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The more advanced you get, the more you see how much friction-free you can make your life. Nothing is inherently bad with 'low-consciousness' entertainment, but they just add lots of friction to your life and mind, which you can now notice. And ofcourse you dont want that since your goal is to spiritually advance and friction prevents you from doing that.

A few nights ago I was sitting down and meditating at around 2 AM talking to myself. I was questioning how does oneness(which is all there is) even occur. How does it happen. After a while I realized nothing is happening at all. That was such a mindfuck that my mind went blank for 5 minutes and it was utter peace and joy. Like damn. I also made a video on this but ya'll don't really need to watch it since more than half of the video is just me explaining how one gets there, which you guys probably alr know, but I'll still post it here I thought I could somehow explain how nothing is dancing as something, but as you could see from the video, when I got to that part I had no idea how to describe it. So I just ended the video.

Btw, question for mods, is it ok if I post the videos I make to share insights/are relevant to this forum somewhat regularly?

Thank you ?

Maybe cuz of all this failure you will reach this one time when you are just fucking done with all and sit down until you get it, like the Buddha did. The more you get it sober and are able to clearly see that path to go from normal to realization while sober, the closer those two get to integration.

I don't think it's there to being with. Usually when we think of that 'sizeless-singularity' containing all of the direct experience, we usually focus on the physical sensation of the middle of the head (is what I have seen). In fact, even that feeing of or vision of singularity must not be it. It isn't even there to be static or dynamic in the first place. This also means absolutely nothing is happening rn.

I was laying in bed, trying to go to sleep, when it dawned on me that, I actually enjoy suffering. Lemme explain Only reason why we love limited things like "a Good productive day" or "a warm cozy feeling inside your blanket in winters" is because we "don't like" the opposite and are repelled from those experiences. Without the other, neither is fun. Unlimited suffering, not fun untill there is pleasure at somepoint. Unlimited pleasure/joy, not fun without some suffering after a point. Pretty basic insight. But thing with what dawned on me was that, it isn't even about "earning" the pleasure through suffering, or 'refreshing the clock' after some amount of pleasure/suffering. It's just literally, I enjoy suffering. I enjoy suffering and that's why I suffer. I enjoy pleasure, joy and good experiences, and that's why I aim for them and get them(or literally be happy as a natural state). No roundabouts, no nothing in terms of mental gymnastics, I just straight up love suffering and it has always been that way. It's weird because this love goes 'before' even the love of anything limited in general. It does not feel like anything. If I suffer rn, I'll get the feeling of hating it, I will want to get out, I will try my best to not suffer. I will say I regretted my earlier decisions(if the suffering is great enough, I will even kill myself to escape it.), but, I will be loving the suffering like I always have been. Challenges are enjoying, results are enjoying, dark nights of the souls are enjoying, spiritual highs are enjoying, pleasure is enjoying, pain is enjoying, death of a loved one is enjoying, birth of a new loved one is enjoying. Literally everything is enjoying. I literally love everything, and I have no say in it.

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Yeah I also didn't understand how God could be 'bored'. But I assumed it meant something along the lines that GOD is that for infinite amount of time, and after that(which never really happens), it plays this game. But it's not a linear sequence. Since Infinity would never end, meaning you are not really going towards that infinity linearly, but you are already there, not, and going there, all at same time. So it's not like God gets bored, but God is literally everything, which includes this. IDK, just assumptions that make sense to me.

I think Teal Swan's videos (atleast the most recent ones), help one to deal with lower chakras first, before fully realizing the higher ones. Cuz like if your ego isn't full integrated into one thing, you can't really transcend it. I mean you can, but it most likely won't stick around, and it's much harder to do too. that said tho, I personally work on both at same time. Also here's something I am theorizing but, I think you aren't really able to get touched or grasp the full magnitude of higher realizations before being integrated a good bunch, Because if still your past traumas and life issues touch you or 'disturb' you more deeply than these higher realizations, then that's something to work on first.

IME, if talking about the absolute, all the questions of the WH family collapse into "What?". I mean Who, Why, Where and When are human mental constructs in the first place, and what we are left with is really just how and what, but even both those collapse into one absolute 'What?' with a capital W. I mean if you wanna get even more abstract then you can just feel the "?" but I find that the same as the "What?". In this, simplicity and complexity collapse as a duality, since you are trying to grasp Everything, so there is nothing else to compare it to, to label it either simple or complex. One may say reality is complex, but it's only relative to their previous idea of what they thought reality was. But if they exclude that worldview, it isn't Everything. Relatively speaking tho, I agree with this post. With most shit, knowing the Why is enough to keep you on the path, until you figure out the how yourself.

This is satire but lmaoo

Imo this is fairly simple, but tedious. First of all you need to make a distinction that you aren't actually feeling 'the self' in such situations, what you are feeling, is a feeling, a bodily one and mentally ones sometimes. Now, to be carefree would be like to that feeling to not arise in the first place, but to make that happen, your body and mind need to know that the situation you are in isn't bad for your survival. How do you let your mind and body know that? Through experience and practice. So you slowly open yourself up and do more and more of these things that you find hard to do in public, and eventually you'll become carefree. So you just gotta take baby steps. And please don't cause inconvenience to others like shouting loudly or some stuff like that on the metro to 'test your shyness'. You could, but you also can do other things that benefit others and also you. Like maybe playing an instrument in the public, dancing, singing, or giving compliments to people, etc. Overall, don't beat yourself up over this(if you are). This is normal and just requires some practice and opening up. No need to judge yourself or these feelings for coming up. It's like your emotions is a small baby doing what it thinks is best for itself, would be pretty heartless of you to judge the baby for being stupid and beat it.

