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Let's say it is 100 million after tax in US currency. 1. Invest 70 million into very conservative options with stable interest (passive income) 2. Spend 10 million on travel, a house, sports car. Definitely travel for some time. 3. Get to know people and entrepreneurs, become angel investor. Or invest in companies I believe in.

So all of the points you listed are real? And could I know how old you are now?

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Absolutely agree with your thoughts here, I've only returned to this forum recently. Guess I should just stay off this forum.

Yes, I'm ethnically Taiwanese. I lived in North Dakota from age 6 ~ 10, then moved back to Taiwan. Edit: fix typo

A man who learns to accept and embrace himself, who shows compassion to others, who finds the courage to pursue internal growth, and who is not afraid of being authentic.

Hmm... Leo's tone here sounds much like Luke Belmar.

So sad that most of these fakers are too deluded to even admit they are fakers, and then they become degenerates...

I scored 5/40, but I can see that this test is not accurate in all dimensions. So one who is not confident or lacks responsibility doesn't mean they are not narcissistic. I was a narcissist for most of my life. If I took this test when I was young, I would probably get the same result.

Unable to be in the moment. I sit very bored on a bench facing a park, across the park a new built neighborhood with a new community moving in, and over the neighborhood a nice sunset.

I think your intuition was right, you should buy the cheapest equipment to see how the worst option fares. Sometimes the cheapest product actually would suffice in whatever you were doing. Buy in the cheapest item is a smart option because you can save a lot of money if it works out, even if it doesn't, you've learned something.

Looks like the candidates supported by Trump didn't perform well this time.

Can't see any problems, why define reality and fantasy mode, screw reality. Hahaha.

The red pill/manosphere way is really a very narrow way of looking at the potential of a man. However since we all got a bit of this weak programming growing up, a lot of men don't possess the ability to look outside of the red pill mindset. Therefore we can't choose to be happy unless we get a taste of the superior man stuff. Looking outside is just so damn difficult.

I think that the questions you listed are definitely very good ones for contemplation. Eventually some of the events in your life really need to be observed and thought through again. However your emotions are also very very real, and unfortunately your emotions are based on the images in your mind, not the actual truth. Your emotions are based on what you think happened in the past, they are based on your perspective alone. Although changing how you see the past or changing the images that show up in your mind is the ultimate solution in the long run, you also have to dive into what you are feeling right now and get a look at the core issue. Because obviously your emotions are trying to tell you something.

Maybe it isn't a big deal as you imagine even if your parents did find out.

Why are you afraid of your parents finding out? Also, isn't is possible to hide your notebook without them finding the contents within?

@A_v_E @Surfingthewave Totally agree with your perspectives. However the reason I believe Leo made this decision is because Leo's business needs to survive, and he should keep all the value generated here on his platform and not someone else's. And this is his site so he can really kick people out, doesn't really matter whether those folks deserve to be banned or not. They're just doing something that Leo said he would ban in the first place.

Totally agree with @Tristan12 The monster is you, it is you who hates yourself. Perhaps you feel this monster exists, only because deep down inside you don't want to admit that the "monster" is actually just you. The monster desperately wants to become something else and get totally different results in life. However the real you doesn't have the energy and know-how to change, the monster cannot accept this. Therefore you're basically fighting yourself unconsciously, where one part of you just cannot accept certain parts of yourself, and the other doesn't possess the capability to transform/change and is getting beat up as a result. To kill the monster, you have to love it, which is actually accepting yourself fully. You could probably begin by questioning the "monster" for what reasons it is mad and wants to beat you. Question the monster emotionally, try to feel into how the monster feels and what is motivating it to do this to you.

