step1

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  1. Hello ladies and gents. I know there is a lot of hype in the yoga world about eating clean and looking after your body but often these lifestyles are a part of fitting a role and forming an identity (egoic) rather than actually being for a genuine concern for your physical welfare.. I would like to know from those of you that have been on this path for a while, what your views have become on health and fitness and whether you have become more or less conscious of looking after your body. I guess this is also a question about drive and motivation... Do you still have the drive and motivation to do things that you had when you were more identified with your ego?
  2. I watched some of Mooji's retreat videos... From what I've seen they seem to be very emotion fuelled. Lots of his followers crying, hugging each other and holding hands etc... Nothing wrong with that, I just don't think all that would be my cup of tea if I was on a retreat... Is it like this with all retreats?
  3. LOL I must be the only one who has first person memories. Interesting
  4. It sounds like you are searching for 'meaning' for which there is none
  5. All my memories are first person. If you see yourself in third person that may be a form of detachment from your memory.
  6. I'm nearly finished on the Power of Now. I've also read Siddhartha. I want another book to read, but not so much about how to become enlightened, but more on what drove a person to enlightenment and how its changed their life. Any recommendations?
  7. I almost feel like there are people in this section of the forum who are trying to pull others away from this path. Is this genuine concern for others or work of the ego?
  8. Not sure whether you are being sarcastic or not... I think anyone who has an ego that serves them well will never understand a person who has an ego that does not serve them well. A lot of people who go down the road of enlightenment did not choose to do so, it was their only option. Lisa Cairns is one of them. I've read a lot of self help and although its has helped it has no way near had as much impact that meditation and self enquiry has had on me. Although I was initially freaked out after I became 'aware', the aftermath of this is actually peace and relief; there has been a huge weight lifted from my shoulders and I feel like I no longer need to live up to anyone's expectations and don't take myself so seriously anymore.
  9. Great post. Reminds me of Siddhartha's journey.
  10. My ego has given me a painful ride all my life. It's not helping me.
  11. What do you mean by this Pierre? Surely once you gain enlightenment, life becomes easier and your limitations are lifted?
  12. ok I understand. Are you at this solidifying stage yet? If so did you find it hard/scary? I've had the realization/awakening a few days ago... Whilst I know this will benefit me in terms of finally being happy, im also scared shitless of not being able to relate to people anymore... The last few days has been the weirdest of my entire life
  13. What about a dog that barks when it is alone? Is this not a sign that it needs something external to its self to make it feel whole. Isn't this a symptom of the ego? I honestly think all social animals have ego.
  14. I have always wondered about this, but never used it as a meditation technique. The thing I used to ponder was if you close a door only halfway and keep repeating with the space left over, when does the door meet the frame? Or just keep dividing a number by 2, when does it reach 0? I think its meant to make us question infinity. But rather than thinking of infinity as moving outwards or expansion, we can think of infinity as also moving inwards/contraction also. That's my view anyway
  15. Hi Pierre, When you say 'years of practice to sort it out' , what do you mean?
  16. Getting back to ego death.. What the guy describes in the video I would say is actually awakening. You are aware that you are not your ego, but the ego still has it's effect on you. I would say what ego death really is, is when you have been living in an awakened state for a while and have noticed your ego so much to the point where you no longer properly identify with it. At this point you may have an identity crisis and go through some hard times... Is this correct? Has anyone experienced this and if so how did you deal with it? I had this realisation that there isn't really a 'me' (awakening) the other day. It was very profound at the time and then I became scared, worried of the implications it would have on my family/love life etc. Then I started to see more of the positives to it. Since then I have been very calm and still for the last few days. At the same time, I feel like I've uncovered something that is non reversible. It sounds awful but its a bit like opening pandoras box LOL. I feel like I don't have a choice in being on this path now and that more is going to unfold without my will. The only thing I can compare this feeling to is from when I was younger. I spent a few years experimenting with drugs and had a few experiences where I was high and actually believed that I had uncovered another reality, the way it really was.. This reality I thought I had uncovered is very similar to what I feel now. The more I think about it the more I trip out. LOL I just hope I don't end up in a mental ward..!
  17. Do you not find that you are still playing the part of your ego in your dreams?
  18. Lisa Cairn makes an interesting statement in one of her videos that everything that you can imagine will happen at some point because the infinite has no limitation. Mind bending stuff. Sometimes I worry that I will find myself in a very strange, trippy situation...
  19. Personally I found forgiving everyone and accepting what is very liberating. I learnt this trick from reading Eckhart Tolle in the power of now.
  20. I spent last night watching lisa cairns video channel on youtube. Some of the stuff she talks about is mind boggling. She seems to be at a very high level of consciousness. Quite eerie the way she goes off into thought sporadically and doesn't talk for a few minutes.. I'm really intrigued by her.
  21. Is it possible to ever have a strong healthy ego? This would mean you are totally reliant the external which ultimately you have no control over...