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What about social life? You must have a lot of friends being a trainer. You can do some travelling, go to countries which interest you.

I wish we could have upvoting on this platform. This comment needs to have its upvote button smashed.

@Never_give_up Anyone who has went through what you've experienced would have lots of psychological issues. You being able to state your situation in a clear and objective manner is already a miracle in itself. I guess the current systems are so flawed that they are doing the opposite of their original goal. However are you capable of getting a job and making a living for yourself independently? You are in Greece which sounds like a highly developed economic country, how do you know if France would not be worse? I don't really know what to say. Never give up fighting for your freedom! There will be a way out.

How were you brought to the district attorney in the first place? Could you let us know what happened between you and your so-called abusers?

It feels like this is the natural way to grow. Thanks for this explanation, however this process is also too slow. I might go take lessons on meditation.

This is a very interesting and probably very acurate way of describing it.

The opposite of survival mode is play mode. However it is so easy to be trapped in survival mode. Although survival mode is not really a bad thing, I do believe most people would like to be able to enter play mode whenever they want to. Just thinking about why we are stuck in survival mode most of the time. Perhaps it is because we believe there are somethings that we can't be happy without. Or maybe it is because we are in a state where we lack a lot of options, and we don't know how to change/position ourselves to gain access to those options. I've just been realizing that the path from survival mode to play mode is more counter-intuitive than I thought. With a survivalist mindset, gaining everything a person wants doesn't necessarily guarantee happiness or satisfaction. That person might just want more of the same things, try to replicate successes or maintain their lifestyle, inevitably re-entering survival mode. Play mode is more about being in the moment. I've been more able to enter play mode after I conciously told myself I didn't want to spend that much time swiping my phone, watching Youtube, or video gaming. I worked at my job harder without thinking about a raise, I exercised more, and I connected with people more. Previously I would only attend social events that had people I was interested in, however making myself attending random events and seeing all sorts of people seem to allow me to appreciate more types of people. Pushing myself to the extreme via work and excercise seems to force me into a higher frequency or vibration. I don't really know how to explain it, but the more time I spend sprinting 100 meters over and over again, I seem to find the stamina to stay in a high frequency state. These all kill my cravings and urges, which makes me feel better overall. Play mode is more like an ability, being happy with nothing.

I think you can dollar cost average your savings into the S&P 500, or Nasdaq 100 if you want more risk/reward. Dollar cost averaging also prevents huge immediate losses in the low probability case of a bear market.

Chicago, I love the vibe there. However I'd have to be able to afford living there.

It's hard to understand your full situation, but my guess is that you're locked deep in defense mode. The trauma you're experienced throughout your youth has caused a lot of negative emotions to be trapped within you. Therefore under this climate, the only thing you want is to feel better. The therapy sessions that you take, they help you to not only understand your situation, but also to justify what happened to you. So what you're doing is that you're using the information that you've learned to fortify yourself while you try grasp and fully understand the pain of what actually happened to you. You're probably 100% resistant to any change right now, because you want to accept yourself as you are. However I think at your stage, that is not possible unfortunately. I have to say anyone in your position would feel exactly the same as you are feeling, and would have a very difficult time getting out of this ditch. Unless you somehow become a sage, no one would be able to 100% accept being in your position. So the sad thing is you have to build foundations for change and get of your hellhole. The reason you still feel bad is precisely because you don't like where you are. Good news is you're very young. You're only 26. Your instinct resists change because you've already put in a lot of effort, but your results are limited. You don't want to suffer anymore from the feeling of being unworthy. However this is probably the problem, what does unworthy even mean, why are you unworthy if you can't meet specific requirements right now? If you get the truly successful people and ask them if they're successful, they'll just tell you how much of a failure they are, how much failures they've experienced in they life. Success is basically only the process of getting back up on your feet when you've been beat down. You need to change your mindset while you plan methods step by step to improve your work ethic, your social skills, your dating life, etc. Give yourself 5 years to change, the world is not over when your twenties are over, your world will only have begun by then. Most people's lives start in their forties!

The negative energy you accumulate by doing those things would trap you. You'd be addicted to doing those deeds over and over again. You'd also have a negative self image that prevents you from trusting others. And then what type of actions you impose on the world and everyone else, the world will naturally impose on you. Imagine evil people doing those things to you or those you love. So by going full evil mode in your definition is probably not even a zero sum game, it is a below zero game where you would 100% get fucked in the end.

Bitcoin most likely won't be used as a currency, but it can be used like digital gold. It has the blockchain aspect where it is decentralized, all exchanges can be traced, your keys can be easily carried/transported without risk of being stolen physically. Plus the amount is fixed, so no need to worry about inflation. So it is a good replacement for gold, and if people would agree to replace gold with bitcoin, bitcoin will have value.

Life is a struggle, but only this way can life be worthwhile. All the beauty and value comes through the hardships. I believe most people would choose to continue in this struggle rather than to surrender in death. Just live in the moment.

I wish I saw this at the beginning of my depression, this is really an answer to the problem. But then again I probably won't get what he's saying at that time, I had too much connecting the dots to do before I could fully take this in.

Let's see if Trump really goes through with the Bitcoin strategic reserve. If many countries do the same, Bitcoin will replace gold.