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I love it. What an insight. I tried this and can see how I am constantly trying to define my walls so I can keep them erect. Protecting myself from change. Survival at it's finest. It's so scary to drop those walls but it's so freeing. The change is rapid but the whole point is not to care who you become. We have been beaten so senseless by this world into erecting these walls that we forget we put them in the first place. This is why my ego keeps coming back after ego deaths. Each action we do, each word we speak, it's all so we can keep defining ourselves.

Crazy stuff.

It's however you want to put it. You could also say "You wake up, make progress towards your goals, make money, complete quests and build relationships." The music is good too so the game can be both relaxing and stressful. Never again. I have heard of Runescape so much but I feel like it's too old a game to give it a serious try now, am I wrong? I have only played the Persona games, I have heard SMT is a lot more philosophical.

Will give it a read. What other good ones are you referring to? I am interested in the more occult sort of stuff or artistic stuff.

streaks of roots shoot deep in the ground holding on to earth, yes holding you down not a shriek not a shiver not a creak not a sliver of doubt it is stable it is able, don't label solid solid solid you can do it just call it

Beauty is a property of love and oneness. You see this beauty everywhere because you are everywhere. Alignment is beauty. You can also be in a state where everything is absolutely ugly with no exceptions. Hideous and disgusting. In those states you are in aversion to everything. You try to distinguish yourself away from everything but you cant because you are helplessly part of it all which creates an even greater disgust. Both states of Absolute Beauty and Absolute Disgust make me cry and the resultant state is still the same, TRUTH/ONENESS. These two aspects are not different at all. They both lead to stillness. You can't really name that non-dual state. It'd be wrong to call reality either beautiful or ugly. It's something that cannot be named.

The world is an excellent accountant. The same problems will repeat until you solve them. Escape is not an option. This fact should make you feel relieved instead of trapped. Because this implies a 100% success rate given enough time. Life can fucking suck but it's always temporary. Once a pattern repeats enough times you figure out how to solve it.

Your post gave me an insight into who I was 3 years ago. I used to be a lot more feminine back then and frankly that helped me with my spirituality. I used to struggle a lot with thinking "Why am I not manly?" "I want to be a true man!". I used look at men in TV shows and anime could never relate to their bravery because I did not know what it felt like to be a man. I think gender inside is highly fluid. In the past 3 years I managed to become a 'true man' within myself. I feel like a man right now. I don't want to complain and I want to take on responsibility. 'FUN' for me means relieving my stress. Everything I do is for the sake of duty towards the world and myself. When I achieved this I felt amazing, but reading your post now makes me feel I left a very big part of me back there. I used to be a woman too. Being a woman is such an upgrade to spirituality by the way and life is so much more dynamic. You do not need any fixing, nor are you out of alignment. The best thing to do for you is to explore your femininity. Just because you are not a woman doesn't limit you in exploring your femininity. Even most women don't go deep into their own femininity. You don't have to be a woman to master your femininity. Actually the biggest trap for you would be to think you are trapped as a woman inside a man's body. The truth is you are neither male nor female. It'd also be a big trap to romanticize being a woman. You have to take responsibility even as a woman, you have to do a lot of manly things even as a woman. This is because despite the existence of gender roles, both functioning men and women need to be in touch with both their masculine and feminine sides. I'd advice every human to develop both of their feminine and masculine sides before settling into what they like best. The thing with society is, the freedom you likely desire would not be available even to women. Your issue might go deeper than simply being feminine or masculine.

7 days into the gut meditation and I have had my first experience. The way I do this is by sitting under a cold shower, cross legged (one shin over the other), and doing the Prithvi Mudra. It was building up to this over the past week and finally had that release today. Essentially my awareness finally shifted from my head to my gut and suddenly the entire world was enveloped within my gut. It was as if the world was in a cosmic womb. Which suddenly reminded me of the concept of 'Hiranyagarbha'. I looked it up later and found out that it is closely related to the creator god 'Brahma'. The whole point of this meditation was to stimulate my 'Brahma' Granthi. I think it worked quite well. My midsection and below felt as light as a feather. As if a source of pure light and energy had opened for a second within my gut already overloading it with energy. It was amazing. Another big insight I had during this was that the world is essentially like being underground where each and every thing is connected to each other like roots branching out in the dirt. Very interesting indeed. I am gonna continue on. This is likely a very early stage of whatever I am hitting at. Now I don't know whether to call it placebo or something else, but whenever I am stuck in my meditation I can call out to the deity I worship and I get an instant boost in concentration power. In fact sometimes it even helps me skip the initial stages altogether when starting my meditation.

If everybody was rational they would press red, because that's a 100% guaranteed chance of survival. In the real world, a lot of people will press the red button simply to to guarantee survival. But it'd be too late for those who have already pushed the blue button. Because of that, there will be a massive drive to press the blue button so hopefully people are able to survive. Knowing humanity, Blue would easily cross 50%. In the case where no communication is allowed and each person has to pick it based on their own thoughts, the results can be devastating. Personally, in a situation where no communication is allowed, two things will be battling it out for me. "I must guarantee my survival" and "In case a large number of people die, I can't live with the guilt of having pressed the Red button". In such a case, I believe humanity would heavily skew Red because no communication is allowed. Given some thinking time I think more than 50% of humans will figure out that Red is the best option. Assuming they have been presented the question in their preferred language or dialect which they understand the best. The reason for skewing Red would be imo everybody just wanting to ensure their survival. Even then, a lot of people would have picked Blue and their fate would be hopeless. With all of that in my head, I think 90% of the time I will not be conscious enough to pick Blue. Picking Blue is effectively accepting your death. After picking Red, to not feel guilt, I would stupidify those who picked Blue in my head. "They were dumb enough to pick Blue, it's just natural selection. Of course I feel bad but it's not my fault picking Red." The other 10% of the time, when I am highly conscious, I'd realize that the answer that aligns the most with the universal will is Blue. 10% of the time I think I'd pick Blue and accept my death.

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This is a theme you find common across all mechanisms in reality that operate on survival. Balance. Survival is all about balance and when the balance breaks the survival fails. Organisms seek massive power because that's a balancing act between their desire and limitations of the world. Survival makes it so the struggle is the point. Only way two planks of wood can stay upright is if they lean on each other. Till this balance is maintained they are upright. This balance requires resistance, leaning and pushing on the other plank. If one plank stops pushing as hard it will fall over due to pressure of the other planks and they both fall. Everything we do is about balance. Our desires are unlimited because we are limited. This is why the way to achieve freedom is not through fulfilling desires but through not having any at all. This is common trope within media where the strongest character loses meaning in competitions of strength. Because there is no struggle, the survival has failed. Being the strongest is the same as being the weakest. Both lose interest. The point was always to struggle but because their desire to achieve perfection was part of the balancing act, they never realized it. In vagabond, Miyamoto Mushashi turns inward to find true strength rather than chase external strength. This way he connects to the only thing in reality that isn't dependent on survival, consciousness.

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We really are just animals, huddled up in our tiny homes engaging in ourselves. Reproduction, food, safety, social hierarchy, entertainment. Exploration is the gateway to experience something higher than animal. That is consciousness. Being open to receive. Curiosity and creativity.

AI is crazy good now. I see no spelling mistakes.