PurpleTree

In many places in europe too i think. In Latin america its often otc

I thought it was otc in the us

I‘m travelling since 2 months and will probably go for around another 3 months. Just wonder if some of you have interesting ideas or experiences.

Tomorrow i‘ll hike up an active volcano ?

Well i think he also sees all as “one“ so it‘s also directed at himself omg

Yea i don‘t really care to look them up even now. Also didn‘t bother to read the instructions just went with the flow. I don‘t really think i‘m very autistic although i certainly have some traits like social anxiety issues some add, and eye contact can be a bit much at times.

So what are you trying to say?

Well some people will always defend something a person says and follow „leaders“ ideas etc blindly, could be Trump, Catholicism, Islam etc. Just comes with the territory i guess.

Did you ever the feeling that you‘re „god“ though?

How is it a cult when people criticise leo here. Aren‘t cult followers following blindly? Anywho ?

I‘ve done 5 months no problem never wanted to be a vegetarian just see if it‘s easy, and it was easy.

Weed is the most boring drug ever imo

Yess i love veggies. Now travelling in latin america and miss many of the veggies and salads we usually eat in europe.

It has been like that for years and yrs. just came back from the club. 3 really cute girls showed interest in me even though i’m not tall or whatever, came next to me, danced, threw their hair in my face. But i’m just blocked to take advantage. Even one of their friends dragged her away but she came again. In the end another dude made out with her as almost always even though she liked me more the beginning i think. i know i’m an extreme overthinker extremefear of rejection and it’s too much about me me me and my feelings but still don’t know how to get out of that. i feel sorry for me because it could be so easy but also for the girls who are interested but the purptree is just blocked with silly shame.

23 didn‘t understand some of the words though

I am i meet a lot of intresting people while travelling actually. Usually i‘m scanning them and situations for proof that „they don‘t like me“ though. Which can be and is exhausting. Also in a way i‘m probably an introvert who wants to be the life of the party.

Also in a „spiritual“ context. And what are the best ways to get over it in your opinion? ? i‘m talking mostly about his type of jealousy „Jealousy is a complex emotion that involves a real or perceived threat to an interpersonal relationship. An individual may resent a third person for taking away or appearing to take away the affection of their loved one.“ https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-jealousy-5190471

I’m traveling right now and often in hostels so i‘m already talking to more women than i usually would. Still the huge fear of rejection, overthinking and also i never really make it sexual as fear of coming off as a creep. also some chronic fatigue so usually too tired to go out and when i do force myself to go out often don‘t have any energy/serotonin/dopamine left to „entertain“ a woman. Maybe i can try more with modafinil. i think we‘re stuck in this being nice thing because of early childhood mother issues or whatever. The fear of coming off as an asshole, creep, and being rejected. Alsonthebfear of what others think when they see me get rejected.

Tried it twice now. It‘s actually kind of fun. If i don‘t see benfits after like 20 times i‘ll ditch it

I thought my problem is more an inferiority complex, some ptsd and social anxieties and overthinking. If you think not owning my feminine side is the main culprit, what are some steps to own it? i do stand up for myself. I can also be very confrontational. It’s just a huge fear of rejection and showing interest in a woman fear of coming off as needy, and also similar as you low self esteem or lets call it very unstable. I actually haven’t really been rejected and also not brutally because i don’t even let them, hehe joke’s on them.

I should go out more for sure. Most often i’m too tired in the evening though. Sometimes going out is fun can also be a real bitch with some social anxiety. I don’t really think that though. I know i’m thinking too much and overthinking most things. Do you have specific meditation techniques which make you think less? this far o tried vypassana, mantra meditations. What helped the most was mdma and almost being blackout drunk (which obviously aren’t healthy) when i’m tipsy usually feel weird and often more anxious, when drunk i’m still overthinking. Almost blackout drunk is when my inner critic starts to shit up and i make out more with girls etc.

Well interesting. I think i’m quite in tune with my feminine though. Since i was raised by a single mother and never really had stable great male role models also was always kind of sensitive. I’m often less in tune with my strong male side and huge issues approaching, i’d rather be approached and courted like a cute shy girl ?☺️

Yeah if only she sees it then it would be ok-ish, still a bit embarrassing. But i usually wear loose boxers and wore shorts at that party two days ago, so then everybody could “potentially” see it and it would be really embarrassing. Hence i need tighter underpants. But yea i am kind of scared to show sexual intent or any intent for that matter because of the fear of rejection and coming of as needy. Would be nice if leo made an episode about neediness, how to be non needy etc.

No i just started it

Then there’s the loud “scary” club environment. Want to look cool infront of others. Or at least not like a weird uncalibrated antisocial loner or whatever. And especially not needy. Overthinking all these things. Also kind of add so it’s hard to not be distracted and focus on one thing or one woman. Then i often want the woman who i can’t have, which is probably just out of fear and blockage etc.