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@Leo Gura It is actually possible to gain muscle and lose fat at the sametime.

In my life there are two extremes, i am either overmotiveted and hyperfocused on my goals and almost fanaticaly work on them or i am completely demotivated and not doing anything at all. These cycles i would consider normal if they were not so extreme and not alternate so frequently. My vision for life is changing frequently too. I tend to lose any interest in things i use to be passionate about rather quickly. Therefore its hard for me to make any longlasting changes or create some healthy habits. Even though i am aware of this i havent been able to break the cycle. I try to do little changes but i always get too enthusiastic and do too much and then overwork myself and burnout. What should i focus on to break the cycle?. I made myself several habits journals to be aware of my longterm progress, it shows me the consistency of each habit in a graph. It seems to help a little but i still feel rather stuck. It's been almost a decade i observe this pattern and I haven't improved much and haven´t find decent solution yet.

@PigeonPark it can be both, depends on which way you are creating/dreaming it at the moment. Other perspetives can exist or not exist at the sametime, its happening outside of space and time and because of that, there is no contradiction.

The only judge on your deathbed will be you. So there is no need to live to your full potential unless you want to, its better to not be neurotic about it. True spirituality teaches you that progress or potential is ilusion. So do whatever you want and dont seek approval from people on internet. Whatever makes sence to you, do it.

but he is also asexual

"So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you." Luke 11:9

@Batman But its still belief thanks for the warnings, but you dont need to be wory i am aware of the importance of the relative and practical life, but the fact is that it is not grounded in anything rational. agree, but i would rather say that this is not "a possibility", but this is actually the case

I want to share how my perception of the world looks like after few years of concioussness work and contemplation and how my everyday life feels like. I want to note that i suspect that i might be spiritualy gifted because its easy for me to shift my perspective. I did psychedelics few times and it has huge effect on me, It threw me face to face with god the first time i did it. Well, this is my list of mystical experiences I have had since then: When i am eating, its as if i sit on my couch outside of time in a space of empty vakuum and its like i am eating my own body, it feels like this is only thing that have ever happened and i am here for eternity. When i walk down a street, it feels like my body is made out of pure cloud of sensations and the physical body its not there and i am not moving at all but the street is morphing around me. When i go to a grocery store i am aware that i go there on a basis of pure faith and have no evidence that the store will be there, its purly irational act. I am aware that everything i do is basicaly based on faith in my intuition. When i am on the playground throwing the ball in the basket, i am the ball falling into the basket, the whole universe transformed itself into a playground so god can play with his own conciousness, this is how it feels. When i sit and contemplate, its the universe contemplating itself. Sometimes it feels like god is looking through my eyes and sometimes it feels like god is all around me and with me. When i sit on a top of a mountain watching sunset, strange feeling that i was here for eternety hit me. I look into the landscape and perceive it as if there is no distance beetween me and the landscape. When i am on the beach and sun is shining into my face, it feels like it never happened. When i pass strangers on a street i perceive them as part of myself, when i talk i am aware of the divine inteligence which is speaking through me and when i surrender to it, then the speaking is completely effortless. When i am in a forest and see birds flying and i see the beauty, its hard to describe the feeling that i created it and i am all of it, its overwhelming feeling of beautifullness. Sometimes i catch myself when I'm absorbed in the middle of some situation, how absurd the situation is and start laughing uncontrolably. Sometimes when life is hard on me, I remember that this is how i want it to be, then i start feeling gratitude for the hard times because its what makes life meanigfull. Its not all i experience, just few examples which came to my mind. Its not like that my life always feels like this, but i can trigger it whenever i want, my mind is very flexible and i can percieve a world in a absolute or relative perspective as i want. It would be great if you also shared some of your experiences and how your spiritual journey manifests itself in your life.

There is no actual paradoxes in my direct experience only apparent paradoxes which comes from the dualistic ego mind. I basicaly agree with all of you, the problem for me is that what i am trying to say is more nuanced than what i am able to express with words, so it looks that i come from a dualistic perspective which i am not. I just try to understand every little silly detail because its my passion, but i guess that i am probably no longer able to comunicate that with others. I am also not native speaker and it limits me too. @Leo Gura I actually not consider myself having a skull, atleast in any absolute sence @Inliytened1 Yeah that is the same way i make sence of it. And it is what the first option was meant to represent. It just make sence for me from this point of view to say that absolute infinity is more like absolute infinite potential because you will never experience it all. You can experience it all as a whole but you cant ever experience all of its finite variations. What it would even mean to experience every finite variation when past is imaginary so as soon as you move to another experience its like you never experienced the previous. It kind of doesnt make sence in the absolute perspective. And i want to say that i am aware of the mind game here, but i still enjoy it, its like what else is there to do.

