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Maybe you're suffocating yourself when you're inside that state? Seems like a common problem when entering samadhi. Remember to breathe. If not then it's most likely some emotional blockage or mental blockage that prevents you from feeling the joy. I mean you are even feeling light in the chest. That's how samadhi feels at the start. Here's what you should do imo if it's not the breathing problem. Keep dipping into this state to find the blockages that prevent you from feeling the joy. Don't give up on it yet.

Transcending cringe requires understanding cringe. Cringe is just disgust but more physical in nature. Disgust is a type of hatred which specializes in avoidance. If you cringe at something, you want to avoid it at all costs. When it comes to cringing at behaviors of other humans, that happens because you are too self centered. When you see those actions, instead of compassion, you feel disgust as you'd never want to be like that. The same is true for cringing at behaviors of your past self. Since you never want to be like that, but you were like that, it connects you to being that person, you feel even more disgust and an urge to get away from that reality of you once being like that. This makes you cringe even harder. In reality, you don't need to, and shouldn't, cringe at your past self to signify your growth to yourself. You can easily see that you have grown without feeling any disgust. How this will happen is, when you look at your past behaviors you'll see the difference between you right now and you then. But that's about it. No cringe. Knowing all this, the method to transcending cringe is: 1: Be less self-centered by having more experiences that are humbling. 2: Whenever you catch yourself cringing, dissolve the hatred and attempt to love.

(P.S This is more of a rant from pent up annoyance of years but I genuinely don't know what to do in such a situation and would like some advice.) If it's some stranger asking me I'd just say either yes or no depending on the context since it wouldn't have any consequences. But if a friend asks me this, saying either yes or no comes with further assumptions and it's own set of questions. If I say I don't believe in God, they drown me in assumptions they have of Athiests, if I say Yes, they ask what's my religion. In reality I usually go with saying I am Agnostic but that has it's own set of problems as well, because it doesn't matter if they are Athiest or Religious, they try to 'convert' me because I haven't 'made up my mind'. They obviously realize not to force it and as good friends they don't want to force anything. But over years and months of talking and hanging out together you can notice how blatant it is that they wish you convert. This gets annoying. When someone asks this question they don't want a long answer. I have tried explaining my viewpoint but at the end it's all for nothing. "So.. you do believe in God". What's more unfortunate is that most religious types don't distinguish properly between belief and knowing, so explaining anything becomes convoluted. I'd rather not go through the hassle if I am honest, because even after the explanation, my viewpoint is just thought of as weird(It's blatant). And who knows what will happen if I told any of them "I am God, and so are you". Most my friends are either religious or Agnostic. And the agnostics are really the ones that are the most chill since they don't really care so they never ask. I would happily explain my viewpoint if my friend is willing to understand, but I don't really want to each time a friend asks as it takes times and comes with a lot of questions. What's a short answer? What's the best answer in your opinion?

Will has nothing do with the individual, but it exists

The things I have found online talking about this are usually biased towards Service to Others path. Is their any sources you can link me to or anyone who you think teaches this Polarity intentionally or unintentionally? I feel that this way it'd be easier to gain an understanding to what it truly feels like to advance on this path. I also appreciate any links to clips of shows or movies, songs, anime, manga, etc. that you think capture the negative polarity well. FYI, I don't mean just plain evil shit. It's more like someone who is awakened enough to know reality is one and nothing matters, but chooses to use that to do 'bad' stuff instead because they never go for opening their heart and instead block it off completely. Anything that is in service to their self. Anything that empowers their 'self'. Such as making someone submit to them.

@JuliusCaesar The usual roadmaps I see of spiritual progress are of Service to Others, you have any idea how one for Service to Self would go? Do you think the basis of the negative polarity is in feeling infinitely separate(same as unification, but this facet doesn't include any love)? What's your opinion on this: "For 3D beings to polarize negatively, the goal is to solidify the ego so much that it breaks and there is a recognition of absolute sovereignty/power/authority. In this, the phrase "I AM ME" or "I AM" has a different meaning than what it is on the positive polarity. Since such a being feels separate from everything, it has no sense of guilt, in fact it's seen as something to be transcended. Morality is realized to be relative and in this way one sees there is no reason to stop themselves from getting what they want. Impulses are not restrained unless out of fear of punishments. Although impulses could be a big part of their life, they are not controlled by them. One negatively polarizes by expanding their ego onto others and therewhich increasing power. The only way to do this is by making the other submit their free will, and their ego to you. In this way you expand your self, which is very different to how Service To Others does it, as there they merge with each other(dissolve away) instead. Fear is also seen as a major thing to transcend just like on Service To Others path. One who is consciously on the negative polarity path, can also transcend suffering by the recognition of absolute authority(God) and further negative polarization. It's not suffocating to be on this path as one can be in a constant state of bliss from one's own power if polarized enough. As the positive polarity finds bliss in otherselves(love), the negative polarity finds bliss in the self(power)."

