Natasha Tori Maru

Into bubble boy mode. The only way. Inoculation from life 👌

The money, the bible used to virtue signal, the women. All status hierarchy stuff. He seems very fixated on broadcasting an image to men.

I'm surprised he's not all over it. He may be, I haven't checked. I am not subscribed to him. Don't want to pollute my algorithms to that extent 🥹

William McCasland missing Retired US Airforce General tied to UFO programs disappearance.

Heya ❤️ I lost my grandfather in hospice - I stayed by his side for his passing. It was confronting. He was the predominant male figure in my life. A fine artist who trained me in oils, watercolour, acrylic, pen on paper, pencil and charcoal. I had a creative bond with him in a way I will never have with another man. His death was the most beautiful thing I have ever witnessed - only met by seeing the birth of my brother, in majesty. There is so much stigma around death. It wasn't negative. He was purifying before my eyes at the end. The nurses in the hospice made sure he was comfortable. He came into such an intense state of being. He was vibrating as he passed. I don't know any other way to describe it. As much as his loss was a strike to my heart, I wouldn't have missed it for anything. He responded to me right up until the end. He seemed to hear all. Your grandmother will love you being present. Love your warm hands on hers. Love the timber of your voice. I don't share my grandfather's passing to detract from your challenging time; merely to emphasis just how much this moment will be cemented as a gift in time for you and her to share. Much love

It's supposedly very nutritious 🤤

Earthlings was the reason I stopped consuming industrial farmed animal products - as much as possible.

Probably the forum platform more than anything. In real life I have a lot more at my disposal to communicate with

Yeah, my casual everyday routine. Because it's never, ever the same. There's always a surprise. Always novelty. Most people just fail to see it.

It's totally the sneaky ego, humbleness, ain't it? Slinky slippery sly 👀 Little bastard self, always squirming into a new form!

Rofl, that's more like it! 🤣 @theleelajoker I think it's when I am answering a question that is more nebulous; where what I present could be any number of potential answers and I do not consider any one to be THE one. I am not so firm in my opinions and observations and very open to changing them. I change them all the time. Suffice it to say it is not insecurity - more my personal desire to keep things open. I do like to be polite and respectful. But humble? Heh heh. I do not think I am humble. And all politeness and respect can switch off in a flash if there is a transgression. I can be pretty harsh with tongue lashings. Especially if you are a naughty little shit user who needs to have their head pushed in 😈

Could be just the way this is phrased but it sounds hella avoidant. 'Get' inside your mind sounds like an intrusion. If I feel like someone is intruding something isn't right with the relationship, me, or them. But yeah, funny choice of words

@bazera killer yep yep yep agree 🙏 I view it as: this is my teammate on my side. We got each other's backs. We help each other achieve our goals. And have a hell of a fun time doing it 😁 I like to let people open up naturally. And working with men, I have found, professionally and just in life: when you support them in their lifes work their openness and investment in the relationship is enhanced tenfold. They just naturally express emotions. And they also end up leaning on me to understand some feelings/emotions themselves. And due to that the intimacy naturally flourishes. No probing or pushing for emotional expression needed. This is just in general though, general temperament is unique. Some men just never open up emotionally, same with some women. Rolls back again to nothing being simple. Cannot be reductionist. Which is really challenging because I see men always wanting step 1 2 3 to apply to get it right. Which is the masculine way. But one method doesn't work across the unique spectrum of people and personality. And generally leads to wild generalisations and things like red pill etc

This last passage catches me. I cannot ever totally know another person or their story. But if you were in any sort of circumstances when young where your sense of self was encroached on by another. If you were ever made to feel responsible for someone else's large emotional reaction, it can cause a less stable sense of self to arise. It could be because you have so much openness and empathy the boundaries where you start and end, and where your partner starts and ends, can merge. If a woman isn't ready for that it can feel like their sense of self is merging so, intensly they are losing themselves. This can feel like a death of sorts, of the individual. As much as I think relationships are about dissolving the boundaries between us; they still need to remain to truly experience love - because love exists in the space between. It just might be you have not been with a women who was very very aware of exactly who she was. You might just benefit from the sort of dynamic where one partner is more grounded and resiliant. I do think though, you are on the higher sensitivity and receptivity scale; which has its own unique challenges. You mentioned you have had a hard year. Maybe this has been a big rattle up from the universe to steer you to do a lot of inner work? I bet you there are a serious of questions your year has prompted that keep arising. Overall I love relationships for growth. Ain't nothing else that can pull up your unconscious and show it to you like a romantic partner. It's a different domain for consciousness work. I don't think I answered you or even that this is right on the mark. Just what came out

Gotcha I think your point is more nuanced than the title suggests - which was slightly misleading. I think it's a mystery isn't it? Codependent arising of experience.