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My first aha moment was realizing the freshness of the present. "Wow"

There are multiple ways you can define "faith" because it's relative to the context you use it in. However the most common definition is that it means "blind belief". It is something that is usually religious and dogmatic. Most commonly used as a defence mechanism against contemplation into one's own worldview. What's interesting is that this definition is a degraded version of what the word actually means. See, truly "Faith" means a deep trust into the workings of the universe. This trust, only comes about when you experience an awakening into the perfection of existence. Unbeknownst to many, one of the qualities of existence is that it's perfect in every way, however the human society is too ignorant to realize this by default and therefore an average human mind would be required to do much effort before it can see this quality of existence. Once seen however, it's becomes obvious as to what 'Faith' truly means. You do not need to worry, you do not need fret over what you think is wrong anymore, precisely because everything is seen to be perfect and that the existence of 'wrong' is just an illusion. The foundations of the existence of 'wrongness' or 'imperfectness' is rooted in relativeness. Relative to your survival. When reality is realized to be perfect, this illusion is seen through because survival isn't a concern anymore. How the current definition faith came about is due to the average human not being able to grasp the true meaning of this word. That's why to an unrealized mind, what faith seems like is "blind trust into workings of existence", as opposed to "clear trust, verified by one's own direct experience, into the workings of existence". Furthermore, the definition is degraded even more, that now it's not just "blind trust in the workings of existence" but "blind trust into the workings of a particular authority". Now this authority could be a your ideas about God, an institution, a book, your parents, etc. All of this happens simply because collectively we are not evolved enough to keep this word's true meaning intact. And this goes for various other words as well, such as "Love' "God" "Truth" etc. Therefore it becomes very important that you know the true meanings of these words because it aids in quenching your thirst to know what's true. "Faith", really, is rooted in direct experience, rather than blind belief. This kind of faith, provides you with feeling rooted in your trust towards the perfection of life. You do not care if the universe is for you or against you. You do not care if according to God's plan, you'll have to suffer immensely the rest of your life and die a miserable death because whatever existence manifests itself as is seen to be perfect. At this point, anything and everything becomes self-evidently perfect. You are not the point of concern anymore, unlike the degraded meaning of 'Faith'. In the degraded meaning, you are concerned that you will have to assume responsibility of your own worldview and that you can't just ask a higher authority for the truth. But in the true sense of what 'Faith' means, not only you assume full responsibility, but also are not concerned with yourself anymore. In fact there are no points of concern anymore. 'Faith' really is a quality that makes one indestructible, rather than making them akin to a flimsy house of cards.

I do not know why but this perspective towards the body just seems so devoid of love. Imagine if you said all that about your child. I know what you said is true however, there's no love in it. I see it more as caring for it until it dies, it's like it's my child. I do not care that it's a burden, I love it. I'll anyways be without it one day when it dies, I want to cherish my time with it. Maybe I say this because my body is healthy and does not create an experience of hell for me, but that's just something to be grateful for even more. All of this goes for the mind as well. I see the mind as also my child.

Discipline means that one has control over there mind, emotions and body. Having control over these three means you can choose what you enjoy to a large extent. It's not about balancing pleasure and productivity. It's about gaining control over these 3 aspects and then choosing to enjoy what you think you should enjoy (productive work.) Now you can go about developing discipline in many ways. The mental game you'll have to figure out yourself, but I can give you a few good physical habits that will transfer you into a state in which it is much easier to control your body, mind and emotions. These habits are always recommended by tons of people, and there's a reason for that. 1. Cold showers everyday: I have lived life bathing/showering everyday and also the opposite. And I can tell that just taking a cold shower and cleaning your body a little bit using soap, will do wonders when it comes to transferring your state. This should obviously be coupled with other hygiene practices such as brushing your teeth, clipping your nails, etc. 2. Meditation: Meditation done in a lethargic state the likes of when you wake up, isn't good for integrating productivity and pleasure together and ultimately developing discipline. I suggest meditating after the cold shower in the morning. The session being primarily about what you have to do today and reminding yourself of your long term goals. Identifying your worries, regrets and guilts and what problems you have to solve. 3. Having a clean room, if not a clean house: The idea here is the same, a dirty environment promotes lethargy. Lethargy's primary function is to rid you of your control of your body, mind and emotions. 4. Eliminating distractions: For me it was a mobile game and youtube shorts. These distractions promote lethargy the longer you procrastinate. After eliminating them, I had lots of time. Uninstalling the mobile game was a hard decision for me, as that was the primary way me and two of my other irl friends connected. Because I have now uninstalled it, the friendship will likely die out. Be really careful of your Lethargy. When you are in such a state, it's important you somehow get out of it. Because in lethargy, it's very easy to take bad decisions and waste your time and ruin your whole day. It's best practice to keep out of a lethargic state as often as you can, unless it's time to sleep. Hardwork Mindset is a misjudgement of the Productivity mindset, by those who do not understand the Productivity Mindset.

