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@Genius100x Hey man, I just read everything you posted on this thread. I understand exactly where you are coming from. I think you need to make this clear in your mind: Clearly your dreams and ambitions are greater than your suffering. I get your suffering is a lot right now, but your dreams and ambitions are greater. This is a clear sign that you need to commit to LIFE. It's very simple. It's hard to see this simple fact because you are in the "clouds" right now, but just see that if your dreams are big, you owe it to yourself, your future self, to find a way no matter what, do whatever it takes to reach that vision of yours. Feed your ambition, and cultivate that desire very strongly. I think for some time even consider consuming less philosophy as that is feeding your negative emotions, and focus on clear strategy and action. Maybe listen to Owen Cook. He will get you out of this emotional funk you are in, and get you to "fight and claw" out of this haze you're in. Then once you gain some control on your situation, you can perhaps return more to philosophy. Also realize you have many options right now. It doesn't seem like that, but you do have options. For example, perhaps you can go to an ashram in India by bus, and stay there, help out there, and they will provide food and shelter, until you can get a job, and then go from there. If you are worried about your family finding you, then choose an ashram in a remote location, grow a bigger beard or something. Start planning it out. Writing it out if you have to. My grandma and grandpa, in their late 70s and early 80s live in India, and they were daily abused by their son in many ways. They also felt hopeless, but then my aunt snuck them out of the house, and now they are thriving. They too didn't see hope, but they got out. When you're in the clouds, its hard to see hope, but there is a way out for you. I can already see it, you just need to muster the courage and escape. And even if you don't leave for some time, that's okay too. You can develop coping mechanisms. Start cultivating coping mechanisms if you choose to stay at home for some time. Coping mechanisms like: distraction with Netflix, meditation, opening the window and breathing some fresh air, a book to put you in a better headspace, pushups and situps to make you feel physically stronger, etc. You can do all this. The moment you start taking action in the right direction, you'll feel stronger, more capable, break out of your emotional haze more and more, and see new possibilities to fix your situation. Trust me, you will reach better horizons. I think you said you don't have habits in place? That you are just flowing. This is what needs to change. Trying to flow right now, is like letting your cirumstances control you. You need to take control of your life by cultivating the right habits. Build your foundations. Then you can add some flow in as well. Habits are critical, even small habits, and then keep building on that. When you have a solid foundation of habits over time, no one can take that away from you, not even an abusive family member, and you can use that foundation to ground you, to give you something worth fighting for as well. You don't just need just a better vision to pull you out, both a vision and a foundation of great habits can give you a lot of power.

@Leo Gura oh okay, I guess I was too focused on an individual creator's point-of-view to see that more important point of view. I definitely agree with that. At the same time though, that cat is way out of the bag for companies like OpenAI and such. From what I understand, companies like OpenAI are entertaining opt-in for certain groups of people like photo companies, news, and artists but if you're talking about the general taking of data, there's no stopping these big companies from being powerful like that unless government steps in. I also doubt government can do that much now too. Competition is fierce right now, within USA but also the AI race between countries.

@Leo Gura I can see it being a problem when it tries to replace the unique style of someone, or even represents someone's work, or impersonating someone, but I still don't get this: If an AI is creating unique output based on diverse training data, why does it matter if its opt-in or not? From the perspective I'm looking at, when I read a book at the library, and Im absorbing someone's hard work for me to build my neural network and operate on in life, that data is freely accessible to me. It's the same for me consuming online content for free for my personal neural network. I don't get why AI needs to have opted-in data whereas humans don't. (assuming the AI creates unique output and doesn't sought out to represent a particular person's work) Some part of me does say, well thats stealing data though, which makes my conclusion: The answer isn't so simple, where we can conclude that data needs to be strictly opted in, nor even data needs to be freely accessible. Perhaps its a case by case basis, or requires further exploration into the matter.

@Leo Gura Well sure, from the perspective of AI companies getting powerful in that manner, there definitely should be limits to that power simply because of how that power negatively affects society, but simply from the perspective of the fairness of training on other people's data, I don't think its a simple answer that its a problem. Honestly, I think its a complex answer of whether its fair or not. On one hand, it is a form of stealing. On the other hand, Im not so sure its a problem if AI outputs unique content.

