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The "control" is an illusion. It seems concrete because you have firmly established you awareness within your ego which is the one doing any controlling. But when you transcend that, you transcend your experience in a way that you paradoxically become your experience. There you realize that this control is an illusion like everything else. It will be apparent to you that there is no difference between the 'not controlling of your neighbor's hands' and 'controlling of your own hands'. Yourself will become akin to a lying a rock, and a lying rock will become akin to you. The duality of alive and dead collapses and so does of the controlled and non-controlled. It's a very literal experience, you don't have to imagine anything.

God is Infinite so it should be possible for a truly immortal existence to exist. Even if it is contradictory and paradoxical. Since Time is only a part of God, for something to exist infinitely would be no big deal. Thing is, in our current state of consciousness, with our limited knowledge and human logic, we cannot determine these things. It'd be stupid to be certain of any conclusion here.

Usually I catch it in my hands and let it out the window. But there are situations where killing is unavoidable.

Insight: Purification I was doing my daily pooja when I could suddenly see the various folds / patterns in my mind that were blockages to a naturally self-realized mind. They looked disgusting and it made me realize something. I need to purify all of this from my mind, not only that, but I need to purify my body, my speech and also my actions. I thanked Hanumana for the insight and realized something else. I had asked Hanumana to become my Guru when I started. And I have been receiving relevant insights for my life every time I do the pooja, even on the days I feel the Bhakti didn't go that well. That's a connection I am willing to make. These insights seem to be giving me directions as to what to do to become pure / capable enough to even become a disciple of Hanumana. It seems one needs to be at least stage Yellow with all of the previous stages FULLY integrated. Which also means you have an excellently well integrated shadow. In addition one would need to follow a particular way of living too. Let me expand on this insight I got. This is not objective, it is subjective to my life and who I am. Purification of the Body: Drink a lot of water. 8 glasses of water is nearly not enough as is recommended. It really depends on what you eat. The more junk, oil and processed shit you eat the more water you need. Water is a purification liquid. It will purify your body of a lot if you just drink enough of it. I don't know how much this is backed by science, but I this is what I have received. Don't have excess body fat. Around 20% should be ideal with some muscle and such. Diet should contain very less oil, should be completely vegetarian and avoid onion and garlic. (Reason being non-veg, onion and garlic increase sexual urges and can make you feel heavier). No alcohol as well. Goes without saying but no cigarettes or harmful drugs / substances. Cardio everyday. Should be more than you think you need. It's more important than any sort of strength training. Always wear clean clothes(avoid dark colors), smell good and have a clean body. Live in a clean and good-smelling environment. Purification of the Mind: The blockages I saw that should completely be eliminated from ones mind were arrogance, fear, greed, lust, envy, gluttony and anger. Yes, I just realized I have listed down the seven deadly sins. Yes, I am shocked as well. These blockages in comparison to how pure your mind can be are absolutely disgusting. Having these plague your mind is like being covered in wounds festering and infected, with flies buzzing all around. It's like you are a dead rat with maggots eating you from the inside out. I am serious, this is how disgusting these blockages really are. Of course one should do the usual shadow work and other spiritual or psychological practices to integrate themselves out of these blockages, but here's a way to speed up the process, like adding grease to gears. Chant the name of Rama. It would only work though if you have a good idea of the character of Rama in the Ramayana and from other sources. The man is literally the ideal man. He is the perfect idol. Chanting his name would impart you with his qualities as you constantly think of his qualities and devote yourself to him. Some men would be insecure about submitting to another man, but the humbleness required to do so is exactly what will aid you to gain mastery over your mind and emotions. Besides, he is not just any man, he is literally the ideal male archetype. From what I have heard, chanting his name also works for females. Should also mix up with chanting 'Sita-Ram'. Sita is the name of his wife and you should see her as your mother. Appreciate her character as well and you'll see how pure the love between the two was. It'll melt your ego seeing their love. Which is what is supposed to happen every time you chant that. Make sure your love for Ram and Sita makes the chanting physically pleasurable otherwise you can't really continue chanting that. Treat it as a fun activity. It's better than using your phone on the toilet. When you take their names you should be aware you are taking the names of literal spiritual giants. If you don't already know then research into the four yugas according to Hinduism. They were towards the end of the second Yuga when almost everyone was naturally self-realized. Just imagine such a world, and then know that even among people of this yuga they were hailed as Gods. Purification of Action and Speech: Don't lie and deceive. Don't speak ill of others. Don't steal and all the other bad shit. Do good deeds. Follow your Dharma. Dharma is a complex topic to explain and it doesn't always just mean following your duties. It also means following your purpose as a being incarnated onto this earth. Whether you are aware of this purpose or not is a different matter. I believe that's a problem exclusive to the last yuga which we are supposedly in right now. Obviously people can't follow these perfectly or their lives would fall apart or their environment doesn't allow them to follow these, therefore just follow to the extent you can. Why this matters: If you follow these rules from the position of love of the other (and not ego), such actions and speech will build up over time and you'll be imparted with this sense of power and good-will towards others that you cannot generate on your own. Your character and integrity becomes so strong that you become unbreakable and are able to achieve feats you could not before. If it isn't already obvious I am having a Stage Blue Awakening, and that's important for the awakenings later on. Reminding you once again that this is a subjective list specifically tailored to me. Some of this might not work for you.

