mandyjw

"Relentlessly improve, let's see where it gets you", says Sadhguru, that's the part Leo teaches you to do extremely well. As he says you have to let go of your idea of enlightenment. No teacher can give you the truth, everyone has a different way of pointing at the moon. They point in different directions at different times. The moon moves around.

This is me right now. https://www.gocomics.com/calvinandhobbes/1986/04/29

Your disabilities are your super powers.

You are right. Free will is the knowledge of good and evil, the original curse that eating of the apple signified in the garden of Eden. Having free will is to suffer. Surrender doesn't seem like a prison though, it feels like freedom. It feels like the freedom to be one's true self. Freedom means to question one's true self constantly. I believe that personality remains after enlightenment. I need to be more aware of my tendency to assume that everything should happen for everyone else the same way it happened for me. I recognize that I'm still too caught up in my own impatience.

I wonder what makes us resonate with different teachers.

Don't create duality between your teachers though. I had to listen to Eckhart Tolle for years and deal with my depression and anxiety before I could even open my mind up enough to listen to Abraham Hicks. I thought it was such a materialistic scam. I needed Eckhart Tolle to teach me and I needed her to fill in things. I needed all the other teachers I sought out, or teachers that life threw at me, including many people on this forum and especially Leo to fill in all the things I didn't see in myself. They are all me, I created them. I am them, they created me. Just try to listen to her with an open mind. But maybe she's not the teacher for you, we all pick different ones because we need different things. Honestly though men love intellect and science and I feel like she is a master of emotions and heart and men look down on that. Emotion scares them. It's unconscious sexism. Maybe I'm projecting but... prove me wrong.

She is! Who said enlightenment couldn't be fun? I am thankful for my hours and hours and hours of Eckhart Tolle before discovering her but my mind was too closed to listen to her then anyway. Materialistic stuff always made me sick. Ironically I had a really big desire to move away and I tried to force it into happening. But I couldn't. That offset a spiral of events that made me realize that I'm here, like physically here, for a very good reason. Also Tsuki, thanks for that too. Sorryiforgottogiveyoucreditthereasecondsorry.

Ok. Create yourself a shallow luxurious physical life that your parents will be proud of and all the while you're doing it get enlightened at the same time. Come on son, get to it. I gave you life, you gave me gray hairs, you owe it to me.

I just wrote this in response to another thread but I think it explains her methods really well. Yes, she's a trickster. She seduces you into thinking that you're going to get sex, money and fame in the future and when you fully embrace the desire of those things, in a way that really feels like you actually have them NOW... then you realize that all you ever wanted was that feeling. And that feeling is the vortex, presence, enlightenment, love, God. It's timeless. Your future desires melt away into a present moment feeling of bliss. Also @Serotoninluv When I awakened/leveled up recently it was really painful. Physically painful. It was because I had no education about yoga or chakras. I was too busy for it, I didn't accept it. it didn't resonate with me. I paid dearly for that. Still do really.

@Aakash Your parents don't think that you are wasting your time. You think that.

Yes, she's a trickster. She seduces you into thinking that you're going to get sex, money and fame in the future and when you fully embrace the desire of those things, in a way that really feels like you actually have them NOW... then you realize that all you ever wanted was that feeling. And that feeling is the vortex, presence, enlightenment, love, God. It's timeless. Your future desires melt away into a present moment feeling of bliss.

@Aakash Look at how ridiculous this video and the title look. Are you too spiritual to watch it?

It's all spirituality you silly. Go get enlightened doing what your parents want you to do. You don't have to leave. I want to hear about all your insights along the way.

I want to be the queen of the universe, live in a palace with a turret and have a harem of enlightened men. I also want a velour leisure suit. Ok, I'm lying about the leisure suit.

You've got it all right. She talks more about "paying attention to how you feel", rather than in terms of leaving the vortex I think. Except that Tsuki could be the man if he didn't think Abraham Hicks was some dumb woman trying to make money by selling people lies about how they can live a happy life.

@Aakash Do you want to make your parents happy?

@Aakash Look at what a powerful creator you are. You manifested your spiritual parents out of thin air. Do you want to go to school or do you want to get a job? Whatever you want, it's at your fingertips. What so you really want from life. Money? Women? Fame? A velour leisure suit? What?

OLD ENOUGH TO KNOW BETTER. Let's school him David.

@Aakash GODDAMN IT, YOU CAN DO BOTH. Check out the law of attraction. Go ahead focus on your physical life, create it with spirituality. There's no difference between the two. You are creating a duality between the two! It's all God!!! YOUR PARENTS ARE GOD. YOUR TOILET IS GOD. Wake up!

Whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for "God/nothingness" will save it.

I found the comment I wrote last year, it was on the follow up video. "Light on Earth1 year ago I somehow managed to link into your experience watching your video yesterday, and I'm still amazed at how it happened. I'm a mom of two young kids and have never taken drugs, never smoked pot, have never even been drunk. I love your videos and have been following them for more than two years but I skip over your videos on psychedelics because even if I chose to experiment with them it's definitely not an option for me right now. I mostly follow Eckhart Tolle and various other teachers like Pema Chodron and to be honest I have a lot of judgements and reservations about your methods. I started out watching feeling disgusted and a bit embarrassed for you with no intention of finishing the video, then I started finding the entire thing really funny, then I just felt nothing and watched, then I felt attracted to you, then a sense of deeper love and connection and then the I am God, you are God, we are God realization. The feeling didn't wear off. I had maybe the best day of my life yesterday though nothing notable happened, and I still feel like the realizations stuck. Maybe you take psychedelics so the rest of us don't have to? Parts of your video yesterday reminded me a lot of Eckhart Tolle to whom I've listed for hours upon hours, the pauses in speaking, the holy shit epiphany things that you said, but there was an energy that's not there with him. Enlightenment is as simple as being one with the present moment. All concepts about enlightenment that entertain the past or future or the concept of an enlightened one are hypocritical jokes, a joke that points it's finger back at itself, a strange loop. REPLY Actualized.org1 year ago I can tell that psychedelics would transform your life. If you just opened yourself to them. REPLY Light on Earth1 year ago I've found that if you bring awareness into any naturally "altered" state you can come away with new realizations. For me these have included getting the flu, passing out after slamming my finger in a door, a runner's high after running in extreme cold, etc. As a nursing mom I'm still not allowed to take pepto bismol or cough medicine, so trips are definitely not an option for now. Part of being open minded is being very aware of your biases which I do my best at so who knows what the future holds. We're all on a unique journey. But the same journey. ;)" I'm a bit embarrassed for myself now. When I watched it this time it was instant connection/realization of truth.

@tsuki Out of the vortex, there is. In the vortex, no.

I can only do that from the vortex. The vortex is me. I don't do it. My life is not my own. I'm here to do God's will. Not my will.

Hmm... seems to good to be true. You can have your cake and eat it too?

I've done that, I can do it. I'm just... not 100% sure we're always meant to do it. I don't believe that it's a "should." What do you think, should someone who is enlightened not get sexually aroused? Honestly, I don't know the answer