@Leo Gura isnt that how human brains work though? We train on book data and from that we learn and operate in this world. Isn't it the same if content is used to train AI to learn and operate in the world? I can understand it being a problem if AI plagiarizes and spits it out as it was inputted, but if its just using that content for learning and training purposes so that it can create new content based on a deeper learning and understanding, is that that big of an issue?

Wish more people I know would vote for Kamala, unfortunately about 30% of my friends are trump supporters because of financial benefits. That's the world we're in right now.

@Buck Edwards I honestly don't know much about our country politics, nor Kamala, but I have dug into these abortion laws and Trump's policies and honestly its really a wtf scenario. Definitely voting for Kamala just because I dont want that mad man ruining the country and people's lives.

@Peo Great choice man, the challenge would be to keep it up long-term. Perhaps journal how you can make this change sustainable, and remind yourself why you're doing this every now and then.

@Marvelllious Don't listen to that guy. He's been making harmful clickbait videos like this for years. He's also overly pessimistic. I don't think he has a good family life from what I recall when I last saw his videos a while back.

@bambi Its not that they are a maker of malicious software, but there is clearly a lack of care, due diligence, ethical analysis, etc. in the developing of these AI systems. They are driven primarily by profit and competition, not consciousness. Even you said earlier that its important for a company to prioritize consciousness over competition. Do you think Google is prioritizing competition or consciousness? I think you already know the answer to that lol

@bambi I don't deny necessarily that those google guys care about the advancement of humanity, but from my research and understanding, in the pursuit of that advancement, they are neglecting the dangers of AI as well. I don't know the answers to these questions, but here are some things to think about: Is Google involved in the development of weapons? And say there are, is that a good thing or bad thing? (I recall some reports saying google is involved in weapons, not sure.) Also, Eric Schmidt, ex google CEO seems involved in helping Israel (I recall he said that, again not sure). Is the very nature of being this competitive in the AI space, without knowing what it is we are creating a good idea? How solid is google's ethical AI team? (Ethical AI doesn't seem to be a priority in any of these top companies, especially Microsoft, who I think fired many of their ethical AI team)

@Leo Gura That's good to hear. It's interesting how you are deep into consciousness and still support the notion of creating high conscious businesses, and hiring people. I don't see much commentary from spiritual teachers on what is conscious vs. unconscious in the world of business. The problems with pursuing a business at all, whether aiming for positive contribution or not, whether its an impactful business or not, is that some damage gets done to people's survival, I think, regardless of the business. It requires carefully contemplation, thinking, analyzing, systemic thinking to see whether you are doing really is right or wrong.

If Elon Musk de-friended those google founders because of their negligence of ethical AI, of all people Elon Musk, its safe to say Google isn't the most ethical lol @bambi These are some solid points. The problem with business and capitalism is that the bigger you are, even as a small company, the more people you hurt (I think). Even in the companies I hired, people aren't off starting their businesses and pursuing their deepest passions, which bothers me. But at the same time, I can't have the impact that I want to have unless I hire some people in that way. I think at the end of the day, people do get hurt in any company you build, no matter how hard you will try to minimize the damage. But what is comforting is how many people I can impact with the companies, and in turn give back to employees money-wise. Like you said, it's looking at all the details of the systems and carefully iterating each aspect for higher consciousness, higher quality ethics, etc.

@Leo Gura How about a company of 10 people, with an owner focused on contributing to the world? I have a few companies where I hired people, pay them well, treat them nicely, and want to transform psychology, healthcare, etc. with AI solutions, and an app I'm developing with various mind tools. My highest priority is the betterment of mankind while also following my passions and curiosity and not creating surface-level solutions, without going too much into the details of that. I guess I'm asking what makes a company corrupt and delusional exactly?

