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@Shin I am chosen to live a life of fucking off and wavering in the delight of life's purposelessness. I am not sure what being chief of pancakes entails. I am terrible at making pancakes.

When you try too hard to be one thing you end up becoming it's opposite. The South wanted freedom from the North so they started the Civil War. Slavery ended up getting abolished much faster than it would have otherwise. Hitler desperately wanted a strong, proud Germany and he ended up with a war torn country that is still shamed for its past. Donald Trump by forcing his agenda is playing into our hands beautifully. Obama dumbed himself down, Hilary Clinton wasn't wise enough to do that. She was trying to prove her intelligence as a woman and let that challenge get in her own way. She acted too much like a man because she believed herself that only men were worthy of the role she wanted.

"Everyone else", what's that? I am the Chosen One. Obviously.

I'm living that my favorite books from my childhood are real in so many ways. The magic I so wanted to believe in is very real. I didn't write those books, or did I? There's an element of surprise, and element of a story unfolding that makes life so delicious. It's the limitations and the unknown that make it possible.

Your first problem, oh mirror, is that you're making that sound like it's not an honorable noble thing to do. Why is that? Have you been shamed for over sharing in the past?

@Marc Schinkel Thanks! I recently discovered her and was very closed minded to the concept of channeling and the law of attraction for years. She brought me out of nihilism but it was not smooth sailing as I had to accept ugly patterns about myself and desires that I had unknowingly repressed with spirituality. All of our interactions are us trying to reflect each other. That's why our personality changes around different people. Some people we can't be around not because we don't like them but because we don't like who we become around them. When you start to become aware of how fluid your personality really is, it helps you to understand yourself and your false self (ego) much better.

@Truth Addict If you break my glass mirror I can just melt it down into something else anyway.

@Buba No, I never know when to shut up.

Self care, distraction, laughter, time with friends. Mindfulness is great but you need some joy in your life. Everyone does. Hugs.

@Marc Schinkel Why specifically not Esther Hicks? @Truth Addict Still water reflects but can never be broken. I had a dream/insight that the "fountain of life" and a black hole are the same thing. You throw a rock into a lake and water shoots upwards from the force trying to equalize itself again. You can make quite a splash though, or a tsunami.

Oh shit.

@jbram2002 YOU'RE RIGHT! I have to forgive him the man cold don't I?

@jbram2002 There was that one video Eckhart Tolle I saw where he had a cold, and I think he was pretty annoyed with the world.

We're all like radios, we have to tune into a channel. It's not that you can be enlightened or not. You can be in tune or out of tune. Sometimes you'll talk to your Mom and she will be an enlightened master. Other times she will be very unconscious. Our own state of consciousness also somewhat determines states of consciousness or attunement from other people. We mirror them, and them us.

That was last year.

You're stage green. Otherwise you'd appreciate my ever so slightly racist jokes and let me watch Trump speeches and documentaries without screaming at me for it.

What if I enjoy getting frustrated and throwing my phone more than learning new technical skills? You didn't consider my feelings.

My OCD was just the voice calling me to go down the rabbit hole. I thought I had made such spiritual progress in getting it to shut up for years.

Well, I mean, if he wasn't Illuminati, why would you want to listen to him?

It means NO WORRIES, for the rest of your days...

It's a paradox. It does happen naturally, life wants to awaken you, but you are also life. I know the framework from Leo's videos, the "programming" I did with Eckhart Tolle and other spiritual teachers and my desire for the truth, and help from people here on this forum were instrumental. But when I consider that I did no real consistent meditation practice, no psychedelics or drugs, no retreats, it's hard to understand how I got this far if life didn't want me to awaken for some much bigger reason than my own.

I had similar experiences when I went through an awakening a few weeks ago. I woke up with insights, intense energy and needed to write them out. As I wrote they kept coming. I went for days without sleeping more two hour stretches. Yours sound much more peaceful. Some of them were peaceful and I could sleep after the insight without the intense energy and need to write.

I still fall into that trap but not always. Often it's in selecting which people or things I think have the potential to teach me. Then when something that I don't think has any value for me teaches me a huge lesson I wasn't expecting, I realize that I fell into the spiritual ego trap again.

AI becoming more sophisticated and a part of everyday life will create a striking difference between machine and human. What is that difference? Consciousness. If consciousness is highly valued, better understood and we have robots to take care of everything for us, we can spend our time on art, human connection, being one with nature and being. The whole world can be enlightened.

We must have not been ready for it.