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I read through the 10 chapters. The chapters don't open on your website by the way, I am on firefox. I think some stuff is good, I found the part on synchronicity helpful. I think the biggest issue here is the forced use of mathematical expressions. I actually think it makes the idea way harder to understand than it actually is. I think the use of mathematical expression is unnecessary. Also, there's just too much fluff. I think if you wrote it yourself you could get the same stuff across in maybe 5-6 chapters. The constant 'Not X, instead Y' or 'It's not X, it's Y!" pattern is really throwing me off. Also I genuinely did not understand what 'Illumination' even means. There's no clear definition, and the mathematical expression you give for it is wayyy under-explained than it should be. Having read through 10 chapters I have very little idea of what you are talking about making available to the masses. There's just too much emphasis on pleasing to critiques, I need you to explain the core idea first and its goal with sufficient examples before you can move onto dealing with expected critiques of your idea. I don't even get what your idea is. You explain what Viking Illumination is and what it's goal is, but you don't talk about Illumination or its goal in the first place. It's very hard to interpret from the chapters, which is counterproductive to your goal of making your idea simple to understand for the masses. I hope you understand I am not trying to be harsh, I am just sharing my genuine difficulty with understanding your model.

This list is different from Asthapashas [Lajjā; Jugupsa; Bhaya; Śaṅkā; Kula; Śīla; Jāti; Māna] because while they DO list eight BONDS it's from the perspective of Tantra. You cannot be realistically be expected to eliminate a chain such as 'DOUBT' by yourself without the help of a deity because you cannot be expected to undo Ignorance. So while the Asthapasha list sounds very similar in goal to the 11 compulsions that restrain one's will; it's actually listed from a very different perspective. Shame is eliminated once one becomes Authentic (counterpart to vainglory) Fear is too broad to be on the list as explained earlier. Doubt is a downstream function of Ignorance so is disqualified. Clan and Caste are not compulsions so disqualified. Pride is already on the list. Sila being attachment to a sort of conduct or way of being, or the idea of things being a certain way (which you develop as you live); example: 'I am a human'. This is covered within Raga as an attachment to the world. The most interesting one within the bunch is Jugupsa i.e. Disgust. At first glance it looks to be a separate compulsion which can restrain one's will in certain circumstances but after some thought it's evident that it is either not of a nature that restrains one's will or it's of a nature which restricts one's will but that's due it being a downstream functions of other compulsions already within the eleven. For example: moral disgust often contains pride and wrath contamination disgust often contains cowardice and raga social disgust often contains envy or vainglory Thanks!

I beg to differ. *Brings in the ostrich*

Notice that most actions are taken in influence of the 11 compulsions. When's the last time you did something which wasn't heavily influenced by these eleven?

