Ali Bakali

I Can Tell You That He's Not Doing Science At All.

Thank for the feedback guys ! Especially @Toimur H that was very eye opening ! Sometimes god needs to look for itself and itself tells itself to look into itself because there is only itself ! ? I Sure Will Do My Best To Keep Going Forward And Self-Actualize + Self-Transcend. Thanks For Taking Your Time To Write All Of This I Really Appreciate It , Much Love !

@aurum yeah i get your point , i tell myself that too , but like you said ,my environment is really toxic like even at home , but thanka for the advice , will sure try my best.

@aurum I started doing meditation just a week ago, and it's kinda hard , I'm procrastinating a lot.

Hello , My Name Is Ali , i'm 17 years old , And My Name Is An Arabic Name if you are asking. Anyways i'm gonna get right through it ,I've been watching actualized.org for the last 2 years , i watched all his videos about metaphysics, i'm a nerd when it comes to understanding the nature of god and reality , but when it comes to my practical side of life it's pretty shit and it gets me depressed and lost. I live in Morocco which is a stage red/blue country , the school system here is bad like really really bad , i feel no spirit whatsoever it feels mechanical and spiritless , the environment i live in is not that supportive at all , my mom seems to not care about me or giving a shit about me because...well , she found out i'm not a muslim , and she's very religious, so she's always giving me shit , it makes me depressed which in turn affects my grades at school , and i lost my passion about it if i'm gonna be honest , i used to get really high grades but now i declined so much in the last year or so , and i got bad grades that's not gonna get me to a respectable college , it made it worse for me, i lost my sense of purpose and now i'm working my ass off to get enough money to buy the life purpose course , i'm really good at abstract thinking and i always think about what can i create that can maximize love and freedom for everyone , but for the last year i lost all my motivation in the practical side of life , i'm still interested in Truth , but it seems like i can't master my survival wich in turns affects everything , if anyone has gone through similar difficulties in need to hear their opinions on my situation and their thoughts and what can i do?? I started contemplating what i really want in life but because of the negativity that surrounds me i'm getting nowhere and i'm always projecting my own fears in my questioning of reality , i know i didn't need to write all of this but i feel like it's been suppressed for so long and i don't know what to do , i still have a litlle bit of hope , but it's fading away , i need guidance. Much love and respect ❤