@Leo Gura Hey Leo, I have some questions on your latest blog post: "Start At 10% Life hack". I'm honestly not that interested in skipping the first 10%. But I'm really interested in this tactic you laid out: "I jump around and scavenge from content exactly what I need." I've been interested in doing this for many many years, but never had the courage to commit to this strategy. I can see the power of it, though, now that you laid it out so starkly. But what about missing "really important" content in the process? Often times there is content that I read and don't realize its importance until weeks or months later. Also I don't realize its importance only until after I read the content in the first place. Also a lot of important content builds up on each other to lead to something emergent, and for that emergence to occur, it would require one to learn the various parts that leads to that emergence. From my understanding, this strategy, "I jump around and scavenge from content exactly what I need.", does have massive benefits, but also I do see some downsides. I also fear that I would have an incomplete understanding if I just skip around. I can imagine myself skipping around books that are just "good" or "great" but books that are "excellent" I feel that I need to consume it all. Also, for a lot of books, I don't know what it is at all that I'm reading, because it's so new to me, and I wouldn't even know what matters or not until I read through it, which makes it hard to just skip around. Lastly, does this strategy apply to online courses as well?

@aurum Yeah actually I thought about what you said for a while, and I would say that's pretty true in my experience as well. That's pretty spot on. In my experience, that's not "absolute", but its a good model for how I work, and perhaps a lot of men. You bring up some interesting qualities too, that I never explicitly told myself. I too care about intelligence and maturity, perhaps after personality, and physical attractiveness would be one of my tops. But at the same time physical attractiveness is pretty complex if you go into the weeds of it. Energetic polarity is interesting. I never heard that before. But I like the sound of that lol