It feels like what you've been through with your father's abusive behavior has allowed your subconscious to build up defense mechanisms, and with these defenses, sometimes your mind would switch to this detect and analysis mode where you are basically just searching for any presence of danger. You're not able to allow your true emotions to flow when you're in this mode. I would suggest therapy for this, although sometimes it takes a long time (and a bit of money) to find the right therapist for you. There are like many schools of therapy, and even when you've found the right type for yourself, you may also need someone who can really understand you for them to explain your condition to you. Hopefully you've already found a suitable therapist. The emotions you have built up inside you cannot be understood and explained easily, and to release those negative energies, you need a suitable channel. Then when you've relaxed after expressing those negative emotions in some way, you need a conscious method to turn off those defense mechanisms. I would also recommend the teaching of Teal Swan, you could check out her Youtube channel and see if some of her methods work for you.

It was also a part of the process for me, but I felt this way mainly because I had to overthrow lots of my previous beliefs in this process. After I was able to get out of my previous religion, both the doctrines and the group of people as well, I felt a lot more free but also very drained because I felt that all my past efforts amounted to almost nothing. And I didn't want to do anything.

Life being pointless is bad news, but also good news at the same time. This means you can define what you want to be however you want. As an individual, it is easy to think our surroundings don't matter to us, but God from his God level infinite love feels that you matter to the world!!

@Gianna Lots of good questions for contemplation listed out here. The main reason we can't be authentic is because we're totally afraid of rejection. What we don't know is that rejection is a part of acceptance, just like failure is a part of success. You could never succeed unless you failed that many times in the first place. I think we introverts tend to dream big, what we really want is sometimes very hard to achieve in reality. And sometimes we don't understand how hard it is to become like that extroverted guy who is so comfortable in the crowd (for example). When we try to perform something that is way above the level we're at, there is this trap that we look dumb and stupid if don't act as cool as the guys who can perform those things at a high level. This gets us stuck in this wanting to become something in a short time and then resist trying for fear of acting awkward cycle. The interesting thing is that the part of you that is afraid of being itself thinks that other people will reject you when you act authentically. But the truth is actually that other people will accept you a lot more than you think if you're able to be authentic, even if you're really awkward. The real person who has rejected you is just yourself, because you can't accept the way how other people accept you under the current condition. The criteria you want to meet takes time to implement, especially when it is something on a high level. So basically we need to identify what we really want and find an effective way to implement those things patiently. But even more importantly, we need to gradually realize that you don't need to meet those criterias to be happy. Even if you could gain those abilities or be very popular, you still wouldn't be satisfied under your current mindset, you'd just crave for something else afterwards. You don't need any reason to be authentically happy.

Agree, need to spend more time actualizing outside.

Let me know what you guys think, but the root cause of depression is that you fundamentally are critical or disapprove of yourself from a emotional standpoint. You overall have a negative opinion of yourself deep inside you. Now this may seem to be obvious, but your emotional opinion of yourself is actually really subtle. Meaning that it is likely that you don't realize how much you dislike yourself, or how much you judge yourself negatively. And therefore the cure to depression is to find a way to like yourself, have a real positive opinion of yourself. You get into an emotional state where you think I'm good, I like where I am, and I'm happy with what I got. From our upbringing, there are tons of criterias that we picked up growing up that we use to judge ourselves whether we are "worthy". Normally our ego will function as a shield to fend off those negative criticisms, but when the case happens where we discover that we're in a situation where we don't like ourselves fundamentally, the ego becomes hurt and turns around to criticize ourselves. If we stay in this emotional state for a long time, then the depressed emotion becomes sort of permanent. Emotions I think have inertia, meaning that if you're used to feeling some way most of the time, those emotions will likely occur naturally in your feelings. We get depression when we have a negative emotion about ourselves for a long time. The solution is to generate positive emotions about ourselves internally, I don't think you need as much positive emotions as much as the previous negative emotions, but the ability to generate enough positive emotions would suffice. But generating positive emotions about ourselves sometimes is pretty hard. The goal is to live up to your expectations, but the real method is probably to lower your expectations and criterias to be happy with yourself. I'm still struggling with depression too, but this is what I've found.