How could ever god experience everything if he is only one but there is infinite number of possible sub-infinities? For example if god is one then god can for eternity experience every possible way of being a human and that way he cant never ever move on to experience every possible way of being a dog for example. He always have to left something out because eternity is not enough time for one entity to experience everything. Which is not a problem per say but in this case god cant ever experience everything and absolute infinity is just his potencial which he cant never ever experience it all. Or god experience every possible perspective at once eternaly which solve this problem, but it implies that there is infinite perspectives happening at once, which looks more like infinite number of gods not a one. Or the third option is that both of these are true at the same time and its some kind of strangeloopy duality that means that god is one or multiple according to which perspective you take. For me personaly the first option looks like the most align to my direct experience, but it implies that absolute infinity cant ever manifest itself in every way possible. If absolute infinity actually exist then 2 or 3 option must be true or the absolute infinity simply means absolute infinite potential.

i dont understand what you are trying to say this will not solve the problem, and it is compatible with every option i gave in the original post.

Nope i am not missing it. Even outside of time, you need to construct the time to experience a human and you can do that for eternity and never experience a dog. Or you can experience it all at once but that implies multiplicity, because every sub-infinity would take you eternity to experience therefore you need Infinite number of selfs to participate. What you are saying is compatible with every option i've offered.

you cant the experience of color is what the actual color is its not complicated, you dont need a logic behind it

its quick but still gradual at least i think, its hard to say

I've been wondering for some time, why universe seems to have no glitch or bug and why it is so self-consistent? When i think of all the possibilities that could occur, there should be more inconsistent ones then consistent ones, shouldnt? I think there is a reason why it is self-consistent and the reason is oneness let me explain: It feels like that every transition from one form to another must be smooth trasition. This seems to apply in space: my body smoothly transit into a chair and chair smoothly transit into a floor and floor smoothly transit into a earth and so forth. And in time too: When a car accelerate from 0 to 100 it goes through all speeds in beetween in order to reach the 100. This makes sence because oneness imply there is no barrier beetween anything so the transition must be smooth. And this also create an appearance of an "cause and effect" because every event smoothly transits into another. And this is i think the reason why universe seems to have no glitch or bug and seems to be self consistent. In my direct experience this seems to be the case. The state of concioussness change smoothly, sometimes it change fast but it always change smoothly.

@LastThursday That not contradict what i am saying. For example sound can appear from nowhere, but it doenst go from 0 volume to 100 volume instantly, it goes from 0 to 100 gradually

The fact that you can see it, is because it is identical with form. we reached limits of language, but "form = formlessness" is pointing to very real insight

@Purple Man the form is formlessness even "formlessness without form" is in a sence a certain form which formlessness can take

death = change = life Old form is constantly dying and that is how life is created.

@Purple Man How do you suposse to realise formlessness without form? Exploring form is the way to realise formlessness.

I am 25, have a good paying job, good savings, interesting hobbies, do sports like acrobatics and calistenics. I am in good shape and good looking. I am very friendly and easygoing, i can get along with everyone. I am very spiritual and i can say i am very happy and grateful for everything i have, i would say i am emotionaly mature too, because that is something i worked for very hard in past. But one thing i have lack of are romantic relationships. I have had few short-term relationships but i didnt find someone i can connect deeply. And i dont know why i struggle so much when looking for women. In the past i had self esteem issues but i worked on that very hard and now i consider my self pretty confident. Sometimes i do cold approches, i've done about 200 by now, had 8 dates from that. I educated my self about how women work so i dont do the obvious mistakes like texting a girl all the time ect. and when i am with a girl i am able to make her laugh and banter with her and occasionaly touch her, these things i am able to do so i am not the type of guy wich makes a boring friendly vibe on dates. I dont get it how someone like me can struggle with women. When i look around me i see men that are far worse than me and they have no problem. I had success with less atractive girls though which are 4-6 to me. But i am looking for at least 7 or 8. I dont want a girl which is out of shape (i mean fat) when i am very active and sports oriented. I want a girl which is on my level not a 4-6 type of girl. When i look at myself in a mirror i see someone very attractive and high value. I think i have to be just patient and continue to better myself, because i believe my best times are yet to come. Is it really so hard to find fufilling relationship? Do you guys have similar experiences? How it si possible that someone who doesnt work on himself has no struggle and someone else who is working on himself struggle? I am not writing this to complain, i know i have to take responsibility and even then i am not entitled to anything. I am just interested in other opinions and similar experiences you guys may have. maybe the issue is that because i lived with low self esteem for 20 years i may still manifest some of it unconcioussly, i dont know, but i feel subjectively really confident now.

@Raptorsin7 i am actually very competitive in areas i am interested in. I struggle to display confidence in some social situations though. The way how i feel about the situation i am in is like when you have good product but the marketing sucks. What ive come to realise is that to build a insteresting life is not enough to attract women if there is a lack of social skills.

@Vzdoh example? There are some things i usually do which i consider masculine or assertive: -traveling alone to foreign countries -calistenics and acrobatics (i sometimes do dangerous and impresive stunts) -i sometimes throw myself to very discomfort situation just for sake of it

@Javfly33 dude do 100 approaches then talk about low proportions even better is: quality + quantity for me quality is to have good spontaneus opening, rich conversation with some flirt, be physical, let her invest a little and then make a date on a spot or get a contact. I always aim for that and always reflect on where i can improve. For what better quality i should aim for?

@Raptorsin7 probably the case the question is how to do that?