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Everytime I click on the self-actualization sub-forum, i get signed out and I am not able to see new posts etc. So I have to sign back in.

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Nothing IS something. Nothing is happening rn. Don't go about it by logic or making yourself BELIEVE that nothingness is somewhere hiding within this something. You have to literally see in your direct experience that there is absolutely nothing happening. I personally got it by meditating on the question "How is oneness even?" after realizing that "There is only oneness" in my direct experience. We often make ourselves believe all these statements and think we got it. But then we get it logically and we think we truly got it. But nah, you have to literally feel it in your bones.

Authenticity is being true to your feelings. But how aligned are your feelings to the truth?

Some of the comments under that video fall into the pre-trans fallacy. Idk just wanted to point out, cool to see.

You're not even doing yourself

The more advanced you get, the more you see how much friction-free you can make your life. Nothing is inherently bad with 'low-consciousness' entertainment, but they just add lots of friction to your life and mind, which you can now notice. And ofcourse you dont want that since your goal is to spiritually advance and friction prevents you from doing that.

A few nights ago I was sitting down and meditating at around 2 AM talking to myself. I was questioning how does oneness(which is all there is) even occur. How does it happen. After a while I realized nothing is happening at all. That was such a mindfuck that my mind went blank for 5 minutes and it was utter peace and joy. Like damn. I also made a video on this but ya'll don't really need to watch it since more than half of the video is just me explaining how one gets there, which you guys probably alr know, but I'll still post it here I thought I could somehow explain how nothing is dancing as something, but as you could see from the video, when I got to that part I had no idea how to describe it. So I just ended the video.

Btw, question for mods, is it ok if I post the videos I make to share insights/are relevant to this forum somewhat regularly?

Thank you ?

Maybe cuz of all this failure you will reach this one time when you are just fucking done with all and sit down until you get it, like the Buddha did. The more you get it sober and are able to clearly see that path to go from normal to realization while sober, the closer those two get to integration.

I don't think it's there to being with. Usually when we think of that 'sizeless-singularity' containing all of the direct experience, we usually focus on the physical sensation of the middle of the head (is what I have seen). In fact, even that feeing of or vision of singularity must not be it. It isn't even there to be static or dynamic in the first place. This also means absolutely nothing is happening rn.

I was laying in bed, trying to go to sleep, when it dawned on me that, I actually enjoy suffering. Lemme explain Only reason why we love limited things like "a Good productive day" or "a warm cozy feeling inside your blanket in winters" is because we "don't like" the opposite and are repelled from those experiences. Without the other, neither is fun. Unlimited suffering, not fun untill there is pleasure at somepoint. Unlimited pleasure/joy, not fun without some suffering after a point. Pretty basic insight. But thing with what dawned on me was that, it isn't even about "earning" the pleasure through suffering, or 'refreshing the clock' after some amount of pleasure/suffering. It's just literally, I enjoy suffering. I enjoy suffering and that's why I suffer. I enjoy pleasure, joy and good experiences, and that's why I aim for them and get them(or literally be happy as a natural state). No roundabouts, no nothing in terms of mental gymnastics, I just straight up love suffering and it has always been that way. It's weird because this love goes 'before' even the love of anything limited in general. It does not feel like anything. If I suffer rn, I'll get the feeling of hating it, I will want to get out, I will try my best to not suffer. I will say I regretted my earlier decisions(if the suffering is great enough, I will even kill myself to escape it.), but, I will be loving the suffering like I always have been. Challenges are enjoying, results are enjoying, dark nights of the souls are enjoying, spiritual highs are enjoying, pleasure is enjoying, pain is enjoying, death of a loved one is enjoying, birth of a new loved one is enjoying. Literally everything is enjoying. I literally love everything, and I have no say in it.

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Yeah I also didn't understand how God could be 'bored'. But I assumed it meant something along the lines that GOD is that for infinite amount of time, and after that(which never really happens), it plays this game. But it's not a linear sequence. Since Infinity would never end, meaning you are not really going towards that infinity linearly, but you are already there, not, and going there, all at same time. So it's not like God gets bored, but God is literally everything, which includes this. IDK, just assumptions that make sense to me.

I think Teal Swan's videos (atleast the most recent ones), help one to deal with lower chakras first, before fully realizing the higher ones. Cuz like if your ego isn't full integrated into one thing, you can't really transcend it. I mean you can, but it most likely won't stick around, and it's much harder to do too. that said tho, I personally work on both at same time. Also here's something I am theorizing but, I think you aren't really able to get touched or grasp the full magnitude of higher realizations before being integrated a good bunch, Because if still your past traumas and life issues touch you or 'disturb' you more deeply than these higher realizations, then that's something to work on first.

IME, if talking about the absolute, all the questions of the WH family collapse into "What?". I mean Who, Why, Where and When are human mental constructs in the first place, and what we are left with is really just how and what, but even both those collapse into one absolute 'What?' with a capital W. I mean if you wanna get even more abstract then you can just feel the "?" but I find that the same as the "What?". In this, simplicity and complexity collapse as a duality, since you are trying to grasp Everything, so there is nothing else to compare it to, to label it either simple or complex. One may say reality is complex, but it's only relative to their previous idea of what they thought reality was. But if they exclude that worldview, it isn't Everything. Relatively speaking tho, I agree with this post. With most shit, knowing the Why is enough to keep you on the path, until you figure out the how yourself.

This is satire but lmaoo

Imo this is fairly simple, but tedious. First of all you need to make a distinction that you aren't actually feeling 'the self' in such situations, what you are feeling, is a feeling, a bodily one and mentally ones sometimes. Now, to be carefree would be like to that feeling to not arise in the first place, but to make that happen, your body and mind need to know that the situation you are in isn't bad for your survival. How do you let your mind and body know that? Through experience and practice. So you slowly open yourself up and do more and more of these things that you find hard to do in public, and eventually you'll become carefree. So you just gotta take baby steps. And please don't cause inconvenience to others like shouting loudly or some stuff like that on the metro to 'test your shyness'. You could, but you also can do other things that benefit others and also you. Like maybe playing an instrument in the public, dancing, singing, or giving compliments to people, etc. Overall, don't beat yourself up over this(if you are). This is normal and just requires some practice and opening up. No need to judge yourself or these feelings for coming up. It's like your emotions is a small baby doing what it thinks is best for itself, would be pretty heartless of you to judge the baby for being stupid and beat it.

I'd like to add that one should also try to be aware of everything possible in their experience, even thoughts, imaginations, memories, the 5 senses, breath, that itch in your ass, etc. Everything at once. I find that to be the same thing as being aware of being aware as it slowly brings you back into being, and then later being merges with everything,

I am good with your work. Only thing I'd like to point out is that I see many people obsessed over you. Well this problem is unavoidable but just wanted to say it. Some people have created an ideology around you and your work and a feeling of 'home', now that it is getting 'threatened' under their eyes, they're getting defensive, which only makes you look more like a cult. Just hoping nothing like Osho happens with you where you get dragged down by your followers, cuz I derive lots of benefiits from your work.

Same with me, hence I always put meals before relax time in my schedule. I also only eat light meals if I have to do work later on.

The nature of an illusion is to never be there in the first place. You can't question an illusion because it's never even there by definition.

You can't really feel rationally or logically. Closest you get to that is like, conducting or observing or learning about your feelings using systems thinking. A better name of 'Systems Feeling" would be just "Living from the heart". In which you feel various systems of life, which you distinguished using your systems thinking skill. That way you distinguish between how your heart feels about something vs. how your head thinks about it. Then you can merge them together later on,