Same goes with sexual activities like masturbation and sex, with or without porn in the mix. I have only realized what you said recently when I left masturbation and other forms of food that causes drastic changes in state. Without all of these things that change your state you actually feel much lighter at your baseline and contemplation is much easier. States of sober awakening are also much more stable. Personally, it's much easier to generate pleasant feelings in the body and the mind.

I would argue for spiritual people they should not even masturbate and figure out a way to transcend it. What affects more a person is their diet and lifestyle habits than their natural inclination to being sexual. I believe almost every human being has the capability to transcend even sexual thoughts if they just live the right way. I had stopped masturbating for a week, two weeks, even a month, but I felt so frustrated and stressed that I started once again. This cycle of relapsing kept going for over a year. If I had taken your advice here I would still be masturbating every other day because that was natural for me. Later on I changed my diet and lifestyle according to yogic and vedic teachings and I have easily held off even sexual thoughts since day one, and it'll be a month soon for me. Infact, I have not even had any wet dreams. I have stopped consuming all content with even a little sexuality in it. With my other spiritual practices, I feel much better in my day to day life and lighter, so I don't even think I am missing out by not masturbating because my baseline occasionally becomes better than the state of orgasm (serious). What I am trying to say is, if you are truly serious about spirituality you should seriously consider leaving sexuality behind, because it frees up a lot of time and space in your life and in your head. For example, sleep is natural and feels good and is even healthy, but if you could permanently leave it behind (with a naturally peaceful waking state) then you would take that offer. It is similar with sex and I believe most here are not that serious about spirituality to even try such a radical change for a year or two to truly see how much better it feels. Obviously with psychedelics it doesn't matter but if you give any fucks about your baseline, properly leaving sex behind has amazing benefits. I have never truly indulged in the nofap community so I don't know what they say about this matter. I think your average person doesn't need to leave masturbation behind and what you said should apply to your average person, but not to a person who is seriously spiritual.

Once the energy manifests itself as sexual within you it's already too late. The transmutation happens before it becomes sexual in nature, before you feel horny. It's the state where you can easily become horny but you are not horny at all. In this state of potentiality when you invest emotionally in something the energy transmutes automatically.

You can't get over it because you are insecure comparing yourself to the other men. Realize sex is a small part of the world and your relationship. All that matters is how the past body count affects the personality and attitude of the girl towards you. If she is intelligent and conscious, it shouldn't matter what her body count is.

