mandyjw

You think Tsuki can help you with this but I can't. I'm your Mommy and he is your Daddy. Who started this journal? Who gave you life?

@DrewNows Daddy is so smart and capable isn't he?

@DrewNows I only let the people I love see my messy house. I guess that should include everyone.

@Truth Addict I highly suspect that being forced to fast has given you a kind of spiritual maturity that you do not yet fully appreciate about yourself.

So this thing you refer to, it's already God awareness, we already have it. So I get confused because you say, "maybe" and "one day"

@now is foreverI see the tunnel problem. It would be easier to convey in color. I associate the sun with the heart chakra, the sun is love to me. I'm still learning the traditional associations with each chakra.

Who do you love? Yourself? Or the idea of a person who meditates everyday? Is meditation loving yourself? Is having a meditation routine loving yourself? Is having an expectation on yourself that you won't miss a day loving yourself? Only you can answer.

This one looks like a rainbow with the moon over it, but one end never quite reaches earth. Maybe because it's leading us upward, away from earth.

You know how people always say that their life flashes before their eyes when they think they might die? In the process of "dying" to self, you life will flash before your eyes. You can't honor past lives, or no beginning no end if you don't go back and recognize and thank all the teachers of your past who you thought were just fucking your life up. All the time they were really manifestations of God there to awaken you. if you can't go back and make peace with God in all the ways he raised you/loved you and abused you to make you the perfect you that you are today, then you can never love and embody your true self. Because it was you the whole time. Sometimes when your house is really messy and someone is coming over, it's a good idea to shove everything in the closet and under the bed. But inevitably later on if you want to be comfortable in your own home, you'll have to sort all that stuff out and put it in its proper place.

@tsuki We already are a resource to the Earth. We've deluded ourselves to believe that it is our resource. There is no hierarchy in connection with Earth.

I think the teachers we resonate with most mirror us and I think there is something to wavelengths. To be attracted to a teacher we both need to deeply resonate with something, see ourselves in them and also recognize something in them that we do not have and deeply desire to learn from them. The first video I found of Leo's was how to deal with anger. I was just searching youtube for answers because I realized I had a problem. I still find it funny that I still resonated with him so much when he admitted in the video that he doesn't really get angry and can't really understand it. Yet the video was still really helpful. I know my resonating with Eckhart Tolle was because his path of working through emotional pain without traditional practices was generally the one I was destined to follow until recently. The more work I do the more teachers resonate with me, even ones that infuriated me in the past. Sadhguru does kind of seem like king shit on turd island. But there's a certain perfection in it I guess.

"I'm sorry, wrong address." They only tell you what they need at first, if you don't listen and let them get too upset, they lose the ability to verbalize very quickly and it just devolves from there.

@Truth Addict There's no way you have low EQ. The heart and mind are one.

God. There's no instruction manual to the heart because it's all about the element of surprise and experience. EXCEPT that here's the big dirty secret. The heart and mind are one. Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday.

Well, they are completely unpredictable. Maybe you get plates thrown on the floor, maybe they pick all the tulips out of your garden while you're looking at your phone, maybe they want to scream for a solid half hour because you said they can't have more ice cream, maybe they give you the best hug you've ever had and they say 'I love you", maybe they hide and poop under the kitchen table because they are scared of using the potty and think pooping under the table while everyone is eating would be the less embarrassing option.

What if the three year old IS your heart?

Just follow your wants and impulses without fear of judgement or losing love from anyone. No filters.

@tsuki It will stay that way until you let it come out. You have no idea how connected I feel to my three year old today.

@Zigzag Idiot I love you anyway.

Our inner child is needy sometimes. That's just how kids are. It's ok.

Time is just a buffer, it's necessary for creation, it gives space for thoughts and feelings to arise and desires to be born. There's no journey without time, and no journey without desire. You can alter your perception of it, if you want.

@Shaun Yes, it's seen through all kinds of eyes and perspectives, but each are ultimately your own and you can even tap into them and experience them if you want. @Truth Addict That's very true.

You know how Jesus went around asking people to leave what they were doing and follow him? Some left their work and followed him but the people who were too attached and caught up in it wouldn't. There is no opportunity of hearing a call to a greater life's purpose, or a big adventure if you identify with your current work. I was talking with a friend about how a year working in food service completely changed her as a person and gave her confidence around people. She enjoyed the job while she was doing it and got a lot of growth out of it, but she moved on to something better. Always be ready for the call, but know that each and every person you interact with is an angel of God. There's a difference between resigning yourself to something and enjoying every step of the path. You enjoy the sensation of walking it and all the sights along the way but your purpose for walking is a desire to see where the path is going.

You're awakening! You're creating your reality. It happened to me too, especially with the number 666, which I hated and feared most of my life.

@Mikael89 Madonna, and the her song "Like a Prayer" has kept showing up for me lately. The lyrics from the new song are pretty amazing. @Truth Addict Chickens are scared so it doesn't take much for them to face their fears and feel alive. I am a chicken, you're right. "We can light up the dark Everyone has a spark Don't tell me to stop 'Cause you said so (Oh Yeah) Your future is bright (Bright) Just don't turn off the light (Lights) Tell the sun not to shine (Bright) 'Cause you said so"