Disclaimer: These are just my personal insights. I'm not trying to say I'm the right one here. I'm just sharing some interesting insights I had, from my own experience. I think these insights are pretty different from what I hear everywhere, so I'll share some of these insights. I'm a 28 year old single guy. I had relationships one after another for 8 years, and took a break for 2 years until now to focus more on myself. But past 4 or so months, I've just focused on socializing with all kinds of people because I've been anti-social with building my businesses aggressively. These days I live in New Jersey, and about 3 to 4 times per week after I finish my work, I get in the car and ask myself: Should I take a left on route 1 and go to New York, or should I take a right on route 1 and go to Pennsylvania? I either go to New York to get in the city kind of vibe, which is social. I go to Pennsylvania because it puts me in a state of being where I fall in love with life, connect to the mountains. (I usually drive to Poconos. It's a 5 hour round trip.) It's almost like 2 different personalities I have when I'm in New York or Pennsylvania. So today was Sunday. I reached Poconos at 11 pm. There's a town I always go to. It's usually always empty. I go there to just walk the streets alone at night, look through the windows of shops that are closed, which has unique lighted displays. I walk the train tracks there that go around the mountains. It's lit up though. It's really beautiful and feels somewhat spiritual. Usually when I come here, there's no one there because I usually arrive late night on a random day in this small town in Poconos. But today I saw this girl walking her dog. She's just in some home outfit, as she just stepped out of the house to walk her dog. I wouldn't have said anything, but she had a Corgi dog, and I never saw one before, so I struck up a conversation. I actually really was interested in that Corgi because its all over social media and I never saw one. We ended up talking once, and then went our separate ways, but crossed paths again and talked again even longer. But I really connected with her. She was pretty to me, but not like the prettiest girl by common social standards. Then as I was driving back home, on a 2 hour drive approximately, I was just reflecting a lot on attraction and connection. I think the last time I really connected with a girl was my ex girlfriend years ago. I've talked to many girls since then, but I guess I didn't connect. But today I actually felt a deeper connection with this girl. And on the drive here's some insights I came up with: 1) Looks is not everything to a guy (Insight for girls and guys), every guy is different, and every girl is different. I think on this forum and elsewhere online there's this notion going around that guys only care about looks. And of course we do. I care about a girl's looks too. But it's not like we're always going for the prettiest girl. I remember years ago I was talking to my friend and he's like "I mainly look at her a** and t*ts." I was actually shocked because I thought all guys look at the face. And now if you ask me, I care about her face, but much more her personality. If a girl is bubbly, and cute, then that's pretty attractive, in my opinion. But guys can fall in a trap of rating girls. I've done this before, and reducing someone to a rating is not only detrimental to girls, but I realized it cuts a lot of psychology off within me. (If that makes sense) As in, when you think in a reductionist way in general, you cut yourself off SO MANY possibilities. As a guy, why would you want to do that? You lose the discovery of what you really want in a girl, and I think that closes you off to a lot of possibilities, great experiences, etc. I realized that there's all kinds of people out there, guys and girls. Every human being is unique. They all have their own unique world of details. Staying on the surface in interacting with people, and disconnecting yourself from that world of details and distinctions is what is closing you off to what you really want, who you really are and seeing the world more accurately. 2) Environment plays such an interesting role in attraction This whole New York vs. Pennsylvania thing is kind of trippy to me. I'm trying to make sense of it, just to myself. I'm wondering why did I connect with this girl after a long time. I remember being in a club with my friend, just having fun and hitting up many girls. But I didn't really emotionally connect with those girls. It was a club environment. I don't think you're meant to be in a spiritual, loving state in a club, and therefore the attraction you feel in a club is very different. Whereas when I was in the mountains today at 11 pm, and already in a loving, curious state before even meeting her, that played a really interesting role in attraction. The attraction was a different kind of attraction. (Maybe there are different kinds of attraction.) As in, the environment played a key role in the connection, but also the state of being that I was in because of the environment, and possibly the state of being that she is in because of the environment, and state of being that she is in because of the state of being that I was in, and the environment around us being very calm, conducive to a deeper conversation about life. Also I realized, because I wasn't even trying to pick her up, and the whole interaction was organic and natural, made me feel connected to her more. But then I was thinking, if I met this Corgi girl in New York instead of Pennsylvania, I'm not so sure I would have connected with her in the same way. I don't know why but New York typically puts me in a more materialistic state of mind, emotion and being. I have a feeling it does that to others as well. Everyone is in a rush. I also think New York can be dehumanizing at times. I would see a homeless person in New York and often be numb to their struggle. But in this town in Pennsylvania, I saw a struggling old man once and did everything to help him, because of the environment. Of course genuine connection happens in New York as well, but I think the norm is surface-level interaction throughout. Of course going to New York is nice too in many ways, but its just different, not better nor worse. 3) Ultimately, all we want is intimacy and connection. I think when you really connect with someone, a lot of things that you cared about will fall out the window. Of course being strategic matters in selecting a partner. But it's so weird how the entire internet puts so much value on superficiality. And then when you actually connect with someone, you can see the superficiality for what it really is online.

@Emerald I think there's a lot going on in each of those environments. Like in the Ayahuasca thing, I'm just guessing, but you are all meeting with certain individual intentions, shared intentions, the belonging that those shared intentions create, and I guess just a space to be vulnerable which allows you to see those wounds more easily. With online spaces, maybe we perhaps take on some kind of false pixelated identity lol I don't know. Or maybe it's just the nature of the medium, which happens to be very limited in the distinctions we can access. I actually wish to understand this deeper too. I don't even know where to look to understand this deeper, because I don't see this discussed much. But that's a really interesting idea about creating spaces like that. There's a lot there: Taking existing environments that happen to foster limited connection, like the streets of New York, and making them more harmonious, as well as creating new spaces like that that humans haven't thought of before. It's good you still have faith in humanity lol to potentially reach a point where all environments could be like that. I'm not so sure we would ever reach that point, just from the history of wars since forever, or perhaps the human nature for war and strategy, and all that. Then again, war also does bring people together. Sept 11 brought people together, very oddly. I honestly wish to understand this more. I think about it every now and then, how good it would be if the world united more, came together, connected more.