I think most people who do pickup have unresolved emotional problems

I have tried playing with advanced metaphysical concepts and explaining them to it, which takes a lot from you to do by the way so it's good practice, and I have learned that ChatGPT simply forgets some founding concept of your main concept that you explained to it a while ago. This makes teaching it complex concepts through chatting impossible.

It's definitely fun and it's practically useful to know how to shittalk well. However, it's just a form of entertainment. For spiritual purposes it'd be a distraction. There's nothing wrong with doing it on a regular basis with your friends just like there is nothing wrong with frequently watching movies, but be aware how it affects your thinking and life, just like with any form of entertainment.

In general it satisfies the curiosity of people regarding violence and the emotions involved in a physically safe manner. While it leaves a massive impression on your mind, it may or may not be a bad thing depending on the person. In context of spirituality, violence and morbidity in general can be of use to observe for someone in their path. For some people it's absolutely detrimental to watch such things in their spiritual path but for some others it might aid in understanding. You cannot dismiss the existence of such movies for this reason. I believe most violent and emotional movies are made to showcase some reality of situation in our world, which is socially important and it's supposed to leave a impression. You should know what you are getting yourself into before you watch a movie and it takes a few mistakes before you develop that sense.

Truth is not separate from imagination that it had to develop it. Truth IS imagination and always has been. You don't have to contemplate it, just stop imagining that imagination is different from truth. When it comes to Truth you don't contemplate you just systematically stop imagining one by one. This Truth is imagining itself. This is where you collapse that duality.

The dream changes itself all the time, What's predestined is also part of the dream so if the dream so wills it can change. It changes based on whatever makes the most sense. What makes the most sense is the path of least resistance.

In Hinduism if you look at the stories of Ramayana and Mahabharata you will see that Rama and Krishna both advocate a spirituality that is integrated with the material life. I think this is the essence of Hinduism, to give you a spirituality that is well integrated and helps you in the material, until you are liberated. Today's Hinduism is far from that but I think if you read these stories as it is, you will get a good idea of what that kind of spirituality looks like.

