Majed

When you look around, everyone is in survival mode. No one care about philosophy, epistemology, exploring the mind, metaphysics... They're lost chasing money, success, sex, marriage, friendships, romantic relationships, studies, work, political ideologies, social justice, religion... But why no one is interested in existence itself, instead of their petty stupid human goals ?

@Leo Gura i kinda dropped socializing for now. Honestly i like solitude. Hanging with people is for stupid people. The sage wants to connect with God, the fool chooses poor substitutes like hanging with dumb people.

@Leo Gura I see, i have ocd and bipolar type 1, does that mean, girls will be more attracted to me when i'm in a manic episode, or something like that ? Because when you're mentally ill, you're unpredictable and exciting, if what you're saying is true.

@Leo Gura What's exciting about a psychopath ?

@Leo Gura why are women crazy for psychopaths ?

The paradox of tolerance, is that the more you tolerate other behaviors, the more you become risk tolerant yourself. Because if you tolerate something in others, you tolerate it in yourself as well. So if you tolerate rapists, you might become a rapist. If you tolerate drug addicts, you might become a drug addict. If you tolerate serial killers, you might become a serial killer. Because understanding someone's point of view, makes you more susceptible of taking the same actions they take yourself. That's why most people are so intolerant. That's why mainstream religion like islam or christianity are intolerant. Christians like to say God is love. But are you kidding me ? Do you understand what God is love means ? God is love means you tolerate murderers, rapists, tyrants, homosexuals, pedophiles , drug addicts, alcoholics... Everuthing you judge as evil, you must tolerate to understand that you are God, and that you are love: to understand what God is love means. And mainstream fake religion is notoriously intolerant, because it is about survival not truth or understanding. And to be honest it ain't all that bad, because religion has an empahsis on discipline, which most people need to succeed in life. So religion can teach you that, the issue is that tolerance brings with it a lack of discipline and looseness. If you start to contemplate and understand a serial killer's perspective you might become one. Because a rule in life is that everything is gray, no perspective is black and white. So for example if you contemplate the perspective of a serial killer, you might realize you yourself have the urge to murder others, within yourself. And if you explore yourself and that urge in particular too much, you might become a murderers. You might realize that killing others is exciting and addictive. This is just one example, there are millions of other examples. Like if you're a scientist, and you tolerate mystics too much, you might become one a ruin your career as a scientist. Or if you're a muslim, and you tolerate atheists you might become one, and so on... If you're straight and tolerate gay people, you might turn gay, or discover you have homosexual impulses, maybe even some paraphilic tendencies... So anyways God is infinite tolerance, which is death to the self, both existentially and psychologically like death of the ego, but also physically like physical death. It takes a lot of wisdom to reach ego death without physically putting yourself in danger.

Yeah i mean cocaine is dangerous. But like when i did molly it opened my mind so much to hard drugs. I know cocaine and molly are different. But like they share commonalities. What was most interesting to me was the radical openness that came with it. It's like a whole new domain of life opened to me.

@Leo Gura i am interested in actually experiencing them not just reading, do you think if i read the trip reports and contemplate them, until having those experiences that they will be similar to if i took cocaine ? I have already done countless hours of meditation and contempation, such that those practices have become spontaneous and automatic to me, whenever i sit down and do nothing i start meditating on stuff and contemplating stuff. As you might have guessed i already experienced levels of God awakening, Alien consciousness, infinite love, reality being imaginary, and a hallucination. I can materialize pretty much anything into existence if i want to. I've also experienced solipsism. Do you think with my kind of mind, i could experience cocaine without doing cocaine, by contemplating the trip reports ? Note: i know the degrees and levels of awakening to all of those things that i mentioned (God, love, solipsism...) are infinite. I don't consider myself done, i could become infinitely more conscious.

@Leo Gura i checked it out quickly, but why did you recommend it to me?

@Leo Gura My life is already nice and good, i got issues like most of people, but like i'm super interested in spirituality and altered states of consciousness. This is what interests me the most in life.

@Leo Gura what do you recommend me doing if i am curious about cocaine, but i'm on psychiatric medications? Plus i think that cocaine differ from one person to another, like is there a standard "cocaine experience", or does the high just change depending on the person ?

@Leo Gura I am on anti depressants, anti psychotics, and xanax (alprazolam). I can't just do cocaine. However like i said, i had a peak experience while i was contemplating "what is cocaine?" Which was out of this world. Something totally new, that i've never experienced.

@Leo Gura do you think it is possible to have an experience similar to that which cocaine produces through contemplation, without ever trying cocaine ? I was contemplating "what is cocaine?" And then had a glimpse of a peak spiritual experience, it was out of this world, something i never experienced before. A new state of consciousness. Do you think what i got is similar to what cocaine might make me feel, or is it something else?

@Leo Gura Sages live simple lives, because they've awoken from the dream of maya, and are content doing spiritual inquiry spontaneously for most of their time.

@Leo Gura The best thing to do is to develop a relationship with God and have sex with God.