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I think it would be easy to just love him if you can train yourself to not generate anger from all the things he did since you know there is no reason for you to get angry. For eg. You gotta be aware enough to know there is nothing to be frustrated about if he got you wet by throwing that drink at you. It'd be nice training lol

I resonate completely with him

damn yeah you right

Isn't it your belief that there were other points in time? That there is time? That there are other POVs? That you are a POV? That there is something else? That there is something at all?

He says that realizing God is yet just another stage of awakening, and that we shouldn't stop there and try to go beyond. He says next state is after realizing you are everything and God, you work on realizing you are nothing. Not even nothing. And then dissolve into reality. Then he says even beyond is realizing that reality is beyond being and non-being, beyond perception and non-perception. edit: tho i'd say you if you can do the nothingness thing then you will simultaneously be conscious that you are everything and also nothing. I think he said that in the video as well.

Very helpful. But I think what he is saying goes at the same time as what other teachers and also Leo says. As he said, "There is no self" is the same thing as "I am everything" I think he is really tryna stop us from misunderstanding the awakening process. I don't think Leo is as much at fault at all. Even with just Leo's video, I was able to experience what Frank is describing. But his video did serve as a great reminder for me. You are immortal and also mortal. There is being but also non-being. Damn. This feels great, but also not great.

Well if you focus on somewhere other than the image in front of you, ofcourse it's gonna blur. And since in your experience, there is nothingness behing your perception. Your vision just blurs and dissolves and no other image comes up. Unlike let's say imagining a red car while eyes open. atleast this is how i see it. I think what you are doing can be a helpful practice tho, just feels like it. edit: Just realized, what you are doing rn is what I do to focus in on the fact that I am awareness which pervades everything Nietz's abyss quote makes sense now lol. edit 2: I am gonna do this too, to focus in on the void! Thank you!

@acidgoofy i'd love to hug that body of yours lol looks sturdy no homo tho

Someone wrote a really detailed guide on how to Conciously Sleep here some time back. They also link several other of their posts that talk about OBEs and AP. They talk about them in the post itself. I think it's helpful, though I haven't tried it out properly myself.

Don't worry, I think you are doing fine. Just keep going. Only thing you can mess up on this journey is to either never start or to not finish. (I think buddha said this, and I damn well agree.)

Just another thing I want to say on this thread. Since NoFap amplifies sexual attraction in me (that is I am more easily attracted by other females, sorry for sloppy english.), It is all the more easier to inquire into what sexual attraction is all about by feeling even more into it! I'll probably say something here again if something interesting is discovered by me.

When something appears from nothingness, you call it thinking when it disappears forever into nothingness, you call it forgetfulness And I guess not knowing you're god and all is rather a self-deception than a you forgetting something. It's like the ego has locked a door with deception to the realization, so you have to somehow do stuff to open the door and see what's beyond by unlocking the deception. I think working on a realization is just identifying the deceptions blocking your sight of that realization and eliminating them(well identifying itself eliminates them), either through intense bodily experiences from psychedelics or kriya yoga or other means, or through contemplation and meditation, etc. But you need to identify a path around the obstacles cuz usually you just come back from the realization back into deception out of habit, if you a path back to that realization established, you can go back as much as you want until you are comfortable enough to settle there. This as you know is called integrating your realizations

Thanks for everyone replies! I am already about a week into NoFap. I don't even want to call it NoFap or anything, I was originally just practice letting go, but I guess I'll let go fapping for real. What I have seen is that it is less waste of a time. And also,, my dick feels new lmao. As far as the 'not fapping while i can' thing goes, I think I can achieve same (even greater ofc) bliss thorugh meditation and all that spiritual work. How I know this? Cuz I have been there done that before. It's better than sexual orgasm, so maybe I should just quit being such a slave to survival (always am, but I want to atleats quit some gross manifestation of that survival insitinct). I'll stop counting from now on, counting will only keep my focus on it.

I don't know much about all that, but what I have experienced is that when I go really deep (deep for me), or have a really mind fucking insight, during that experience, the area on my forehead where the third eye is supposed to be, really starts pressurizing, and to say it is pressured isn't even correct. It's like it is pulled in like there is vacuum in my head. Also during all this, i feel pleasure in the head.

