Vision

@Moksha Can you elaborate on the message of that poem? I don’t think I fully understand.

@Moksha I like the way you put it. Ropes reduced to threads... How have you acted during your ego backlashes? What happens? That’s kind of what I’m asking. What usually happens during an ego backlash?

@kieranperez What would an example of an extended practice be? Meditation and Yoga? Psychedelics? With ego backlash being a thing, how do monks... be monks? Do they even have ego backlashes?

@WelcometoReality What do you mean by this? Can you give an example? For example; suppressing the desire for sex or success would cause: How do we avoid this trap?

@Moksha @gggkkk What has caused ego backlashes for you in your experience? Would this be the case with psychedelics too?

Perhaps it’s analogous to an Olympic athlete going backwards to set up space for a sprint for a long jump. As long as we are making progress. Thanks for the link. What’s after glow, after shock, and neutral experience?

Thought that it would be useful, maybe even therapeutic, to record my journey of getting back to optimal health. Feel free to chime in and share your sentiments and/or advice

@Leo Gura Why?

Yes. I’m not planning on staying carnivore permanently. It’s temporary. I just want to know if tofu or tempeh would provide any benefits in the context of having SIBO. Okay thanks. Yes. But I still need to do more research on what to get. I bought these: The 5-HTP isn’t for SIBO btw. Apparently it can help malaise?

What are the most effective SIBO protocols out there for combined methane+hydrogen SIBO? Any books or resources?

@Michael569 Yeah. If I incorporate tofu and tempeh into my diet then my diet will no longer be carnivore. But I was thinking about bringing them in just for some variety but I don’t care about variety in this case if it comes with even just a bit of risk. Are there any benefits that tofu and tempeh give that a carnivore diet doesn’t? What benefits does soy have?

@Leo Gura @Michael569 Have you tried eating tofu and/or tempeh? Can you tolerate it? I’m considering incorporating them into my diet, I’m currently on a carnivore diet. I’m just worried about is the apparent negative effects of consuming soy, and that they contain prebiotics+probiotics which can feed the bacteria more. I’ve only considered this because tofu and tempeh were the only sources of protein on the vegan SIBO Bi-Phasic diet, besides SIBO friendly protein powder (which I’m definitely not touching). However, in the original SIBO Bi-Phasic diet, tofu and tempeh isn’t mentioned at all. It says to avoid all legumes. Do tofu and tempeh count as legumes since they are made out of soybeans, which is a legume? Both of the diets are made by the same person, Dr. Nirala Jacobi (though the vegan diet was made with a co-author) Should I avoid tofu and tempeh just to be safe? I’m going hardcore with carnivore anyway, I don’t want to take any chances.

Thanks. Found it. For anyone here looking for it, search up “SIBO notes Google slides” @Ora I’m reading that after I finish reading Eat Dirt, thanks. Any other resources?

@Leo Gura I just looked through til October last year. Can't find it.

@justfortoday So every other sentient being is God? E.g: God is experiencing "Vision" right now, and "Vision" is all that there is in this present moment. "justfortoday" is God experiencing "justfortoday", and from "justfortoday" POV, "justfortoday" is all that there is. "Vision" is God imagining "justfortoday" "justfortoday" is God imagining "Vision" But God will experience both POVs one at a time. It seems like solipsism but also not solipsism. Everyone you are talking to, everyone you are teaching, are incarnations of yourself (God) that you will experience, but are not experiencing during this present moment because everything you are conscious of is all that there currently is. So I'd assume the motive to teach others how to awaken is so that you have more incarnations to awaken in? Since everything that is happening in this infinite film reel has already happened, could this be why we experience "Déjà Vu"?

@Leo Gura Thanks Leo. Do you have any other resources or books? I remember you linking a page that shows many protocols on SIBO. I just can’t find it.

I'm trying to solve a lot of my health conditions which can only really be solved through means other than conventional medicine, let alone even be recognized in conventional medicine. My dad isn't very supportive of this however. Due to his overbearing faith in conventional medicine, he tells me to just take pharmaceutical drugs that ease the symptoms, but his mind isn't open to being explained how bad the consequences of using these drugs are. Since my biggest health conditions are not recognized in conventional medicine (such as leaky gut, SIBO, and adrenal fatigue), my dad doesn't even take them seriously. He thinks that Functional Medicine and Naturopathy are pseudoscientific scams with no scientific evidence. Since he also read these same claims on Wikipedia, and that it's the first thing you see when you Google search those terms, he is even more convinced of this bias. He is also very against dietary changes, he genuinely believes that diet shouldn't have anything to do with my health conditions, "they can be fixed with meds". He has a big knee-jerk reaction to me eating a healthy diet. He dislikes it when his family doesn't eat the same things as him. My mum has been a vegetarian for almost a decade and it still bothers my dad to this day, he still tries to convince her to eat meat again. So he really rubs this one on me a lot, being displeased that I don't eat the same things as him (which I probably never will as his diet is pretty unhealthy), etc. My dad has argued with me about it. This is what he thinks: The medicines that exist within conventional medicine, exist because they work. If these herbal treatments and supplements work, why aren't they accepted by mainstream medicine? Why aren't they brought into mainstream medicine? If these are real health conditions, why aren't they known in mainstream medicine? Most of the medicines in the pharmaceutical industry are funded by the government (at least in my country), because they work, so the price is reduced. These herbal treatments and supplements are much more expensive, so this must be a scam. I don't know how to answer these questions, because I don't know why. But what I do know, is that where the pharmaceutical industry has failed, functional medicine and naturopathy has cured people of their problems. Conventional doctors told me that my conditions were chronic and that I'd have to live with them. It wasn't until I tried to take supplements recommended by people who practice functional medicine that I started to notice some improvement which I had never experienced with pharmaceutical drugs. One of the most helpful things I could have right now is some emotional support, but I feel dragged down here. How can I explain to my dad that what I am doing actually works? How do I refute his arguments?

