PurpleTree

yea i remember the guy seems like a lovely bloke, good luck

my mother had a bad reaction with the second shot not even sure which one she got

So i think a lot of my (and maybe some of yours too) social anxiety comes from wanting to be loved by everybody. I want everybody to love me, my looks, my thoughts etc. Which obviously is impossible. So then i try to micromanage peoples perception of me which is pointless and exhausting. a lot of this is subconscious. If instead of thinking i hope she/he/they love me, i could come to think i hope she/he hates me then i could be free at last because if they hate me already there's no need to micromanage anything and i can't change it any thoughts on this?

it certainly wasn't bullshit back in the day when it was needed

why not? apparently because it can

i have been on ssri's twice for anxiety each time about 6 months they had pros and cons pros: they made me less sensitive and less self conscious cons: slept even worse, found it harder to keep information both times i stopped taking them because i had some tests or exams and found it harder to keep information but maybe i'll try them again after i tried many other things

elon musk is in a gated community living alone in a huuuuuge home he can walk for days without seeing somebody or finding a bathroom of course he'd think there aren't enough people totally out of touch the guy

wow really?

he just seems like some type of preacher i wonder where he got his info from

there are enough people bro public transport is often fullllll

Hello Motu

Was just browsing a bit and it seems pretty hard to buy DMSA in continental Europe. Has anybody bought it lately?

i'm not an anti vaxxer really but i do worry about the one's above. also it hasn't been tested long enough. also people die from the flu every year. yadda yadaa this one is nonsense imo

it is pretty good, almost like a benzo I've read online from a guy who used it everyday for years So i tried to take it everyday but after two weeks i built a tolerance and it kind of stopped working

seems too risky beautiful plants though

Have you had success with anything? I bought and am drinking wormwood (absinthe) tea. Bitter foods/drinks apparently are good for the liver.

that would be great sure. but i can probably only hold one concept or thought in my head at once. and the pull of social anxiety is strong, makes me not think straight

is this venting thread helping you at all? do you get any insights? or is it not helping at all?

yea it's normal human behaviour to an extent but if it's so deeply ingrained from some childhood abandonment issues or whatever that i can't live my life the way i'd like and i'm blocked all the time, then there is something very wrong with it so that's why maybe i have to go to the other extreme of, i don't care if they hate me

good to hear

you're doing it again stop the division bro both sides have their issues

nah for me the body load is strong and uncomfortable makes me feel weird, cold and tired

you just try to appreciate everything i appreciate this nice spa and sauna appreciate this lovely tree appreciate this pet appreciate this known or unknown person appreciate warmth appreciate these good or bad feelings and so on

no they're hypocrites imo talking the good talk while bombing weddings with drones, supporting saudi while they bomb school buses in yemen and so on etc. etc.

I think they think there are levels to this on the truest level there is only oneness, god, infinity etc. but on this level there's a pandemic so gotta wash your hands and not taking the vaccine is bad etc. imo taking the vaccine isn't "non-spiritual" and not taking it isn't either but causing further division and thinking you're smarter because you got or or didn't get it could be seen as "unspiritual" imo but who cares