Cycles of Optimism and Pessimism As I have said earlier I do pooja/Bhakti at 9 PM. I feel so optimistic of my coming future and self after pooja however as I go to sleep and the next day comes, the effects of the pooja are slightly gone. By the time it's around 1-2 PM the next day, the effects are all gone, and I feel anxiety and negative towards what's happening. I do not believe it's due to a negative being attached to me, as I have checked using the Camphor Method. I'll explain that in a bit. These negative feelings are logical and valid, so when I am in that state I am baffled at my previous self being so optimistic. By the time it's time to do pooja, I almost don't want to. But when I start doing pooja, I love it. I am optimistic again and couldn't remember why I was feeling so negative. I have a few ideas as to why this is and I am sure it has to do with my lifestyle. I need more energy and therefore I will be incorporating yoga and pranayama earlier in the day. My chakras do not feel active anymore, and I think that's because I am not doing 100 chalisas a day like I was doing before. That's fine, because I had not taken a Sankalpa beforehand anyways. What's a Sankalpa? Sankalpa means "Determination" and it's something you do before you undertake a period of pooja. Let's say you want to commit to a period of 21 days doing 11 Hanumana Chalisas a day. So, you take some water in your right hand, say your intention "I, [name], will do 11 Hanumana Chalisas each day for 21 days starting today on [date]." and then drop the water on the ground and let it evaporate. The reason you would do this is because the fruits of your pooja are actually transferred to you and not taken by any other entity. It's also said that Indra, the king of Gods, will get the fruits of your pooja if you don't take sankalpa beforehand. Anyways, it's like a promise to the deity that you will do something. You can then ask the deity for something, by stating the reason you are doing this period of pooja. Once you take a sankalpa, you can't get up from the spot before you fulfill it, so in the previous example, you can't get up until you do 11 chalisas that day. It need not be said during the Sankalpa because these rules are implicit, but deities have their rules attached to them if you want to successfully impress them. During a Hanumana Upasana Sankalpa period, you should not eat non-veg items, eggs, onions, garlic and drink alcohol. Those things are strictly off-limits and to the extent you decide to follow these rules decides the extent to which Hanumana is impressed by you. Like you can choose to eat onions and garlic and avoid everything else. There's another rule that you can do which is sleeping on the floor only. Where you lay down a mattress or something on the floor. If you fail your sankalpa then you have to start over. The deity might even be angry at you depending on how you failed your sankalpa. Kapoor Vidhi (The Camphor Method) This method is used to check if you have any sort of negativity messing you up, giving you bad luck and all that. You just take a camphor square and hold it in your hand while you read 21 or moreso Hanumana Chalisas. You would just add this in your normal practice of bhakti, you don't have to change much. If while reading the chalisas you start feeling a lot of discomfort or pain in your hand or forearms, or your hand starts getting super heavy, or it feels like the camphor is burning your hand, that means you have a negative entity attached to you. How bad it gets shows how bad the influence is. For me it was simply a heavy hand and some pain in the forearm yesterday during the last few chalisas yesterday, and today it felt like it burned a little bit. So I do have negative influence but it wasn't very uncomfortable so I know it's not that bad. It's possible every person has atleast this amount of negative influence. If you hold it too tight or are too paranoid you'll obviously feel uncomfortable so be relaxed about it. These feelings should happen on there own. Once you are done with the chalisas, take that camphor bit and set it ablaze and let it melt away, then end your pooja normally. You do this once in the day and once in the night for however long the problem persists. I am doing this only at night because that's when I do pooja. That burning of the camphor is symbolized as Hanumana beating up that negativity. Some More Things This post is too long right now so I'll talk about this next time but I had a very shocking dream. I will not reveal a lot of the details as it is very personal but it really disturbed me. I put on those clothes I bought on the statue of Hanumana I have at home and he honestly looks so cute but also intense. It has really helped me increase my bhakti and focus more though. I also put him over a red cloth. These are the standard practices to keep Hanumana Murti(Statue) at home. You also have to use a mixture of orange vermilion powder and jasmine oil to put/color the statue periodically. It has a nice scent. This is why when you search "Hanumana Murti in Mandir" you'll see some orange statues of him. I'll try to connect concepts I have learnt here on Actualized.org with Bhakti as I slowly get more experienced in it. As it stands now I am a lot more well-versed here than in Bhakti lol.

