PurpleTree

For me its the 22:22

What if there’s nothing to change? nothing to change about myself nothing to change about reality

This stuff is probably very expensive, hard to get and mostly useless ?? but if somebody wants to give me some to try i’m open

What is ttfd i tried megadosing normal thiamine but it only helped for like a day or two

kids like to riot, it gives them a sense of adventure and purpose in their boring internet lifes. What‘s new

Seems like a good thing. There have to be other ways to help the less fortunate and wealthy. ( wrote this into the wrong topic before )

Seems like a good thing. There have to be other ways to help the less fortunate and wealthy.

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True i‘ve been bullied a little bit as a kid and in ways it scarred my ego for life. Can‘t even imagine the pain of people who were bullied a lot. hehe ?

~ who am i ? ~

If god is everything. and you are god. what is fatigue?

For example sometimes i feel like i have this Krishna energy, which is a mix between ego and being conscious. And then sometimes i see a group of Indian people, then my ego thinks wow they must feel my Krishna energy now. They‘ll really be impressed and love me, maybe even worship me who knows ? it‘s so ridiculous. Or when peole stare at me, which i feel they do. My ego thinks that they can sense and feel how special i am Or right now i‘m travelling in Latin America. And then sometimes i‘m the only white person. And then i feel like i have to represent for white people. And make them see that white people can be very deep and spiritual. And when they look or stare at me. I think they recognize how special i am. It‘s so dumb. ? and many many other situations. it‘s this already narcissism or just normal ego stuff?

Nice answers you know that Simpsons episode where the Freemasons see the special birthmark on Homer and make him their leader? That’s how my ego feels it should be. Women, men seeing how special i am and just hand me everything over. There’s also a lot of shame though still so it’s confusing.

does god never rest? aren’t there expansions and contractions of the universe, times of nothing?

What happens if somebody with borderline personality disorder or manic depression etc. loses their ego?

What‘s the yoga pose?

It‘s the absolute appearing as lover, enemy, dog, frustration, friend, anger, sadness, fear, constriction …

i feel like my ego is suffering a lot because it wants that others see that i‘m suffering because of them, so that then they feel bad and give me what i want or that they then suffer because they did me „wrong“ but it‘s a horrible misguided strategy and has basically never worked aside from early childhood maybe.

The ego is exhausting and exhausted from all this fear, clinging, hoping, seeking, comparing, lack…

I‘m not really thinking about it seriously yet. I‘m always looking for ways to decrease anxiety and improve confidence though. Also less fatigue. Has any body successfully done for better mental health and more energy?

Wear what you like bro

I tested a few yrs ago. Not sure about the numbers but the doc said he expected testo to be lower. Maybe i should test again. Stress definitely is an issue but i think it‘s some kind of adrenal fatigue, overactive amygdala etc. Not sure how to heal that and i still have to function in the world.

I mostly stopped exercising because of chronic fatigue and post exercise malaise. Started doing some yoga recently though. i eat enough carbs sleep often isn‘t great. I‘m a light sleeper and often find it hard to go to sleep

Even though i have many present moments my ego seems extremely disfunctional, lots of anxieties about abandonment, fear that people don‘t like me, trust issues etc so i always get triggered so i do have to heal parts of my ego too otherwise it doesn‘t work and i just get triggered constantly

Which colours the perception of the individual? i felt like yesterday when i had fever/covid and took a thc gummy i could turn the filter on and off