PurpleTree

Even though i have many present moments my ego seems extremely disfunctional, lots of anxieties about abandonment, fear that people don‘t like me, trust issues etc so i always get triggered so i do have to heal parts of my ego too otherwise it doesn‘t work and i just get triggered constantly

Which colours the perception of the individual? i felt like yesterday when i had fever/covid and took a thc gummy i could turn the filter on and off

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Well thanks for your input. Inhave normal libido and don‘t cry often. Inwas listening to some psyched substance episodes and it seems it helped him the trt. He was even less anxious while tripping on acid. About the „get good sleep“ that‘s easy to tell somebody who‘s not a great sleeper like me ??

Just let her rant it‘s something like a mental disorder of course that‘s easier said than done

I think we all knew that. Even the bhagavad gita spoke about that thousands of years ago. thanks for your insights though

I also want to talk to some enlightos

Maybe try creatine (i‘m just writing that because i want to try it again for energy etc)

Maybe because the word doesn‘t make much sense anymore. Nobody gets enlightened

more like covid + gummy

Only 10mgs ( my first ever thc gummy). just lot’s of input. i’ve also been listening to a lot of nonduality talks, today for example these https://youtu.be/X6A5a_FZPak hope it’s no psychosis ?

What makes you think that?

I‘ve taken mdma quite often at parties like 10 yrs ago. but always mixed with alcohol and just to party and haven‘t take it since. best way to take it for healing etc. any ideas?

Only the old testament and some of the new. Like 15 years ago though

Yea it‘s in the bible right? also in the bible god sent bears to munch on children etc

I was listening to this podcast once and this guy said he went to a healer, she touched his heart ( just as a greeting not even in the healing session) and it dissolved a heavyness/blockage there. i often feel contractions around heart, plexus, belly even/especially when i’m very “conscious”

~All this is, is Magic~ ~time isn‘t real~ i think this was too much vitamin k ?

There’s no kingdom if there’s just one “thing”

Nah i get the same from nordic naturals.

~i’m looking at this beautiful tree in the sunset light outside of this cafe while drinking a cacao and listening to this song on headphones and it feels so connected and peaceful, trees usually do it for me, hence the name~

~there’s no need to become anything~ ~no need to change anything~ ~nothing to add, nothing to take away~

It seems like for some diseases hope of healing is good, like cancer etc But I for example had issues like: Anxiety, shame, sleep, add, overthinking, thought loops, inflammation, gut issues, chronic fatigue etc I always have hope that i find something that „heals“ me or makes it much better like: therapy, countless supplements, vitamins, medication, yoga, meditation, diets, probiotics, self help, affirmtions, hypnosis, parasites, enlightenment etc etc Some days/hours i‘m good/great but many times i just feel not good/off, feels like neurotransmitters are off or gut micro biome etc So for someone like me that hope for healing is very much of that „seeking“ energy, „when i get better then i finally do this this and that“ would be losing hope and stop seeking healing be „better“? thoughts?

Same i get brain fog and there are many people who have bad reaction to fish oil, you can find it on reddit

And you care about looks too much probably

If everything is already god then there is no highest nor lowest practice