Natasha Tori Maru

@enchanted huehuehue I better not play with people too much Stupid games stupid prizes something something

(❁´◡`❁) ----------- 🎯 Add a dash of trusting yourself and self-knowledge and we bussin

Here's the assumption again Me telling you isn't going to provoke a genuine insight. And your intellect appears to tell you something else.

@LordFall It is reasonable to infer from what I said - there is an assumption behind that requires inspection.

@integral TBH I have been having concern for you in my meditation sessions lately - well - shall we say, every time I divert attention from breath or bodyscanning, thoughts of how you are doing after losing your dog flirt with my consiousness. I hope you are doing better, getting easier

@bazera ARGH >.< I feel cringe in my body as a contraction of my shoulders and neck, facial strain and an internal recognition of second hand embarrassment stemming from my own judgement. I find cringe interesting, as my experience of it has been reduced similar to yourself - I now have a high tolerance for it. But I still detect it. I think it is an interesting and often overlooked experience tbh. People seem to want to drop it as soon as it arrives. I prefer to test my limits of the cringe experience

@LordFall Exactly as said - Dunning-Kruger effect. You don't know what you don't know.

The Dunning-Kruger effect.

It can be lovely way to distract from our own inner truth. Pulling out original thoughts, feelings and emotions of the self requires both relationship to others & to the self. The work on how we relate to our thoughts, feelings and emotions can only happen in solitude. Others tend to assist in making us aware of our own unique way of interacting with our emotions. But relationship to others, especially more than one individual, can work to block us from how we are connecting and interacting with our inner worlds. Polyamory can become an addiction to emotional novelty, where the pursuit of experience gradually replaces the subtle work of self-understanding.

This is a silly dramatization to avoid the painful duty of truly inspecting the feedback.

The theoretical concept and the real experience of it are two radically different things. As @aurum raised - it is difficult to understand the volume of emotional and intellectual labour it typically requires. It can bring up many survival based insecurities and childhood wounds. If you have this sort of capacity it could work. It was way above my pay grade

@Miguel1 it's rare. Even here. It is a big part of embodiment and grounding in the work. In my own journey - the things I wouldn't face, self trust, feelings of unworthiness, imposter syndrome... I seemed to find myself in situations again and again where I was faced with the same issues. Each time I ignored the issue - the next time it cropped up it was louder. Louder. Until it was screaming so hard I couldn't ignore it any longer. The pain of remaining in that space was worse than the pain of finally facing it. That pattern repeated for me until I was ready to face it. I contributed to it appearing in retrospect. Perhaps you haven't heard the screaming full force .. yet. Maybe you have. Only experience taught me self trust. Relationships have a way of fast tracking spiritual growth and being a mirror for all your shit. Done right, conscious ones, bring up as much pain as joy. The pain of growth. The only way is to just risk it all and be open to opportunities. What you seek might not be where you would look - or who you think you need to look for. Maybe you don't know what's best for you? I sure didn't ❤️

I never said it was easy. But it is the only way I know. Absolute trust in myself the fear will not be my undoing. I will endure no matter what happens. This is the only way I know to approach another in total authenticity and vulnerability - by trusting myself. If you don't trust yourself.... This could be at the heart of the issue.

The fear isn't actually real. There is no threat. The fear is what keeps us seperated. The fear is total deception. Fear is what creates seperation. It stops us recognising we are God.

@Valach thank you 🫶 It touches close to the feeling of death. To be rejected and cast out from a clan, group or community, prior to modernity - could very well mean certain death. Survival fears triggered. But I wish to point toward something also - the fear. Is there really anything to fear at all there?