mandyjw

Art, yoga, walking, time in nature, talking to friends and spending time with family, exploring your neighborhood and learning about local history, meeting your neighbors, doing community events, reading.

That's what being a mom does to you. Out of love and responsibility for a helpless life, you put your own needs and desires last. How is that not deserving of respect?

@DrewNows Why exactly caused you to not respect your Mom?

When I was a little kid I got in really big trouble for climbing up the steps to the head of the church where the Pastor was when he was preaching.

Yeah, he's really speaking to me. "All is one, now go fuck yourself." I went into shadow work not believing in shadow work and not knowing what I was doing or what I was getting into. It was my inner child that came out in full force. "All inner children love the F-word. It's the language of passion. And if we don't express passion and excitement it gets repressed and it becomes fury and anger."

I think so. I think back to my most embarrassing moment and no one said a single word to me or reacted much at all about it except one friend and what she said was mild compared with how blunt she usually was.

@DrewNows That's because being shamed hurts so bad that we quickly learn to shame ourselves so we won't have to be shamed by other people. Because somehow we think that it hurts less that way.

@ajasatya Good advice. We definitely need to blur and eventually get rid of the lines between organizations, corporations, hospitals, alternative medicine, religion and spirituality. So many of the problems in the world are because we have built such massive walls to separate these things, and to protect from liability, when really they should flow together freely. I'm an idealist though. I recognize that and it's hard to trust myself enough to take any action at all.

@Zigzag Idiot I'm listening to that Matt Kahn video now. I think shadow work or working with other people needs to be carefully balanced with working on your alone. There's really no difference between the two. We don't think we can accept who we are because we feel like others can't accept who we are. The more beautiful pictures we put on Facebook and the better that we curate them, the more we feel awful about the unflattering pictures that get taken of us. The more spiritual work we do the worse we feel when we really lose it of fall into an old pattern. When you have a toddler age kid it's like their tantrums are there to test your love. The kid really wants to see if they lose their shit and ruin Thanksgiving dinner in front of your in-laws, will you still love them through it? Or will you lose your own temper and hit them? Shadow work, done with another person is testing Love's bounds. It's saying here, I am this is the raw unpolished me. Can you love it anyway? If someone can love us who has seen our deepest darkest side then truly, we can love ourselves. If we love ourselves then truly, there is nothing about anyone else that our love can be overpowered by. If you can get there without someone else's help, that's amazing. But some of us are strong willed toddlers who want to test the limits of God's love.

@jbram2002 is quite an authoritarian today. When your wife forgets the laundry and you run out of clean underwear, no more Mr. Nice Guy.

Fairies are real and fairy tales are true.

I only recommend it to people who I know are already really open-minded. It's not exactly something I'd share on my Facebook wall.

@Truth Addict

Strangely enough my responsibility issues are mostly pointing to a problem related to my career/business.

@tsuki Apparently I've graduated to the next level.

You know me best, therefore you can trigger me best. You take my reaction of being triggered and fighting for space as personally you not being welcome.

Why does everyone have to make it all about ME again. It's not, it's about YOU. Leave me alone or I'll go hide in the woods again.

@Shin My absolute fantasy is to live a life where ZERO expectations are placed on me.

@Shin I am chosen to live a life of fucking off and wavering in the delight of life's purposelessness. I am not sure what being chief of pancakes entails. I am terrible at making pancakes.

When you try too hard to be one thing you end up becoming it's opposite. The South wanted freedom from the North so they started the Civil War. Slavery ended up getting abolished much faster than it would have otherwise. Hitler desperately wanted a strong, proud Germany and he ended up with a war torn country that is still shamed for its past. Donald Trump by forcing his agenda is playing into our hands beautifully. Obama dumbed himself down, Hilary Clinton wasn't wise enough to do that. She was trying to prove her intelligence as a woman and let that challenge get in her own way. She acted too much like a man because she believed herself that only men were worthy of the role she wanted.

"Everyone else", what's that? I am the Chosen One. Obviously.

I'm living that my favorite books from my childhood are real in so many ways. The magic I so wanted to believe in is very real. I didn't write those books, or did I? There's an element of surprise, and element of a story unfolding that makes life so delicious. It's the limitations and the unknown that make it possible.

Your first problem, oh mirror, is that you're making that sound like it's not an honorable noble thing to do. Why is that? Have you been shamed for over sharing in the past?

@Marc Schinkel Thanks! I recently discovered her and was very closed minded to the concept of channeling and the law of attraction for years. She brought me out of nihilism but it was not smooth sailing as I had to accept ugly patterns about myself and desires that I had unknowingly repressed with spirituality. All of our interactions are us trying to reflect each other. That's why our personality changes around different people. Some people we can't be around not because we don't like them but because we don't like who we become around them. When you start to become aware of how fluid your personality really is, it helps you to understand yourself and your false self (ego) much better.

@Truth Addict If you break my glass mirror I can just melt it down into something else anyway.