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this is my current goal, to embody this state the best I can. It's truly heaven when it happens and for me it happens randomly. It's like everything is a bonus. It's so fun I cannot describe the feeling. All anxiety is gone and you love everybody and everything. Life truly become Sunshine and Rainbows. Even the terrible shit is fun. When bad shit happens, even if your emotions turn into anger or depression, that whole ordeal is fun. The same way you would describe the change in emotions while watching a movie or playing a game as fun.

Lmao I certainly appreciate the spice @Mellowmarsh you bring a very important point to light. Here's what I think I do not advocate politeness, what I ask for is gratefulness and love. Politeness is not authentic when all you do is polish your words to make them sweeter. No, the point is living from a place of gratitude.. more importantly the embodiment of Love. This doesn't always mean sweet words. One's words can be very rude at the surface but if one is embodying oneself from a place of Love that Love oozes out of their being. In real life this Love can be detected through actions and tone. Even your very energy gives away the amount of love you embody despite how unpolished the words are. I love that authenticity, yet there is also a form of authenticity where the person isn't direct but rather playful. There words are not direct because their authentic Love manifests as feeling. There are many ways to express love and I commend you to pick one and are going with it Mellowmarsh. The problem arises when we converse on an online forum. Here, much of the other cues are striped away. The only source for that Love to present itself is through words. Maybe not explicitly, but implicitly such as how much interest you show in somebody's idea. Your authenticity which may come off as rude precisely does so because there are no other cues present. This would be my guess if you are truly being authentic. It is very important to note that if anybody reads this thread and decides to be more grateful, they do so from a place of genuine appreciation and not a place of sugarcoating. When I say I love something, and when I say I appreciate something I mean it truly genuinely. These words I write here are exactly my authentic feelings. @enchanted I agree with this. The main focus is group dynamics. Engaging with quality posts more often from a place of gratitude will encourage more quality posts. Even when I praise somebody I make sure the praise is real and not shallow. I do not praise people unless I feel they deserve it. The reason I did not praise people even when they deserved it earlier was because I did not operate from a place of love. When I see a person with a good outfit, I praise them because I genuinely mean it, not because praising them will gain me imaginary social points. Same with this forum.

This is why I usually avoid posts with maybe over 20 replies. The reason for vast amounts of replies on a post are seldom due to a quality discussion. Seeing that engagement while almost none on that of some quality post is what made me make this post.

I have a Samsung watch too the distance measurement and heart measurement have been fairly accurate at least to the degree it matters for me. You post has encouraged me to take a spiritual walk too. Thank you. I was thinking the other day about what I should be doing when I am in the state of non-doership. A weird question. Of course, my existence and existence are one, there is no doer only the happenings all through and through. I was thinking about this and it came to me what wild animals do in their free time. They either sleep or perceive reality in what I assume a satisfied state. Of course evolutionarily this can be explained as conservation of energy but that's not what the animal thinks about. Even as I walk in nature and sit and observe the trees and sky, I get these thoughts of productivity or the future or the past or maybe of people. However, you know what I feel when I simply observe nature as I sit there like a satisfied wild animal? That this is the point of life. It's not anything crazy. Just sit there on that rock observing the sky and the trees. That's the point.

Exactly. The rarest type of feedback I see is of genuine appreciation. In communities where this type of feedback is common they often host great spaces for discussion. Even in my relationships I observed how important it was to give credit to people where it's due. This is just plain gratitude. We shouldn't take quality posts for granted at all.

That's good then. Maybe I haven't been active enough to notice. Yes I agree we cannot guarantee what people consider as 'quality' and what they find 'trash'. However it's not practical to ask people to simply up their perspective. In my opinion asking for simple gratitude in a community can already up the base quality of posts because it encourages better posts. This forum may even become more active if engagement increases. It's not so simple. You can't post on a public forum and act like you did that only for beauty and intelligence. There is always an element of sharing and feedback involved. Some people post for validation, some post for help, some post for an honest discussion, some post to potentially help another and some post for analysis. We all have our reasons but their is common thread between all and that is feedback. Feedback can encourage or discourage to post more; but a lack of it always discourages. In my experience very high quality posts have gotten ignored because the kind of feedback they require is not of critic or addition (the easiest feedback to give). Sometimes what a post requires is genuine appreciation and that is the least common type of feedback. If we don't provide feedback to quality posts then they will eventually slow down. If this change towards gratitude has already been happening then I am glad.

In my life I recently learnt the lesson of giving credit where it's due. I used to rarely praise others yet often point out the mistakes or add my own opinion, only recently did I learn the benefits of praising things that you genuinely enjoy instead of staying quite. I urge the people here to give credit to posts they found to be of quality. A big issue I noticed with this forum compared to previous years is that the quality of posts went down. While I don't think the situation is anything serious, I think it is important to work towards a forum that holds discussions that are higher in quality. The easiest change one can make is instead of reading a quality post and moving on (because it's good enough that you have nothing to add) you should drop a reply detailing what you found great. I think if we did this more often people will be encouraged to drop more quality posts on the forum and push towards posting great insights. Whether one wants to admit it or not, the engagement your post gets matter. If the millionth post about Solipsism gets tons of traction but a genuinely great insight posted gets 0 replies, it discourages the person to post their best insights. I have witnessed so many times quality posts(especially in the spirituality section) get no engagement at all. I won't name anybody but there are some people here who I genuinely find to be regularly posting some high quality stuff, yet they get basically no engagement. It's because we post here to share which is why the engagement we get matters. If we engage with great quality posts; even dropping a simple "great insight!" can, in my opinion, greatly increase the number of quality posts on the forum.