Quality over Quantity I find it important to update that I have dropped the number of chalisas that I do each day from 100 to 51. Meaning the whole pooja(the process of Japa and Bhakti) takes 2 - 2.5 hours instead of 3.5 hours now. I start at 9 PM and end it at around 11:30 PM. The reason is that even though I am perfectly capable of doing 100 each day, I can only do proper Bhakti till half way through. This is because of my limited capability of being able to do Bhakti. This can be increased gradually which I didn't do. It's better do 51 Chalisas with amazing Bhakti than 100 chalisas with mediocore Bhakti. It is said that performing Japa of even one chaupai (a set of two lines from the chalisa) with heart is better than performing Japa of the whole chalisa in a robotic way. And that makes sense, Hanumana is not a robotic machine that you can get your work done with, he is an entity, an entity much more intelligent and powerful than yourself. He is said to roam the earth in a physical body as an immortal at the current moment. So you really have to be genuine and honest with yourself about how you view him. It all comes down to your love and faith in him. But that's not to say Quantity plays no role at all. The amount you decide to do, and successfully do, also shows your dedication. Visiting a Hanumana Temple for the First Time I could see his statue from the doorway, 5 feet tall, garlanded and fully orange. It didn't feel like a normal lifeless statue to me, it felt as if it was actually looking at me. My senses had been alerted. I went inside and bowed to him, placing my forehead on the ground. I could feel an intense energy radiating from the statue showering my head and my back. I am sure someone who is not a bhakt will not feel this as intensely if at all. That's all I did this time, I just wanted to witness the temple. I realized something. It's important to visit temples and witness the real energy of these deities and not to stay holed up in your home. This is because what you do bhakti towards at home starts connecting with the energy from the temple. The energy you worship becomes more authentic. And this temple wasn't even some big deal. It was just your usual Hanumana temple you'd find multiple of in every district. I can only imagine what the designated famous temples for Hanumana like Balaji Mehndipur would feel like. It is said to visit Hanumana Temple every Tuesdays and Saturdays and this is what I have decided to do. For if I don't do this my Bhakti will not progress as fast. What's Up with Statues? A statue more than 6 inches tall has a ritual done to it known as "Prana Prathista" in which you infuse life force / prana within it. Every temple is expected to do this but not all of them do, and as a sensitive person you can clearly feel which statue has had Prana Prathista done to it. The idea is that it will be infused with some energy connected to the deity, so when you do your pooja or connect your pooja to it, you have better connectivity to the real deity. At home one is supposed to keep statues less than 6 inches tall because if you do keep a statue with Prana Prathista done do it then you have to treat your home like a temple because you have to think of the statue as the deity itself in your home. The statues you worship at home are supposed to only represent or symbolize the deity and help you in bhakti towards it, but that doesn't mean the deity, once it has it's eyes on you, does not care what happens to the statue. Out of bhakti I bough some clothes and other garments, a red cloth to sit on and some other necessary things for the statue I have at home. The cleaner and well-kept it is, the easier it is for you to do Bhakti towards the deity. You could also have a picture of the deity instead of a statue, which serves the same purpose. Obviously whether an entity like the deity is all in your head or not has nothing to do with decorating your symbol of it at home. As for the temples, you can literally feel the intensity of energy if you have been doing Bhakti of the deity. It's very interesting and I will treat it all of it as real, because that's what's intended and expected in the practice of Bhakti.

Law already tries to separate good victims and bad ones. I do not know if you study law but if you do you must know what kind of rules and strategy they employ to separate good victims from the bad ones. I think you would get an idea of how it works if you study that and will be able to make similar distinctions of your own regarding different matters. What you asked is a very wide question and the process of separating good victims from the bad victims depends on the matter at hand. For the death penalty, law already tries to find out the intent but it's obviously far from perfect. You need to really grow yourself and have lots of integrity and hours of contemplation behind your belt before considering to decide people's fates or who is a good or bad victim. Your answer cannot really be summed up in a post. I believe a proper answer would be as long as a book. There's just so much to cover and so much to contemplate. I am pretty sure there would be books dealing with similar problems. Good luck!

Think of something to improve this forum right here, don't think of an escape plan for all the 'quality users'. If what you said is implemented than this forum will devolve even more, what quality it has now will get largely transferred to that 'premium' forum. The purpose and intent of this forum would be undermined. Moreover, the skill to quickly differentiate the bullshit from the legit is indeed a skill. Scrolling through this forum practices that. And what's legit is something determined by you. Something seems like garbage or too low level to you is just the right level for someone else. What we should work on is finding solutions that increase the density of quality on this forum, not separate it to somewhere else. Compared to other platforms this place is heaven already.

Lots of people don't even have the energy to learn properly. They have the technique down, they know what to learn, and they have the ways to learn, but they can't stay consistent because they don't have the energy to. Lots of people are dealing this basic problem of energy. So if any of you are considering doing deep learning in a field make sure you have a good amount of baseline energy. I for sure struggled with this and didn't think having a good sleep schedule, exercise etc. mattered for learning. But they make a big difference in how energetic and alert you feel, which directly translates to how much you learn and retain.