This is a follow up on my older post about Plasmism. Here's the goal of Plasmism: Mold reality into a version better aligned with our desires. Because we understand that it is all influences influencing influences, and we also understand that while individual will is illusory we must act as if it is not. So the question becomes, how can we use this understanding of the world to solve our problems and create the life we want? The answer is to first mold ourselves by controlling these influences. Before we can answer HOW to mold, we must answer WHAT to mold ourselves into and mold ourselves out of, There are many influences but first you must eliminate certain influences on your psyche/actions to make your (illusory) will FEEL much freer. The further ahead you are in ridding yourself of these compulsions the 'freer' your ability to influence becomes. How are we making 'illusory will' experientially freer? Think of it as a character in a movie show. It's all scripted, and the character may know it, but from their perspective they can't help but act from a POV of individual will. They may even see the movie screen and realize each word is scripted no matter what they do, but they still act as if they have free will. Within the movie they can do things to make their illusory will 'feel' freer like breaking themselves out of prison or such. --- After some thinking and careful consideration I have compiled a list of 11 compulsions which restrain our (illusory) will. These are all internal. While the ideal is to free oneself of all of these, this list serves also as a checklist to see whether in any given moment your thinking or actions are being INFLUENCED by any of these. The Eleven Compulsions & Their Counterparts Pride / Humility Vainglory / Authenticity Greed / Charity Lust / Chastity Wrath / Patience Envy / Respect Gluttony / Temperance Sloth / Diligence Cowardice / Courage Raga / Vairagya Boredom / Peace This list incorporates heavily from 'The 7 Deadly Sins and Virtues'; 'Shadripu'; 'Stoic Passions'; and Vedanta. The difference lies in the GOAL for this list's existence. The goal is to list 'COMPULSIONS THAT RESTRAIN ONE'S WILL'. The goal of the 7 deadly sins is moral purification. The goal of shadripu is broadly speaking to define enemies of spiritual development, not maximizing free will. The goal of Stoic Passions is indeed to reach the state of apatheia (freedom from disordered passions) which is akin to maximizing one's will but the Stoic Passions are 'reason-centric' asking "Does this distort rational judgement?" while the 11 Compulsions are freedom-centric asking "Does this compulsively restrict the will?" Pride: Bondage through superiority, self-elevation, and egoic self-importance. Vainglory: Bondage to external validation, recognition, admiration, and image. Greed: Bondage to acquisition, possession, accumulation, and ownership. Lust: Bondage to sensual and sexual craving. Wrath: Bondage to forcefulness, hostility, and compulsive resistance against obstruction or opposition. Envy: Bondage to comparison, resentment, and disturbance at the excellence, success, or possession of others. Gluttony: Bondage through consumption, and excess stimulation through intake. Sloth: Bondage to inertia, comfort, stagnation, and resistance to necessary change or exertion. Cowardice: Bondage to fear-driven avoidance and retreat from consciously recognized necessity, value, or duty. Raga: Bondage through worldly attachment, emotional clinging, and dependence on impermanent forms for inner stability. Boredom: Bondage to stimulation and inability to remain at peace within understimulated existence. Pride is distinct from Vainglory. Pride is the internal, arrogant belief in one's superiority, and vainglory is the external, desperate desire for applause and recognition. Now contrary to popular opinion, Vainglory can arise apart from Pride. One may actually feel and believe oneself to be quite inferior which is definitely not prideful, but also seek external validation in hopes of curing their feelings of inferiority, This is why I put Vainglory distinct from Pride. Gluttony deals not only with food but excess consumption in general. Example: Doomscrolling. Wrath is that anger which binds one's will. You can be angry not only at others but at life itself. Example: Frustration. Wrath internally is the mind's attempt to force reality to conform because it cannot get what it wants. It's basically emotional violence. This is why Patience is the perfect counterpart to wrath. In the 7 deadly sins and virtues model the opposite of Envy is either Kindness or Gratitude. Here it is intentionally made 'RESPECT'. This is because the goal of this list is different. Envy and Respect are two sides of the same coin. The only difference between the two is believing whether the person you are envious of DESERVES the thing in question or not. Seeing yourself do the same stuff everyday, even though you know you need to change, knowing full well what you are doing is wrong and doing it anyways, is an example of SLOTH. Another example: Doing the same job for 35 years because you are too comfortable in your existing job even though you know making a change will be a much better choice. I chose the word Cowardice intentionally. There are two types of fears in the context of this list; Fear which restrains your freedom and fear which enables your freedom. Example: Being afraid of falling off a cliff while walking on the ledge prevents dying which enables freer will because if not for this fear you might have actually jumped off the cliff due to the influence of any of the other compulsions. Cowardice refers specifically to the kind of fear which restrains your will. Example: Not trying again because you are afraid of failure. Not starting a new habit because you are afraid of giving up again. Cowardice is distinct from Sloth. Cowardice related to fear while Sloth related to comfort. Both can sometimes lead to the same action. 'Not wanting to change your job because you are too comfortable/scared even though you know the change is better' Raga is the very specific kind of attachment that is attachment to worldly objects like your wealth and relationships. If you can't develop Vairagya all the worldly objects will restrain your will. Example: You want to achieve Enlightenment but you are too attached to your Bugatti. Example 2: You want to open up your heart chakra but you're too hung up over your ex. Boredom is a big one. The key word here is stimulation. Can you be peaceful when you are under stimulated; and for how long? When somebody comes up to you and starts talking about something you are not interested in, you get bored. I am not telling you to force yourself into taking interest; you can tell them you are uninterested or space out without focusing on the topic; but can you stay peaceful without getting bored? "But what about Ignorance? It should have made the list!" Ignorance DOES restrict will of a person but ignorance is not a compulsion, it's the condition of existing as a limited being. At any point you necessarily are ignorant about something or the other, so Ignorance and it's downstream functions like Hypocrisy don't qualify to be on the list. Vanity didn't make it because it collapses into Vainglory ultimately. I like vainglory more because it is 'empty glory'. Fear and Attachment are too broad to be on the list for what function it serves. Hatred is not on the list because it's a composite of the other compulsions. Same goes with Cruelty and Sadism. Acedia mixes too many concepts together for which the list isn't intended.

