Axiomatic

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  1. I knew preety india would make this thread about herself lmao OP it's a tough mindset to break, but that rsdtyler guy is pretty on point. Maximize your looks and let it go. If you are working out, taking care of yourself, and on your purpose, then give yourself permission to talk to whatever girl you find attractive.
  2. Disclaimer: I am very left leaning. I have read and researched Marx, studied his philosophies in school, and I am very open to socialist ideals and reforming of capitalism. This is not a thread aimed at discrediting socialism. I have also read extensively on the rise and fall of the Soviet Union, I have read the book "Young Stalin" twice (because I am fascinated by dictators. Especially ones who started out as peasants), and tried my absolute best to be open minded about another way of life on the other side of the planet. But I just don't get how anyone can put these Bolsheviks on a pedestal, or at least anymore than we do our slave owning founding fathers. The narrative I often hear from people who are pro soviet union and communist ideals is that Stalin was bad, and ultimately a fascist in everything but name, and things would have been less brutal if he wouldn't have taken over and Lenin ultimately had the right idea and direction. All of the blame seems to be put on Stalin. At least for people here in the west. But from my extensive research, Stalin was clearly one of Lenin's right hand men, and an avid follower of Lenin and Marxism from day one. He provided valuable services for the party. Primarily robbing banks. He was a thug scholar who was looked down upon by Mensheviks and other intellectuals, but Lenin chose to keep him by his side. Lenin himself seemed like an extremist and an ass himself. It seemed like he often was very intolerant of any ideals or ways of doing things besides his own. And the Bolshevik party seemed like a very violent and extreme alternative to the more level headed Mensheviks. And they bullied their way to power. I have briefly discussed Stalin with Russian's over the internet. And they sum it up as this: Stalin was indeed brutal, but the Russian history and general environment has always required a brutal leader. From Ivan the Terrible, to Peter the Great, there was always a time where Russia was dealing with harsh conditions, whether that be environmentally, or from invasions. And I guess I can understand that. It still seems like a place I would not want to live in. So why do people idolize these guys as if they are master economic and social gurus? Lenin seem like a fuckin extreme crazy man in my eyes. And it is interesting how the more extreme and intolerant party ended up overshadowing and driving out the more moderate one through brutality. Thoughts?
  3. @Yarco with all due respect, I am not looking for your financial advice. you have no idea what my situation is. And I cannot eat ramen noodles every night. I am dealing with major health issues and have to have my gallbladder removed next month which will set me back financially. this post was made to hastily and is unhelpful. please stop acting like you understand my financial situation because you don't.
  4. Hey guys, so I am currently in my junior year of college and going on to my second semester in January. I am currently majoring in business administration/business management. I like the major, because it seems to have a lot of avenues for career paths. But lately I have been doing some soul searching, and I realize that although I am making steps towards growth and a purpose/career, I am still unsure of what that actual vision entails. I don't have a real idea of what I would want to do as far as a true solid career choice. I just know I want to finish my degree. I feel like I am just trying to get through school and hope that I can find an avenue to go down when the next step comes. And that makes me nervous. I am trying to brainstorm different ways that I could apply myself so that I could use my degree to enhance my career path. So I am trying to think of anything from internships/on the job training, to seeing if any of my personal interest could be utilized. For example: I have always been pretty talented at writing. I don't really know how that could apply here, but it is an idea. I was in the military and worked cyber security for a few years, though I didn't feel a real calling to it. But my brother is in computer information systems and landed a pretty well paying gig in his area. He thought maybe it would be a good idea to go that route and have a more specific route for my degree. So I have considered switching it up. I like the idea of marketing as well. My uncle is in marketing and seems to do well for himself. I have always found the principles of marketing somewhat interesting. I really just want to make my vision more clear besides just finishing school. I feel like it would help me stay motivated and less likely to end up in a career that I dislike or feels like a dead end. Is there any ideas or advice people can give me to further these ideas? p.s. I can't afford the life purpose course. So please don't recommend that as a simple answer.
  5. Ya'll think Obama aka the father of the drone strike is green? Aight
  6. I'm just gonna say this...I think as wise and as helpful as Leo is, it is fucking weird that so many people on here dream about him. Ya'll need to get him off a pedestal and chill out forreal.
  7. trust me, I know how frustrating this feeling is. Truly. I relate to you brother. And outside of the advice I already gave, just find something that will boost your confidence that isn't looks based. Find a skill or passion or something to provide to your community that can give you a sense of value without having to base it on things that you cannot control. Not saying it will solve this unrest within you, but it will at least take the focus off of it a little.
  8. I mean regardless of the spiritual or moral implications (thats on you. I'm not gonna judge what you feel is right or wrong in this regard), I would suggest being careful that you don't get scammed or robbed.
  9. fr man this shit got way off topic. I honestly don't care at all what color any of these people are...