Certainly a great reply! I am glad I posted about my experience here. Thanks. I think I may understand what you mean. I'll focus on that. I have come to understand that true paranormal (i.e. beyond normal explanation) only occurs at heavy intersections of liminality in existence. Liminal as in not just a transitional place but also a totally mysterious and unknown one. Maybe once you shift that center, you perceive your own liminality? If you can be liminal like that long enough, eventually siddhis (the paranormal) may emerge.

My actions felt like a rock by the side of road, indistinguishable from stillness. I remember being terrified once at my non-existence but in those two days something new happened. Normally I'd be paralyzed at my non-existence, but in those two days actions happened, thoughts came about and the constructed self existed in heaven. However in each moment I was aware of non-existence and that the constructed self and the thoughts were simply part of the experience. What made this embodiment for me deeper was not only the performance of actions in an otherwise paralyzing state, but also the constant exploding fireworks in my heart for those two days. I did not have a head nor a body. I felt entirely non-human. I felt 3 layers of existence simultaneously in those 2 days. 1 - The constructed self, thoughts, body, emotions and mind. Heavily Purified due to a constant stream of energy to the heart 2 - Some unknown non-human self, not quite non-existence but pervading the experience thoroughly, existing in some weird fuzzy space 3 - Non-existence, the absolute truth.

Can you elaborate on what you mean by giving the vector of oneself? And yes, I do think I embodied that for a while and came back, now it's hard to even get back. It's like I exhausted a muscle and can't even glimpse it again until I rest for a while. Normally I am able to enter these states on command within 2-5 minutes, but now I just can't.. or rather don't want to at all. It's like I have fatigued a muscle which is recovering. Is this normal or does this actually mean I am missing something crucial and that my awakening is incomplete? I have never heard of somebody with the same problem, all I have ever heard of is people awakening to a deep enough degree that it alters their baseline permanently. I have been working steadily to raise my baseline instead.

I just made a post about it

Yeah it's like being the sky while your mind is the countless number of clouds taking various shapes. The entire reality becomes you so the whole world is your mind therefore the small mind you call your mind is not really yours or different. It's one thing that's existing among others, like a rock by the side of the road. Yet it is important to note there is indeed also a state where there are no thoughts and your focus is steady. That is cool too.

A few days ago I became lucid and as I did my daily upasana I had a crazy download. It thrust me into a state of non-doership and oneness. This came after a long time of trying to embody my awakenings. Only one thing ran in my mind at that moment, "The point of life is not to have fun, be peaceful, be joyful or self-mastery. The point of life is to be GOD." What being God meant to me was being a pure vessel, aligning yourself so deeply with God that all your actions happen in alignment with the world. I felt so happy but that wasn't the point, I felt so satisfied but that wasn't the point. The point was that I was GOD. This lasted for two days. I lost all sense of social anxiety and procrastination. I was very productive, I took on new projects which I otherwise would have rejected. I was very extroverted, made new friends and had so much fun hanging out with a friend. In situations where I would have gotten angry I was very understanding. My friend told me later that he felt guilt at being so selfish about something after seeing me be selfless with him. It was like I had been drunk for two days. I was in heaven, I could lay down in the middle of the street and I wouldn't care man. Yesterday morning I woke up as myself again. I tried getting back but I can't. I am not so productive once again. I haven't asked my deity to make me experience that again yet because I believe that was a gift to show me more. I am not sure what really happened. I feel this is a lighter version of how Krishna felt in his life. It was so fun, there was no internal resistance. Everything I did or thought of doing was so fun, yet fun wasn't the point, it was being God. What was especially crazy was I had insane amounts of synchronicity happen to me. I was luckier, or at least felt luckier. Is this a sign that I may be able to embody my awakenings soon or do I still have a long way to go? I really want to get back, or maybe that desire is what's stopping me.

I had a nightmare which occurred several dream layers in like inception. I think I was 3 layers deep when my home turned into a dark version of itself, I walked to one of the bigger rooms on the upper floor, the whole house was dark. There were two beds and on them were my family's dead bodies covered with thin white sheets. I called out to them but they didn't respond. I was afraid to pull the sheets, but when I began to, I heard heavy footsteps coming up the stairs. The sound was approaching and I had to do something. I immediately became lucid and jumped up one layer to escape. I woke up in the second layer, in a lighter version of my house with a storm outside, I forced exit it to and woke up on the first layer, in the lap of somebody that was not real in a ideal home which was not real. I tried jumping again but it resulted in a mess. Everything turned to static and I saw words written and legible on the static. "Come back. Don't leave. This place is better. Come back, don't go. Stay, STAY STAY" I read each letter clearly. Then after a lot of mental tugging I finally woke up as if emerging from deep waters.

It gave me a glimpse of insanity and was enough to scare me off for a while. I felt insane when I was in that state. It's like a need to cry but there is no one who can. It's like needing to scream but there is no one who can. Very disturbing. However I did get past that eventually and realized the beauty in it. I can't embody it completely yet but whenever I do it's like taking a drug which makes you extroverted and productive. Productive because everything is fun to do. Life feels like frolicking around in heaven. I had that embodied for the two days, knowing we are all one and I have nothing to fear. Yesterday morning I woke up as my self again. Hard to embody it but I have gotten good.