Natasha Tori Maru

@LambdaDelta I may be highly sensitive to caffeine. It find it very psychoactive 😃

No caffeine?

Your wish, my command 🫡

@Monster Energy this is disturbing af My dog is barking at it and won't stop!

@Monster Energy this can be true - but there are some individuals who have something very, very wrong. Not many. But some. Their brains and biology is different. Overall I think rehabilitation and help is what is needed, not leaving people to rot in prison. Imprisoning people for being addicts is wrong to me.

@Valach he self immolated 🥲 He wanted to leave the forum, but couldn't cold turkey quit. So be requested a ban and to have all history erased.

@Sugarcoat Ivankiss was great. Miss that boy

I had a think about this film. I suspect it will be a bit more family friendly a la Spielberg style. I don't think it will be revelatory at all. I just hope to be not bored.

Perhaps the robots look just like us in the future? Remote viewers would have no idea who was human and who was not.

@Wilhelm44 Battlestar Galactica style? In before the toasters come back to wipe us out >.<

@Hojo that's your problem not mine. Keep it to yourself.

Yep, this was the same observation I made in my experience. The person with BPD had absolutely no conception the lie was a lie. It was their total reality in the moment. After emotions subside all was revealed. And with it, typically a lot of shame. Guilt shame spiral was big. I actually really love people with BPD - they suffer from the disorder - but their capacity for feeling (both good and bad) is just amazing. If you can hold space for their emotions and keep steady and clear you can be a rock for them to heal. It's a ride for sure!

Wow thanks for sharing and being so vulnerable! Many sufferers to not even know that their experience is not the usual. BPD is tough because the emotions are SO strong. Every emotion feels to have the power of the world ending. Someone saying no can be interpreted as 'I do not love you'. Being unclear about who one is, is also very distressing. @integral My experience was very different. I was aware what the person was doing was wrong - but I made a martyr of myself. I took twisted pride in my ability to deal with violence and abuse. Men with BPD can be a lot riskier to be around - which isn't to say women cannot be also. But I suffered a lot of torture and violence and was made to consistently receive the message "I come second, my needs are secondary". I walked away with broken boundaries. Which was contrary to how I was raised; in a healthy and loving environment. I lost myself in them. The physical and mental torture when I did not comply with their needs was terrible. I lost my ability to fight back due to extreme backlash when I did so. During my phase of healing I was quite spineless and lost all drive. Prior I had been very decisive, headstrong and confident in an unusual way for a woman. I gained all of that back after healing and recovering. I was in this environment for 4/6 years on and off. I am can confidently say I am healed from all that past stuff. I learned a lot. I am stronger for it. But not everyone is able to recover from trauma. I wish I knew why I bounced back. But I have a feeling genetics may have a large component; I was always headstrong, decisive & a forward thinking problem solver. I've never been one to dwell on the past. It's just the here and now and whats next Annnnnnyway! Thanks for your words !

@integral I recall you having experience with BPD partners/people close to you. After my experience with two people close to me that suffered from BPD, I had a lot of trouble accepting compassion and empathy in good faith. Charm too - my mind would jump right into "What does this person want from me?" "If I let this person help me, what will they ask in return?" It was really hard to break these patterns - it was like I had some leftover trauma from the experience (like a samskara) causing me to view empathy and compassion as weapons. Took me a lot of reprogramming to break that pattern and learn to accept love, compassion and empathy again.

Some real life Voldemort horcrux shit Guys face looks full caved in