Confidence is an inner state that is often brought about from being able to to do something or having faith in oneself. But this inner state is not limited to these triggers. You don't need to be able to do something, or have faith in yourself to have this state within you. You can be confident in your approach even if you know you are gonna fail. What confidence as an inner state comes down to is survival. If you really hinge the survival of your selfhood on what you are doing, confidence is much harder to achieve. The reason something like no-self would give you insane levels of confidence is because your survival ain't hinged to a sense of self anymore. People think confidence is having a strong sense of self or identity, but it's actually having the capability to let go of that self or identity. This is why you would not be afraid of failing. It's not only the self that confidence hinges on but other aspect of your life. If the thing you are about to do deals with winning or losing the whole game, you would be a lot less confident unless you are able to let go of the attachment to winning. Confidence isn't the presence of a state but it's the absence of the state of attachment. Therefore confidence is the natural state of a human being. This is also why we think of people with too much anxiety as having a mental illness because they are not at all connected to their natural state of confidence. The reason confidence is even given a term for itself is because an average human being has loads of attachments and in areas where he does not have attachments or does not have attachments to his attachments (i.e. does not fear losing that attachment to something), he is seen as different than normal, he is seen as 'confident'. It is really not that tricky of a concept.

I am thinking of doing water fasts every Tuesday and Saturday. What do you think?

Yeah, it's so important to realize you are very selfish. Only then can you really begin to be significantly less selfish. And it's not bad to be selfish, selfishness is what allows you to stay limited, stay you. It's just as selfish to judge selfishness.

Bhakti When Sick Yesterday was tough, I had caught a cold and chanting made me inhale more air from my mouth making it a little worse. What was the worst was that I was so dizzy and sleepy that I kept forgetting the Chalisa mid-way and had to start over again. I managed to get through it somehow and apologized to Hanumana that I couldn't focus on the Bhakti today. It's said that it's ok if you do not worship on a particular day if you are sick. Although it's great if you do and shows to the deity that you really love them. What's also said that if you are so sick that you cannot sit upright, just chant laying down. It might seem harsh but if you really love the deity you'd WANT to do the chanting in whatever way possible. For someone who is only doing this for the sake of material or other gains, and doesn't know how to actually love the deity, they'll find any excuse to off-put the chanting. Basically, the extent to which you decided to go for the deity is the extent to which you'll receive benefits. Material Benefits I May Have Received Yesterday something big happened. I cannot disclose it on here but it's something my family had been trying to achieve for years. It went smoothly and honestly the past half a month has been going very smoothly. Whatever we intend to do gets done smoothly. Life feels much more frictionless. These are all the material benefits that are said to be of Bhakti since the deity you worship starts helping you out. My mother also worships Hanumana, and she saw a dream that Hanumana entered our home and is guarding it. Any dreams or visions related to the deity are seen as practical information in Bhakti. While one can argue the reason Hanumana was in her dream is because she has been chanting of him everyday, from the perspective of Bhakti a dream like that shows that Hanumana has started guarding our home in reality. It's important that in these matters one can hold both the perspective simultaneously without leaning too much on one side. I am gonna do Bhakti for atleast another year before I make judgements on what is actually happening. What's important right now is that I do Bhakti as it is intended to be done.

Connecting Self-Realization and Bhakti Yesterday I decided to connect Self-Realization and Bhakti together. The result was that I felt that I had lost the whole connection and power I had built up using Japa until now. This is where I realized something important. I had been powering up that connection between ME and the DEITY. But when I lost the ME and entered the egoless state, the connection obviously vanished. What one needs to do is not love the deity in relation with the self. It's to love it selflessly! The self should be taken out the equation altogether. Simply dissolve in the bhakti of the deity. Make sure to do that through the Anahata Chakra, so it stays activated. This way the Bhakti practice stays super peaceful, satisfactory and even joyful throughout. This will increase your Bhakti up a magnitude. Modern Aids to Bhakti The ancients did not have YouTube nor did they have edits. They had made songs and poems so that they could enjoy and increase their Bhakti towards their deity, but we don't have to limit ourselves to that anymore. We have detailed paintings, youtube edits, AI and so many other capabilities that can help us in increasing our Bhakti towards the deity. Some Examples: