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Makes sense sensei Thanks

Hi, I am very capable of attracting girls on the dance floor, but there is always this point where I get stuck, we are both dancing, smiling and having a good time, then I feel the need to say something, from here it can get quite awkward as it's hard to hear each other with the loud music. I am starting to realise that it is probably better to get much closer and more physical without the need to chat before. This idea isn't comfortable to me, as I feel the need to chat and develop minimal intimacy, but from my experience even asking her name is a step away that disturbs the flow of moment. It's sad that the more I learn about the first stages of attraction, at least in a night club setting, the colder and unromantic I need to become... I do sense how much it can contribute to my self-development though, it's a brutal game. How do you go about it? do you just grab her before even exchanging a word? I feel like the more brute and determined you are the more she is going to like you.

@Ulax Thank you

Is there an online forum or anything of the like for connecting with others who want to go out and pickup? Because I'll be traveling extensively for the next couple of years, and looking for people to go out with in every city I'll stay in. Thank you

@Karmadhi Hi, I wanted to give my respond, but keep in mind that it's only coming from my perspective, which I might add is not a good representation of the average Israeli. The public opinion of the war ranges between those who feel like Israel is finely giving the palestinians justice and those who protest to stop the war, both claim that the first priority is to bring back the hostages. the former are hopeful that hammas will be completely eradicated, this is supported by advertising the idea that we are in a war and the slogan "together we'll win" as if this is a symmetrical battle. the later are horrified by the horrible consequences of war and are actively protesting, although most protests are for the sake of releasing the hostages, I think that this is due to fear of protesting for the welfare of palestinians in gaza directly as this seems like taking the enemy's side to many people who can get aggressive. There is also a sunken cost thing going on here, because many Israeli soldiers already lost their lives, and the public wants to feel this was done for some ultimate victory. I would say it is somewhat fading away, in the days after October, I was shocked by the words of formerly very timid and peaceful friends and relatives. Now there were a few pro-palestinian protests in two universities that I know of and I personally feel more capable of being critical of Israel with others. Try to understand that for them this is the definition of success, it is similar to a hammas's warrior willingness to give his life to kill jews, the attainment of glory, in Israel we are educated to honour war hero's, especially those that gave their lives for the sake of war ( even those that died by a training accident for example), so many soldiers , although they might not admit it, will be happy to die in war, my friend for example, has lost his leg in the war in gaza a few months ago, and he has never been happier, he was visited by famous celebrities and was recently interviewed in the radio. I am telling this to make the point that seeing, or being honest about the consequences of war will not only confront one with his own action and past commitments for the war's sake but will also put one against Israel entire ethos (hey thats' me). You wouldn't be surprised to see a child happy for killing terrorist in a video game wouldn't you? (don't forget that most soldiers are very young, recruited at 18 brainwashed) because that's the goal of that game, that was the goal all along, everyone wants to be a die hero. This is the shadow of Israel and it's now raising it's ugly head, it has been growing like a cancer for years, and now Israel is trying to treat itself with chemotherapy, I would advice a more holistic healing, but that isn't what people go for under pressure. I hope that was somewhat useful or interesting to you, Im glad to be able to report from the inside. This is Israel's dark night.

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Just want to send leo and the whole community here a big hug! we have something cherishable here:) Thanks for the video

It's just horrible to see how this mechanism is working from the inside, every israeli personally knows someone that is somehow connected to the 7th of october horrors, and is now too scared to express himself in anyway is critical of israel. Fear is lurking in the streets, the whole nation is acting as a hot headed organism, it is intolerable. The comparison to nazi germany is dark and accurate. Like the son of an abusing father that perpetuates the abusive pattern. This is generally the story of the jews, cycling between eras of abuse and being abused of, dating back to the slavery in Egypt, keep on feeling sorry for themselves and playing victim, by that justifying doing pretty much the same, I find many jews misunderstanding the current situation and accusing the global opposition as antisematic or racist, even accusing the hamas of racism, like this is the main motive for their hate and violence. The persecution of WWII has caused (I think) Israelis and jews ti become over-defensive about their jewish/israeli identities, becoming sort of paranoid about something similar ever happening again. I personally think the globe should step in and take action, my naive solution is for countries all over the world to help by allowing israelis or jews to settle in, forget about the whole zionistic ideal and come back to another era of "galut" (exile) from israel, letting the arabs take hold of the territory... and the muslim wave taking over europe and the world is another issue xDD raising major problems within democracy, also heavily felt here in Israel

Hi, for anyone who follow or has followed a fruitarian diet (to be explicit: eating only plants, while avoiding any root vegetables such as onion or garlic) What are the some good recipes?

@aurum Looking to eat less onion and garlic

a Daal could be fruitarian the name may be misleading, it'll be more accurate to call it a jain diet. and there are many recipes from the Indian cuisine, daal could be jain/fruitarian, it still includes grains and legumes. Just though I might find more creative ones from the community

Hi, have done some thinking after leo's last video, and I really agree with what he said in the end, how you can see entire teaching as helping as to spot traps. But, in the same way that to you have to be sceptic about your own scepticism order to transcend it, going meta about in regards to the whole trap perspective can be very enlightening. I became aware of how I am looking for traps always, it gives me a sense of superiority, as I am the only one that can spot those traps, and I avoid trappy scenarios. That is a problem, fighting traps is part of life, trying to catch that cheese and not get caught, by understanding the trap, you can beat it. For example As I follow and explore my purpose, that has to do with nature, i've found my self developing a sort of nature worshiping Ideology. Ideology is a trap, Leo makes this very clear and I feel like this is core to his teaching. I resisted this tendency for a while, as it felt vary green and childish. But now I feel that I've found an exception to my ideology aversion, I dive deeper into green, into the heart. I share this because I sense that generally in the world (especially in my surroundings) there is hate towards green that is developing. This in itself made me curious, why does it bother people when you expose your naivety and hope? It's alright to disagree but what I received was aggression. And this same aggression I must say I sense from Leo in his latest couple of videos, addressing maturity and naivety around traps. It is scary to be naive, you open your heart and it might break in disappointment, but that's ok, as leo has said, most traps are not catastrophic, and as a green I feel that opening up is what it's all about. I've resisted my greenery for the last two years, trying to climb further and develop, it's time to relax, and from my green stage and values go down the spiral and fill neglected aspects. And this is why I feel should happen on a collective scale as well. Yes, green has many fallacies, but we first have to evolve to green, and we are resisting it. It makes sense, as society as a whole has been primarily orange (at least its centre of power) we have achieved a lot as a species, now it's time to take it easier, slow production, consume less and focus about healing. maps are useful, as long as you know where you are

Hi, I want to start by stating that I am obviously not looking for answers from anybody to my own life decisions. Just looking to share my feelings, considerations and start a conversation. I have taken the time, over 4 years after high school to invest in my personal development and self-education. I read a lot on various subjects, have done a lot of psychological work and spiritual practice and development. Now even though I am clearer on my life purpose and feeling confident in my abilities to pursue it, I am strongly considering university, As I enjoy learning, looking for the social structure and for exploring my curiosities further, I am considering an Environmental engineering degree. But Im afraid to conform, after learning by myself for so long and getting used to my own pace and my own way of doing things I feel like I will get in the habit of being very critical of the system, seeing (or looking for) all of its biases, falsehood, schemes and frankly bull shit. Because it is bullshit isn't it? That's the question I would like to raise here What do you think of the university system generally? I mean, going for a science undergraduate, would it not just fill my mind with more beliefs? I want to understand nature, and the best way to do that I have find is observation and experiments. my plan is to travel and do some more practical permaculture courses, and I can supplement this with more reading and research to get more theory in, I am pretty comfortable with theory, practice is what I am lacking, the fear is that not having the degree will limit my possibilities, its sad but its true.

Hey:) I have taken the course for the second time, trying to come up with a new life purpose when realising hoe selfish my previous was. It was all about me, what I want to be and have. You can argue that life purpose is inherently selfish, as Leo does in the course, and going through it is part of your development. Anyhow, I have a new purpose, which is not as clear and doesn't feel like Me as the previous did, perhaps I just need to implement it further and the ME would change with it. Still I have got an unsolved issue in my mind, and a question I would like to raise for discussion: Should you intentionally aim for a selfless purpose or naturally let go of the self as you work and implement? My old purpose was Magic, an artform I have been practicing since I was a child, a dream never fully realised. The new is a vague purpose that has to do with sustainable agriculture, trying to lead and have a positive effect on society and making my life about something bigger than just myself. Magic could always take a backseat as a hobby, while I work on develop myself to become a valuable member of society. How does it all sound? like I am letting go of childish fantasies or running away from purring my art? There is a lot of guilt that I have been dealing with on this regard, not sure if I should surrender to it or fight it. Thanks

@destroyx6 Hi, I feel you man. Self study does put you ahead of the curb in many ways, but it comes with a price, for once the lack of testing can make one self-deluded about his own knowledge, creating a bubble that protects you from feedback. This feedback could be received from the world, market or society, but my thinking lately is that we are both pretty young, what harm is it in spending a few years in a system, I just want to make sure that I am not afraid of it or running away. If I am really as "ahead" as I believe, I should ace university and still have time for extra learning. On the other hand, I already got plans to start developing a permaculture site, would be hard to hold oneself back for four years now. Where are you from?

Thank you, I think the best course of action is to take another year to educate myself as I wish, then later if I'll feel I missed an opportunity I can always apply again. Its just that I already got accepted and will have to go through the exam again.. but well @Pav I agree, If I do decide the engineering is what I want to do then I will study. the 5 year degree...

I really don't know what is more likely, probably very few people are going to ascend to yellow, I can personally say that I felt the regression back to blue and group think, probably because I have got some integration to do in this stage, but his was not a healthy or conscious way to go about it. I like to entertain the idea. I really don't know what Israel should do, nor how to act as an Israeli citizen right now, this is why I am moving away. A step back feels like the conscious move

I would like to give some context to the internal affairs in Israel was an indirect cause of those events, As I have been born and raised in Israel. The central-left population has been rebelling against the current government, especially Netanyahu which has been deceitful and unclear in its intent. What I believe was really going on was a shift in democratic balance toward the right, the simple fact that fundamentalist make on average many more children that do the average leftist, they have just gained democratic power, but naturally increased the exiting finical inequality, cultural gaps and inner tensions. The situation has gotten to a point that seemed to lead to a civil war in its worse. I have mentioned this to try to force what will happen next, Hamas has seized the opportunity for an attack, with Israel displaying signs of weakness and lack of cohesion. I believe that this war will mark the change of a new rule over Israel, as I see many past leftist turning against their previous positions and claiming revenge and punishment for the Palestinians. This is what the right was waiting for in was, it was inevitable they will rise to power and gain more control, we might even witness the rise of an Orthodox Jew state. To be fair, this is what the Orthodox Jews predicted that will happen, they have been praying and visualising which I want to say has incurred an attractive power onto reality. The leftist green party has failed to solve the conflict in their naive way over the years, slowly losing their power, that is political power and faith... It would take a stage yellow government to actually solve the root systematic issue, such a government does not exist anywhere in the world. On a more personal note, becoming more aware of my own naivety and striving to ascend to stage yellow myself, I have decided to leave the country for the time being. War just causes most people to degrade to tribalism and close-mindedness, I find myself afraid to speak my mind lately, and lost hope for piece, at least not for the coming decades. There used to be talk of piece, we have not heard anyone seriously consider it for the last 5 years and you would be faced with cynicism if you did, and maybe rightly so... Internal affairs that have began from the time of the Covid-virus have been a distraction, national self-deception and denial. Now the disease of the system of Israel is rising to the surface and it ain't pretty... reality will catch up to you eventually, this has been an important lesson.

Hi, After traveling for six months I came back home with a vivid vision for a van conversion, that is, converting a regular transport van into a liveable space. When arriving home I was about to purchase said vehicle but, to keep it short , I have encountered great Resistance:). The resistance had send me abroad again while I was waiting for my visa for Australia to arrive, so I could build that van there... Soon enough, not long after receiving the visa , and while staying in a remote Indian village, I've gone through what I could only describe as a confrontation with a demon, an outer and inner demon at once. The I left that village in a state of fear and frailness , and had an anxiety attack at the airport and ended up returning home. Here I was going through rough times, always important, and ended up finding an undergraduate degree that aligns very well with my life purpose. Now, I am about to enter a late registration process to start studying next month, but I can't stop thinking about that van in Australia dream, what could this have lead to? who could I've become? what exactly am I giving up on? Afraid to regret abandoning this path, I am wondering if I should wait another year with that degree and head for another adventure in Australia. On the other hand, the van idea seems less appealing and a little irrational or immature now, and I could always go see Australia later, I even made plans to study there and get my masters. Could the travel plans be just more of the resistance keeping me from the hardship of serious study? to is the opposite true, I am committing to a more comfortable life that will keep me from grander self-discovery and development? How does it all sound like to you? I believe it is good to hear view of a complete stranger, without personal interest and clouded thoughts due to giving responsible answers, and this forum is the best place I know of to post such concerns. Thank you so much! <3

@flowboy Thank you

@Reignforest the van will provide me with some financial independence, I do have some savings and a working visa. Are you from Australia? Those intentional communities are what I was more or less aiming for. This is why Im thinking to visit before my degree, it might not be necessary and my aspirations fulfilled more directly. Worst case I will lose a year of my life and start to study next year. @Salvijus I am always aiming to follow love and fear, the challenge is telling them a part, Both are invoke fear in me, Australia is the fear of the unknown, Wilderness and leaving home. School is the fear of long term commitments, mediocrity and wasting time. Already I am starting to get a better sense of what stands behind each path while writing this :)) Thank you all so much, this forum is incredible.

Hi everyone. I wanted to share my what I have gone through in the past year. Last year I headed for a journey through India, it was a very purposeful journey and has exceeded any expectation I had. I had a few major breakthroughs and I have found a life direction I felt very passionate about. I have also set myself a project for converting a van into a house. coming back home I was noticeably happier more confident and sociable. Regarding that van thing, still very much committed to starting the project I began doing the research for what it will take but I guess It got overwhelming, in terms of the vague regulations and unsupportive family. I ended up deciding to basically move to Australia, planned a journey first through the UK, there something happened to me, I felt very bad all of the time, ordered a flight to India again, there I had a very bad experience which and ended up returning home very stressed. I am here in my parents house for two months, ever felt so depressed, I am seeing a psychologist and taking pills, But I wonder how can I feel so different, can't stop thinking about how I felt and who I was when first returning from India and what I could have accomplished. I feel like I betrayed my destiny, I am seeing it playing out in my mind while I am idle, I regret all of the last six month and unable to return to the same old habits and state. I am fully aware of how I am degrading my not too long ago perfectly healthy body and I can't explain this sense of hopelessness. Do I just need more time? time seems to play against me for the first time in my life. I've never been This way , I am ashamed, I forgot who I was. Who should I try to be?

Hi everyone, I have ben following actualised.org for years, and made constant progress and until recently was at the peak of my happiness, consciousness and love. While traveling, I had an experience where I have spent two weeks with a mentally disturbed individual. I blame only myself for getting myself into this situation. Since then I got really off track, I do not feel like I am the same person, not the same consciousness (I also cut my hair which makes me feel this way), I don't have the same motivation, focus and confidence I once had. In a bad state I also took some mushrooms which lead to a very bad trip I also got a stomach bacteria which may cause some of the symptoms... I feel like I lost it all, betrayed my higher self and Im scared I will not be able to return why I lost Did any of you ever felt this way? ~Amit

Hi everyone, Do you think it's good to take up old dreams that you regret never starting even if right now you are not as passionate about them? Or is it better to wait for new one to appear and chase the fresh ones? ~Amit

Hey, I feel that forgiving it always the way. You do it for yourself and not the other person. That doesn't mean you should expect the other person to change, you should forgive, which can feel a lot like forgetting about the other person and let them go. If that means cutting them off from your life so be it, but forgive them with love and empathy. That's my advice