The idea of sending and receiving, and the idea of alignment go hand in hand IME. When one particle being affected, quantumly entangled with another, somehow affects the other without any known means of transfer of information, would you call that communication or alignment? I could call it communication(sending and receiving) and you could call it alignment, it's the same thing. Though with what I mean, I also am saying that it can be controlled. The two of you could consciously align and essentially talk without needing to communicate in traditional means. That's what I mean by telepathy.

I mean Telepathy would be the ability to receive and send thoughts. Being able to predict thoughts of someone you know well has nothing to do with that. It's like knowing the pattern of a number series, guessing the next number, and calling it psychic intuition when really what you used was logic. I believe it's easier to do telepathy with people you know well but you should also know when you are really sending and receiving thoughts and when you are just doing guesswork. Try sending emotions to your friend without them looking at you or hearing you. Ask them what they felt and saw. Emotions are the easiest to send and receive. I am even below below average at telepathy but with what little practice I have done, it seems to me that the more objective the thing you are trying to send is, the harder it is to package. Sending specific numbers or names would be very hard compared subjective stuff like emotions. And what you send can manifest in various different ways to the receiver. We all wear a lens through which we send and receive, and the objective of getting better at Telepathy is to completely clear this lens of any distortions.

Add in health, food, respect, a loving community, sex, accomplishments, energy and free time, Blend them all together into one and freeze them in an ice cube tray. Once frozen, take out and sprinkle some money and reputation on top. To compliment that, add a little bit of humbleness to the mix. And it's done! Don't forget to dip it into God before eating! It's all tasteless without it!

it's coming from nowhere just like existence right here right now even the thoughts that feel like you

Strong ego = Authentic to oneself Weak ego = Lies, to others, but most importantly to itself Build a strong ego first. There's no contemplation if you constantly lie to yourself.

It may feel like "Should I go back to into the matrix?". Look at the tenth picture in the ox herding series. The person ends up back in the marketplace anyways. He is not living his life among unknowing dumb entities, him being superior. He is living among fellow Gods, among himself. This is true equality. There is no matrix to escape. I am not telling you to magically become like that, I am telling you to keep in mind that's the end goal, at least for now. Open your heart more before delving deep into developing wisdom. You'll see the wisdom slowly starts making sense as you open your heart more. Leo talks about contemplating, but he doesn't state that contemplation doesn't work if your heart is closed off. The more opened your heart, the more fun you'll have in life. Intend to feel more love and peace, developing your capacity to encompass things and extend your heart to them. The way many respond here will throw you deeper into thought loops. Instead of thinking start feeling.

Your source of feeling safe, your foundation, your source of feeling like an immovable object. It let's you access and feel the bottom of your brain inside your skull. You can even feel where the brain connects with the spine. Getting access to that feeling makes you feel like you have become as sturdy and unmoving as a mountain. Great way to stay still. It makes you the most calm no matter the situation. You are collected within yourself and nothing can disturb you anymore. The degree of how hard you are to disturb is proportional to the degree of which you are able to access this feeling and develop your root.

Thing is, I have tried this with a Muslim friend. I finally figured out that the fundamental reason he can't be broken out of it is because he doesn't want to be broken out of it. In his own words, "Man I don't care about being open-minded, all I care about is my family and friends." "What about your religion?" "That goes without saying." Thing is, no matter how foolproof your logic is, as soon as it will start making sense, their core defense mechanisms will kick in, coupled with ignorance, it forms the best shield against any realization. The religion has also evolved in a way, through natural selection of those who couldn't grow out of it, which blocks your from thinking too outside the box. So what you must do is help them see the value of truth. They think they value truth, but they don't. You can see this by pointing out problems in their worldview, you'll see they will refuse to understand your point out of fear. Their worldview is a house of cards, but the cards are too heavily guarded to even blow wind at. They don't see that what's true is what will bring them happiness. For them, happiness comes from stability of relationships and finance. When they reach that stability, they busy themselves in distraction until death. For them to understand the value of truth it's important they open themselves up to you. If you are some religious figure that they will respect, it will be easy to help them value truth. If you could do miracles, that's another way of having them open up to you. The point is that they start believing you, instead of their authority. Which is hard to achieve. But if you do achieve it, from their on you can teach them the difference between knowing and believing and so on. Point is that they open up to you. Just using logic is like trying to force your way through a closed door. Once the door is open, the logic can enter easily. You can also systematically grow them up the spiral. Instilling an idea, not contradicting their worldview, that will eventually lead them to the next stage. But this process is so slow that it will take years. The best way to grow a stage blue would be to show them you can do miracles lol. Once they see you as an authority, it's easy to make them realize the value of truth. That's how Yogies and Gurus in India managed it. Thing is you gotta be insanely advanced to perform miracles, and at that point you wouldn't even care about growing others. Which brings us to an important point. Why would you want to help someone grow? Is the reason egoistic or out of love? Either reason doesn't matter. Because if you truly loved them, you'd respect them enough to not want to change them. They are you, there is nothing wrong with what they are. Unless of course they want to change themselves, in which case you honor their free will and help them grow.

