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@Colin Floaters are different, they are physically there in your vitreous fluid, it's a literal projection that you're seeing. This is more like seeing electrical "pulses", it's more ephemeral rather than physical.

The first signs for me were increased awareness of exactly what you describe. I remember being aware of what you describe when I was a little girl but I didn't pay attention to it as I got older. Recently I noticed that there is/was also a constant dynamically changing display of color and patterns. I saw the vision of an eye centered sometimes. I think now that the colors may have corresponded with chakras but I'm still not sure. I'm an artist so I work with and pay attention to color daily. I wrote down the colors I saw and used them in my work. Eventually I grew tired of that and just enjoyed the display. Pay attention to it, enjoy it, hone it. Good for you.

@bejapuskas That's really funny that you ask that because that has been happening to me a lot lately. Apparently we used to sleep in two shifts. I've been embracing it. The key is not ignoring the urge to go back to bed when you get it, if you get too wrapped up in what you're doing you won't get enough sleep. https://www.sciencealert.com/humans-used-to-sleep-in-two-shifts-maybe-we-should-again You can also use the time to stay in bed and meditate.

I think that past turquoise there are just trees, the sky, the water, the stars, black holes, light, energy. Dispersed expansive all encompassing life energy. In stage turquoise you get to dance with it, knowing it as yourself but still able to play with things because there is a you and there are things. That dissolves eventually.

Which option makes you feel lighter and freer? Pretend that you already picked one and judge the feeling of each. What can't you try the option to take a year for yourself and see how it goes by the end? You can always go to college after that year. College is a huge investment and it's one you want to make when you are 100% sure it's what you want. There's a lot of societal pressure to go to college and it can be easier to go rather than answer to all the questions and judgement of others. That's the wrong reason to go. Laziness and apathy are the wrong reasons not to go. Make sure that whichever option you choose, you choose it because it makes your soul feel lighter.

Play with a litter of puppies. They already have a sort of hierarchy established around 8 weeks. Is one puppy sweeter or more valuable than the next? Whose approval do you want and why? Close your eyes and imagine that you already have it. What does it feel like? Do you feel fulfilled?

Sounds more like immense potential to me. Of course you feel out of place.

isn't that a beautiful thing? You cannot help others without helping yourself and you cannot help your self without helping others.

@Sahil Pandit Hugs. @AlphaAbundance Do it because it's fun to see what happens. It's like planting seeds in a garden. You work hard and get all dirty. You don't know which will die and which will sprout when you do it. But life begets life and it's fun to see what happens in the end. It's like wrapping a present up for yourself, hiding it until you forget about and finding it again someday.

Those are the same patterns I've fallen into with my relationships too, wanting to help or "save" somebody, wanting their attention and approval. Those are our own egoic needs though. Isn't that interesting how we go into a relationship on hand wanting to be loved and accepted as we are and THEN we also have this big goal and intention of fixing them? We can't have both. I'm just wondering what that same relationship dynamic would be like now that you are more conscious... if you could resist falling into those ego traps. Would it be all beautiful magic? Think how much you'd have to open your heart, be vulnerable and be present with what is in order to manage.

@Serotoninluv What exactly about them attracted you?

I would love a video on astrology.

Try the law of attraction, Abraham Hicks. Fits nicely into all this but it SEEMS wrong.

You're doing good, but pretend that you're playing whack a mole and as soon as that belief pops up your'e like, no you're not, the opposite is true. Try to think more in paradox when you think, or correct yourself with the opposite paradoxical truth. Paradox isn't IT either, but it's a good way of thinking in "not it, not it"

@Serotoninluv @tsuki great advice. Opposites attract however, you also need to have things common with your partner where it really counts. If you're looking for a long term relationship try to find someone who will challenge you. Sometimes that means finding someone with more traditional, high IQ, type intelligence when you have high emotional intelligence or vice versa. Most couples are mismatched, heart led with someone brainy. If you're heart led you might want to look for a more intellectual type woman. You'll give her what she can't access easily on her own and vice versa. My father has really high emotional intelligence but compared with my mother he's not nearly as smart. I would have had a horribly cold and disconnected childhood without his warmth, and I would have been neglected without my mothers careful planning. I on the other hand, only really like intellectual type guys. I'm good friends with heart led guys but together we'd suck at making it through life together as partners. I can just imagine the passionate fights we'd have, the relationship wouldn't last two weeks. Instead my husband is more cold and unfeeling on the surface. It drives me crazy and I always saw him as a challenge to get him to open up and see what he was really all about. Put the work into really digging deep so that you know yourself really well. Then you'll know what partners to pick. If a girl is turned off by you sharing too much, that might mean she just isn't the right match. It doesn't mean you were wrong to share, in fact you probably saved yourself weeks of wasted agony in the relationship. Also, trust and work to hone your intuition. Also remember that attraction and love is beyond thought and understanding, bottom line.

@TheAvatarState It really is. What I love about this place is how there are so many brilliant people here who can really deepen my understanding of my own insights.

The funniest part of this entire video is when I say my head is empty space and I miss the joke myself.

My entire bedroom is shaped like a pyramid. I just realized that. Pretty sure there's just some mice at the top in the attic though.

Oh shit.

@pluto

@Nahm Or pure potential.

Your daily serving of 80's music a la my 15 year old self.

Hone your inner voice and intuition and follow it wherever it leads you. Your life is not your own and when you follow a path that is not your own you will be fulfilled.