@Michael569 That makes sense. Thanks for your help ?

@Michael569 Thanks for the detailed response! Maybe mainstream medicine has a criteria for what medicine is accepted. In this case it’d be that it needs to be able to treat acute problems. Could it also be that “herbal treatments” aren’t taken into mainstream medicine because they don’t fit that criteria (treating acute illnesses) as effectively as pharmaceutical drugs? Despite them being much better in the long term?

Is there any thing I could say to him when he mentions what's bullet pointed in my post?

Yeah. I spend most of my time in my room anyway. Most of our conversations happen when we're eating. I don't really feel attached to my dad. I always fantasize about being freed from his shackles. I just want him to let me be. Being nagged about the way you live your life gets tiresome, attached or not. Yeah, that's my plan; Once I'm old enough, move into an apartment. I'm just going to have to put up with it for the next 2 years. Until then, they are still my legal guardians. Gotta make the best of what I can.

@Jacob Morres What dismantled it for you?

Thanks so much! I'll definitely look into these. No I don't. I have heard of some of those terms but I'm not familiar with them. What do they mean? Thank you ?

This is something I've been wanting to do not only to individuate myself, but also because I want to leave my narcissistic parents. From Wikipedia, Narcissistic parent: “Typically, narcissistic parents are exclusively and possessively close to their children and are threatened by their childrens growing independence. This results in a pattern of narcissistic attachment, with the parent considering that the child exists solely to fulfill the parent's needs and wishes. A narcissistic parent will often try to control their children with threats and emotional abuse. Personal boundaries are often disregarded with the goal of molding and manipulating the child to satisfy the parent's expectations.” "Narcissists seek to control the behavior of others, particularly that of their children whom they view as extensions of themselves." "They may reproach their children for exhibiting weakness, being too dramatic, being selfish, or not meeting expectations." "Children of narcissists typically do not have many memories of having felt loved or appreciated for being themselves. Instead, they associate their experience of love and appreciation with conforming to the demands of the narcissistic parent." This exactly describes my parents. There is so much codependency, emotional invalidation, conditional love, narcissism, manipulation, and toxicity in the way they treat me. To be clear, I am not demonizing my parents or anyone in my family as if they are "evil" people. I am just describing the situation as it is. I understand why they are the way they are. In previous generations, it was common for parents in my culture to be extremely harsh and do things that would be considered abusive and illegal in today's age. My parents are just acting out the conditioning they got from their parents/my grandparents. I have about $70,000 left in savings from an online business that I used to run. This may have actually contributed a bit to some of my health problems as I was working pretty much all day, every day, it was unsustainable. I need to learn more about financial literacy as I'm not too sure what to do with this money at the moment other than fund my health treatment, invest in self-help material, and save it. But I have enough to move out. Here’s what's stopping me (hopefully just for now): 1. I just turned 16. I won't have full sovereignty for 2 more years. 2. My parents are heavily against the idea. Eastern culture (or at least South Asian culture) is heavily steeped in Stage Blue. It is a HUGE stigma/taboo for men to live away from their parents. It is acceptable for women as women are expected to move into their husband's house (where the husband's parents also live) and become housewives while the husband works. This is the case with my parents. They want to control my decision in who to marry, they expect me to live with them, and expect me to take them with me wherever I live or stay. I've tried talking to my dad a few times about my plan on moving out when I'm old enough and he freaked out every time. These are some of the things he says to me (translated to English): "I've raised you since you were a baby, and this is what you want to do!?" "You are my son! Of course we are supposed to live together!" "You are being influenced by western culture. In our culture, family comes first! We always stay together" - It's more like family enmeshment. It's not like living away from each other means that we can't talk to each other, but they demand more. He always talks about how depression rates are higher in western culture than in "our culture" and it seems like that fuels his confirmation bias. He has a huge bias against western culture. After these conversations, my dad seems to be upset with me for a day or two. Then everything seems to go back to "normal". I've thought about leaving without notice when I'm old enough and completely cutting ties with my parents. The other idea is to try to get them to accept my decision to move out. Make them understand that relying on me to take responsibility for their lives invalidates my individuality and makes their relationship to me codependent and toxic. I've tried this before, but they just call me selfish and not the son they know. Besides trying more to make them understand me, it seems like the only other option is to cut them off completely. I'm leaning more towards the former, I still hope that we can establish a good rapport, but I lose hope the more I try. What can I do in this situation?

Yes. Sure doesn't seem like it since he's always trying to change it.