I like this idea.

I haven't truly had a full on Love awakening either but I have had enough to know it's definitely there. But this is why I can relate with Ralston and understand why he sees it this way. Love is like a completely different dimension of awakening. Imagine the x, y, z coordinates to be the mind, heart and gut. It's possible for all your awakenings to be somewhere along the mind - gut plane but never move along in the heart dimension. Love is like that snapping turtle right there in your face about to eat you every time you awaken but because you are so blind you miss it.

I love it. What an insight. I tried this and can see how I am constantly trying to define my walls so I can keep them erect. Protecting myself from change. Survival at it's finest. It's so scary to drop those walls but it's so freeing. The change is rapid but the whole point is not to care who you become. We have been beaten so senseless by this world into erecting these walls that we forget we put them in the first place. This is why my ego keeps coming back after ego deaths. Each action we do, each word we speak, it's all so we can keep defining ourselves.

Crazy stuff.

It's however you want to put it. You could also say "You wake up, make progress towards your goals, make money, complete quests and build relationships." The music is good too so the game can be both relaxing and stressful. Never again. I have heard of Runescape so much but I feel like it's too old a game to give it a serious try now, am I wrong? I have only played the Persona games, I have heard SMT is a lot more philosophical.

Will give it a read. What other good ones are you referring to? I am interested in the more occult sort of stuff or artistic stuff.

streaks of roots shoot deep in the ground holding on to earth, yes holding you down not a shriek not a shiver not a creak not a sliver of doubt it is stable it is able, don't label solid solid solid you can do it just call it

Beauty is a property of love and oneness. You see this beauty everywhere because you are everywhere. Alignment is beauty. You can also be in a state where everything is absolutely ugly with no exceptions. Hideous and disgusting. In those states you are in aversion to everything. You try to distinguish yourself away from everything but you cant because you are helplessly part of it all which creates an even greater disgust. Both states of Absolute Beauty and Absolute Disgust make me cry and the resultant state is still the same, TRUTH/ONENESS. These two aspects are not different at all. They both lead to stillness. You can't really name that non-dual state. It'd be wrong to call reality either beautiful or ugly. It's something that cannot be named.

The world is an excellent accountant. The same problems will repeat until you solve them. Escape is not an option. This fact should make you feel relieved instead of trapped. Because this implies a 100% success rate given enough time. Life can fucking suck but it's always temporary. Once a pattern repeats enough times you figure out how to solve it.

Your post gave me an insight into who I was 3 years ago. I used to be a lot more feminine back then and frankly that helped me with my spirituality. I used to struggle a lot with thinking "Why am I not manly?" "I want to be a true man!". I used look at men in TV shows and anime could never relate to their bravery because I did not know what it felt like to be a man. I think gender inside is highly fluid. In the past 3 years I managed to become a 'true man' within myself. I feel like a man right now. I don't want to complain and I want to take on responsibility. 'FUN' for me means relieving my stress. Everything I do is for the sake of duty towards the world and myself. When I achieved this I felt amazing, but reading your post now makes me feel I left a very big part of me back there. I used to be a woman too. Being a woman is such an upgrade to spirituality by the way and life is so much more dynamic. You do not need any fixing, nor are you out of alignment. The best thing to do for you is to explore your femininity. Just because you are not a woman doesn't limit you in exploring your femininity. Even most women don't go deep into their own femininity. You don't have to be a woman to master your femininity. Actually the biggest trap for you would be to think you are trapped as a woman inside a man's body. The truth is you are neither male nor female. It'd also be a big trap to romanticize being a woman. You have to take responsibility even as a woman, you have to do a lot of manly things even as a woman. This is because despite the existence of gender roles, both functioning men and women need to be in touch with both their masculine and feminine sides. I'd advice every human to develop both of their feminine and masculine sides before settling into what they like best. The thing with society is, the freedom you likely desire would not be available even to women. Your issue might go deeper than simply being feminine or masculine.