PurpleTree

sorry to hear that ? i also have some of these ocd thoughts sometimes. i think it‘s similar as with tourette syndrome, these people don‘t want to offend anyone but then they blurt the worst things out. it‘s similar to „don‘t think of a pink elephant“

Going from « friends » or hanging out to sexual, i find it so hard. And if a girl says something sexual to me out of the blue, i just kind od tense up and blush not really sure what to say (not trying to show it if course)

I don’t think coffee is bad maybe vaping would be better than cigarettes it’s whatever anyway if you think you shouldn’t do it and it’s killing you then it probably is with the placebo effect

Oh yea here the good stuff is 5 bucks but it looks like the universe wants me to be humble and not a cocky player, oh well guess i’ll accept it

Had a (my first) kundalini session yesterday. Can’t say too much about it yet though, it was pretty exhausting with the breathing and all.

Why do you have three accounts? well they put this topic into the special ed section thanks to some twigs so i can’t talk about consciousness and practices here anymore. I’ll try the « technique » for another week, if it still works then i’ll tell you in private

Congratulate me you twigs and rascals Sometimes i have these phases of being a lot more conscious, usually it fades after some time. i wonder if the stars aligned or if it was because of a practice. let’s hope it stays although let’s not get attached.

I’m in colombia at the moment

yess thanks for your ideas ? yea not always lately a girl that i just met a while ago just straight up told me she wants to have sex. I kind of tensed up and blushed. Even though thought it was so cool

Sure i mean those are justt stories but that’s how i got into spirituality. If i would have come from a stable-ish two parent household god knows if i ever got into it. Also if we can let go of the ego those stories fade and then at some point probably the constricting energies and triggers in the bodies also fade.

Growing up non-religious i never prayed. Is it worth doing? Is it something else than meditation? And who would i pray to?

The root? not really sure coming from a broken-ish home and being a sensitive kid also if i look at my parents they both have some mental issues as far as i can see do you know the root of yours?

No my ego still has a strong pull and theres (toxic) shame, anxiety, overthinking etc

I listened to it, don’t think i got much out of it. What was your favourite part about it?

Also happened to me once took it thrice third time cooked it with lemon instead of vinegar. after one hour of drininkg it still nothing really, usually only takes 20 mins. Then at some point i woke up laying on the floor, drooling. Feeling like some kind of reptile, snake animal. don’t think i got anything out of this strange trip really.

I was listening to a stream of this youtuber tiktok kid for the first time. Don’t know much about him just that he’s problematic very animated and starts beef with all these local rappers and calls them out. Similar to what Tekashi 69 was doing. Just self destructive, destructive in general, very animated but also a bit entertaining. Someone asked the kid why are you doing this? Why are you starting beef with all these rappers and even dangerous people like rockergangs. The tiktok kid said « because i am a man who loves death more than life » i found that interesting. It sounded a bit silly from this kid he has a lisp and all. Also he’s muslim so he probably comes from the frame of 13 virgins yadda yadda which imo is wrong and silly. But if you come from a frame of « oneness » this sentence could be interesting. It’s also silly, why would you love death more than life? I don’t even know what death is and if it’s real. But i am scared of many things (well my body is) mostly social things i sometimes like to think i’m not really scared of death, but when there are turbulences on a plane i tense up and feel the adrenaline. but if you go through life with this frame of « i love death more than life » or « i love death as much as life » then how could you really be scared of anything?

Wether you get cancer or win the lottery both seems equally perfect for god

~recently listening to some affirmations~ The voice, tempo and background music is important

Would you rather? Would you rather be good or free? Would you rather be cool or free? Would you rather be loved or free? Would you rather be beautiful or free? Would you rather be respected or free? Would you rather be right or free? Would you rather be the victim or be free? Would you rather cling to a story or be free?

Beans are really bad for my (sensitive) stomach

He used to take psychedelics and drugs. Infinite is a very old song from before he was famous though

I’ve had covid 3 times and i’m not worse than before i’ve had brain fog on and off before covid. I don’t want to jinx it though. All the best.

So you would never go to a doctor because you’re imagining doctors and the real world? this conversation is wht made me think of it

I thought prayer was more about a dialogue with or asking « god » for something like « dear god pls relieve little jimmy of his oxy addiction » « dear lovely god pls help me let go of the ego/these blockages » « dear god pls help the children in ukraine »

Nice it’s really hard to let that stuff go though, i’m trying everyday and still have tons of shame and « energetic constraints »