I've been pretty passive for a long time, but I want to see if there's a way I can proactively help those suffering from these wars: Russians, Ukrainians, Israelis, Palestinians. (North Koreans too if possible) I'm hoping this thread doesn't become about taking sides. I'm aware one side usually suffers more than the other, but the citizens and military personnel from both end up suffering because of the government's actions. I'm hoping with this thread we create a maybe small to big hub of creative ideas to help these people, despite the obvious border challenges. Key action takeaways for me, you, our friends, etc. I'm aware there are a few big threads at the moment, on this forum, but I wanted to make this to separate from the talking and understanding to purely action steps. I'm currently learning about geo-politics on a regular basis, but a lot of it goes over my head. But I still get important insights every now and then, but is there a practical way to use that information besides improving the public conversation and influencing policymakers in the right direction? I also feel too naive in these areas to really contribute on political talk at the moment though. But what other action steps are there? Are there any organizations to donate or help in other ways, that we can trust? Any meet ups? Are there perhaps refugee centers in major cities in US? One problem I realized is that these countries have us blocked off politically, emotionally, culturally and physically so it feels pretty hard and limited to make actual impact. Also it can feel demoralizing when you feel you are just 1 person and you feel so limited in what you can do. I recall though that Richard Branson went to the streets to protest the Vietnam war back in the day, if I recall correctly. That always inspired me. Are there perhaps any major action steps that one can take that are safe? Any creative action steps? Any action steps that you took or a friend took that seemed to be pretty effective?

@Spiritual Warfare Haven't you heard that phrase: "If you see something, say something" lol I'm just kidding though. Bro honestly you can't know her, and her life from such a limited angle. Who knows what her relationship is like with her boyfriend, or what her life is like for that matter. I would say, just use this as a reminder to turn inwards and focus on becoming a better version of yourself.

@Sandhu I don't really have a good TLDR here, but I'm just realizing that its rare when my real authentic self comes out in an interaction, and when it does, it makes all the difference. We want depth and connection, and a big part of that involves being connected to life, spiritually, and emotionally.

@Buck Edwards Yeah that's interesting. People have a whole world of their own. It's hard to see that world unless you explore it, and then you really see whether you want to be a part of that world or not. But whether or not people have depth or not, I realized most of us interact on the surface. I guess its worthwhile to penetrate the surface and go deeper with people. "So don't just keep your heart open. Also keep your eyes open. Our eyes deceive us through our own biases and perceptions. Reality is far more intimate and intricate than what meets the eye." - This is very well said, in my opinion.

@Leo Gura I've been trying to articulate some questions for a while now, but some of them are kind of vague, but I'll give it a shot anyways: How is it possible that they can just get away with this? Doesn't the UN and/or other countries hold them accountable for war crimes? And from my understanding, they've been doing this for a long time before Oct 7th. Knowing about some very smart Israeli AI scientists, AI researchers, scientists, and economists, how can such smart people like Israeli officials be so deceived? Do they even know they are in the wrong? Like sometimes you can deceive yourself while still knowing on some level that you are in the wrong. How different is USA from Israel in terms of self-deception. I'm from the US and it hurts knowing how much USA has caused destruction around the world over the past few decades. Is the average American just as deceived and in denial about America's wrong-doings? Are we too much in the social system of USA to ever even see the true wrong-doings of USA (referring partly to your blog post about understanding social systems). Will Israel face justice for what they have done ever? I think it's just not fair what they are doing to Palestinians. And you say that they will face terror from some potential terrorists in the future, and I honestly don't wish hurt on anyone. But when I say justice, I mean will the officials go to jail? Will these Israeli officials be charged at all? Also I'm trying to articulate this, but I can't do justice here: What are the bigger implications of this self-deception? I know this is a vague question, but I'm trying to understand why this is so important to have made a whole thread on it with tons of videos? Is there any larger implications of what this self-deception of Israel will lead to in the future, or what it's causing now besides this war? What does it generally mean, this self-deception? You don't have to answer all these questions of course. I think I asked too much here. I'm just curious on your overall thoughts here.

For anyone in Florida who can help me with this, my family has been considering moving to Orlando .. given these weather conditions now and in the past .. is it safe or worth it?

@Raze I'll do some research then, maybe there are other factors to confirm besides verification. Idk how much I trust these large charities though, but that's something I believe worth researching too.