Natasha Tori Maru

Cannot comment on all the links, docs. Only my personal families report: it is shit. Indentured servitude.

Purest love

Poodle Merry Christmas love for all !

@RisingLane becoming a recursive fractal vicarious universe 🤪

God. Can you imagine milking a kangaroo? Those legs. Skulls would be caved in These contemplations are not welcome in my experience 😆

Yeah damn, forgot to add that. And warcraft.

@Ishanga @theleelajoker @BlessedLion @Bjorn K Holmstrom Thank you - I appreciate all the alternate views and feedback. @theleelajoker you are on point 🙏 @Ishanga I can see the overlap with what Sadhguru teaches here, I stumbled upon my own weird interpretation and it appears to align across the board with a lot of other teachings 😊 @BlessedLion it's always both isn't it? Empty and full. Inside and outside. All of this work is running into constant paradox which really emphasises how there is some higher intelligence and the mind fails with its concepts. @Bjorn K Holmstrom trust and surrender were key to getting to a point of flow in my work. It was a gradual process of integrating and cleaning up. Slowly, slowly I found myself in a state of effortlessness as I went deeper into trust and surrender - which was the total opposite of my previous modus operandi! @Joshe I am not really non-dualist. Maybe that describes my state? I am not sure what words can assist you from me, as I perceive you to be locked within the constructs of the mind. I couldn't understand where I am from, on an intellectual level. Trust and surrender might be the biggest next steps for you in process. Thoughts happen and make my work happen, but without attachment to outcome, a lot of the mischievous attachment and emotional angst the ego introduces are absent. I have no control at all. I just act when I should - which goes back to @Ishanga's post. This is why it feels effortless like the body just does it - my energy is no longer wasted in judgements from the ego. I am not 'cant wait to get his done so I can go home' 'need to do this because I am anxious' 'dont like this task' 'cant wait for lunchbreak'. There is no resistance to experience. There is preference to some experience that makes me who I am. But no judgement and resistance because experience feels like it happens through me. I cannot judge myself. I think you get to a stage where you understand you need to be in touch with the wisdom to know when to act, and when to wait. And it does feel as if there is a higher order of things that one taps into to participate in this process. You simply take action to arrange circumstances to increase the probability of a desired outcome. When I look at a building successfully constructed and handed over - I do not really recognise I did that. It was just a set of happenings that lead to it. I just took action when I should.

I am no apple fan, I dislike how the system locks me out of customisation (I more of a tech power user than ease of use ecosystem type). I also dislike how the ecosystem doesn't play nice with other systems. BUT I can really appreciate Jobs and his vision. I often listen to his interviews on YouTube for inspiration. Great orator. I listen to his interviews when I have a stubborn client who's expectations I need to manage. In that case I need to pull the clients expections into alignment with my vision - which takes grace, confidence, drive and absolute certainty on my own vision and capability 😊 forcing the client never works. I have to seduce them into my vision.

Many games these days do not draw me in like previously. Occasionally I come across a banger that reverts me to the primordial slime troll/troglodyte I truly am 😈

I think most of my favourites revolve around the people/community I played with, rather than the game itself... But in no particular order: Zelda games: Ocarina of time, Majora's Mask, BOTW, TOTK Mario Kart, Goldeneye, Spiro, World of Warcraft, Diablo + Diablo II, Bioshock I & II, Portal, Age of Empires I, II (fuk you, I'll priest convert your whole shit), Resident Evil 4, Counter Strike (I spammed net cafes when it was just the half life 2 mod), PUBG, Dark Souls, Fallout, Mirrors Edge, GTA IV, Metroid Prime, Tekken 3, Skyrim, Quake, Metal Gear Solid series... There's more but that's just off the top of my head. I used to have some issues with videogames ... Especially WoW. I stand in judgement! I sorta think a lot of my resilience and persistent drive in life was honed and crafted via early gaming experiences. I just treat life like a video game on hard mode, no walkthroughs, cheat codes. Diablo nightmare mode

Oh! I do skip days ☺️ I would say I run 3/4 mornings a week. Long, slow nature walks in between and sometimes some biking on the single speed along the river. I am addicted to to movement and how much it elevates my mood. But not any old movement - it has to be in the bushlands ☄️ There's something that running does to my mind... I cannot describe it. Amazing for cognitive stuff. And I consistently come up with the best creative solutions to problems and issues on longer runs. I cannot recommend it enough ❤️

We would need to delete the current societal systems 💀 Here - have a merry Christmas tiger snek from my merry Christmas run! 😁 He was sunbaking right where my feet were about to say hello to the earth....

Then why are you posting? This is a reach for feedback, no? It's not about being perfect. Shit my head is spinning - there's a lot of cognitive dissonance here and I guarantee you that is causing a lot of bad feeling emotions. Even if you aren't aware of them. Been there.

So we are responsible for how we react? You evade an answer because this hits on the bias. Slippery. I was shaped by myself, my actions and my responses. And I chose to react this way. Conditioning is definitely present. But it is not the whole story. And to paint it as such is a limited view. My force of will meant that despite being attractive, I never treated this as a value. I never judged another person for how they looked. I treated all equally. Not all attractive women are as you say. The world is not so black and white. Perfectionist and polarised thinking can be a flaw as everything is nuanced somewhat. I do not take offence you may choose to fight, dislike or hate me for being born a certain way. This has nothing to do with me. But I am saddened by you viewing everything as an enemy 😕 Can you see how you would reject open connection from a women if you maintain this judgement?

Merry Christmas ❤️(⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)