Majed

From an ontological perspective, we can have two models of reality, reality is either fixed, static and material, or infinitely fluid, flexible, and changing. I would argue that the second point of view is the one that is correct. To prove this point, i can argue that different individuals view reality in different ways, like different species of animals experience and view reality differently based on their physiology and biology. From the materialist paradigm, non human animals are less powerful than human animals hence they're inferior because less powerful, from the idealist paradigm, non human animals experience reality in an ontologically different way than human animals hence literally living in alternative reality. I would say that the second explanation is a wiser and truer way of understanding animals. Also from the idealist paradigm, altered states of consciousness aren't seen as deprived from truth, but are seen as different dimensions of reality. In this context schizophrenic hallucinations and psychedelic experiences, are different ways of experiencing reality, rather than being just false. And i think this is also a truer and wiser way of understanding psychedelic experiences and schizophrenia. From an idealist perspective and point of view, transgenderism and gender fluidity is absolutely correct and there's nothing wrong with it, from the materialist paradigm it's a mental disorder, a sin or a delusion. And i would say for all these reasons, the idealist paradigm is the correct one.

@Lucasxp64 I think i know the problem: i did the majority of my approaches while having an untreated mental disorder mainly ocd. This fucks things up a bit. I think that explains it.

It's a good lesson in epistemology to see how your mind is doing the same thing, the mind of these kids is doing. People do not see the depth of the problem of self deception, they just think kids are stupid and believe in Santa Claus. However a christian is doing the same thing in believing in Jesus Christ, i mean seriously what's the difference between believing in Santa Claus or believing in Jesus Christ being resurrected from death ? And also this problem is so epistemologically real that even scientists and atheists who believe in an external reality, and of other people, and of materialism are also doing the same thing just with different content, the structure is the same. Christians, scientists, and kids believing in Santa Claus, are all doing the same thing, aka believing without questioning, in other words holding dogmas, assumptions and not taking epistemology and ontology seriously. Here's the plot twist, Santa Claus is real, in terms of consciousness since consciousness is infinite and can imagine anything. However it does not mean those kids aren't foolish, because those kids are not conscious that materialism is a dream, and other people is an illusion within God's infinite mind. In conclusion: the christian fool thinks kids are stupid and believe in fairy tales, the atheist fool thinks religious people are as stupid as kids for believing in fairy tales, the wise mystic understand the problem of self deception and forgives the three of them. Without jailbreaking your mind, you look like a kid believing in Santa Claus to those who have jailbroken their minds.

I've found three: Leo Gura (actualized.org), Sadhguru, Krishnamurti.

@Leo Gura Hey leo, why did you lock my post about Santa Claus, i was editing it and making a strong case for Santa Claus being real, since everything is consciousness and imagination, if i become conscious of Santa Claus then Santa Claus is real. Similar to how you said consciousness can imagine a demon and it is real because it is within consciousness.

Part of this work is to question everything so might as well.

@Carbon Proud of your journey. Could you share in dms the porn you found ?

I've deconstructed reality, and became conscious to a point where my reality feels like a psychedelic trip 24/7.

@Princess Arabia Yeah i love the game of seduction.

Atheist tries out psychedelics: Watch only the psychedelic part. The problem is that even with psychedelic experience, his mind has still not deconstructed materialism, atheism, the brain...

@Leo Gura It ain't a reliable strategy from my experience at the coffee shop, you can't just hit on customers the way you do with pick up, your game has to be much less direct and straightforward. Plus at work you aren't anonymous, which makes it not a reliable strategy, i wouldn't bet on it to get laid. Plus i want to explore sexuality with many different people not just one. And i also enjoy pick up a lot, i love approaching, flirting, being intentional... I got so much experience and value from pick up, in the sense that it changed my worldview a lot in radically new ways, and i saw possibilities i couldn't have imagined in the past, like one time i hit on a famous girl on instagram (now she has like 1,7 million followers, but at the time she had 600 000 followers), i didn't know that though, and i flirted with her and was a bit cocky and all that, she didn't give me her number, she gave her instagram, i didn't have internet when i was with her so i couldn't check her account before i was at home. Btw why do you think she gave me her instagram if she had so much followers and obviously wouldn't respond to my messages ? anywho also other possibilities like multiple times i made out with 10 girls in one night at the club... I attracted and reached hook point with so many girls, it's crazy, how much value i got out of pick up and so much joy and exploration.

@Leo Gura It's a very small coffee shop, and there aren't lots of hot girls that comes in.

Here what i've come to in my contemplation of these two minds: Features of the atheist materialist mind: turning outwards, believing in a external objective reality, scientific worldview, authority to science, believes the universe is physical, no God, only believes in what science has demonstrated to be the case, believes himself to be a human, believes in rigid categories of evil vs good, man vs woman, man vs machine, human vs animal, mind vs matter..., sees progress in terms of technological innovation, believes that religion, spirituality and mysticism to be non sense and unscientific fairy tales, sees animals as inferior to human beings and deserving of exploitation for the betterment of mankind, sees the universe as static, physical and independent of the mind, the world seems cold and foreign, this mind is very much alienated from the world, represses emotions, sees nature as a tool for exploitation, promote mastery over the world through science and technology. Features of the mystical psychedelic mind: turning inwards, grounded in direct experience and consciousness, conscious that the physical universe is God's imagination, takes epistemology and metaphysics seriously, questioning and deconstructing of one's mind, conscious of the self as God, non dual, sees science as a dream, sees animals as unique expressions of God's divine beauty and consciousness with a rich inner world and experience, sees reality as a fluid field of consciousness where the boundary between physical and mental or imaginary is broken down, and whatever one is conscious of is what's true, and where one merge in absolute bliss and ecstasy, experience emotions with mindfulness and mastery, embedded in nature, sees nature as a vehicle for higher emotions, consciousness and truths, nature mysticism, sees imagination as reality, promote inner wisdom and transformation, takes not knowing seriously.

@Leo Gura I chose to quit high school because it was torture. Now i work with my dad, we have a coffee shop and when i finish learning everything i need to know about the craft, we're planning on opening my own coffee shop. So yeah i don't know seems like i can't move to another city for now. Also i was wondering if my pain due to not being able to sleep with girls is related to something in my brain chemistry, i was diagnosed with ocd, adhd, and bipolar, and so sometimes i am very happy and i don't care at all about girls, and other times i'm very miserable and depressed because i am not sleeping with girls, is it because of my mental health, or is it just normal for men who don't sleep with women to feel that way ?

Dude getting good with women is terribly challenging, especially when you have or had health problems, money problems...