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Vagabond. It's a manga. Set in 1600s, Japan, it's about a guy who wants to get stronger and become 'invincible under the sun'. The whole story is his spiritual journey towards realizing his true nature and finding out what 'true strength' really means. This manga literally helped increase my baseline.

Can you expand(pun intended) on the magnitude dimension? I can't grasp it. I get the logical concept of it by how you described it but, how would it feel to have a larger or lower magnitude?

I can see I am in a dream. But the fact that there is no source behind it, that this is an infinity made of nothing but itself, is scaring the shit out of me. Imagine falling in a Mandelbrot fractal the terror you feel. It's like that. I know the solution, it's to dissolve the self so it doesn't feel like it's inside this infinity, but rather infinity itself. But first, this recognition of the dream is highly unstable, even more is the recognition of self as the dream. Therefore usually the self comes back inside the infinity and it(I) gets terrified. What are some pointers to deepen the recognition of the dream? (Can't use psychedelics) Another thing I feel like sharing is that I am on the verge of making the recognition of the dream my baseline, but I keep pushing myself back because of my current lifestyle. Half of my life will fall apart if I make that my baseline. I am scared of the consequences.

Made me feel loved: - Hugging - Cuddling - Getting genuinely praised for my accomplishments - Getting heard and not dismissed - My parents believing me over anyone else in a situation. - My parents encouraging me to get good marks, however when I failed to do so, them accepting me without being disappointed. "It's ok, you passed." - Getting hurt and my parents really acting alert and giving me attention, them really caring - My father wanting me to do better in academics. - My father asking me to help him out with Hindu rituals and prayers. - Getting explicitly told that I am loved. Made me feel unloved: - Getting beaten sometimes. (Not badly, just enough. Indian parents here... so it's common.) - Little sister being born and all the attention being diverted towards her. I knew I was gonna feel this way back then, and I knew a baby needs more attention than an 11 year old, so I tried to suck it up. But I really did feel a bit unloved. - My mum scolding me and lashing out at me for messing up something

If you're on that level where consuming shorts/reels/tiktoks for you is a form of growth(as in coping, or distracting yourself to a point where you reach a low point and finally decide to grow.), it can be helpful. You wouldn't be watching the shorts if there was no part of you that wanted to satisfy that craving. For self-actualization, you wouldn't be interested in it unless it was some form of burning karma. It's not really 'bad' for you in terms of growth, it's just a step of the way. It seems like a downhill road but for someone who needs that suffering to grow, it's necessary. It will suck you in, even if you consider yourself up there on the spiritual path. Why? Because there is something you need to learn, something you are still ignorant about in yourself that you need to fix, that's why you get easily addicted to it. After burning that karma, learning that lesson, you won't WANT to watch more than one, you wouldn't want to scroll because it just wouldn't be interesting. There is no need to restrain yourself then. What it is bad for is achieving success, maintaining health, relationships, and stuff like that. You could argue it's bad for practicing embodiment of spiritual truths, but that is something you achieve further along the path. The reason you don't watch tiktoks/shorts/reels when you embody bliss/god/love is not because you restrain yourself but because you don't have that craving in you.

nice. but you don't even need to use that much logic for that. Just observe your thoughts and it will dawn on you, without all the logic, that it can't be you.

Hm, because 'that which is aware' is, for lack of a better term, a hoax.

@billiesimon I think you misunderstood what I said. That line must have thrown you off. My point was that the answer to "WHY GOD?" is that you're assuming 'something' is existing in the first place to even ask that. Why would you assume all of this right here right now is existence? What stopping you from realizing all of this is absolute emptiness, nothingness and non-existence? God exists, doesn't exist, both does and doesn't, and neither does nor doesn't, all simultaneously. It's a unity. With this understanding, you can't ask "WHY" because it just wouldn't make sense. The simple answer to any question then becomes "God", and it makes perfect sense. @Leo Gura

https://www.dpreview.com/forums/post/63163846 This seems to be someone with the exact problem as you. Also you can run your recorded audio through an audio denoise program online. It will remove the hissing noise in the background. Problem is the one online has a limit on how big the files can be. You might have to find some alternative. Also since this is free, it might reduce your sound quality. Instead you can tinker around in audacity. https://audiodenoise.com/ I mean at this point just record your audio externally if you can't fix it. My best guess is that it's a problem with the camera settings not matching up with how the video encodes over to your pc/laptop or something.

I wish that you don't even need the course by the time he releases it. Do not limit yourself!

You assume that God exists. What if God doesn't exist? By God I mean infinity. You may think that's silly, infinity is right? Since it is infinity, it simultaneously exists and does not exist. It also does not exist and not not exist. It also exclusively exists, and exclusively doesn't. It's this sort of unity. So when you ask why, there are assumptions. Why? Because there are no alternatives to this sort of Unity. What if there were? If there were, it'd be the case, and part of the Unity, When you ask "Why?" you look for a reason. But in this case, the reason is the object of inquisitiveness. Why God? Because God.

