I landed this role. I was very, very lucky to be trained up by a construction manager with 40 years of commercial experience - which I consider to be priceless and worth much more than a degree. I meditate every day for 30 minutes in the morning, and 30 minutes prior to bed. Yoga I am on and off with - I am addicted to resistance training & interval cardio so I tend to stick with that No processed food, water and coffee only (some tea). 8hrs sleep a night non-negotiable. Magnesium, fish oil, vitamin d + k2 and 10g creatine a day. I basically stick to that (and walk my dog). Never crash. No brain fog. Never get tired really - not even after 10hr workday and a workout. 40 this year - so must be doing something right. I used to be nihilistic and suicidal. My while life turned around at 33 - it's never too late

The best part of the forum MUAHAHAHAH!

For sure, my statement was about how perception influences how we view the reality of the situation. I didn't state men cannot feel weak or just as unsafe. Merely that it is more commonly a preoccupation women have (and are especially vocal about, becuase it is acceptable. Less acceptable for men to express) 💪

It's definitely about the perception of safety and fear for women. Being inherently weaker (despite the insistence of some). Men face more violence.

Holy fuck, I was going to say 'What happens when you scale a doorstop?' to make a similar point ... Fuck. CARL!

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I had a huge life crashout many, many years ago. Kicked out. Homeless. Flunked uni. No job. I've turned it all around. You can do this my man - this great test is teaching you more about yourself than others who have never been down to the depths. When you make it out, you'll be wiser and stronger than almost everyone. Keep us updated !!

Are you saying how nuclear energy works is smarter/more intelligent, than a human? This seems like a category/domain error. You are comparing a physical process to the human mind?????

I do this - but replace the sugar loading with hard cardio. If I need to focus on a big tender submission intensely for a 2-3hr bout, I do high resistance sprinting on a spin bike for intervals. 30 minutes. Then work. Repeat as needed. Whole eggs, potatoes and some salt in between. The cardio enhances my focus, information retention, and problem solving better than straight carbs (which make me feel sluggish unless I get the amount just right)

@Mellowmarsh do you think online interaction is actual, genuine connection?

Getting to such an extreme point of 'renouncing' sounds like cope to deal with internal frustration. So you can release desire. You don't need renounce anything to let go of painful desires.

Worse than slop. I actually think it's just what chatGPT pulls up when you ask about the forum... With some... Prompting 🫠

Yeah, but there is something wrong when someone doesn't pay attention to the person in front of them, to be focused on the 'global' connection on the phone that technology facilitates. I am not denying there are upsides - but there are negatives in addition to benefits. I think @Schizophonia is pointing toward a severe downside to technology; it can prevent us paying attention to the immediacy of the moment. Our minds always on what 'could be' always 'seeking' and 'desiring'. Yes, this is inherent to us as humans. This need should be inspected because desire is a cause of suffering. But technology acts to amplify the good - and the bad. When does the capacity to transcend the present become an inability to inhabit it? I think this is the more pertinent question the OP is pointing toward.

Oh! I am just laughing at the boys of the forum getting all excited about witnessing chemistry in action You and Schizophonia just have that curious sort of dancing/play energy in your interactions. Similar to the weirdness between Carl & I. It doesn't always have to be, or mean, there is any sexual charge (it certainly can mean that, though). Play is just one of those things that pops up when you rub brains with certain people

Higher consciousness forum - still a kids playground. GIRLS HAVE COOTIES DON'T CHU KNOW

@Rigel oh, he gets shit on hard online. Feral stuff. Immature people lack nuance - they see one thing they don't like and the whole lot is in the bin. I don't mind Bryan but the basic stuff of his message - the pillars - arent any different to any other longevity / health / doctor influencer. It's the actual wild experiments he does that get all the attention. Thats his narrative and PR draw.

It's just so confusing and discombobulating! My 20s were hard. Didn't know who I was yet. What I wanted. Where I was going. My 30s have been a blast. All the confusion of the 20s gradually faded to just being okay with myself. And from there, acceptance. Then knowing I was on the right track. I can only impart that the older you get, the easier it becomes in some ways; purely because you know yourself and what you want a little better 💫

Ah! Poop. I'm good with desire and motivation advice wise. Indecisiveness not so much. Simply because I am extremely decisive. I recall in my 20s not knowing wtf I was doing, planning, or going. I just decided whatever I do do, in the now, I go hard 100% and give it my all. Even if I knew it wasn't forever. At least then I did something with full integrity I wouldn't regret. Whatever you pick, it's not the end or only path. Nothing is permanent. I went from managing retail stores until 34 years old. No skills. At 35 switched to construction and now I co-own a commercial construction business. Whole career switch. Sorry I don't have more advice! I suppose my leaving thoughts are 'you don't have to have it all worked out'

Is desire/impulse the issue - indecisiveness?

Which begs the question - because a LOT of procedures, time and money go into how he looks "at worst normal". Either he got shitcarded hardcore by genetics & super poor lifestyle... Or maybe prolonged vegan diet is aging him, and his cosmetic work is just offsetting that to appear normal. Instead of better than average. Long term vegans tend to always get a strange look to them, from my observations. Nothing against the lifestyle, they always just appear wanting. I am sure there are other possibilities for his appearance. But he dyes his hair, has lots of skin procedures (extensive laser), fat transfer to his face (facial rejuv), teeth done etc I think he is still in HRT as well - someone else can confirm. I know he used to be on test and didn't disclose it initially.