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You are imagining there was ever a “body” to begin with. If this is too advanced for you to grasp, I suggest taking a break and working on your personal life.

You’re imagining there’s such thing as “death” and “afterlife”. Only you can realize this.

I would recommend against using ketamine outside of a medical setting, as it can be highly addictive if not used properly. The ketamine treatment centers give a strict and controlled dose. Patients usually only need 4-6 treatment sessions, in which future doses are reduced so that patients are weaned off of it strategically. They even have ketamine assisted psychotherapy; one center that I called does 2-hour psychotherapy while you’re on the ketamine experience.

The guy sums it up.

“During the ketamine infusion treatment, I was none of those things. I was just a being. A being that was a part of a world where we are all just beings and all connected through some indescribable force. And if we are all connected, then there is no difference between me and you and you and anyone else. This understanding of that connection was so powerful that the physical part of me felt emotional at all the turmoil people experience because it isn’t just their turmoil – it is all of ours. It is ours…together, as one.” https://medcircle.com/articles/ketamine-infusion-treatment-experience/

Read the description in the YouTube video. Very nice.

I saw a few of his videos. This one is my favorite:

Just like how a proficient musician doesn’t ask themselves “how do I play this instrument” as they’re performing. It’s very natural.

Why do anything at all? Why breathe, why wake up, why drink water, etc, etc. You assume everything’s a delusion. Contemplate that. You assume no real insights can be had. Contemplate that also.

You need to take the plunge and see directly for yourself. No one else can do it for you.

No way, we had a similar score lol

Lol, obviously.

@Greengrass glad to hear! Thank you for opening up with your experience with us. It’s also wise that you aren’t pushing yourself farther than you can handle at this time. It doesn’t make you a failure.

I agree with this! Talking to someone close to you or someone you can trust - whether in person, over the phone, or online can be really healing. Just be genuine and honest with telling them how you feel. Also feel free to check out this free text line (depending where you live), which operates 24/7. Wait times may be long. From my multiple experiences interacting with the crisis counselors, though, they have been helpful. https://www.crisistextline.org

Hey bud. Just to get a better idea of what's going on, have you taken any drugs/substances recently?

You cannot appreciate life without death; you cannot appreciate death without life.

And yet, paradoxically, you will

Ironically, I had a similar experience last night (albeit I didn't "plan" for it in advance). I didn't see another being in the mirror, though. Instead, I was "hyper-focused" directly that there's no physical objects to create any separateness.... yet at the same time nothing in what we consider the "physical realm" changed. So who am I in that experience?... It's hard to put into words; only direct experience can reveal that to you. It's simultaneously the simplest, yet jaw dropping experiences you'll have in your life. With that said, there was intense resistance temporarily, but since I've been down this road many times before, I wasn't completely overcome by it. You're on the right path. You're uncovering deeper layers of yourself. Fear cannot overcome you, only the idea you have of yourself can be affected by fear.

I can relate to this so much, lol.

Then how are you crying laughing ?

Are you open to the possibility that there is no contradiction? I would suggest following what feels natural to you in this moment. Don’t overwhelm yourself with too things at once. I fall into the trap of getting way too excited about something, only to go all out and burnout so fast that I quit. Perhaps you can relate to this?