Muhammad Jawad

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Can spiritual awakening, enlightenment, self realization help me to become a saint, virtuous, Holy man? Can spiritual awakening, enlightenment, self realization help me to leave bad habits, bad actions and do only Good Things? How do I get rid of my bad habits (for example over-eating, watching porn, masturbation, etc..) after Self Realization? And how do I live as a very Good, kind, loving, virtuous and a Holly Person, After The Self-Realization / Spiritual Enlightenment?

Right Exactly Thinking about forgetting brings up a lot of fear. Ok Right

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Great. I will surely look into that. Thanks a lot for your efforts :-)

I can not say that I have awoken completely but I can feel that I am going through a spiritual awakening. I am very peaceful all the time. I do not see myself in the universe. I see the universe in me. Sometimes dense Clouds of old conditioning, patterns, behaviors, and habits cover the whole screen of consciousness. And it becomes dark and I feel really helpless in front of those emotions and feelings and forced to behave, react negatively and then there is regret and it feels like a big failure and feels like I am still not self-realized but when these clouds wear off. I feel one with everything again and all the peace and awareness come back. Sometimes in meditation, I feel like I am going to die which scares the hell out of me. These days I am going through the phases of fear of losing my life, my control, and destroying my life. Sometimes it feels like nothing is changed and I am fooling myself. I feel very helpless, hopeless, and powerless. I want to do all bad things as many times as possible and as soon as possible (over-eating, unhealthy eating, sensual pleasures, etc...) because it feels like I am going to die very soon, and before dying let's not lose the opportunity to perform these things. Sometimes it feels like Self-realization is useless and just a mind trick that has no benefits. Life has become very paradoxical. I want to over-eat and don't want to over-eat at the same time. I want to live a disciplined life and don't want to follow any discipline at the same time. I want to enjoy and don't want to enjoy at the same time. I want to sleep and don't want to sleep at the same time. I want to work and don't want to work at the same time. I want to cry & laugh at the same time. I feel free and bound at the same time. etc.... There are thousands of examples I have lost interest in everything. All Life purposes seem empty. The relationship is going well. The biggest challenge is to stop seeking now. it feels like I have reached and at the same time, it feels like there is still something missing.

Can you give a few examples of "weird things"? Thanks

Ok. I am doing my best to burn all layers through my awareness. I hope it will dissolve soon completely.

Ok Right. Can you please explain that in a bit more detail with a few examples? So do you mean this new realization has already started to wear down those conditioning patterns? and ultimately will it dissolve all the old conditioning and patterns? Exactly. you got it. I am going through the same situation. Ok. Right.. Ok. Thanks a lot for your guidance. :-)

Thanks a lot for your response, @Leo Gura. Do you have videos about how to integrate the Truth/Enlightenment after Self Realization? Or are you planning to create videos on Integration, purification, or shadow work after the self-realization?

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Amazing. Thanks a lot. So you mean I can do whatever I want to do but with Love and awareness and treating everyone and everything as myself. Right?

Right. Thanks a lot for your response @gettoefl. To live a peaceful happy life and get me on the secure side if there is a Hell in the afterlife. Yes, that is the reason as well. Sure. Thanks :-) But Life does not unfold how our Ego wants and then it unfolds differently, then we face failures that cause suffering and I want to get rid of suffering as well. Me (The Dream Character) Yes, that's true but that realization is making me a bad person. Right. Thanks :-) Sorry, what do you mean? Yes, I want to lose bad habits. Will Self Realisation help me in this matter?

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Hello everyone! I hope you all are doing good. There is not any separate self. Then who is responsible for wrong/sinful (murder, rape, pornography, masturbation, etc...) actions? For example, Something wrong and sinful occurs through my body, then a feeling of regret arises, then a thought arises that "don't worry "I" the separate self do not exist. That wrong act was done by "Life"." Should I just let Life (God) do all kinds of wrong things using my body? Waiting for the help. Thanks

That's not the case. :-) That's not the case. :-) True.

Seems Very true. I also feel like that. .....? Again feel like a lot more authentic interpretation of reality. Right. Sure. Thanks a lot for the detailed explanation. Exactly I have tried this experiment many times. And I saw it many times that I can not control which thought I am going to have. Thanks for sharing this. :-)

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Nice. How a dead creation can act? How did creation get separated from God? As soon as we separate creation from God we define the boundaries of God and limit God. How dead matter can come up with its own desire? If the creation is not dead then how is this alive? Do you think there are separate souls in all living beings? It seems and appears that there is an ego but in reality, the ego does not exist anywhere upon looking. The ego can not be highly conscious become does not exist as a separate entity. The ego can not make decisions because the ego does not exit. I can not remember when I created my ego intentionally.