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Contemplation: Good Decision VS Bad Decision + Choosing the right goals What's a good decision? It's something that takes you towards your goals. A bad decision is something that takes you away from it. To make a good decision, one requires depth of view of the consequences and possibilities. This requires experience. Since one isn't born with experience, it becomes very important one seeks the advice of those who do, to make good decisions. There is always risk involved. How would you know the one you seek advice from has the right advice for what your goals are? That itself requires experience. It's important one gathers experience in seeking advice. Failing from bad advice is a very good experience to see who to trust and not. One cannot seek advice for every decision one makes in the day to day life. Why does one knowingly make bad decisions that they know are not in line with their goals? That is because the person doesn't have their goal in mind at the moment but something else. If one is oriented towards their goal, there is no reason to make a bad decision, unless there is another conflicting goal battling for the attention of the psyche. This begs to question, should one kill all other goals in pursuit of one? I would say no. But one should kill all goals conflicting or very different from ones main goals. This means you have to make a decision of what goals to keep and which to discard. The goals you keep must all be similar. This is important because in today's world hardly anyone consciously chooses their goals. Usually your goals would be given by the people around you, the society around you and the media you consume. Consume a lot of chess media? One of your goal becomes to be a better chess player. Consume a lot of writing? One of your goal becomes to write a story. Consume a lot of self-actualization material? One of your goals becomes to become a self-actualization teacher/guru. Consume a lot of youtube videos? One of your goals becomes to become a youtuber. See, there are many things you enjoy and can indeed enjoy. There are thousands of things out there that you'll enjoy doing, you just haven't discovered yet. Does that mean you have to have a goal for each of them? No. As a stage orange, your goals need to be logical and rational. They should be chosen consciously. Enjoying doing a certain thing doesn't mean you need to become better at it. That's an egoic goal. Goals can be imposed upon you by others and by society as well. Such as graduating college. These goals are usually the ones that you wouldn't go for if it wasn't for others. All your goals need to be instrumental towards the success of your terminal goals. Now every human has only two ultimate terminal goals, to not die, and to expand. This manifests itself as avoiding pain and seeking pleasure. More physically, to avoid injury and seeking reproduction. So to set relatively terminal goals(only instrumental to your ultimate terminal goals), is the task at hand. So ask yourself this question for each of your goals, "How is this goal instrumental to my ultimate terminal goals of surviving and expansion?". You'll see that your goals one way or another, fulfill your ultimate terminal goals or needs for surviving and expansion. But some do it better than others. If you compared your old goals using that question as well, there is one interesting thing to notice. The old goals were let go of because they no longer helped with expansion or surviving. Why is that? That's because you changed. Your expansion changed you enough that you let go of your old you's survival. These goals are fleeting precisely because what they try to expand and preserve is a fleeting you. The more core to your being that the goal expands and preserves, the longer it'll last. Because the deepest parts of you take the longest to change. All of this leads to a very important realization. That a goal that should be your main goal, your life purpose, on which all other goals hang, should be: A goal that changes the very core of your being. Expansion of your very core. Not of your personality or anything else, but the least fleeting part of you. A goal that fulfills your need for surviving and expanding at the deepest level possible. This means you need to first figure out the very core of your being. The part that never changes. And then trying to find a goal that preserves and expands THAT core.

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I can't really tell. At the time I thought it was me peering into some parallel universe that's slightly different. I have visited a nearby park in my astral travels once as well and it was fairly different as well. Maybe about 30 percent. After I looked at her I got a little excited that maybe I have finally done it, and I wanted to travel past my window but I couldn't control which direction I was going. So I thought of my body, and I automatically got pulled from where I was. I was getting pulled and then I laid down in the exact position of my body at which point I gained waking consciousness. It's similar to a lucid dream as in how real it feels. But it's not that same now that I think about it. You have a sense of location which is not present in a lucid dream.

