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So you are basically saying if something is challenging - just give up. Works maybe for you, but not for me, sorry. I like challenges, and that's why I play poker, and really enjoy STEALING money from lazy and stupid people who are not interested to study how to master the game, and I make a lot of money by that, so who you are to criticize my "zero-sum" career choice? Your business includes stealing money from helpless people with false advises, so maybe you should change your career to some more ethical, like playing poker? If you're serious about growing in this area, take my Poker Course which explains all this and much more in great detail.

Hello, my first post here. Let's share some background. I am semi-pro online poker player, making a good amount of money overall. In this game mental balance is very important, so I do a lot of meditation, yoga, hypnosis, tai chi and other practises.. I have faced nice upswing lately and made a good amount of money. Poker has a lot of variances, somedays you will make hundreds in one hour, and sometimes it will take even a week to make same amount, and sometimes there will be many days in row only losing. This is the hardest part of the game. Fear of success is a quite new concept for me, I have researched a lot about this topic, but it still doesn't make sense in many case. I don't even know am I having it, I think because I am a very competitive person, and when things are going well, I just get bored because there are not things to improve. My main motivation is to make progress and see improvements of my skills. I am also former telemarketer. This is the first time when I realized there is something wrong with my mindset. Days when I make a lot of sales and getting good profits, I start to slow down. Somehow I stopped caring about making lot of money and trying to "balance" the variance. so when I have made a lot of sales, I just stopped trying. Same with poker, but it is little bit different, because there is possibility lose just earned money, in telemarketing only thing I can lose is time. General guideline is that you should play more when you are in your winning streak, but I am too afraid of losing just earned money. So there is a mix between atyki (fear of failure) and achievemephobia. I have researched about this topic, and they explain that success will bring new responsibilities that you are afraid to handle, what others will think of your "unearned" success, you are afraid of that success will make you asshole, arrogant etc. But no, I don't buy that. I don't give a shit if I'll become asshole, or mean by success, it will be actually cool, totally opposite what I am right now, and new liabilities? Hmm, no, I only see better lifestyle and improved life. Two years ago, I won my first big tournament. My poker bankroll tripled. Guess what happened one month after that? Yeah, that's right, I lost all those winnings and went back to original bankroll. Why is that? Somehow my mind didn't see that winning as my money, it felt like I won it by luck, no skills, it didn't belong to me. Also, it gave me over-confidence, boredom, I am too good now, I started being careless and throw money everywhere, I played at too high stakes compared to my skills, I became impatient and I thought nothing can stop me, soooo wrong. Same effect on what happens to lottery winners, they just lose everything. So, what are your thoughts and do you have any advises for me? Thanks a lot.