In addition to what people have already said, I want to add that it is important to first develop a good feeling of your ego by being egotistical before you dissolve it. This is because certain lessons are only learnt that way and the alternative is just a bunch of going back and forth. If you get into spirituality as a teen there is a good chance your personality/ego isn't fully formed in your head, and if already start dissolving it, yeah it'll be way easier than if you were an adult, but that also means you feeling like there is no foundation to your being. Don't get me wrong, if you are interested you should definitely reach ego deaths for the sake of curiosity a bunch of times. But remember it also important to build that foundation. Developing a self is part of the process for a reason. This is just advice for ego-deaths and reaching no-self as a baseline, since that's where I am at right now. Anything higher may involve the same process.

@GreenWoods So is it like having higher bandwidth of thought? Being able to hold many more strands of thoughts and deal with bigger more complex thought webs much much faster. Being able to be more creative. Being able to be more logical. Basically a bigger brain/a more complex brain. Would expanding your bubble of experience so that, let's say, you can perceive life spherically in that you can look even behind yourself or with your eyes closed. Will that be considered an increased magnitude as well? What are advanced invocations? How to do them?

Vagabond. It's a manga. Set in 1600s, Japan, it's about a guy who wants to get stronger and become 'invincible under the sun'. The whole story is his spiritual journey towards realizing his true nature and finding out what 'true strength' really means. This manga literally helped increase my baseline.

Can you expand(pun intended) on the magnitude dimension? I can't grasp it. I get the logical concept of it by how you described it but, how would it feel to have a larger or lower magnitude?

I can see I am in a dream. But the fact that there is no source behind it, that this is an infinity made of nothing but itself, is scaring the shit out of me. Imagine falling in a Mandelbrot fractal the terror you feel. It's like that. I know the solution, it's to dissolve the self so it doesn't feel like it's inside this infinity, but rather infinity itself. But first, this recognition of the dream is highly unstable, even more is the recognition of self as the dream. Therefore usually the self comes back inside the infinity and it(I) gets terrified. What are some pointers to deepen the recognition of the dream? (Can't use psychedelics) Another thing I feel like sharing is that I am on the verge of making the recognition of the dream my baseline, but I keep pushing myself back because of my current lifestyle. Half of my life will fall apart if I make that my baseline. I am scared of the consequences.

Made me feel loved: - Hugging - Cuddling - Getting genuinely praised for my accomplishments - Getting heard and not dismissed - My parents believing me over anyone else in a situation. - My parents encouraging me to get good marks, however when I failed to do so, them accepting me without being disappointed. "It's ok, you passed." - Getting hurt and my parents really acting alert and giving me attention, them really caring - My father wanting me to do better in academics. - My father asking me to help him out with Hindu rituals and prayers. - Getting explicitly told that I am loved. Made me feel unloved: - Getting beaten sometimes. (Not badly, just enough. Indian parents here... so it's common.) - Little sister being born and all the attention being diverted towards her. I knew I was gonna feel this way back then, and I knew a baby needs more attention than an 11 year old, so I tried to suck it up. But I really did feel a bit unloved. - My mum scolding me and lashing out at me for messing up something

If you're on that level where consuming shorts/reels/tiktoks for you is a form of growth(as in coping, or distracting yourself to a point where you reach a low point and finally decide to grow.), it can be helpful. You wouldn't be watching the shorts if there was no part of you that wanted to satisfy that craving. For self-actualization, you wouldn't be interested in it unless it was some form of burning karma. It's not really 'bad' for you in terms of growth, it's just a step of the way. It seems like a downhill road but for someone who needs that suffering to grow, it's necessary. It will suck you in, even if you consider yourself up there on the spiritual path. Why? Because there is something you need to learn, something you are still ignorant about in yourself that you need to fix, that's why you get easily addicted to it. After burning that karma, learning that lesson, you won't WANT to watch more than one, you wouldn't want to scroll because it just wouldn't be interesting. There is no need to restrain yourself then. What it is bad for is achieving success, maintaining health, relationships, and stuff like that. You could argue it's bad for practicing embodiment of spiritual truths, but that is something you achieve further along the path. The reason you don't watch tiktoks/shorts/reels when you embody bliss/god/love is not because you restrain yourself but because you don't have that craving in you.

nice. but you don't even need to use that much logic for that. Just observe your thoughts and it will dawn on you, without all the logic, that it can't be you.

Hm, because 'that which is aware' is, for lack of a better term, a hoax.

@billiesimon I think you misunderstood what I said. That line must have thrown you off. My point was that the answer to "WHY GOD?" is that you're assuming 'something' is existing in the first place to even ask that. Why would you assume all of this right here right now is existence? What stopping you from realizing all of this is absolute emptiness, nothingness and non-existence? God exists, doesn't exist, both does and doesn't, and neither does nor doesn't, all simultaneously. It's a unity. With this understanding, you can't ask "WHY" because it just wouldn't make sense. The simple answer to any question then becomes "God", and it makes perfect sense. @Leo Gura