SolarPlexus

Hey so I’m starting to get serious about pursuing my life purpose. I’m wondering if there’s some way of balancing things out in my life. I am working a full time job to pay the bills and save money to move out. By the time I get home I want to wind down. It’s near impossible to be creative when I get home. I feel like over working myself is not going to work. But realistically I’ll have to work my ass off for the rest of my life. Anyone know of ways to balance things out more and slowly chip away? I try to meditate and clear my mind when I get home but I can’t help but feel antsy and I grave entertainment to just let go of everything. It feels like a necessity.

The fear isn't in the snake but in you. Don't put your sense of self out into the external world to be judged and decided by other people. Always be open to advice, but don't accept it without thinking it through for yourself first. Don't take anything personally, and treat everyone else how you would like to be treated. When someone is rude to you, it's just them projecting their problems unto you. Everyone is living in a different world in their heads, there is no one world, everyone has a different lens. Always be genuine and authentic with yourself and other people. There will always be people that don't like you and that's fine. Just focus on what you think about yourself.

It's hard for people to be good to others and enjoy it when they haven't figured out how to love themselves first and let go. You cannot love and be compassionate with other people if you can't first do so with yourself. Humans are selfish when their needs aren't met, even if those needs are conceptual, because they're very real if you make them real. All you can do is figure out how to get rid of the veil. Once the veil, filter, lens, whatever you want to call it is gone, you're free to do what your heart wants you to do, which will just be to love. It may seem like being caring and good to others will make you vulnerable, but it actually makes you more secure than you could ever imagine when done right. This can't really be reasoned, needs to be experienced.

Sometimes I just start bursting out laughing because I'm so in the moment and seeing the things people are doing for what they really are. I used to feel awkward about it but now it's like whatever, can't be holding myself back.