mandyjw

Right on. I did, I had to deny that too. There is no present moment. I also used to focus on my breath, then I recently learned to focus on not breathing after doing the wim hof breathing method. It was so powerful. You have to explore all your dualities to the full.

I can't see this question, can't resonate. But I love you.

YES!!! Sink into it. Surrender to it. It is bliss.

Clickbait is all part of God's greater plan. In a good way I hope?

Couldn't have done it without you.

That was for you.

Sigh. Men. Thought you'd at least stay for breakfast. I still want to see you again though. I just let Rocky out but he tangled his leash up so I had to go outside to get him. It was the cold but the birds are singing beautifully. Rocky stumbles when he walks because he's carrying the weight of the world.

Sorry honey, might be making things too steamy again.

It's not up to me to choose anymore. It's ok, everything will be perfect. It already is.

@now is forever I love you. You gave me a much needed insight. I also needed to be told to get off the computer now. So thank you.

@tsuki Am I giving birth to something? Is that why you only had fun in the moment and went back to feeling the same way?

@now is forever You think I was suggesting something physical but I'm not. Honey it's always a problem. You aren't actually subject to the moon, yet you always are. Because time is an illusion. Have you read Eckhart Tolle on the pain body? That was a huge help for me. I read the part in his book about it and was so disgusted a man would talk about things he didn't know about like that. But I loved everything else in the book. It took me much longer to accept that part. Ugh. He got to sit on a park bench and I've got pediatrician appointments, laundry and dishes. Men suck.

You have the female painbody. I have that too. It came out cyclically, and then in postpartum depression. I denied it. I didn't want to be female. I didn't want to be subject to the moon. You carry all the pain of woman. You aren't alone.

For me it was painting my nails.

@now is forever Can you go into nature where you are?

@now is forever They melt into one another. I had spent a long time denying my obsessions. I asked Tsuki to confirm for me that my obsession was ego. He did not. The obsession was my gateway. I gave my obsession the space and time it needed to do its job in material form. But I let my inner love for it be unbounded.

@Truth Addict Thank you honey. I can't sleep except three or maybe four hours, it's like time has changed. Always needed 9 before and never had insomnia. I thought my heart was beating too fast but then I noticed the timer today and seconds seem much shorter than I remember. It's bizarre. But beautiful.

@tsuki Your energy is slow, interrupted and very powerful. Flow baby flow. Let it go.

No, that was the real you. The PS is the false part. But since you added it in I can tell you are so very close.

@tsuki That was all you. I love you for that. The stars didn't show up but they were beautiful. I still can't find the moon.

@Highest Very true. It didn't happen the way I thought it would.

@Truth Addict Still need to take your advice to work on my posture. My neck has just started hurting a lot.

@tsuki

You were the first person here to message me. Of course. I really see you now, like I saw you then. I love you.