I haven't done it but certainly gotten pretty close. If you can induce sleep paralysis consciously, you can then later move on to astral projection when you are hallucinating big time. How to induce sleep paralysis? Well really I don't know. See, I did it 3 times but it happened when I was focusing on my thought without realizing i was focusing, Suddenly by thought grow loud and i 'fall'. Vibrations all throughout the body and I start hallucinating in all of my senses. So from my experience all I can really say is try to sleep by meditating. Which is observing your thoughts. It always happened when I woke up at 3 am (went to sleep around 11 pm), then stayed awake for a while, maybe 30 mins to 2 hours. Then I when i went back to sleep, it is very easy. See I know this much, but the last time i did that was months ago, and i have been trying (not intensely tho), to do it again. No luck yet. So my information here isn't much to go by.

Not asking you to hurt yourself, that was just an extreme example to get the point across.

The first time I ever noticed what I was when I was sitting in silence during the evening. I wasn't expecting any insight. I wasn't even trying meditate. I just meditate on my own without realizing sometimes. And suddenly, I realized I was the awareness that fills all. And the mind, body and world is part of it. I think you have to let go of all your conceptions, Leo's latest video on realizing God helps a bunch in that. If you can burn all your conceptions, you may see that awareness that fills all. Why I say all is because the direct experience is all there is. No conceptions. Once you can see this, it's very easy to identify that me-ness anywhere, because no you are not identified with it. Since you have gone meta to self, self is easily seen. An easy way to identify this realization is if it feels as both "I am everything" and "I am nothing". Feeling "I am everywhere" and at the same time "I am nowhere". "All is me" and "There is no me". So in my opinion, you can realize in this order to make it easy. Realize that awareness (by making a distinction between thoughts and consciousness, is pretty hard to see at first) > then see that it is you (usually it happens automatically when you realize that awareness, but if it doesn't happen, try to see it's you.) > then notice the ego/me/self(it's always a feeling in your heart) > try to let that go > then notice the feeling in your heart which denotes 'the world' > let that go > then notice the feeling of 'other' > let that go > then notice the feeling of "ALL" > let that go > then notice the feeling of "I am everything/nothing, everywhere/nowhere, etc." > and let that go > then notice all your linguistics in your mind > and let that go well you get the idea. Basically be how a baby is. with this practice, you'll develop the spiritual muscle of noticing these feelings in your heart and letting them go. So let's say you put your hand in a fire. You'll then be able to notice that you wanting to pull your hand out is itself a feeling, and you are trying to resist that pain and heat. And you can let that go. Takes a lot of practice lol.

I had an ego backlash but, now I am feeling great tho. I have integrated at least 10% of what I felt during the exercise in my baseline consciousness. And I am working throughout the day to bump it back up and up. By that mean be more conscious. Just sitting is feels great man. During the exercise I felt the same in my head as during an orgasm's peak. I know it goes deeper and more intense, but first let me be able to reach their easily as well. Everything Leo said in the video which would previously make 0 sense to me made 100% sense. And it still does. Just wow. I had a similar experience 2 weeks back, I even posted about it. This was the same, but it was bunch more intense.

You can watch Leo's video on letting go. He gives a few exercises. For me, I masturbated, so I started letting that go. This is effective because after some days the urge is really strong, and if you can let that go too, it's very good training. Youvan do this while your body is feeling pain. When you are frustrated, angry, sad, excited, happy. Just try letting it go and flow instantaneously. Also be sure to identify yourself as an illusion and let that go as well. Letting yourself or "me" go is very helpful into having a flowing mind that is unsticky. Once you let it go, the flow suddenly goes 50 fold.

@Lyubov I don't know about there being different POV's or not, but I think the video focused more on getting you into your direct experience and shatter all your concepts. So you can identify that this right here is god. Because in your direct experience there is no other POV. There is also no you.

Since I am mostly on PC, I use uBlockOrigin adblocker extension. It's not like I can pay for Youtube premium and all. And If I am getting a real good experience without paying why not? If I was rich then yeah I would buy Youtube Premium since it will also extend to my phone. By right now ads aren't even a problem for me. And it's not like I need Youtube Music and all that. And I don't know why despise ads so much? I honestly don't care if Google or any big corporations get money. I have better things to do(self-actualization) than give fucks about hating ads and demonizing corporation.

Saiyans be like

I kind of did it accidently one night when I was staring at an ant. I could feel myself becoming the ant. I was flickering between it and me. I didnt do it properly but I was flickering for a minute or two. It was very different then what I had imagined such a mergence to be beforehand.