Loss

Hi guys. I'm a loser and I am looking for help. I wasted my 20s. Literally. I am 30 now and I don't know what to do. No education, no job/career, no money, no looks (recently realized I'm ugly). I tried college and uni, each time dropped out. At the college I tried twice the same course - dropped out. I don't know what career would suit me. IT etc. is boring for me, I hate the idea of working corporate jobs, I don't like being an employee and working for someone. All the jobs i do are low skill low pay jobs in hospitality. I change them very often. No relationship since high school. I don't know where to start? I don't know what am I supposed to do? I only see chaos everywhere in my life. I think I'm a creative person, but I don't have motivation to do anything. Last 7 years I basically spent playing video games. Majority of my day is spent watching youtube and playing video games. I feel like I'm not a man any more.... Please help. I really want to leave this. P.S. Sorry for my English tho, I'm non native but I live in the UK.

Well, I agree actually!

I actually got hired 2 days ago (I'm waiting for the contract) as remote customer service assistant for 10 quid per hour. I'm happy with that, I must say. See, the problem is I had like 20 bullshit jobs in the last 10 years and I wasn't hired longer than 6 months, I was just quitting. I want to overcome this, but I feel like I don't have a tools.

These are great advices and I will be honest right now. In the state of vulnerability and looking for advice and answers I came across redpill stuff. The blackpill is just pathetic to me. What's wrong with the redpill ideas? Could you please explain? It kind of reassured my views of relationships with women since I had from high school, but again I recognize it might be just an illusion. I came to this forum, because It seems kind of neutral, and I watched a lot Leo's youtube.

Well, thank you very much people, I really appreciate your input. Please feel free to write more ideas and anything you have in your mind. Here is what I'm gonna do in next 3-4 months. - I'll get a job and save some money, although I think I'll stay with my family. I will feel safe knowing that I'm saving money. - I will start eating better and exercise. I might pay for personal trainer. - I will learn the video editing, and probably I will develop my short film ideas. I was thinking about being a freelance video editor. - I will start reading Leo's books and I will start his course after my first pay day. I came to conclusion that the most crucial thing to change as soon as possible is my looks. My physical well being. I believe it will be much easier for me to work on myself, my emotions and fears while being in a good shape.

Love it.

Well, I remember how 10 years ago I imagined my life. Job, adventurer's, living a life, passion, women. Literally nothing working out for me. After I dropped last year from the College (second time same course), I literally stayed in bed for next 8 months. I became even more fat. I started doing something in June this year. And now, man, from time to time it's hitting me hard. Like a panic, that I missed out so much, that I look like shit. I feel like I'm disabled psychologically. I feel like I don't have the basics. I need the change to be very urgent.

Art-house, drama. Possibly horror and action. It would be amazing. But I have an experience in making a 2 minutes short and I failed it miserably. I think I gave up. And the perspective of pre production, planing everything and finding right people to make a project gives me a massive anxiety. And the whole networking in the industry also gives me anxiety. Is it laziness?

Well, I would loooooooove to paint, but I don't have a skills and It won't give me money. I thought I'm into filmmaking, but I failed college twice and since then I didn't even touch the subject.

I think I want to improve the most is health (looks) and career. I would love to get a degree, be educated. I've 'studied' degrees like History or Architecture. Dropped out from all of them in first year. At the college i was doing film. Dropped out twice.

No, never. I will explore the subject