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thank you!

can you be more specific, what lesson(s) do you think i am lacking?

Leo has a video on Self-Love

oh oh sorry for assuming. Just wanted to make sure you weren't falling into the hate trap. all good!

you got some bone to pick with grandiose narcissists?

thank you

What makes you think you have enough experiential knowledge then? You assume you know more about something you haven't even tried than someone who has. You might be able to derive more information through contemplation from a certain experience than others, but you still haven't even done psychedelics to derive anything. What you are doing is speculation. And then claiming it as true. You want to be proved wrong. But what if you can't communicate that proof but have to experience it for yourself? In that case, telling you to do psychedelics will only really be the last option. My only argument is that your argument of "don't just dismiss me with the empty reply "you cannot understand if you don't take them". " doesn't work. You don't know you have experienced something similar to psychedelics until you have a genuine psychedelic experience to compare from.

I wouldn't recommend to do so. I used to meditate an hour - 2 hours a day and then I felt I was getting too attached and let go of meditation for a while. It has been 3 months, and I can't even meditate 30 mins properly now. I am going to build up to an hour again. But I think that feeling of "I would be able to grow if i let it go for a while cuz rn i am attached" can just be worked out through more mediation. I think you can get rid of attachment to meditation THROUGH mediation. This isn't counter-intuitive imo cuz for me it was intuitive to leave meditation for a while and take break.

I think you shouldn't work towards developing motivation towards a great house and million of dollars. Rather find something that you find motivating. Someone might have a passion to live a ordinary life in some cabin in the mountains rather than a mansion with cars. I think it usually always takes time to find what you love to do. And rather than coping with your suffering and pleasure with "I don't care" attitude, instead, see the emptiness in them, and realize that their is no reason to get serious on this rather than a SHOULD or repetitive statement like "Meh. It don't care". See WHY you aren't caring. And I think seeing the beauty in everything will also help with finding joy in something that you like.

Make sure to not make that feeling of "No self" into a new feeling of self. Always dig that "no self" out from the present moment, don't try to remember it.

I think "you cannot understand if you don't take them" is really the only argument that can be made. If you haven't took them then that means you don't have enough experiential knowledge to go by contemplating or speculating. Right now all these speculating may seem like correct but it could very well be the case that if you actually experience a trip, all that speculation be flipped upside down. And I don't think anyone can pose arguments in words to do that for you. I haven't took psychedelics so this is also speculating. What you believe about ayahuasca disassociating could very well be proved wrong just by tripping yourself. Having an outside perspective can be helpful but in cases like these, imo, the thing in question should be experienced before talking about it.

Can anyone link me the book everyone is talking about?

Edit: Before you read, if you have mental problems like depression and all that. Consult your therapist and seek some help first. You must go the other way round and find reason for why you hate yourself. And then disprove them later on through you realizations. Your question doesn't really work anyways because it like asking the hand to grasp itself or the eye to look at it itself. You can't love yourself, you're talking about loving your ego. You cant accept many parts of your ego because of assumptions and biases. All you need is realizations, which ones I don't know. That for you to see. To love yourself is to love everything, it's to be the consciousness that you are.

I was on my bed last night (around 2 am), listening to Leo on "The theme of things going full-circle". I went downstairs to the kitchen to make some fried potatoes to eat. As I put them in the Air fryer and set the time for 15 mins. I went to the side and sat down on a chair. I started noticing reality. I intensified my awareness or focus more and more. I dont know what motivated me to this. But as Leo went on in my headphones, I noticed that there is only what is. There is nothing more to it. No inner world, no back of the head or any body parts or organs untill i saw them, only perceptions. Maybe not even perceptions, because I also saw Whatever is, may as well be just some Being, It isn't centralized around me. It's just something, and I am not even there. And it made stuff more fascinating. I felt like I was 5 year olds seeing the magic in the world. And I didn't wanna move my body. I am tapping into that again, and really there is no reason for me to type this. It may as well be to feed my ego, but that's ok. Anything is fine. my purpose of finding the truth or seeking it is just this now, if I sit down with no nonsense in my mind, I naturally start to inquire into the nature of existence. So it's really the only thing I CAN do. Maybe I am writing this cuz I want concretize that something like that actually happened lol. Or actually we can say, it never happened. EDIT: I read this post. This has started to happen to me. If you went through something similar to this or not even. Read this.

You might be posting this here to seek comfort in your spiritual view with like minded people, instead of just letting it go. edit: or maybe you're just bored lol

I think it's when you become something and are able to observe it carefully to be able to put it into words and explain it