PurpleTree

on and off and on

with Eckhart Tolle i sometimes wonder i'm not sure if i buy his "origin story" of his enlightenment maybe he just dropped a big bunch a psychs into his stomach

listening to it now i wonder if for example leo listens to these types of talks and what his thoughts are

i wonder if things continue this way if trillionaires will have their own armies and states in a few decades

i love brushing my teeth, feels like a mouth massage if i can't brush my teeth i feel disgusting

nah can't blame men for everything that's such an easy cop out

i do have friends and always had but because of a social anxiety and sensitivity i find it often hard to keep up then i had friends that lived in shared apartments (not with me) where i could just go and party sometimes when i felt good and social enough or whatever but now with covid etc. things didn't get easier and now it's new years and because i didn't plan anything nobody is around and many things are closed it's a bit lonely i often like to be alone but when i get the urge to see people and nobody is around or at home then it f'n sucks

true true but it seems like women love emotional rollercoasters downs and ups not just downs and further downs but maybe we need ask some women of the forum what they think about this

i could just pour different (legal) substances into me listen to some motivational music go to an escort catch omicron and call it a day/year

yea in some ways it might be congruent but i think in a way it would put too much pressure on the women like "love me now or i'm going to throw myself in front of that bus" also it's not playful at all maybe try more the route that leo explained

tried both, not good imo

that seems a bit too much

that makes sense also maybe part of it is to appeal to the natural care taking part of a woman

thanks same to you.

but do you talk about deep or sad stuff and look broken while doing it and are honest about it do you stare off in space like some kind of deep artist like some kind of wounded bird that needs to be rescued or do you try to act happy and cool nonetheless?

i've seen people on this forum talk about it never heard about it anywhere else

how is piracetam? i really want to try that but haven't got the opportunity yet modafinil is alright but f's with my sleep heavily even if i take it in the morning or mixing things like caffeine and l-theanine/taurine etc.

what are his predictions? he's yelling and ranting too much for me in these videos to watch them

no but soon you're going to dream that you're in the year 2022

yea i remember the guy seems like a lovely bloke, good luck

my mother had a bad reaction with the second shot not even sure which one she got

So i think a lot of my (and maybe some of yours too) social anxiety comes from wanting to be loved by everybody. I want everybody to love me, my looks, my thoughts etc. Which obviously is impossible. So then i try to micromanage peoples perception of me which is pointless and exhausting. a lot of this is subconscious. If instead of thinking i hope she/he/they love me, i could come to think i hope she/he hates me then i could be free at last because if they hate me already there's no need to micromanage anything and i can't change it any thoughts on this?

it certainly wasn't bullshit back in the day when it was needed

why not? apparently because it can

i have been on ssri's twice for anxiety each time about 6 months they had pros and cons pros: they made me less sensitive and less self conscious cons: slept even worse, found it harder to keep information both times i stopped taking them because i had some tests or exams and found it harder to keep information but maybe i'll try them again after i tried many other things