I think the rise of yellow in our civilisation on some scale will occur when humanity starts losing itself in VR. And people start to question reality. And also question how alive AI are. However it will be still long ways from humanity becoming yellow. Just like how green rised up last century but humanity still isnt green, yellow will rise late 21st century I think. Also arival of aliens would greatly boost our collective to green if the aliens execute it nicely. Also when much of humanity has become yellow including major scientists, then I believe we will start researching energetical phenomena and AP and psychic powers on a wide scale. This will boost the collective again making it reach late yellow. Now since society is mostly yellow and green, turquoise will have a much easier time developing and coming into life in individuals. So turquoise starts rising too. By the time we are all turquoise we will probably be so unified with each other and in love, that we'll start to energetically merge. This is my theory. Ofcourse it leaves all the different catastrophes that will happen because I can't predict that.

Would the best description of that void be pure formlessness? If so, I have had an experience like that. When I got that I suspected myself of DID. As far as I remember, no pain came with it. Just shock.

I remember talking to a guy on the spirituality sub-reddit and it went completely over his head how there could be no experiencer, at all. Using his logic and experience, he determined yes he wasn't his personality etc. but their was indeed a witness and it's logically impossible there couldn't be a witness. He concluded he had transcended selfhood, and all that stuff, because he saw he wasn't his body and mind. This was half a year ago I believe, however this really put into perspective for me how most of the people who are into spirituality are not very deep in their path. Not that I fancy myself anywhere deep, I just find it weird that even this 'simple' ego-death isn't of common experience in the spiritual community. So I made this video. Might help someone. This might or might not be adding to the forum. Like most here, I am also very picky as to what I wanna self promote, I do not want to promote anything that doesn't actually provide value to the forum, so please let me know.

@Shambhu I see, from witness what I mean is the deepest layer of the false self, devoid of both the body and the mind. Which can, if focused on itself, regress enough to peel off the last layer and suddenly is left with nothing. Logically it sounds absurd but experientially it's the truth. In what I am trying to describe, even 'that' is part of the experience. You can't say "There is something that is aware or knows" because even 'that' just is. I think though we mean the same thing since you said it's pure consciousness, which is what I am pointing towards too. @Thought Art This is probably beyond what I am talking about in the video. As I said in the video, even if you go beyond that witness, it's not guaranteed you'll experience some sort of oneness or anything, let alone God. By witness I just mean what's left when you completely disidentify with both the body(including of internal and external bodily feelings, behaviors and emotions) and the mind(which includes, all levels of thinking, personality, memories, meness, etc.).

Depends, sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't. It depends on what's your latest realization about yourself and the world. I would say to grow enough that you are not a hindrance to your own self. Then going for the success as it seems of priority to you right now. I mean you can do them both at the same time. See it's all about what calls you. It's all a very intuitive process, at least for me. Sometimes you wanna ease up on the spirituality, sometimes in the practicality. Point is that you know what you want in both domains.

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You're still young af. Life might be over if you came to your senses when you were 70 but you are only 24, you have all the time in the world to figure life out, that said, don't go about it too slowly. If you play your cards right then you can still self actualize and become financially independent.

In my vocab I call ego the very essence of feeling like a self, an experiencer. The accumulations of survival patterns etc. is what I call the personality.

Positive beings seek to unite, negative beings seek to divide. Without division their would be no life, there would be no you trying to unify. God was Satan when it divided the unified reality into infinite fragments. Negative beings are to be thanked, they maybe clueless as to what they are doing, but their role is so so important. Negative beings promote life and creation itself. Positive beings want to unify/love everything, which is synonymous to dissolution and destruction. What's fucked up is that just switch your angle and you'll see unification and love also is creation and life at the same time, and that negative beings also promote destruction and dissolution. It's all the same, NOT if you want to embrace division. This is why I love negative beings. (And also because I have never encountered one ?, if I do, this logic will be challenged, but I will try to solidify it through direct experience)

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The incapability to function happens because your vessel hasn't grown enough to be able to handle it yet. It's like trying to do pushups with overly developed arm and chest muscles but no abs and leg muscles. You won't be able to do pushups even though you feel you can do more. Doing which btw is crucial to develop your chest and arm muscles further. So my advice would be to access those deep states of oneness and try to function the best you can. In these states even deciding to do something like wanting to function is impossible so you'll need to figure out how to let your body and mind move themselves without 'you' controlling them. This feels like driving a car but letting go of the steering wheel completely. (Which feels exactly how you imagine it to be. A fear of death takes you over because you're not in control.)

