Natasha Tori Maru

Do you suspect this is how I view relationships?

Same. When you try to ignore and the gut punch happens though. DAMN universe why 😄

Yes. I notice what you call synchronicities frequently. I note when it occurs. A pattern. I deliberately do not look for, make or seek meaning in them. I understand I create my own meaning, so seeking to find understanding or meaning appears to be a gateway to belief. And therefore, delusion. My mind is slippery as fuck 😬

The nature of the question seems to point toward what @Lyubov illustrates as uninspected belief. Your words just appear to be so loaded with judgement and attachment to outcome. And a dislike of the experience of searching. Genuine dislike. The process is where it's at. I could be totally wrong. It just appears this way from the language you use.

Yes and for me I cannot exclude that there isn't a link due to the nebulous nature of thought. I don't know what a thought is. Where it is. I don't even know I think. Thoughts arrive. I feel like I have no control. My issue is with the mechanics behind the phenomenon and not the phenomenon itself, I think... Ha! I think! Ha! Fuck this whole topic 🙃

That's totally valid to me. I don't have a mind made up for or against. It feels inherently unfalsafiable with my view, which is problematic and indicates the frame could dictate truth. Hence a perspective, hence a falsehood. So I flop back into the phenomenon not being real. And I am irritated to no end when I experience the shit again. If that makes sense.

Killed it. Like murdered it. First degree. Guilty. Charged. 20 warning points 😃

It's perfectly fine to have emotions and being reactive provided it is not directional or attacking. It doesn't detract from any validity. It doesn't always mean someone is compromised. A lot of the time passion and charge translates into something else on the receivers end over text. It's not the best rhetorically if you want to remain neutral, but it's not inherently bad. ALSO PSYCHIC SHIT IS REAL COME AT ME WITH THE PITCHFORKS I even experience it with Leo and what he writes as I am thinking it. Often. I just don't raise it. In fact I don't believe half my throughts are even mine to be claimed. No centre. Just thoughts arriving with no control and I can't source who or what generated them. Can't control thoughts. I have no evidence they originate from me.

An insight is “true,” or it is not really an insight. An insight is not simply an opinion or a guess. An insight is an authentic experience. An insight is beyond any belief—it is instead something personally encountered and understood. An insight is self-validating, since the truth or validity of the realization lies inherent in the thing realized. An insight is authentic, and a person who has one will speak with authority since no guesswork is involved. With insight, a clear and personal grasping of the subject matter is the authority Do we agree with the above? Do you have any body, emotion, or feeling sensations along with an insight that indicate the experience for you? I do. Tell me what you experience adjacent to your insights.

No.

We cool we cool 😃 It was a pattern of consecutive posts that were sort of humour adjacent with no relevant content that made me worried. Sometimes members shit on the forum when they don't care and want to leave or just have Ill intent. I misunderstood

Tbh I don't mind that this turned into a contemplation ! It's what it is all about! I don't have any sort of ownership over the outcomes of threads.... But I enjoyed this cringe dyad 😃

That's exactly right!

@vibv I don't have mirth with cringe. Second hand embarrassment is definitely what I feel and aim for itt 😃

@Jirh thank you - and you also! I am doing excellent at the moment 😁 I have Hashimoto's which is in remission. In the past I have gone through days of being unable to leave the bed. I am very grateful to be well.