Chimera

So do you consider it as something like a premonitory dream or more like something you were deeply afraid of, which turned out to be real? I had a couple of premonitory dreams myself. Most of the time, I dream about a location I haven't visited yet.

Four years ago, a strange thing happened to me. I had been really in a good mood for a couple of days. I was about to go to sleep and was shuffling my tarot deck. Suddenly, something I can't explain happened: A flood of images of Donald Trump came into my mind, without me having control over it. It was like a succession of photographs appeared in my mind. It lasted for about ten seconds. This was two days before Donald Trump was elected president of the US. I think I had a vision, at it predicted Donald Trump's victory!!! I had another one at the start of the year about me getting married to someone specific (I highly doubt this will happen thought). Again, I was really in a good mood. What do you guys think? did something similar ever happened to you?

Hey there ! First time posting!! I recently discovered that the main reason I am unhappy since a long time in my life is because of denying myself and my personal needs. To avoid feeling unpleasant emotions, I tried for many years to suppress how I feel by labelling it as the ego, and by doing so as something which do not exist (What I understood from spirituality is that desires and pulsions were only the ego trying to define itself, and since the ego is illusion, there is no use to having desires) . This resulted in me having no will to do whatsoever, even the will to live, and having an unfulfilling life. But when I listen to my needs, what my heart tells me to do, i feel so much happiness, so much liberation... I am living again!! I need to learn who I am and what do I want from this life I order to have an existence which I can claim as my own! But isn't that ego? Is the detachment from ego implies that you must feel dead inside?

Ya that could help me. I have quite a ''few'' limiting beliefs !

It sounds more liberating than painful to me. I think I've been pretending for so long to be something that I am not to get people to love me that being myself is more rewarding than pleasing others. I might loose some friends in the process, but maybe it's meant to be. Maybe those friends just can't handle my true self.

I like that .

Thanks, I'll read it!!

Well....it exist since you are able to name it as ego.

Ok, i am beginning to get it now!

Always had a problem understanding this as well. I understand to a certain extend that letting go completely of the ego means physical death (you let yourself die). In order to function into this physical reality we need to maintain a bit of our ego : We need to take care of ourself physically and mentally, we need social interactions, we need goals and passions, etc. It can't be completely either one of the extreme: Living our life completely dependent of the ego or letting go of it completely. There needs to be a balance.

So I can need something/someone, as long as I don't feel like I need it in order to exist/ feel alive/feel whole...ok I am beginning to understand now!

Ok, that's a nice analogy!

Thanks @Moksha! So ego is thoughts and feelings... how about wanting something? It seems each teachings I search into points out that wanting something, let's say a significant other or a car, is the ego self trying to define itself as the owner of a nice car or as someone else's lover for example. Is wanting something the ego?