I have had it happen to me gradually, only a few weeks ago I had two spontaneous back-to-back AP experiences. This was last year but I woke up in the morning, and being sleepy, I decided to go back to sleep, since I meditated a lot around that time regarding observing thoughts, when I laid down I naturally started observing. The monkey mind was playing a sound of banging on a door, but suddenly it gets 10x louder as if I could really hear it. I keep my composure and many other hallucinations start popping up. I open my eyes, and I see that ceiling in front of me has turned into a beautiful landscape. I am on top of a mountain, in front of me is a half tree half man sitting in a cross legged position, we are meditating together. Then it all morphs back to the ceiling. Some other stuff happens. I was scared a little so I started chanting "Om Namah Shivay", when I started I couldn't stop it. It kept playing and playing and got really loud but not unpleasant. I could feel as if their was a oily steel ball in my palms. I took some deep breaths and came back. This was the first time and over time I have gradually gotten more exposed as I had more experiences. Last week I was tired, I laid down in the middle of the day. Before I knew, some thoughts in my head get insanely loud, and I let the state take over me. This time however, I was ripped out of my body, the last time it happened, it was very violent because I didn't want it to happen. This time, I was calm, and I slipped out my body like slipping out of your shoe on accident. I couldn't control where I was going though. I was simply traveling across my room and saw my sister using the computer etc. Thing is, she was indeed using the computer in real life, but the things in the room, her clothes, were all different. Even the window had no curtains in my experiences but in real life there were. I had one more the next day. But yeah, it's like a normal lucid dream, but you don't really have control over reality or whatever. Also it felt very real. I wouldn't say it was 'more' real. Rather it was a different kind of real.

I have a younger sister as well aged similarly. All of this is very shocking but also very expected given how the world is going. From what I know India banned it because of tensions going on between China. They also banned dozens of other chinese apps, and they still do it time to time. Well it's good that they did. But the degeneracy is still there in the form of other apps that copy tiktok, and they are mostly used among the lower income group. Among other income groups however, instagram is the go-to. The degeneracy is CRAZY. I remember when I was starting high school how people started asking for instagram accounts of each other, I was pressured to make one but I never did because of some intuition that it's a waste of time. I had this understanding because I had already burned all my attention seeking karma much before when I was 11 - 13 on another app, and I was paranoid enough to never make my real identity public back then so that saved a ton of cringe down the line. I think going through this attention seeking phase is important and should not be suppressed. But it needs to be done in a way that doesn't cause you any damage. These kids are going through that phase and are dumb enough to do it in a way that causes damage. Kids seek tons of attention and if you let them have at it they'll do it in the most dangerous and dumbest ways possible. It's important they get natural levels of attention in natural ways or ways that don't cause much damage. You don't just hand them tiktok, an account and an internet connection. I agree with you here that this is really fucked. In my phase, when I needed attention, I HAD to do it online because I didn't know how to get it otherwise. So I think it's important the kid forms A LOT of connections, interacts a lot and is given very healthy amounts of attention from a diverse range of people from various ages. If this need is taken care of, I doubt the kid will be very interested in this degenerate behavior of seeking attention online. They'll still go for social media and might seek fame, but I doubt they'll be engaging in degeneracy.

Would like to share these upgrades? I am interested

Thing is, with such a question the answer only lies in the absolute domain. Relative domain, as we know, is false. You seek the truth of impermanence so the answer lies in the absolute domain. The reason things seem impermanent is because you see the world in objects and things. Dualities and distinctions. With this kind of worldview, impermanence makes no sense. It seems to be just a random principle of the universe, an axiom with no deeper meaning. "Is it just the way it is?" But if you let go of that worldview of forms and distinctions, it becomes clear that this impermanence was a side effect of creating distinctions. It's because your distinctions are finite and God, which you are trying to divide, is infinite. Ofcourse your distinctions can never last forever. You need to constantly dissolve and create new distinctions because they cannot hold up to the infinitude of God. It's INFINITE. It generates FOREVER! How are you gonna distinguish a finite amount of times and call it a day, ofcourse it would never work. So with this insight into impermanence, it's easy to see that since 'things' 'beings' 'people' are distinctions within God, ofcourse they can never last. You, the God You, created these distinctions. If you want an answer in the relative domain, then I don't believe there is an answer. Unless one generates some relative meaning.