https://youtu.be/seaJcY0kXjk watch this

I see people posting about how heart has neurons and it connects with the brain etc. And is sort of a second brain. But many people get heart transplants, do their personality change? I searched it up and yeah people report so. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/31739081/ What will happen then when a synthetic heart gets transplanted into someone? Also, why then is a heart easier to transplant than the brain? Probably because the brain holds most of the personal 'mind' such as personalities and memories and many of the survival functions which make it complex to transplant. But I don't actually think the spirit/person itself is held by the brain. I think the body channels the spirit. So now a very good question arises. What will happen if we switch the brains of two people? Will they switch bodies or each person will still be channeled into that body but with different memories and personalities? If you are one of those patients, will your direct experience suddenly switch to their body or will all of your memories and personality and stuff be replaced, but you'll still being channeled in your own body? I think the problem is that I am identifying with the memories and personality here. There is no constant self between the people. You can argue that the person will switch bodies because the whole mush of personalities and memories is now responding through the second body. But if you were never even those things in the first place, then that means the spirit is still where it were. And if you identity with the spirit, then you never actually switched bodies. It's a matter of what you identify with. What do you guys think?

@Nahm Wdym, can you elaborate?

I had been having a pretty overwhelming few weeks of not being able to follow my schedule, follow my promises both to myself and others until it got to the tipping point. I told my online friend who I had been working on a project with and we agreed to cut contact for 2 weeks, so that I can have room to figure stuff out regarding schedules and procrastination. That same day I got sick with a cold that lasted 4 days, it taught me a lot about gratitude... I gave up on all my duties and rested. During this period I had my shift. I listed down all my distractions and eliminated them one by one. A major time waster in this was YouTube shorts. So I checked all the shorts for |Not Interested | until YouTube stopped recommending me shorts. Now I have even stopped using the app unnecessarily. I am mostly on my desktop, and have downloaded an extension called DF YouTube. Using which I can hide the comments and suggested videos. I can also hide all the videos YouTube recommends on the home page + trending tab. This has freed up way more time than I expected. I always took pride in the fact that I didn't use much social media except YT, which I thought of as different , especially because I chose my content. I was wrong... YouTube was only simpler and harder to get addicted to until a couple years back. With the addition of YouTube Shorts, movement of comment section upwards below the video player, removal of the counter on the dislike button, etc. are all attempts by YouTube to get you addicted. YouTube Shorts used to pause when you opened the comment section but they removed even that. The short keeps playing when you read a comment, which I think is also a big part in reducing your attention span and getting you addicted. Now, YouTube is just like any other social media and I should be careful with it. Please do not demonize YT however, I am just stating my observations. Now that I am only consuming things that I want (for eg. Spiritual videos, Stanford and MIT Lectures, good music, meaningful documentaries), without any distractions, I feel much happier. I do not feel a constant compulsion to go for the next dopamine hit anymore and my days feel slower. One crucial lesson I have learned is that there should not be a constant influx of random information which may or may not be of use. Examples: 5 tricks that might save your life one day; Watch how this man jumps 12 feet; Memes; Biased and too much Negative News as opposed to General Knowledge News; etc. What there should be is an influx of consciously curated information and practice about select fields that the individual wants to learn about. This will feel slower but is in fact the fastest way to learn tons of things properly. Taking in of only tid-bits of information from many different fields constantly will make you confused and waste your time. I feel content most of the day with a clear mind now. I finally feel that I have reached the normal level of what a human should feel. (Maybe not truly due to toxins and pollution, etc. but keeping all that aside.) I have started to dance and listen to music almost everyday and love my sleep. Reason for me making this post is that I want to concretize this new shift in my mind by sharing it with other people. Because I can't share this with the people I know in real life (since they wouldn't be interested). Unlike an increase in the outer reaches of my spiritual understanding of life, this is a shift in my baseline.

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the circle of life

I've read that people who are about to die of bodily problems or of natural aging often intuit they are about to die. For some it's hours prior, for some it's days, for some conscious motherfucker it might be some weeks prior and maybe for some yogi it might be years prior, even predicting the date and time. What I am pointing out is that he may have gotten this intuitive feeling and he must have started contemplating into death. That could have lead into various traps, such as believing in dogma to console himself, which is most likely what happened. But you shouldn't throw the possibility of him having had an awakening out the window. I'd say instead of worrying about any awkwardness or needing to chit-chat, go be with him. Be as conscious as you can yourself and respect his boundaries as he is also an entity. Just be with him. Whether he awoke or not wouldn't be of main concern. He might start talking with you, maybe when you're alone with him, about deeper things. He may not talk to you at all. But you should be able to get an idea of how conscious he has become. But as I said, assessing all that isn't of main concerning. No matter who he was in his life, no matter what he did or what you think he deserves, he is reaching a fate that everyone reaches one day. In Hindu stories, even monsters who have been slain are respected by the deities because they are now dead. You're witnessing death, you should be curious about it and shower your grandfather with love.

What if when we revive such people after hundreds of years and they report amazing travels through the astral planes or something like that. I wouldn't be alive to see this but a man can dream lol. Might be a push to become a Yellow civilization if that ever happens.

My intuition would says your body is just fixing itself because it had some fucked up problems before, therefore it's manifesting so intensely. If you body was already great before then it may be something else.