  10. I recommend the book "Young Stalin" to anyone interested. It is insane how this Georgian peasant boy climbed his way to the pinnacle of soviet rule. Seems like a 1 in a million chance when you think about it.
  11. I mean if you wanna be sneaky and manipulative about it, do what women do. Say that "you want to take a break", so you can go around and do what you want, but still have her on your line. But I wouldn't recommend that.
  12. wtf is a tankie? edit: just looked it up on urban dictionary lol. Very accurate
  13. Sounds like greed to me. I'd suggest that you encourage her to either cut that shit out, or leave the guy and go for it. Can't have your cake and eat it too!
  14. There is definitely a market for it. I enjoy videogames, but I don't think I could do it as a career. I get tired of it after an hour or so.
  15. Yeah I always thought of hard core lenin supporters as edgy teens/young adults rebelling. I don't think it's quite that simple, but still. Lenin does not strike me as compassionate for humanity from what I have read.
  16. yeah these are the struggles men can face that our society often writes off. It irritates me that people believe that men have it so easy in this society. I feel for you bro. That is such an awful thing. I think the proper therapist will help for sure! You're in my thoughts and prayers. Us men gotta support each other! Cuz often nobody takes our problems seriously.
  17. It doesnt produce enough bile to digest fats and sugars. I don't recall the exact medical science, but removing it allows the production of bile to come from the liver and produce sufficiently. It isn't 100% full proof, but it has shown enough results to improve people's quality of health who suffer from it. Some people still need to be careful about overdoing it, some people are perfectly fine after it's removed. But nothing could possibly be worse than how I feel from an attack with it in. And this surgery isn't a cop out for me to eat like shit. I eat much much healthier than the average american. I don't eat fast food or junk food, and I don't drink. I have set meal plans and do my best to stick to them. But I am not perfect either, and the punishment for not being perfect shouldn't be 2 to 3 months of feeling poisoned with sleepless nights and stabbing abdominal pains daily while being unsure of puking after a meal.
  18. Not really looking for advice, or a diagnosis, just venting and documenting my journey. For the past 4 or 5 years, I have had chronic GI and digestive issues. I will start having terrible abdominal pains and throw up most of what I eat. When these attacks happen, it literally feels like I'm poisoned. I will barely be able to eat anything for the first few weeks, and after that it will slowly heal with a lot of resistance. The most grueling part is when I am woken up between 3-5a.m. with overwhelming stabbing pains in my gut. It will keep me up all night until about 8am and then I will sleep until 12. The fact that I have maintained a decent GPA in college this semester has been a testament to my perseverance, despite wanting to give up many times. My solution to fixing this went two routes. I went to a doctor for test, and I hired a nutritionist. The doctor diagnosed that I have a low functioning gallbladder below 30% and that is why foods that are heavy and fat and sugar trigger these attacks. The recommended that I get surgery. My nutritionist however advised that I hold off and give a more holistic approach a chance, because taking out an organ is a serious decision. So I decided to hold of on the surgery. And her methods were helping, so I believed that I could fix this without a major surgery. It has been a year since I first hired her help. And although it has helped me tremendously and helped establish a good foundation for healthy eating and habits, it hasn't fully solved the problem. I have had two major attacks since the year started. Both lasting 2 to 3 months before I was feeling 100%. This most recent attack is currently going on almost 3 months and I am still not feeling at full health. The reason for these attacks is due to me not being 100% discipline with my habits. One attack occurred after my friend's birthday party and I drank a bit too much alcohol, and the other was due to moving to a new city and not having the funds to buy all the right foods to my plan. So after realizing that there are still major drawbacks to this issues, and I still have the potential to get sick, I decided to go through with the surgery. I have it scheduled for next month, and I am ready for it. Many people felt like I should not go this route, but I know myself and my body better than anyone else. And it is straight bullshit that I become sick to the point of barely being able to live a proper life if I am not 100% discipline with my health habits. It would be one thing if the drawbacks were a week or two of loose bowel movements or something, but to feel poisoned and sleepless for months on end? Nah man. At this point I have nothing to lose. They say that removing the gallbladder isn't always a 100% fix for most people. They still need to watch what they eat and face complications if they don't. But at this point, the draw backs from not having a gallbladder couldn't possibly be worse than what I am dealing with now. Feeling like shit has become the norm for me. It has started to really affect me emotionally. It can be tough to find the joy in life sometimes. I am very limited in many things and I am tired of that. I am ready for something better, and this is my best bet. Thanks for listening! Wish me luck!
  19. This has been a major issue for me. I have had a bit of a mental block which caused me to stagnate with dating and sexual relationships. What helps me is writing down all the times that women who I was attracted to felt the same towards me. All the times I had a woman hit on me or that I had been complimented or acknowledged as good looking. I am training my mind to accept that I can attract women who I have a mutual attraction for. It has happened more than once. It can happen again.