You misunderstood my view. I am not trying to reduce your experience into simple imagination. In my view demons can be external, what I was saying is that if you're in a particular state then the demons can be attracted to you since you're easier prey.

This man has mastered roasting

Maybe you are attracting them? Last time I had such a thing happen to me was when I had entered the hypnogogic sate(You do this by falling asleep, consciously). This was one of my first few times so I naturally got a little scared. As soon as a sliver of fear made way into my mind, a demon started manifesting itself right in front of me. I was terrified and the fear multiplied, I forcefully awakened myself. I notice this only happens when I have fear lurking in mind. It's like such experiences are attracted to that kind of state. Even thinking of "What if I was afraid?" manifests more fear. In your situation, it's no doubt you have all of this going in your mind, and if you have opened your mind to a degree where you sleep is 'open'(that is, not limited to memories), it'd be no surprise why you keep getting attacked. I have heard a brief story. Once there was yogi meditating in the night under a tree. He was thirsty so he went to the nearby river to fill some water in his container. He reached the river, filled it with water and was about to leave. He turned back and in front of him was a terrible face, covered in blood, piercing eyes and fangs ready to attack. The sheer terror this face gave off was enough to make a grown man run. This was anyone's worst nightmare. Standing in the dark, in front of this being. The Yogi saw it, no emotion arose within him, he passed the entity and went back to meditate. The entity left. Obviously, this could be much more. I don't know if demons can attack you regardless of state. I am not that experienced in these affairs. I simply do not possess enough knowledge and experience in this field so take what I have said with a grain of salt.

No, it's a different thing. They added a chat to the Bing search engine for better searching. Here's the official blogpost about it: https://blogs.microsoft.com/blog/2023/02/07/reinventing-search-with-a-new-ai-powered-microsoft-bing-and-edge-your-copilot-for-the-web/

What would you say is the reason for you 'experiencing' real magic such as getting free stuff and restoring things in the world?

One body goes to sleep and you wake up in another? Are these both physical bodies?

Please explain more what you mean by two bodies/two eyes

Dude why is your phone that long ?

The difference between Healthy Suffering and Unhealthy Suffering is like that of Fasting and Starvation.

We are living in the dark ages

I hope you don't mind me asking some questions as well. How do you define sexual transmutation? How does it relate to AP?

Yeah that's true. In that case, IMO the need to be understood comes from lack of confidence in ones own subjective reality/having doubt about one's own subjective reality, leading one to develop a need to gather proof through validation to confirm one's not deluding themselves. a feeling of loneliness that comes when you're the only one to know a certain knowledge(according to your knowledge). Let's take an example. You have an insight regarding spirituality that's akin to discovering a new continent. If you have utter confidence in your direct experience then you wouldn't have a need to validate it. And if you have transcended loneliness to a good degree(by embodying love), you wouldn't feel the urge to share it to eliminate the uneasiness of loneliness. Ofcourse you'll still tell/share it because of other egoic reasons, but that then comes under the need to tell. IMO the need to tell/share in this example comes from: need to be understood (includes previous 2 points) afraid of dissolution of surface level ego/"I". Which then leads to a need to immortalize oneself by "claiming" findings, discoveries or experiences. See that second point is key imo. I find it that when I induce a state of no surface level ego/"I", I drop all my needs to share anything at all.

Find someone to talk about it to, talk and talk until you exhaust the urge. I am interested in this so I'd like you to tell me about your findings. It's important you talk to multiple people if you want exhaust the urge.

This took me a while to make, I am not like Bill