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We tend to hold thoughts in our mind to reach out to grab other thoughts that might or might not relate, so that we can connect them together into a web of interconnected thoughts, all representing concepts, to come together and form a more complex concept that may or not help in acting on the situation at hand. Or at least this is what I do when I try to come up with what to do in a situation. This is how I am coming up with what to write in this post. I have an overarching concept in my mind that I want to impress on this post. That concept, contains mini concepts that I am discovering as I write this post. What I notice is that someone who tends to be clever and quick is someone who has a larger capacity to hold these different thoughts. They can not only hold these thoughts together in a stable way but also be on lookout for other thoughts while simultaneously probing there situation for more data to work with. Often people who we call clever just have more experience regarding the situations and therefore are better at recalling strategies and lessons that they learned earlier. But what about those who are not experienced but still clever? We tend to call those intelligent and quick-witted. This is who I am talking about. I am not clever, no, not in the slightest. I have been called a simpleton many times in my life, And that is because instead of connecting thoughts together to come up with what to do, I simply guessed based on what someone else I respected as clever would do, or would want me to do. So, naturally I wanted to start thinking for myself after finding this out. I wanted to be able to think ahead. But I hit a roadblock, it's that I can't hold many concepts in my head at once. I can hold a couple, at least enough to write this post, but not enough to deal with people and situations in ways any cleverer than an average man. So my question is, how do I increase my capacity to hold more concepts in my head? I am basically asking how to download(unlock?) more RAM into my brain. IMO increasing this capacity is crucial to living a smoother life and also contemplating more efficiently. I am open to any holes you might want to point out in my observations regarding cleverness, so please let me know those as well.

People are too distracted, and too occupied to wonder metaphysically. You need to be at a certain level of maturity to even start wondering, but that won't even occur until you are unoccupied enough. Then there's additional effort to keep the wondering going. Without some sort of ulterior egoic motive, without a community, and without Guru's feeding us insights, many of us wouldn't even be here. It's not that most are dumb and that there are some rare curious individuals, most of the time one of the 'dumb' people were just at the right place at the right time, luck, or fate? If you make the case that some start out spiritually gifted, it could be anything from reincarnation to genes. If you believe it's genes then there is really nothing to attribute to the individual, it's just a privilege. If you believe in souls and reincarnation then it's not that these souls are rare and exceptional, they were dumb too, they just reincarnated enough times to learn their lessons and come further along the path. This paradigm of 'rare individuals' can be harmful in that one can start calling others dumb, blaming them. When really it's not anyone's fault. Either it's that some are lucky, or that they are just further along the path, or maybe some other paradigm. In any case, there is no reason to judge, because there never is. There must be empathy, for those who weren't lucky, or aren't far enough in their path, specially from someone who wonders about these things. And the empathy shouldn't be from a place of higher judgement but a place of recognition of the sameness that is each one of us. Maybe you are attached to spirituality and metaphysical curiosity, hence why you want to see it in others.

So if you go on https://www.reddit.com/r/place/, you can see that right now there is a live event going on where you can place a colored tile every 5 mins. You can see how such detailed art has been made and people working together. Doesn't this place act as perfect metaphor for the internet? Everything, no matter how different, has it's own corner. And it's constantly being changed, destroyed, and new things come into existence, slowly. The bigger the area they inhabit, the more people on the internet know it. Things coming into existence, because each person puts their effort and energy into manifesting it.

I have been trying the Ramadan fast(Day 2 today, just ended the fast), my erotic desire has gone down considerably, and I feel it's because of the fast. I still get the erotic desires but it is easily manageable if you have experience with how to handle these desires, how to manipulate them and work around it in ways that you safely tuck the desire back where it came from(not to be confused with suppression.) Even after ending the fast, the satisfaction of finally being able to drink water and eat is so great that you don't want to masturbate for the rest of the night. (Assuming you don't purposely indulge in anything arousing).

Although I can see what you are pointing towards and I agree with that 100%, I think there is one thing that needs to be mentioned though. It's that even though you had an orgasm, you can still question it after the experience is gone. After the peak, when you come down, you are back in a state where you need validation and confirmation. This means that even if you had a genuine experience, you can come on this forum seeking for confirmation. There is mental masturbation and speculation for sure, but there are those who genuinely seek guidance and pointers from others who are further along the path. If that is also considered mental masturbation and speculation, then having a personal guru guide you to realization should be also be considered the same. And if you do extend the notion of speculation that far, then that would be accepting that speculation can get you to realization, since good gurus can get you to realization.

In my experience anything which is not future predictions or past-life readings, have been useful, practical and accurate. For the future predictions and past-life readings, although they did feel accurate and resonating, most of them didn't actually come true later on. I am talking about Youtube Pick-a-card readings, which tend to be only positive and very rarely negative, those seems to be just to make yourself feel good if you are going through tough times. I haven't had a personal reading either online or in-person. I assume those would be much more accurate if done by a legit practitioner.

How do you think? The thoughts and actions happen on their own, even though it appears as though 'you' chose it. But 'you' is just one of those sensations as well. Let's say you want a flower to appear in your hand. It would have to happen on it's own as well, just like your thoughts. Just like how 'you' 'chose' what to think, 'you' will have to 'choose' what to appear. That's my theory. This goes well with what I have heard some time ago from someone who can perform some similar psychic feats, and I am paraphrasing, "First figure out how you generate your thoughts"

That sucks man, sorry to hear that. I wish you best of luck on your journey of life.