RyanP

There can't be beauty without ugly.

Jesus had amazing teachings most are misunderstood assuming one better than the other is missing the point. We all searched for enlightenment to find happiness how each person finds their way is their own direct perspective and experience placing any judgment on any of them again is missing the point. If you haven't already I really suggest you reading or listening to Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch. The illusion of any form of separateness from God is one of the egos greatest tricks

In my mind at least what's left of it there is nothing else to do but spread enlightenment

I am a 240 lb male I also decided to try psilocybin I took dried Amazonian Mushrooms the first dose was 1g and I felt sick like I had the flu and had 0 visuals but noticed more mental clarity able to get through thinking patterns quicker 2nd trip was 2.5g and again felt sick so sick I had to lay on the floor and eventually threw up again with 0 visuals after throwing up I felt the "love" and the euphoria that others seem to get I haven't tried taking 2.5 grams since because even though the after throwing up my experience was good the before was not something I want to experience again since then I've just tried .5 to microdose and the only thing I notice is more vivid dreams I would also love some input if anyone has an idea of why me and @StephenFog have had close to the same experience My advice for you @StephenFog is you don't need to take shrooms to cure depression or anxiety it is possible to experience ego death without drugs some may call it bad advice but I would suggest reading a book like "Taming Your Gremlin" or eckhart tolles book "The Power of Now" they both put a flashlight directly on the Ego for me good luck in your journey brother.

I want to start this off by saying I have not finished the life purpose course. I'm currently at "Values Assessment Pass #5" I can only assume I became "stuck" at this because I'm scared of committing to the wrong ideas which probably is why I created this post after having resistance win and not finishing that assessment I began self-analyzing about what do I really want out of life using a lot of Intrinsic vs Extrinsic thought I posted quite a bit ago asking if day trading on the stock market was a life purpose I see very clearly now why it's not now I believe I have a slight glimmer of what my life purpose is I have an intrinsic curiosity for peoples mental struggles and personal lives which in the past I viewed as a negative now I see that as a gift and have noticed that talking to others about their problems and Life/Philosophy puts me into the flow state where a 20-minute conversation feels like 1 minute This realization leads me to believe my zone of genius is therapy Now I know what's important is setting the goal and not worrying about the how but just realizing that therapy is something I want to do doesn't let me go do it now to pay the bills from my small amount of research I need at least a Masters ideally PhD to do this which I know I can achieve however, I will have to work full time to support myself through the time span of completing the degree I currently work at Amazon as a wage slave doing physical labor and not surprisingly don't enjoy it this makes me want to find a way to support myself where I have more time to focus on what matters not giving away 50 hours of my week for nothing I know there is a lot of ways I can do this but I'm struggling to find a way to do this while staying true to a higher purpose the Idea bouncing in my head currently is take the maximum allowed classes/credits per semester to achieve the necessary degree to practice psychotherapy instead of working at amazon or another 9-5 start using the stock market temporarily as a way out of wage slavery taking my earnings and investing it into a youtube channel making videos very similar to this - Give money to people that really need it like the homeless if the videos are able to generate income stop stock trading start giving away all the money each video makes and keep expanding from there. I'm open to any suggestions on skipping the stock market step I know people on this forum are a lot more experienced than me and I want to see if anyone sees any glaring issues with anything I've said I appreciate any time taken to read/reply to this post

Hey anyone who chooses to read this. I recently purchased the Life purpose course and haven't finished it yet but right now I'm half stuck in a wage slave job and see day trading as a way to get out. I'm wondering if you guys think it's an egoic choice and not worthy of a life purpose or should I just do it in the meantime to escape wage slavery? While I'm doing the course the only thing that comes to my mind is something stock-related so I'm having an issue of if I should let go of it or not. thank you for your opinions