I'd like to add that one should also try to be aware of everything possible in their experience, even thoughts, imaginations, memories, the 5 senses, breath, that itch in your ass, etc. Everything at once. I find that to be the same thing as being aware of being aware as it slowly brings you back into being, and then later being merges with everything,

I am good with your work. Only thing I'd like to point out is that I see many people obsessed over you. Well this problem is unavoidable but just wanted to say it. Some people have created an ideology around you and your work and a feeling of 'home', now that it is getting 'threatened' under their eyes, they're getting defensive, which only makes you look more like a cult. Just hoping nothing like Osho happens with you where you get dragged down by your followers, cuz I derive lots of benefiits from your work.

Same with me, hence I always put meals before relax time in my schedule. I also only eat light meals if I have to do work later on.

The nature of an illusion is to never be there in the first place. You can't question an illusion because it's never even there by definition.

You can't really feel rationally or logically. Closest you get to that is like, conducting or observing or learning about your feelings using systems thinking. A better name of 'Systems Feeling" would be just "Living from the heart". In which you feel various systems of life, which you distinguished using your systems thinking skill. That way you distinguish between how your heart feels about something vs. how your head thinks about it. Then you can merge them together later on,

I have a feeling this applies to realizations as well. And the "It's indescribable" is just an excuse. I have had realizations too that I can't describe to someone who hasn't had them, and also ones that I can't describe to someone that have had them(Because I can't tell they have had them.). But I have a feeling that's just because I don't understand it deeply enough to be able to communicate it. Maybe if understood deep enough, one could communicate it to people without using language.

@Jacobsrw @Consilience Thing is, I said in the post that maybe we could communicate it without language. I never said about communicating through language exclusively. What if you understand it enough to directly deliver it without the use of language? Even when explaining something with language, you never give the understanding to someone ofcourse, they realize it themselves as they are their supreme authority. Only difference between a good and bad explaination is relative to the one explained. If the one explained is guided most efficiently according to him/her, then it's a good explaination. What this means is that every person takes their 'path' to any kind of understanding, and a good teacher is 'good' not because they know how to know about a topic, but rather ways you DONT know the topic. Because if you are familiar with HOW one doesn't understand something, you can guide them easily. But since I am talking about understanding God(the teller and knower and the known), what if understood deep enough, you know exactly how to take someone to enlightenment without even using language. Bcz you understand the mechanisms of how most humans don't get it, and also how the unique ways the individual doesn't get it too. (I mean this is what we try to find when trying to tell something everytime). I know I am speculating but like, this logic is what me got to speculating about this in the first place. And specially because I have also heard people directly delivering realizations or 'making it easier' through energetic initiations etc.

It was around 3AM, I was contemplating God and Love, I can't and don't want to describe the entire process but, I ended up at a place where I understood reality is truly ALONE. And that, THAT is what love is. But that was so short lived, but.... Beautiful. I saw that for about 2-3 seconds, and I cried like a baby, literally. My face formed like I did when crying as a child, and made loud noises and tears fell from my eyes. But that was about for only 3 seconds, that reaction actually caught me off gaurd and that's why I wasn't able to sustain that. I know that if I had to 'sustain' it then it wasn't really deep enough. Point of this post is, I want to get there again. I want to see the beauty again. I want to cry again. Update(not related to this post): So I was the guy who made "How do I kill myself" post some weeks ago. Since then I had been doing "I AM" meditations intensely. A week ago, after 2 hours of doing it(3:15 AM - 5 AM approx.), I finally got it. I can clearly see even now that I don't exist. To say that is still too much. At first I thought I was having some sort of disassociation thing but a post on quora about it comforted me. I don't need to kill my ego cuz it's a tool to survive. 'I' am already beyond it. What was shocking was that the character was the one shocked, not me. I have zero control. Thanks ya'll from this character!

Yes, but in that example, you understand the experience well enough to know how to communicate it. That is, to get a banana and feed the person. But with spiritual realizations, often times, it's hard to just deliver the experience. What I am saying is, if you understand deep enough, it might be possible that you can directly deliver the experience, even if momentary. I have heard stories of yogis pushing on the chest and delivering temporary realizations, therefore I speculated.

I was tackling with something similar last night. "Why would one want to save the world when it will solve itself out on its own one day anyways. Plus it doesn't even matter." what I got was this. Because everything is love, even greed or lazyness. You, naturally prefer more expanded forms of love like giving people what they ultimately want. It's not about you, or about them. It's natural.

My sister is 6 years old. She, being a kid, asks a lot of questions. They have gotten quite existential and I am not sure how to answer them. For eg. Just some hours ago before she fell asleep(currently 2:50 AM), she asked me, "How is a dog alive?" "How did we get here?" "How are you alive?" "Brother, I love you, but what does it mean to love?" Some other questions she has asked is, "How were we made?" "How are we able to eat?" I mean, how do I explain all this to her? I usually guide her attention to the fact that answers to external questions I can tell her, but for internal questions, she should find it out by herself internally because even if I told her answers to stuff like "How am I alive?" she wouldn't get it. I try to be as transparent in these kinds of things as possible. She has started to question stuff like this because she has seen me do it and I have asked her some stuff myself. But thing is, is this really the right way to do it? It seems good to me, but what do you recommend? Could this lead to some problems growing up. Seems to me that it's good to develop a sense of asking good quality questions.